a juxtaposition between vie & fantaisie

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[mournfulroses]

Jeanette Winterson, from "One Aladdin Two Lamps," originally published in November 2025

[babbyygirrrl]

working on myself because it wasn't my fault but it is my responsibility to get better and take care of me now.

[elliot-amy]

Gabrielle's body braces from Crash (1996)

[iforgive]

[mumintroll]

u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw

[homunculus-argument]

Remembered the phrase "[someone] is turning in his grave", as a way of saying that someone who's now dead would so deeply disapprove of something that a living person is doing that their corpse would stir in unease.

Then I remembered an expression, "even a worm will turn", as a way of saying that no matter how downtrodden or lowly someone seems, they can nonetheless turn against their abusers and oppressors once they've had enough of it.

Then cross-contamination happened and the phrase "a worm is turning in his grave" emerged to me. I have no idea what that means.

[pyrrhiccomedy]

My wife and I have a little game we play called "Speaking From Ignorance."

To play Speaking From Ignorance, all you need is a phone with a voice recorder, and another person who knows considerably more or considerably less about a topic than you do. The topic can be anything: from "how to bake a quiche" to "what happens in the Peter Jackson Hobbit movies" to "who is Florence Pugh" to "how does the traveling salesman problem work." All that matters is that one of you has a firm grasp on the material, and one of you absolutely the fuck does not.

Then the person who knows about the topic turns on the recorder, and says to the person who knows barely anything: "Hey - tell me everything you think you know about [X]."

The speaker is then not allowed to ask any questions. Nor is the expert allowed to volunteer any information. The expert is allowed to pipe up with a faintly incredulous "Oh--really? Do you--do you think so?" from time to time, but for the most part, the expert's job is just to sit there and make encouraging sounds while the speaker digs their own grave.

This is never not funny.

The reason you record it is because, very often, the first thing the speaker wants to do after finishing the recording is find out how you actually make a quiche, or whatever. Then you both get to go back and listen to how wrong they were.

We have a small library now of Speaking From Ignorance recordings, and I'm going to be listening to them until I'm eighty.

[metamorphesque]

unfolding into another spring

mahmood darwish, sylvia plath, v.e. schwab, ana mendieta

[jager-bruder]

[cozyvu]

Audition (1999) dir. by Takashi Milke

[erzvolnes]

certain kind of tragedy i think in still following your childhood best friends online. like once upon a time you knew me better than anyone. i thought we would be friends forever. now we are Adults and Different and even despite that I so badly wish we could still Talk like we were 13. i dont know who you are. I miss you.

[weltenwellen]

Maya C. Popa, from “Spring”, Wound Is the Origin of Wonder

[cocainejuul]

After my suicide attempt, completely deleting my digital footprint, and destroying my phone in 2018, I had a flip phone for 8 months. It was perfect and I’m really not just saying that. Why I got a smartphone again? I had a really hard time getting around without gps. Knowing how to navigate a map is a lost art. I tried! I really did

[godsbestvictim]

[riottttttttttt]

When David Lynch fell in love with lithography in Paris

[peterdepotterindex]

Peter De Potter, A Spartan for a Single Bed, erotic zine, issue 3, published november 2024, limited edition

www.peterdepotterindex.com

[bakwaaas]

I do feel like this whole self improvement culture thing can go too far where people are never happy with who they are and where they are because they’re constantly trying to be better or do better and they’re always waiting for some sort of glow up or achievement or therapy realisation that will make them feel complete but that isn’t real and life is actually in the every day