אני יהודי

30, nb lesbian, they/them, no transmisogynists, despite URL I’m not Orthodox zazzle

[yekkes]

Why do people make so many baddie meme edits of Cartman from South Park

[cheaphalloweencostume]

“everyone is mad at me and they just won’t tell me” —> “no one has said anything about being mad at me and i haven’t done anything to warrant being mad at so if someone is silently fuming about me and not saying anything that’s their problem and actually quite weird of them and i can effortlessly move on with my life”

[cheaphalloweencostume]

this took SUCH a huge deal of unlearning because, like so many of you, i came out of a home where being quietly in trouble WAS the default state, and i DID grow up not just with the assumption but borderline religious conviction that Everyone Is Mad At Me, I Am Bad, I Must Exist In A Constant State of Attempting to Pacify The Natural Rage I Inspire In Everyone. and no it actually turns out that my family are the freaks . and yours are too

[cheaphalloweencostume]

“this isn’t true because i DEFINITELY silently fume at people in the hopes they’ll figure out what they did and apologize” that’s not good. you shouldn’t do that

“this isn’t true because the ex-friendship that traumatized me ended explosively after they were mad at me and never told me why” that’s not good. they shouldn’t be doing that

“i don’t think this is true because my current friend group is constantly icing me out until i figure out what ive done to upset them and properly apologized without being told” hey thats not good. they should not be doing that

if the peacefulness of your relationship with someone (familial, romantic, friendly, anything) can be destroyed by effective communication/asking them for effective communication, you have got to get out of there. if you can’t get out of there, you’ve got to throw away any ideas about what that person thinks of you because they have their own shit to figure out before they can accurately read anyone else

[gaysie]

don’t care + didn’t ask + blood of akasha in me

[ceruleanheaven]

i love being prevd its like getting a good grade in thoughts

[yekkes]

It feels like a crime I never knew about this when I was weaning off of benzos

[yekkes]

Armand's backstory is like "A Little Life" if instead of committing suicide he becomes evil

[yekkes]

Initial inositol thoughts: feels kind of like a chill pill that irritates my stomach a little

[yekkes]

Like I am transgender and I swear that I can just tell when my hormones are interfering with my happiness. Idk if any other non-binary people have kind of weird or varied experiences with hormones bc I know I don't want to take T to transition but if my E is high and my T is low I'm desperately unhappy.

[yekkes]

I went back down to .75 rather than 1mg w/ my estrogen patch. I'm convinced now that the higher estrogen is not going to help me sleep any better and I legitimately have never felt closer to dying than I have in the past few weeks. My head still feels extremely inflamed from sleep debt but I was able to sleep last night without drugging myself and I feel as though my thoughts are significantly more clear. I'm resolute now that I will never ever go back on birth control unless I have no other choice because too much estrogen makes me beyond miserable and a higher patch dose didn't even seem to help my PMOS. The only downside is the possibility of increasing joint pain. But I'll live with that if I have to. Maybe I'll look into supplements or something. I just I don't want to feel like I'm in a mental fog 24/7

[yekkes]

Good news in my world I guess is that thankfully my eyesight hasn't gotten any worse in the past year

[yekkes]

The inositol is arriving today I HOPE 😭

[yekkes]

Lord forgive me for my awful takes about kink like a decade ago I was coming from a place of pain and was being stupid as fuck about that

[yekkes]

Archie makes me emotional sometimes bc he reminds me of my childhood dog, Spike.

[yekkes]

Unironically the love of my life ❤️🦮

[yekkes]

I haven't seen the movie but Antonio Banderas was a bizarre casting choice for Armand

[yekkes]

Like in the books (from what I remember) Armand never hates Daniel at all. He's pretty much always completely obsessed with him (to Daniel's initial detriment)

[yekkes]

Ironically I feel like book Devil's Minion is both less toxic and more romantic than show Devil's Minion (you can read the chapter as a standalone)