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ughhh why won’t any attractive guy like me??

ugh so i had a date with a guy the other day and i accidentally fell in love which is so stupid because it’s literally a first date, but i guess i’m just clingy like that.

doesn’t matter anyways because he rejected me for a second date, and that’s totally fair, he’s allowed to do that, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less.

and it’s soooo stupid that i’m this distraught over a literal first date, but i can’t help it. and now i’m spiraling about why he rejected me.

was i too ugly? was i too fat or too skinny? was my nose too big? did i slouch too much? or was it my personality? was i boring or loud or annoying or clingy? did i chew too loudly or speak too much? maybe if i was prettier and cooler and better, he would’ve wanted a second date.

and the most stupid part was that he was british and now i can’t even consume any british media or be reminded of it and then get sad again. it’s literally so stupid. i can’t even comfort myself and revert to watching dan and phil videos like i’m in middle school again because his accent sounds just like their’s and i’ll get sad.

i know this is so melodramatic and stupid, but still. it’s just so annoying. why won’t anyone actually want me???

why am i this pathetic

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