Nankurunaisa

💌 日本の恋人 patrícia.🫀

[blackeneddeatheye]

[blackeneddeatheye]

[yiska-h]

Funny how in life everything can change at any moment. Suddenly, we can end up back in the same place we left and swore we’d never return to, and this isn’t about physical places. Life has these mysterious twists: we can deeply desire something and just as quickly reject it. We can love something, then grow tired of it.

But I believe everything has a purpose, and I also believe that every choice carries both a consequence and a blessing. We don’t make choices for no reason; I believe it was already written that we would choose a certain path. The twists and turns of life are sometimes necessary to bring us back exactly to where we’re meant to be.

I want to keep believing and trusting in the destiny that awaits me, even though lately I’ve been feeling anxious and not knowing what the hell I’m doing with my life…

[blackeneddeatheye]

[yiska-h]

Batman: The Animated Series (1992-1995)

[yiska-h]

I often catch myself trying to learn the art of feeling: of simply allowing myself to feel. To feel anguish, to feel joy, to feel anxiety, to feel nostalgia, to feel peace… to let my body absorb the energy of each emotion, and then let it pass. Not holding on to it, but accepting it, observing it, and allowing it to go.

It’s not easy, but with every step I keep trying and little by little, I’m getting there. My life has never been easy, and strangely, that’s what makes things easier now. It sounds contradictory, I know, but let me explain: life’s hardships made me wise and resilient. They taught me when to react, and how to handle problems with maturity and insight. When life gives you tough challenges, one day you become unbreakable. Believe that.

[blackeneddeatheye]

[blackeneddeatheye]

[yiska-h]

[yiska-h]

Don’t think you have everything figured out, you don’t.

Life is so complex, and everything can change at any moment. That goal you once had in mind can suddenly turn into something completely different, demanded by life itself, because something happens in the opposite way it should and forces us to change the ship’s course. But with faith and resilience, you won’t lose your way. Everything happens for a reason, even when everything seems tangled and confusing. The secret is to trust our intuition and keep moving forward. I’ll try to stay positive and always fight so this isn’t a misstep. With focus and persistence, I’ll get there.

You will too.

[yiska-h]

I’ve been amazed by how the Universe never fails to surprise me and teach me life’s most important lessons.

Lately, things haven’t been easy, and when everything fell apart, I was angry, thinking, “Why now? Why me? Why this? Like this?” At the time, all I could see was injustice and anguish, but later, everything became clear.

Some events come to teach us, to show us what truly matters in life, to remind us that what we have is more than enough, to strip away our greed and sense of emptiness, and to reveal that life holds far more meaning than material comfort or possessions ever could.

[yiska-h]

How do you manage feelings? How do you live clearly and peacefully without always expecting the best or the worst?

I just wish I could get along with “nothing.” The feeling of “nothing” is liberating, because there’s no happiness without sadness, and no sadness without happiness. So I don’t want to be happy or sad, I want to reach nothing.

I’ve been achieving my little goals, but I still feel like I need to do more and do better, and that’s been leaving me completely drained. I want to be able to have the inner peace I’ve been searching for, even when the world outside tries to disturb it.

[yiska-h]

a surrendered upper moon

[yiska-h]

I get home late from work, but with a full heart and a feeling of accomplishment.

It’s funny how there are moments in life when everything seems to fall perfectly into place, and this is one of them. Coming home after a long day, taking care of yourself, the smell of food you’ve quickly cooked, your quiet moment to reflect and unwind… everything feels so simple, doesn’t it? But this is exactly where you’re meant to be, and you know it.

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Does everything have to be an endless battle? Why do I feel like a cheetah endlessly running through the jungle? My anxiety doesn’t give me a break, especially when I need it the most.

Okay, I finally got what I was fighting for. But why am I still struggling? If the war is over, why do I feel like something else is coming?

I just want to feel at peace. I want to make peace with myself.

[yiska-h]

The afternoon was bathed in sunlight and warmth. From the kitchen came the comforting scent of dinner being made, that unmistakable smell of home that stirs the hunger of both body and soul.

Golden rays brushed through my hair as soft music played, and I drifted into quiet thoughts about life.

Why do moments so simple feel so rare?

And what is this gentle peace, so fleeting and pure?

Afternoons like this are few

Don’t let worry steal them away.

[yiska-h]

I came here so many times just to vent and let it all out, but I promised I’d come back to say thank you if things got better.

So… thank you.

Nothing lasts forever, not even pain. Patience isn’t easy, and mine was pushed to the limit. But somehow, I made it through.

Sometimes it feels like nothing’s changing, like everything’s stuck. But it’s not true. Even in the middle of chaos, things are shifting, we just don’t always see it.

Now, things I never thought would happen are actually happening, and I’m beyond grateful to God for that.

I never let go of my faith, even when everything felt lost.

There are still challenges ahead, I’m sure, but going through all of this made me stronger and more ready for whatever comes next.

And now I get it, everything that happens to us happens for a reason. It’s preparing us for what’s coming, and only God really knows how to guide us through it.

If you’re feeling lost and you’re reading this, hang in there. It gets better, I promise. What you’re hoping for is closer than you think.