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[youaremysunshiness]

hello!

i’d thought i’d make a main post to introduce myself and have a place for navigation. navigation: journal/vent posts: #journal rambles about movies: #cine rambles

get to know me!

i’m not going to give my real name on here for privacy reasons, but you can call me belle because she’s my favorite disney princess c:

i love reading and writing all kinds of things. i have adhd so i tend to go on tangents and have a variety of different interests. i also get distracted very easily. i started this blog because these past few months i have been going through a hard time. i was dealing with someone who was really toxic (narcissist) and tried to hurt me on purpose several times, and i felt like i was silenced. i felt like this toxic person was speaking for me to someone i love and he tried to take away any happiness that i had. (i’m not even being dramatic. i truly feel that way. he was a big bully). anyways, basically, i felt silenced and i just felt the need to speak my truth on a platform of some kind because privately journaling about it didn’t feel like enough for me. i always vented to my friends in private about how awful this person was to me, but i felt like i needed to scream to the rooftops about the injustice that was done to me in some way, shape or form. regardless, i know God has my back and i know that this person will reap what he has sown because you cannot go about life treating people inhumanely without receiving consequences of some kind.

i am a very spiritual person, but i’m not religious. i don’t subscribe to any type of religion. i was raised catholic, but i don’t identify with that religion anymore. growing up, i always felt very connected to Jesus and loved how he fought for love, kindness, inclusivity, open-mindedness, and justice. i remember either seeing him or feeling his energy in my backyard as i was playing in the sun as a child. i always had strong faith in Jesus and in a higher power. even as i moved away from religion, i never really stopped having faith in God. i just think religion is very toxic, and not just Christian or Catholic religions, but all religions as a whole. I believe it can be detrimental to not be open-minded to all sorts of beliefs and ideas, and i don’t like how religion is weaponized against people, especially women and minorities. I also don’t like how white-washed and exclusively male western religions are. this could turn into a whole tangent, so i’m just going to stop here.

i also love film!! i’m studying cinema production with a concentration in directing and a minor in screenwriting. my dream is to write and direct my own films.

my favorite film of all time is beauty and the beast. it’s been my favorite since i was three and would rewatch the movie 10x a day until the VHS broke. it’s the first movie that really touched my heart and that’s why it will always be my favorite.

i also love amélie, frances ha, uptown girls, me and earl and the dying girl, black swan, howl’s moving castle, and many more!

my favorite directors are sofia coppola, emerald fennel, greta gerwig, and emma seligman.

i also love damien chazelle, noah baumbach, darren aaronofsky, wes anderson, hayao miyazaki, gary trousdale and kirk wise, and who doesn’t like spielberg?

anyway, thank you for reading my rambling post. bye!

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[creekfiend]

gender essentialism is soooo funny bc it's like "this is what women are like" and you're like "I've met women and many of them, if not the majority, have not been like that" and it's like "well women SHOULD be like that" and you're like "why should women be like that" and its like "because that's what women are like"

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

Anyone and everyone CAN write. The world’s most skilled writer didn’t start off skilled. The key is that they practice hard by writing a lot.

As long as you write, you are practicing your craft and you are getting better at writing. But you will never get anywhere if you let AI write for you.

[vampirementality]

and while we're complaining i would have liked for El to have had a moment of self determination where she definitively chooses her own name.

whether that be by choosing to go by El, the nickname given to her by the first person to actually treat her like a human being and is then used by the rest of her found/chosen family,

or by choosing to go by Jane, her actual given name, and the last connection she has to a mother she will never know. reclaiming what was stolen from her as an infant.

or even choosing her own name. a new name. something she came up with on her own, with no outside influence. something that leaves everything else behind and says "this is who i choose to be."

but god forbid we give her any actual agency i guess. jesus fucking christ.

[waterboarding-deactivated201705]

I feel bad when I watch Alice in Wonderland because this poor little girl is lost and this rude ass atheist caterpillar keeps vaping in her face… poor kid

[crimsolyn]

I think the purest form of love is just wanting someone to notice life with you. "taste this. look at that. hear this song." again and again. until you can't imagine noticing life without them.

[bylerworld]

they're so me when it comes to byler

[bylerworld]

i hope will likes mike back 🥺😔 look at him

[bobdylanyaoi]

i cannot emphasize how much it sucks that people in movies don’t look real anymore. like conventionally attractive people have always been cast more as leads but up until like a decade ago they had visible age lines and textured skin and double chins and imperfect teeth. like whenever i’m feeling insecure i just have to watch a regular movie from the 70s and remind myself that im actually not unhygienic and disgusting for having teeth that are a little yellow and visible pores

[bobdylanyaoi]

genuinely social media has fucked everything up and we need to realize that the average person is normal and you are in fact allowed to make art and exist in the public eye while not looking like an airbrushed 20 year old and that your personal appearance really does not matter that much

[thatonekimgirl]

A Top-Tier Season Three Development: Once Conrad found the courage to tell Belly he loved her, he became an open book and couldn't stop talking about it.

[winteroroctober]

[melobluelights]

Not enough people are talking about how Conrad touches the infinity necklace before kissing Belly after her confession.

This is just everything he could have dreamed of - the girl he loves more than anything in world, running to him wearing the necklace he gave her to tell him she loves him. And he deserves no less!

[melobluelights]

Omg I didn’t realize he may not have known the necklace was on Junior Mint! That makes his reaction even sweeter knowing that she surprised him with the necklace. He had no idea she had it still 😭 He hasn’t seen it for 5 years no wonder he wanted to touch it 😭

[blues-valentine]

Jeremiah’s love for Belly was conditional.

Conrad’s love for Belly is unconditional.

And it shouldn’t be controversial to say it.

Jeremiah loved her as long as it was about him being chosen. If Belly’s choices were centered around him. Because Jeremiah’s issue was about feeling the need to be uplifted and reassured. He would’ve never allowed her to be in Paris to find herself simply because he’d be afraid that version of her wouldn’t choose him. And indirectly, he was holding her back from reaching her full potential.

Conrad loves her even if that doesn’t involve him. He loves every version that Belly wants to show him. He would never center himself around her. He encouraged her to be in Paris because he understood that it was something she needed to experience. And he would’ve been okay if that experience meant that he was losing her for good.

It’s all about intention. Conrad doesn’t need Belly to center him to give his love freely. Jeremiah does. It was starting to feel a bit transactional. Jeremiah wanted all of Belly, and you can’t have everything from a person. It doesn’t work like that.

[brimay]

one thing i love about this episode is that they explicitly pointed out that it was about 1:30 a.m when belly and conrad danced by the seine, and 4 a.m. when they stopped having sex.

two and a half hours??? incredible. thank you for hammering home that they are indeed insatiable.

[wyatthazy]

All of this silence and patience, pining and desperately waitin' My hands are shakin' from all this...

[bellamyblcke]

i just think its special and fun that conrad’s insane plan worked. hes like no worries (many worries) i will just show up unannounced outside her apartment in paris (this is fine she gave me her address) and then i will walk up say hi and see if she wants to be me with me forever. and then like fourteen hours later hes got his hands up her dress. and within sixteen theyre confessing eternal love. truly the definition of matching your freak.