Turps
I don’t know why I’m writing this, I’m just very upset at this moment and incredibly hurt.
I am so sick of seeing people condemning Turps’ actions and Ive sat for around two weeks now biting my tongue and trying to acknowledge that he has been dealt with appropriately. But I can’t sit back and just see people talking all this horrible shit on reddit. So i just wanted to say a few words and answer a few questions.
‘If it happened over 18, why can’t you just block him? It’s just flirting if over 18.’
And to that I say!!! I was 17 when he was asking me for nudes, and 16 when he originally started talking to me. He was friendly to me at insomnias and was really friendly and acted like he cared about me. I have been watching the yogscast since i was 9 years old, and one of my idols talking to me was amazing. I felt so special and I was so naive because i was only a child who looked up to him. And he knew this. He even was messaging me after I was at a terrorist attack, and used to message me to see if I was okay and still talk to me, and made me think that he cared about me, which made this incredibly difficult to come out with, because his true intentions weren’t just someone who was supporting a survivor of a terror attack, but a sexual abuser.
Turps after he found out my age begged me not to tell anyone, and was scared he would get arrested. But I never hid my age from him, I spoke about how I had just done my gsces, left school and was going to college. Many times also, on twitter, snapchat and in person. This wasn’t me trying to flirt with him and acting older than I was, because literally the conversations started with us sending memes to each other. So I don’t know if he really knew my age. But it’s pretty idiotic to not know when I told him so so many times, and you would think considering most of his fanbase is teenagers he would be wiser and maybe ask. (which he started to do after speaking to me lol) (however this also contradicts because he was also messaging another 17 year old and knew her age).
Im sick of people acting as though he was just flirting with us when it was clear abuse of power and people need to be aware of this. He had a pregnant wife and a little girl at home when he was asking me for nudes and it made me sick. It was so scary to come forward with this because he made me feel like he cared about me, and gave me support when I needed it the most, but these actions really shouldn’t be ignored.
This is in no way a bash at the rest of the yogscast, they have been amazing throughout this and I really respect Lewis for all the help he gave me and the other girls. Including sending us emails after all of this to let us know that he hopes we can finally feel closure and that he was sorry. I want nothing but the best for the yogscast and I am happy they can rid their business of people like this. It protects their community and shows the type of people they really are.
please feel free to message me with questions or anything. my twitter is dayshelx
i might delete this, who knows man
