I spent 4 months with these people, 3 times a week, 2.5 hours each, tried so hard to show the sides that people never liked but I still get the same end result. Exclusion. I slipped up once or twice and they turn away. Why can’t people have kind hearts and be patient? I’ve never been so cautious about meeting new people in my life. I tried so so hard to not be obnoxious and be bossy. And I’d like to believe I never showed that, when I did catch myself slipping up, I ended up asking for others opinions. Not just mine. That’s what I was good at, voicing my own opinion and not hearing others.
Through the months I never realized how shitty people were treating me and how they bullied me. I saw through all of that and never thought once that they would do those things to me. The ones who did me wrong, I believed that they were all good people. I still believe they are, deep down inside. Just never towards me and that’s okay with me. I hope they never put someone else with a kind, gentle heart through what I have been.
It was never until recently that I realized how badly these specific individuals were treating me. Never did I once thought of the treatment until someone told me.
I knew I never should’ve believed I was ever their friend. I was foolish from the start. Believing I’d enjoy my last year as much as I enjoyed it my first year.
Foolish. That is what I am. I will never open up too easily to people ever again.
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