⋆˙⟡ ʟᴇꜱꜱᴏɴꜱ ɪɴ ɴᴏᴛ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴏᴋᴀʏ — ꜱ.ᴊʏ
─── in which you comfort your boyfriend, jake sim, after seeing him cry for the first time.
sim jaeyun x fem!reader ; wc: 0.8k.
you had never seen jake sim cry.
in all the years you had been his girlfriend, he had always been like a giant puppy. his energy was abounding, and he was always smiling and making others laugh. of course, he knew when to be serious, but you had never seen him sad. that's why, when he came home from work that day, you knew something was off.
“jake?” you called from the kitchen when you heard the familiar jingle of his keys hitting the table.
“hey, baby,” his voice came as he rounded the corner. you looked up at him, a sad smile on his face.
“what's wrong?” you asked, rushing over to him and wrapping him in an embrace.
“just some stuff at work.”
“like what?” you traced slow circles on his back. “you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but i’ll listen if you do.”
“thanks, love,” he said nestling his forehead against your hair. “i just… i’ve been working on a project for months now, putting everything i have into it, and today my boss told me that the client withdrew, so i have to scrap everything i've been working on."
“oh, jake,” you murmured, running a hand through his soft hair. “i’m so, so sorry. i know how hard you've been working on that.”
“it's fine,” he said, pulling back and looking down at you. he forced a smile on his face. “it’ll be fine. another project will come along, and that one will be a great opportunity—i just know it.”
“babe, it's okay to be upset,” you told him, cupping his face with your hand as you stared up into his eyes. “this is a huge disappointment—nobody would be upset with you if you allowed yourself to feel your emotions.”
jake faltered, his gaze dropping to the floor. “i know,” he said shakily. “i'm just trying to be optimistic.”
“i know baby, i know,” you whispered, still gazing at him. you noticed that his eyes had become glassy from the words and tender touch that conveyed your unconditional love.
“i’m sorry,” he breathed, pressing his eyes closed as the tears spilled over his lashes and onto his cheeks.
“jake, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for. you did nothing wrong.”
he attempted to hold his feelings back for as long as possible, but it didn't take long before the dam finally broke. jake’s breath hitched in his throat, and he grasped his chest with his hand as a strangled sound escaped his throat. he folded in on himself as his emotions overtook him, and you quickly placed a hand on his neck and pulled him into your shoulder.
“it's okay,” you murmured, your own eyes wet from seeing jake openly weep for the first time. “it's okay, baby. i’m here for you.”
his shoulders shook with each sob, and the broken sounds that left his mouth made your heart ache in a way you had never experienced. all you could do was be there for him as he finally allowed himself to break down from the disappointment of months of hard work being disregarded in a single afternoon.
“i d-don’t know why i-i’m crying,” jake sobbed. he buried his face deeper in your shoulder, squeezing you tightly as he continued to shake.
“because you're a human being, and you just experienced a massive disappointment,” you said, continuing to run your fingers up and down his back.
“i d-don't even know if it's th-that,” he whimpered. “i f-found out this morning and i was fine—i just can’t shake this f-feeling anymore. that's the scary part.”
suddenly, it made complete sense. you would never blame jake for being upset about something, but he was normally able to bounce back from every setback with a smile on his face. he had always forced himself to be fine, so you had never considered what would happen if he wasn't able to.
“you're allowed to have negative emotions,” you said, gently grabbing jake’s face and tilting it upwards so you could see him. his cheeks were splotchy, eyes swollen and rimmed with red.
“but i don't know how to not be okay.”
“you start like this,” you whispered, pressing a kiss to his forehead. “by admitting that you're not okay to someone who loves you and allowing them to be there for you.”
jake closed his eyes and nodded, still weeping softly as you used your thumbs to wipe the warm tears from his cheeks. “thank you.”
“of course,” you murmured, pulling him into another hug. “i love you so much, jake. i’m always here for you, rain or shine. nothing will ever make me leave you—i promise.”
at these words, jake squeezed you tightly and cried even harder.
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