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About Me

hey y’all! I figured it was time to finally make an intro post since I’ll be on here more often.

basic info:

nonbinary butch lesbian

they/them

late-20s

white

taurus ♉️

you may know me from twitter (VanistheOGlhb) where I can usually be found suffering from taivan brainrot, yelling into the void about how much I love Van Palmer, talking how much I love fictional butch lesbians, and going absolutely feral over any crumb of butch4butch in media. or, you may have read one of my taivan fics on ao3 (Van_Palmer_is_the_OG_lhb).

I’m mainly here for yellowjackets, taivan, and van palmer, but I’ll occasionally blog about other ships, characters, fandoms, and interests as well.

like:

all things liv hewson

aloto (jesslupe)

bly manor (damie)

butch4butch media (blue jean, etc.)

lesbian cinema

boygenius

hozier

all things butch

(I included more fandoms and interests in the “read more” section at the end of the post)

yellowjackets info:

faves: van, taissa, lottie, & nat

fave episodes: S1E7, S2E1, S1E9, S2E8, S2E5

main ship: taivan

side ships: parkinglot, lottai, parkinglottai, lottienat, mistynat, shaunanat

rare pairs: tainat, vannat

I’m a taivan endgame shipper

I personally believe taissa, van, and lottie will all survive through the series finale

I headcanon van as nonbinary (if you don’t hc it, that’s cool, but please be respectful of my and other people’s right to hc & write it)

I’m very protective of both van & taissa

I’m very protective of van’s canon butch identity

I joined the fandom on twitter in august 2022

fictional characters I relate to a bit too much:

Van Palmer (this one should be obvious)

Finley (tlw: genq)

Jo March (forever a nonbinary lesbian in my heart)

Kat Stratford (10 things I hate about you)

links:

ao3

twitter

instagram

letterboxd

serializd

more fandoms & interests

thetallfemme

invented lesbianism

#they were insane for this #taivan

taivan: still the one (boygenius cover version)

#they're not allowed to take tai's van away from her actually #she's literally the love of her life #taivan #taivanedit #yjedit #taissa turner #van palmer #taissa x van #van x taissa

van never giving up hope they’d be rescued after everything 🤝🏻 van never moving on after taissa because she believed she’d come back until the bitter end

and she was right both times…

#van is the hope in the narrative #she’s the hope even when it doesn’t make sense #the blind belief that things can still get better despite everything #and that makes me even more terrified for her…#van palmer #van yellowjackets

novelconcepts

God, what a particular brand of horror story Taissa and Van are trapped in. Taissa being buried beneath her “better instincts”, possibly being walled up at the back of her own mind as her alter ego runs the show. Van finding the love of her life again, only to realize it maybe hasn’t really been her—not the way she thought—at all. Taissa only being awake when she’s asleep. Van only getting this woman she loves at a terrible cost. It’s awful. It’s delicious. It makes a horrible sense. Taissa and Van, who could have had this love story—if there’d been time. If they could have been patient. But Van showed up terminal, and there isn’t time for divorce proceedings and slowly warming back up to one another, so…Other Tai grabbed the wheel, stepped on the gas, and made the call. A horror story in the name of love. How epic. How horrendous. I love this show so much.

#GOD #yellowjackets #taivan

taiturner

YELLOWJACKETS, 3x07 "Croak"

#the but we don’t need any of it hurt so much 😭#van who can’t give up hope even when she knows deep down it’s hopeless already palmer #van who never gave up hope for rescue #van who never moved on because deep down she still had hope that the love of her life would come back

novelconcepts

Also please let’s discuss the Other Tai of it all, because this is important to me. She isn’t evil. It’s incredibly important to understand she isn’t evil. She’s hungry. She’s hungry for all the things that kept Taissa alive in the woods. She IS the thing that kept Taissa alive in the woods, in her own way. She was the very essence of nature. She was dirt and trees and need. What kept Tai alive out there? Food. Meat. Van. What does Other Tai naturally gravitate toward, trying to steer Taissa toward the things she needs? Food. Meat. Van. That political career? Theater. That family polished to a shine? Facade. What really matters, when everything else is shorn away? Food. Meat. Van. Base impulse. First loves and full bellies. She isn’t evil. She’s trying to keep Tai fed and alive, as she always has. It just comes at such a terrible cost.

novelconcepts

God, the little-kid panic-excitement of Van going “I’m gonna call my mom!” This woman we KNOW isn’t a present or really functional parent, but Van’s impulse is still to reach for her. Van, who has nearly died so many times, who is faced with a piece of tech that is designed to save her life. Who finds it broken. Who finds it just out of reach. You can keep going, but we’re gonna keep pulling that football before you can kick it. You must keep going, but the flames will just keep licking your heels. Of course she grows up fixing old tech. Of course she does. Of course she still dreams of flames. Of course she does.

#van palmer

“I will live that way for you” femme

x

“I’ll never be scared of you” butch

#taivan #van palmer #taissa turner #taissa x van #van x taissa

taiturner

"Tai’s pride and need to be right and need to win and need to lead and have power means that she has to stick to her side, even if in that moment she believes him. She can’t say ‘Okay, I’m wrong, let’s save this man,’ because she can't admit that she's wrong. How that relates to Van, it’s conflicting because it’s like, ‘Wow, this person really loves me and is gonna have my back to the point that I’m pretty sure that she just went against her own self. Like, that’s really intense, and I'm a bit disappointed and a bit judging, but also like, grateful.’ It’s complicated." — Jasmin Savoy Brown

#taissa turner

novelconcepts

Not much to say except that the Taivan tree scene in today’s episode was by far the hottest thing that’s ever happened, and I salute Yellowjackets every time they go hard on the homo stuff.

#I’m still in shock that Van isn’t a bottom afterall lol

taiturner

What the fuck are you guys doing? You cannot possibly want to do this. You can't even look at me. It's me. It's Coach Scott. Fuck, you know me. Look where we are. None of this is who we are, okay? Listen to me, this is not who you are. This is not who you are.

YELLOWJACKETS, 3x05 "Did Tai Do That?"

#GOD #the amount of analysis that could be done on this one scene #taissa turner

do you ever think about how van probably already had abandonment issues before the crash because of her home life and then her teammates left her to die…

but at least there was still always tai who would never leave her…

until she did post-rescue when van had no one

like, I understand that taissa had her reasons for leaving van (or at least convinced herself she did) but I just can’t imagine how painful losing her was for van when she was the one person van trusted to never abandon her

#my poor blorbo #van palmer #I really don’t think she ever opened up again after taissa

nataliescatorccioapologist

Can we all take a moment to appreciate the masterpiece that was the entire trial scene. It’s a perfect example of the show’s signature blend of absurdity and horror. The trial setup itself is ridiculous: they play dress-up in makeshift robes and sashes, throwing around legal jargon they barely understand—“objection,” “sustained,” “overruled”—as if reenacting a courtroom drama they’ve seen on TV. They have a very biased judge, they bicker throughout the trial like the high school soccer team that they once were, it’s hilarious.

But then the more serious moments hit— Shauna talking about how he left her bleeding and in pain during her labor, Natalie’s leadership hanging by a thread, Coach Ben himself taking the stand, the power plays and manipulation of the final verdict— and we’re reminded of the horrifyingly high stakes of this trial. Behind the absurdity of it all, this is a group of unstable teenagers deciding whether a man lives or dies.

In the end, they are children forced to act as rulers, jurors, and executioners, pretending to understand the weight of their choices until the consequences make it impossible to keep pretending.

homosexualslug

akilah being a younger sister. travis being an older brother. akilah fully trusting him to protect her from lottie. travis needing to protect her because he couldn't save javi from the other girls and was once a victim of lottie's himself. akilah only voting against ben once travis did. lottie making travis use drugs to dissociate from the grief of losing javi, while akilah tries to ground him and give him a goat that he can hold onto and protect instead. akilah being the only one besides nat who wanted to try to save javi. it got to me okay.

#yeahhhhhh #I’m honestly shocked that I’ve actually grown to like Travis as a character #and a lot of that is his dynamic with Akilah this season #I’m also really glad Akilah has more scenes this season