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now is now

[perfectfeelings]

“You must learn to let go. Release the stress. You were never in control anyway.”

— Steve Maraboli

[ashstfu]

and in the next fifty years, you will ache and you will glow. you will fall in love with people who don’t stay and still carry their names like pressed flowers in the folds of your memory. you will eat meals alone and meals with people who make you laugh so hard you forget the sting of silence. there will be mornings you can’t get out of bed and nights where you walk home humming under a sky so wide it forgives you. you’ll cry in public and smile at strangers and sometimes it’ll be the same thing. you’ll hear a song that reminds you of someone you promised you’d never forget and you’ll realize you already have, a little. you’ll outgrow versions of yourself you once thought permanent and mourn them like old friends and still you will keep going. you’ll see sunsets that make your chest tighten. you’ll be held when you least expect it. you’ll feel the cold on your face and remember what it means to be alive. and it won’t always be gentle but it will be yours.

[yenaux]

“you’re all colors in one at full brightness.”

never gonna recover from them

[yenaux]

I was here.

[yenaux]

“you’re all colors in one at full brightness.”

never gonna recover from them

[paper-wounds]

[vampurrss]

this..

[yenaux]

"You’re always afraid to take the first step because all you see is every negative thing ten miles down the road. But you could do anything you want. You are bound by nothing."

forever etched in my mind :’)

[yenaux]

sometimes you have to take a leap of faith first, the truth part comes later.

[yenaux]

taking it one day at a time…

[yenaux]

[elizabethsinclair]

- 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚣𝚊𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑 𝚜.

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, “My Mother Says Kissing a Man Without a Mustache Is Like Eating Eggs Without Salt”, Instructions for Traveling West

[becherdireinen]

trust that everything will fall into place without you forcing it there.

[fragile-things-archive]

the intimacy of sleeping together, but not in a sexual way. the intimacy of feeling the warmth of their body in a cool room. their hands hugging you tightly. the intimacy of synchronized breathing. sleepy half-kisses. feeling safe. feeling warm. waking up and realizing how much you love them. how precious this is. finding the happiness on the tip of your fingers, brushing their hair. closing your eyes again. pulling closer. falling asleep.

[glowettee]

Hey girl, I'm happy with a man he is legit the loml but I keep having relationship anxiety and self sabtoging I kept fearing he is going to leave me any tips to overcome this it's driving me insane thanks

love isn’t supposed to feel like a test

hi sweetheart, it's mindy. i know what it feels like to overthink love. to go from “this is perfect” to “what if it all disappears?” in a single heartbeat. relationship anxiety makes you feel like you have to earn love over and over again like one wrong move will make it all fall apart. but real love? the kind that’s healthy, safe, and meant for you? it doesn’t ask you to walk on eggshells. it doesn’t test you. it lets you breathe.

so let’s talk about this. how to stop sabotaging something good. how to trust love without feeling like it’s slipping through your fingers. because you deserve a love that feels soft, not like a battle in your mind. - mindy

✧˖° ➼ how to stop self-sabotaging in a healthy relationship

first of all, breathe. you’re not crazy, and you’re not broken for feeling this way. relationship anxiety isn’t about whether your relationship is “good enough” or whether you “love him enough” it’s about your mind struggling to trust stability.

if you’ve been hurt before, if love has felt unsafe, temporary, or uncertain in the past. your brain might be on high alert, waiting for the moment everything falls apart. but here’s the truth:

➼ love isn’t something you have to earn. it’s something you allow yourself to receive. ➼ fear doesn’t protect you from pain. it only steals your ability to enjoy the good moments. ➼ if he’s the loml, treat him like it. don’t let anxiety make you act like he’s your enemy.

✧˖° ➼ step 1: identify your fear loops

(if you can predict your anxiety, you can control it.)

relationship anxiety usually follows patterns. same thoughts, same triggers, same reactions. and if you can spot it before it spirals, you can stop it from controlling you.

✧ what are your intrusive thoughts? “he’s going to leave,” “he secretly hates me,” “i’m not good enough for him.” ✧ what triggers them? does it happen when he takes longer to reply? when you feel extra emotional? ✧ how do you react? do you pull away? over-apologize? test him to “prove” he loves you?

📌 homework: start keeping a relationship anxiety log. whenever you feel yourself spiraling, write down: → what triggered it → what you’re scared of → what actually happened after

this helps your brain realize that most of your fears never actually come true.

✧˖° ➼ step 2: separate anxiety from reality

(feelings aren’t always facts.)

anxiety lies. it makes worst-case scenarios feel like future certainties. so when you start spiraling, try this:

➼ pause. don’t react immediately. give yourself space. ➼ fact-check. what proof do you actually have that he’s leaving? ➼ reframe. instead of “he’s pulling away,” try “he’s probably tired” or “he’s just busy.”

💡 mantra: just because i feel anxious doesn’t mean something is wrong.

✧˖° ➼ step 3: stop testing his love

(love isn’t proven through survival. it’s shown through consistency.)

self-sabotage happens when anxiety tricks you into pushing him away to see if he comes back. things like: ✧ ignoring him to see if he notices ✧ picking fights just to see if he stays ✧ constantly asking if he still loves you

this might feel like “protection,” but it actually creates the instability you fear. instead of making him “prove” his love, try trusting what he’s already shown you.

💬 ask yourself: if i fully believed he loved me, how would i act? → then, act like that version of yourself.

✧˖° ➼ step 4: build emotional safety within yourself

(confidence in love starts with self-trust.)

if you don’t feel safe within yourself, no amount of reassurance from him will ever feel like enough. the goal isn’t to make him “prove” he won’t leave. it’s to make your own security unshakable.

try this: ➼ inner child check-in. if younger you believed love was unstable, remind her: “this is different. we are safe.” ➼ affirmations for security. “i am worthy of love, even when i’m anxious.” “i can trust love without controlling it.” ➼ hold yourself accountable. when you feel yourself spiraling, pause. don’t act on impulse. choose a response that aligns with the calm, secure version of you.

your relationship can’t be healthier than your self-trust. make it strong.

✧˖° ➼ step 5: communicate without fear

instead of bottling up your fears or acting out of anxiety, talk to him. not in a “please fix me” way, but in an “i want to grow with you” way.

how to express anxiety without pushing him away:➼ use “i” statements → instead of “you never text me,” try “i feel anxious when i don’t hear from you.” ➼ own your feelings, but don’t assume his intentions. tell him what you feel, not what he is doing wrong. ➼ ask for support, not solutions. let him know when you need comfort instead of logic.

💡 reminder: someone who loves you won’t get annoyed by your emotions. they’ll want to understand them.

✧˖° ➼ step 6: shift your focus back to you

if your whole emotional world revolves around him, anxiety will always feel like a threat. instead, build a life so full that your happiness isn’t dependent on his every text or action. this is important.

ways to ground yourself in your own life:➼ create rituals that are yours. a morning routine, hobbies, self-care habits that don’t revolve around him. ➼ spend time with other people. make sure your entire social life isn’t just him.➼ set personal goals. give yourself something to focus on outside the relationship.

📌 homework: make a list of 10 things that bring you joy that have nothing to do with him. then, do more of those.

✧˖° ➼ final thoughts:

(you deserve a love that feels like home, not a war zone.)

your anxiety isn’t trying to ruin your relationship. it’s trying to protect you from pain. but love isn’t supposed to be fear management. it’s supposed to be a space where you can feel safe, soft, and loved.

i hope this helped you, i don't usually make posts about relationships, but i'm so happy to start now. if you need any other tips from me please ask me!! <3 i also love researching about this topic <33

xoxo mindy

[yenaux]

learning…

[eagans]

it comes and goes in waves

[coffeeacademia]

being alive is like,, being so full of love and so full of loss at the same time. a lot to carry around either way.

[paper-wounds]