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Armand's backstory is like "A Little Life" if instead of committing suicide he becomes evil

Initial inositol thoughts: feels kind of like a chill pill that irritates my stomach a little

#I can tell this is going to help me sleep #Ik it's lowering my blood sugar but it reminds me of the way spiro powers your blood pressure

Like I am transgender and I swear that I can just tell when my hormones are interfering with my happiness. Idk if any other non-binary people have kind of weird or varied experiences with hormones bc I know I don't want to take T to transition but if my E is high and my T is low I'm desperately unhappy.

#like I just naturally tend to have higher T #I have heard similar things from other butches

I went back down to .75 rather than 1mg w/ my estrogen patch. I'm convinced now that the higher estrogen is not going to help me sleep any better and I legitimately have never felt closer to dying than I have in the past few weeks. My head still feels extremely inflamed from sleep debt but I was able to sleep last night without drugging myself and I feel as though my thoughts are significantly more clear. I'm resolute now that I will never ever go back on birth control unless I have no other choice because too much estrogen makes me beyond miserable and a higher patch dose didn't even seem to help my PMOS. The only downside is the possibility of increasing joint pain. But I'll live with that if I have to. Maybe I'll look into supplements or something. I just I don't want to feel like I'm in a mental fog 24/7

#it feels like I'm locked out of my cognition and I KNOW it's hormonal bc I don't feel that on a lesser patch dose #or have never ending food noise #I already take collagen recc'd for joint health but idk maybe there are more things out there

Good news in my world I guess is that thankfully my eyesight hasn't gotten any worse in the past year

#I miss my not gay gay eye doctor tho 😔#he's gay in my heart

The inositol is arriving today I HOPE 😭

#I just want to sleep

Lord forgive me for my awful takes about kink like a decade ago I was coming from a place of pain and was being stupid as fuck about that

#I hate when those old posts get notes I can't edit them apparently so I just started deleting

Archie makes me emotional sometimes bc he reminds me of my childhood dog, Spike.

#unfortunately he is not mine but he does love me in a way that reminds me of my sweet baby boy ❤️🦮🪽#animal death

Unironically the love of my life ❤️🦮

#he put his entire weight on me for like 15 minutes just sprawled out entirely 😂❤️🦮🥺

I haven't seen the movie but Antonio Banderas was a bizarre casting choice for Armand

#was he good at least #while Assad is aged up he's significantly closer both physically and in vibes

Like in the books (from what I remember) Armand never hates Daniel at all. He's pretty much always completely obsessed with him (to Daniel's initial detriment)

#making him hate him a little bit makes it hotter tho and I enjoy the show tension #like as iconic as 'nothing more than a joke' line is book Armand would never say that lol #*hole why on earth was that autocorrected to joke #IWTV #TVL

Ironically I feel like book Devil's Minion is both less toxic and more romantic than show Devil's Minion (you can read the chapter as a standalone)

#but adding more conflict keeps Daniel in the plot longer. the thing is Daniel wasn't changed against his will in the book but the biggest #issue in their relationship was resentment over feeling like he didn't get to live a full human life #so now we have swapped one contention for another #iwtv #TVL

Well the thing is that I don't want a book purist vampire chronicles television show bc I like Louis and Daniel significantly more than Lestat and the people I see get disproportionately angry about this are usually racist or homophobic

#I will defend the dark themes in Lestat's backstory as necessary to his character while also just not really liking him very much

Radfems hate black Louis because he was a pimp instead of white Louis who was, uh...

#so they're essentially endorsing slavery over sex work. shocker

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the op linked the study in the replies & i’ve been skimming it & it’s actually rlly rlly interesting to think abt

https://e1.nmcdn.io/assets/pushkin/wp-content/uploads/imported-files/Wait-theres-torture-in-Zootopia_-Examining-the-prevalence-of-torture-in-popular-movies.pdf

I'm really not liking how ED adjacent a lot of ppl online talk about PMOS diets lol like I get the general sentiments of them but there's this big moralization of food going on and it's making me feel bad

#I like Doritos sorry

Think I fumbled an opportunity oops

#oh well #thank you autism

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