cain

20 Bulimic

[sparklingspirals]

all the roads lead back to the loneliness ive felt ever since i was a child

[grlstlker]

putting my hands on your bulge for emotional support

[theidealgroupie]

sucking dick purely for the love of the game

[hungryvictor7]

"losing weight will not solve your problems"

well, i prefer being thin and miserable than fat and miserable

[ivyzluv]

The more you eat, the worse you’ll feel. Eating never fixed anything

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[daddystinygirll]

Imagine having emotions so intense that it physically disables you.

Now imagine on top of that; feeling shame, embarrassment and guilt for even having the emotions in the first place.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

I have nobody I can talk to. Nobody who actually gets it. Nobody who is self aware. Nobody who won’t judge me or betray what I say. It’s one of the most crushing parts of this. It’s not just being alone. It’s trying to talk and it landing flat. Feeling worse after. Starting to think there’s no point in reaching out at all.

[dietcocacolaqueen]

i hate that the first thing i notice of people is if they’re bigger or smaller then me

[bedrotter13]

Me @ myself:

“If you wanna be loved by someone, you need to lose weight. Or, you can love food. But it won’t love you back. “

Terrible way to be, but 🥲

[eg0mechan1c]

[life-of-love]

I wanna smell like cake, not look like I eat it

[r4r1tyy]

I want to be just like you...

[cozydiiary]

i want to hear:

“wow, you look different.”

“dang, you’ve lost a lot to w€ight.”

“you’re so sk!nny now.”

[bluerenaissance]

It genuinely shocks me how people are able to eat whatever they want without even thinking abt the amount of calories their taking in. Like how the hell are you doing that?

[wanttobeh3r]

Every pound I lose is like shedding a layer of everything I hate about myself.

[honeymoonzzz]

weight loss tip: just stop caring about food

ik it’s hard AF because all we do is think about food BUT if you trick your brain into believing you don’t care about it, it’s a lot easier to restrict since ur apetite goes away

how i do it:

- don’t plan my meals too much

- don’t think about what i’ll eat in the future

- all this is accomplished through gas lighting myself

- i pretty much just repeat to myself “i don’t really care” anytime i go to eat

- “not caring about something” means you don’t really want it, you don’t care if it’s there, you even prefer if it’s not because it’s just an annoying task

- the non planning thing makes choosing what i’ll eat overwhelming, so i just give up 💀

- i distract myself, i go do something else

- this works if you don’t care about health, macros and shit like that! you’ll probably not be getting a lot of nutrition, this is something a lot of junkorexics do

- this also works better if you have good knowledge about how many calories everything has, since ur not pre-planning

idk if any of this made sense but yea