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30, nb lesbian, they/them, no transmisogynists, despite URL I’m not Orthodox zazzle

[yekkes]

It feels like a crime I never knew about this when I was weaning off of benzos

[yekkes]

Armand's backstory is like "A Little Life" if instead of committing suicide he becomes evil

[yekkes]

Initial inositol thoughts: feels kind of like a chill pill that irritates my stomach a little

[yekkes]

Like I am transgender and I swear that I can just tell when my hormones are interfering with my happiness. Idk if any other non-binary people have kind of weird or varied experiences with hormones bc I know I don't want to take T to transition but if my E is high and my T is low I'm desperately unhappy.

[yekkes]

I went back down to .75 rather than 1mg w/ my estrogen patch. I'm convinced now that the higher estrogen is not going to help me sleep any better and I legitimately have never felt closer to dying than I have in the past few weeks. My head still feels extremely inflamed from sleep debt but I was able to sleep last night without drugging myself and I feel as though my thoughts are significantly more clear. I'm resolute now that I will never ever go back on birth control unless I have no other choice because too much estrogen makes me beyond miserable and a higher patch dose didn't even seem to help my PMOS. The only downside is the possibility of increasing joint pain. But I'll live with that if I have to. Maybe I'll look into supplements or something. I just I don't want to feel like I'm in a mental fog 24/7

[yekkes]

Good news in my world I guess is that thankfully my eyesight hasn't gotten any worse in the past year

[yekkes]

The inositol is arriving today I HOPE 😭

[yekkes]

Lord forgive me for my awful takes about kink like a decade ago I was coming from a place of pain and was being stupid as fuck about that

[yekkes]

Archie makes me emotional sometimes bc he reminds me of my childhood dog, Spike.

[yekkes]

Unironically the love of my life ❤️🦮

[yekkes]

I haven't seen the movie but Antonio Banderas was a bizarre casting choice for Armand

[yekkes]

Like in the books (from what I remember) Armand never hates Daniel at all. He's pretty much always completely obsessed with him (to Daniel's initial detriment)

[yekkes]

Ironically I feel like book Devil's Minion is both less toxic and more romantic than show Devil's Minion (you can read the chapter as a standalone)

[yekkes]

Well the thing is that I don't want a book purist vampire chronicles television show bc I like Louis and Daniel significantly more than Lestat and the people I see get disproportionately angry about this are usually racist or homophobic

[yekkes]

Radfems hate black Louis because he was a pimp instead of white Louis who was, uh...

[danielkahndyke]

the op linked the study in the replies & i’ve been skimming it & it’s actually rlly rlly interesting to think abt

https://e1.nmcdn.io/assets/pushkin/wp-content/uploads/imported-files/Wait-theres-torture-in-Zootopia_-Examining-the-prevalence-of-torture-in-popular-movies.pdf

[yekkes]

I'm really not liking how ED adjacent a lot of ppl online talk about PMOS diets lol like I get the general sentiments of them but there's this big moralization of food going on and it's making me feel bad