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Sheperd's Pie
When we arrived in Dublin, realizing that we were Ukrainian and that we didnāt have much money, Ryan, one of our neighbors who owns a restaurant, would bring us leftovers in the evening after work. Needless to say, with food he quickly won the hearts of our entire family! His help was invaluable to us and he has now become a family friend. What I liked best was when he brought us his Shepherdāsā¦
Banana Pie
It was the birthday of Babusya I made her her favorite dessert: a banana pie. Ingredients : a puff pastry (250 g) 6 bananas 2 limes 20 g of butter 100 g brown sugar 2 tablespoons of rum 60 g grated coconut (I didnāt put it because I donāt like it) 2 pinches of cinnamon powder Method : Cut the bananas in half lengthwise. Pour the sugar into an ovenproof pan and heat it withoutā¦
Our Christmas Menu
Iām going to sound clichĆ©, especially in this period when youāre overrun with crappy Christmas TV movies (I say that but love it) but itās been my favorite time of year since I was little. No itās not because of the freebies but I like the fact that everyone is more or less racking their brains trying to please their loved ones. This spirit touches me enormously and I try to keep it all yearā¦
Autumn lasagna withĀ mushrooms
A few days ago I had a private language class with my French teacherās sons. It was unexpected but not unpleasant! š Anyway, we get along well and I offered to make him dinner. Given that the evening is over, I think he liked my lasagna. š¤ 1) The bechamel : No matter the type of lasagna, the main one is bĆ©chamel. To make ours, I used: 50g butter 50g flour 1L of milk Melt the butter thenā¦
Path of Exile II: a game to watch
When my masochism does not make me play competitive games like Counter Strike, Valorant, League of Legends, Dota 2 or other competitive games where the score takes precedence over conviviality, I sometimes play solo or cooperative games. My favorite style of game is RPG in general, whether it is Computer RPG like Baldurās Gates or JRPG like Dragon Quest/Warrior, Persona. One of my favoriteā¦
Old Man's War
One of my friends is a big fan of science fiction at the cinema but not reading a lot, he didnāt really know where to start in a book to get started. One author but immediately came to mind: John Scalzi with the first volume of his saga Old Manās War. Yes I know we rarely recommend a whole saga especially since it takes place over 6 novels but Scalziās style is super fluid and his universe quiteā¦
Cooking with Babusya and me.
Today we are almost a month away from Christmas and Babusya, Symon and letās be honest, me too, were really craving something sweet to fight this cold. So we put a Christmas TV movie on TV and we baked to get those pretty Babkas that Babusya has the secret to. I hope you will like our familyās recipe! Ingredients: Babka dough 260g of flour t45 3g of salt 30g of muscovado sugar 12g of freshā¦
Christmas in Ukraine and A Christmas in Yana's Family
We are one month away from Christmas. The end of year celebrations will be here quickly. I thought it would be nice to describe to you how things are going in my family and explain how we do Christmas in Ukraine. Ukrainian Christmas, a mix of religion and paganism. We are Orthodox Christians. Although a little angry with my faith, I still tend to respect most of the rules and customs attachedā¦
Cooking with Sam and Yana: Japanese curry!
Today, I spent the day with my friend Sam shopping and we could not resist bentos, Japanese lunchbox. so we bought two and to batize them, we cook ourselves a curry. In fact itās Sam the kitchen ace, so sheās the one who cooks and I served her as a commis chef! š It was surprisely easy to cook and it was so good! I decided to share the recipe with you, with her permission. Japaneseā¦
I've had it up to here
Normally I donāt talk about the war in Ukraine because my heart bleeds every time. But this week Dnipro was hit by a missile that could have been nuclear. Yet on X, formerly Twitter, we find bastards from all over the world asking Ukraine to surrender. Iām fed up, Iām angry. This week we celebrated 1000 days of war in Ukraine and it has been 10 years since the invasion of Crimea. 10 years sinceā¦
Why and how X-Files became cult!
I know, itās a series thatās not new, but it was my grandfather who introduced me to it when I was about ten years old. It was my entry point into science fiction and horror. I spent every episode with my muzzle hidden in his sweater and a hand over my eyes. The series was in 4/3 but I had the impression of watching it in 16/9 since I was watching it through my fingers! Itās a series that leftā¦
Yana's cooking: "Nakladani Hermelin" (marinated cheese)
For today I propose you a Czech recipe, perfect for an aperitif or a starter. Hermelin is a cheese that is very similar to Camembert or French Brie. In our preparation we will marinate it in olive oil peppered with spices. Ingredients (1 jar): 250g of Hermelin Camembert or Brie, 200g of olive oil, 1 white or red onion, 3 cloves of garlic, 1 teaspoon of thyme or savory, 1 teaspoon of chiliā¦
Sports and me:
I have been playing sports since I was little. First gymnastics then rhythmic gymnastics and now, after everything I have been through (look at the last post), I do fitness among other thingsā¦ and also, I started doing this kind of things:
With more or less success as you can see. With a little editing it looks like this:
The girl who weighed 39kg has come a long way!
I am a hyperactive with the concentration capacity of a Labrador. In addition to taking my mind off things, sport allows me to channel myself and thus make myself bearable for ordinary mortals.
And then sometimes it also allows me to take pretty pictures.
PS: To all the people who would like to imitate me, be careful, this is an activity that is not without risk, injuries can be frequent and serious.
How I win against my addiction
This is a very difficult article for me to write because it requires me to lay myself bare, but I believe that it could be necessary to better understand myself and perhaps provide some clues to understanding how one can fall into addiction.
TW: addictions, sexual assault, anorexia, suicide
In the beginning:
We are from Eupatoria in Crimea (south of Ukraine), The war in Ukraine started in 2014 for us. We lost part of our family there: my mother, Valentyna, my big sister and 3 of my grandparents.
The rest of us (Babusya, my dad and my little brother and myself) moved to Kiev when the war broke out and after a year my dad managed to get a job in Lyon in France, we left Ukraine.
I had been doing rhythmic and sports gymnastics since I was little at a high level. Once in France, they found me a coach to continue my activity. Letās call him Svolota (itās not a very polite word in Ukrainian, Iāll let you find the meaning for yourself). He had been training me for a little over a year, 6 to 8 hours a week. One evening, after training, it was late and night had already fallen, Svolota offered to take me home.
But he didnāt take the right road and took me to the middle of nowhere. He locked the car doors and threw himself on meā¦ I was 13 years old.
It was after this event that my eating disorders began. Looking at myself in the mirror, I began to disgust myself. I found myself fat and ugly, I just wanted to disappear. So I wanted to end it all. I swallowed all of my motherās sleeping pills, like they do in the movies, but it didnāt work. Although unconscious, I threw up some of it (a natural reflex of the body when it ingests toxic substances in too great a quantity) and the rest was eliminated thanks to the stomach pump I had in the emergency room. It was when I woke up that I confessed what Svolota had done to me.
There was a trial but it ended in a dismissal due to insufficient evidence. I felt like I had no control over anything. I had even failed at committing suicide. I had to regain control, and that came with food.
I first reduced the amount I ate and the number of meals I had, but very quickly my dad started forcing me to eat. Thatās when I learned how to make myself throw up on the way to school.
The bad encounter.
I must have been barely 15 when a guy who called himself the āWaiterā started to take an interest in me. He was 27 and liked skinny girls. He was also one of the local drug dealers. He wasnāt even handsome, but one day he caught me crying and gave me some attention. I felt special. He offered me my first dose. I knew it was stupid to take it, but I was suffering from the images of my assault that I had constantly in my head and it was a way to escape from my unhappiness.
He made advances to me, uninhibited by the drug, and having the impression that I was really listened to I accepted. It was frankly crap but I continued several times to get my doses that I couldnāt afford otherwise of course, but also because doing it desacralized sex in my eyes which somehow made what Svolota had done to me less āseriousā, at least thatās what I hoped.
It was my little brother who discovered that I was flouring my nose. When my parents found out of course it was war at home and I ran away to end up at my favorite distributor.
The shock
There I continued to lose weight, cocaine is an excellent appetite suppressant. One day the police finally showed up to arrest my boyfriend. I was 17 years old, I wasĀ 1m70Ā tall and weighedĀ 39 kg, a body mass index ofĀ 13.5Ā instead ofĀ 18.5. I was hospitalized for severe malnutrition.
This photo was taken during covid, I was already gaining weight. I canāt stand to see myself as I was at the time so I threw away all the photos from that time. This must be the photo I still have where I am the skinniest. At my lowest, I looked like someone who had just left the concentration camps after the second world war.
It had been almost two years since I had seen my family and here we were going to meet again but thatās when I had the biggest shock of my life. Symon, my little brother with whom I have always been very close, did not recognize me when he entered the hospital room and as for the face of my dad when they saw meā¦ The hardest part was seeing the tears on Babusyaās face.
It was at that moment that something clicked in my head and when I looked in the mirror I finally saw myself as I had become, a real bag of bones.
We can get through it
It was that moment that gave me the will to get through it. There was the detoxification treatment which was long and painful. They say that you replace one addiction with another, that was one of my fears but it seems that this addiction has become sport.
For my eating disorders, it was in Ireland that I got rid of them. I underwent therapy in a specialized center in Dublin after my dad decided that France was definitely not working for me. Why Ireland? I donāt know. Maybe heās discovered a passion for the Dubliners.
Today I still consider myself a drug addict. I always will be. I havenāt taken anything for over a year but the fight against relapse will always be somewhere in me. Indeed, when you fall into an addiction, you are more likely to fall into another one, like alcohol for example. As for my anorexia, it is no longer there but has left after-effects. I no longer feel the sensation of hunger. It happens to people who are malnourished for a long time. So for each meal I have to have an alarm to remind me to eat. However, I have found pleasure in eating and cooking again. During my therapy I made friends who are still friends today.
Life goes on and it seems much better to me today, with my family and friends.
Hi guys!
Iām Yana, or Luna, like my Babusya (my Granny) call me, a 19 years old Ukrainian who lived in Dublin since the war.
I am a drug addict, a gym rat, a photography enthusiastā¦
Wait, wait, wait! What did you say?!?!?
Today I have been clean for a year (since three days Youhou!) but I was addicted to cocaine following events in my life that also gave me eating disorders that I am starting to overcome today. If I created this blog to show that we can get out of it.
Donāt see this blog as a healthcare blog but more as a mentally care one. I donāt have the knowledge to claim to talk about health but I can tell you about what makes me feel good.
I was a gymnast and I still spend a lot of time in the gym, I might talk about sports but I still have to find a way to approach that.
Even though I was anorexic, today I love food even if we have a special relationship between it and me. I will share recipes from all over the world, because I really like discovering new flavors.
I love photography. I am an amateur model from time to time but I am more comfortable behind the camera. If I find the courage I will post some of my photos
Finally, I love imaginary worlds and their creatures so I reserve the right to talk about films, series or books whether they are fantasy, science fiction or horror.