the icarian

lena kieran luthor. twenty-nine.. ceo of l-corp. trying to be the best i can be in spite of my family name. I never like to follow, follow all around and chase the sun.

[youngestluthor]

kxradanvcrs:

“No, I wouldn’t keep you out there for long, but still! I’d fight anybody who went and switched this food to healthier ones.” She jokes and takes another bite of the next pizza slice in her hand, turning her head back to Lena as she stares, mouth falling open for a moment. “What?? I do-I don’t squeak! It’s just..complicated right now.” Kara explains and takes in a deep breath, really listening to Lena’s words already recalling someone else saying something similar to it before. “I just don’t want to make anything awkward, I think overthinking it all may just be making it worse.” She mumbles and hides her face in her hands for a moment before slowly nodding her head at the mention of the storm. “Yeah, I can’t blame work for being a bit harder then with everything that has been going on.” The next sentence makes her do a double take as she nearly chokes on the soda that she’s drinking, eyes widening. “You..my sister..I’m sorry, what? Oh, I was not expecting that one, er, okay..that’s interesting for sure, how did that even happen?”

       “sometimes it’s needed. or maybe i need it. i wouldn’t impose it on you. not all the time anyway.” she smiles, but it doesn’t reach her eyes. she doesn’t feel like trying anymore. she’s tried and overworked. she looks over at kara and feels a warmth. at least she has a few bright spots left in her life. “you did just squeak. life is always going to be complicated. you should know that. but if something’s there, then take that chance.” she follows her words with a shrug. her words echo sara’s from a few days ago. “overthinking never helps. take it from me. you could be making a big deal out of nothing.” she wipes her hand on a paper towel and takes another sip of her soda. “yeah, work.” she avoids kara’s gaze. her cheeks burn. she isn’t sure why it came out so easily. “we kissed. more than once.” she groans and presses her fingers into her temple. “alcohol and working close together. she kissed me and then i kissed her back. i can’t stop thinking about it.” she finally looks up. “if this is too weird, i can go?”

[youngestluthor]

spidvyisms:

     peter’s smile is bright as he sees lena and a laugh escapes him at his joke being confirmed to be true. ❝ wow- really ?? i mean, thanks- you’re my favourite, lena- well you’re the only lena i know but even if i knew another one you’d still be my favourite. ❞  the hug is a surprise but a good one and the young hero hugs her back with ease. aunt may isn’t here but he has a few strong women in his life to help him through it and he has never been more grateful. seeing lena kick off her heals, he kicks off his trainers so he can cross his legs on the couch. ❝ i have time- i’ve got a whole free period. it’s why i’m here, thought i’d come say hi while i had a couple hours to spare. ❞ he takes the burrito wrapped in tinfoil and holds it out to her. ❝ oh yeah, thanks so much for those by the way- you didn’t have to but i really appreciate them. i’ve never gotten gift baskets before, i didn’t really know what to do with them at first- i thought they got delivered to the wrong place but then i saw the card on them but yeah- thank you. you wrapped those ?? wow, i can’t even wrap- well anything. i once tried to wrap a coffee mug for aunt may and- well i ended up having to buy a gift bag and just throwing in the rapping flag. ❞

      she can’t help but smile at his enthusiasm. she finds it infectious and wonders why she hasn’t made the effort to see more of him lately. a pang of guilt hits her stomach, but she waves it off as hunger. “i’ll take what i can and i appreciate it. i don’t think i could ever like another peter better.” she’s happy to hear he’s here on a free period and not skipping out. “thank you for coming to see me. i’m sure you’re busy and have other people you might want to spend time with. it was like you knew i needed you today.” she unwraps her burrito and takes a big bite. it’s not her usually meal of a kale salad or health smoothie. it’s so much better -- a meal her best friend would approve of. she swallows and takes another bite before wiping her mouth with a napkin. “wrapping a mug seems difficult. i’m not sure i could do it. i thought it was a nice personal touch. is there anything you need? i’ve been thinking.” she clears her throat before taking another bite. “i can do more to help out.” 

[goodgirlargo]

[youngestluthor]

spidvyisms:

     peter had not planned to head to lena’s office today but upon seeing his free period on his schedule… well an idea came to mind. he stops by a food van, grabs a couple burritos and tries not to get too intimidated by the big ass skyscraper he’s about to enter. lena had the same work ethic as alex… that they rarely stopped working and so he wants to make sure she’s remembered to take a few minutes to eat. though he can’t really say anything since he seems to forget to function like a human most of the time. heading in, the guy at the front desk makes him wait before he’s cleared to go up and there’s momentary panic that he won’t he allowed. but he’s waved through and awkwardly standing in his jeans and graphic t-shirt surrounded by business people in suits as he stands in the elevator. when his floor arrives with a ding he sighs in relief and speed walks out of it and asks for the occasional directions to lena’s office. the woman at the desk outside says he can walk in but peter pauses, knocks a weird version of despacito on the door as warning before swinging it open. ❝ you’re favourite peter has arrived !!! unless you know like- a peter who’s a surgeon or something than he can totally take the fave roll but anyway- i brought burritos !!! i hope i’m not interrupting i just- thought you might be hungry. ❞ @youngestluthor

          somehow, lena manages to make it to her office. lately, she feels the need to be out of the lab. she worries her presence around her employees makes them nervous and less productive. it’s probably paranoia, but lena can’t add anymore stress to her life. she going over paperwork when she gets a call from jess outside her door mentioning that a peter parker was downstairs waiting to see her. she gives clearance and special permission for her young friend any time he tries to visit in the future. it takes him a while to reach her office, but when she hears the knocking -- something familiar she swears -- she drops her paperwork and calls for him to enter. her eyes light up as soon as he speaks. “no, trust me, you’re my favorite peter.” she slips out from behind the desk and pulls him into a tight hug. she hadn’t realized how much she missed him until he appeared in her office. her stomach grumbles at the mention and smell of the burritos. she gestures towards the couch. “come, sit and eat with me. you have time right?” she touches his face softly before kicking off her heels and climbing onto the couch. “i’m sorry i haven’t seen you lately. did you get my gift baskets? i know they might be a little 90s, but i personally wrap them myself.” 

[youngestluthor]

kxradanvcrs:

“I appreciate your kindness then because I definitely would have shut the door the moment that I saw kale salad in your hands.” She jokes with a warm laugh, taking the other soda with a muffled ‘thank you’ due to the pizza crust in her mouth. “Barry.” Kara confirms with her smile growing a bit more as a small squeak escapes her throat and she snorts. “W-What? I mean..we’re just friends right now, or at least I bet that he only thinks of me as that, I don’t know..I’m scared of ruining our friendship if I say anything so, maybe keeping my mouth shut is the better option??” She makes a face and hides her head in her hands before taking in a deep breath and looking back over at Lena. “Just busy with work then? That couldn’t be any different from back home, right?” Kara mumbles more towards herself, still unsure of why Alex was so distant, and why Lena seemed a bit..off. “If you say so.”

            “you wouldn’t be able to keep me out for long. or i would hope anyway.” she takes another bite of her pizza and then follows it up with a pull from her soda. she really wishes it was something harder -- maybe her hands wouldn’t shake as badly as they were. “you just squeaked and i know what that snort means.” the panic rises in her own body at the way kara says those words. “look, maybe it might ruin something and maybe it won’t. you never know unless you take that leap. and if you guys are actually friends, it shouldn’t really change anything.” she can feel her heart hammering against her ribcage. it’s so loud and she wants to slide to the floor and bury her face into her knees. she instead takes another bite of pizza and chews slowly. she wipes her hand on a napkin before reaching out to squeeze her shoulder. “work has been killer. so much data to read through from the storm. it’s a little different. i don’t know.” she sighs. “i kissed your sister. or... she kissed me and then i kissed her back. properly.” it comes out in a rush speech and she hopes kara didn’t catch it. not really. 

[youngestluthor]

fallenrxbin:

jason was just minding his own business until he saw someone tripping over that very obvious crack in the sidewalk. he winces slightly as he hears the loud curse word, already feeling sorry for the female who fell. cautiously, he walks over to see if he could give a hand or make what seems like a start of a bad day better for the other. however, he stops when the other looks up, obviously unhappy that someone had seen all of it unfold. jason doesn’t laugh at the other, instead he silently studies the other a bit before purposefully tripping himself  with an obnoxious && dramatic flair. he even makes a show of flipping himself over once he hits the ground, sprawling out like an eagle before turning his head up over to the other. “ well guess i’ll be down here with you to look mine. though i don’t think mine ever existed. so, you want a hand to look for yours then? ” 

          lena isn’t sure what was going to happen when the tall man stops and stares at her. she can feel the blush rising up the back of her neck and she wishes the storm had taken her away when it had the chance. instead of him laughing or making a big deal out of it, he flops onto the ground next to her in a dramatic show of a trip. she can’t help the laughter that bubbles up in relief. she was sure he would make her feel bad, but when he joins her, she feels some of her stress slip away. “oh, i doubt that. and now, i guess it doesn’t matter much, does it?” she looks him over. “are you okay? that was quite the fall.” a small smile tugs at the corners of her lips. 

[youngestluthor]

kxradanvcrs:

“Good, I was going to say that I hope since you are my best friend that you would recall my love for food, especially this kind.” She responds with a laugh alongside Lena’s, starting to get up at her next question before Lena says that she’ll get it. “Yeah, I have some soda pop in the fridge on the right side of the door. Opening and closing her mouth for a second at the sudden questioning that she gets about her personal life since she had mentioned it, Kara just blinks and snorts. “Oh er, nothing is really going on around there, I actually ran into someone today, he’s called Barry, we’re close.” She muses, not being able to stop the smile that grows upon her lips as she looks down, but notices Lena’s nerves as she frowns softly and reaches out to put a hand upon the other’s for comfort. “Hey, you know that you can tell me anything that’s going on with you..right?” She states, the last word going more into a question because she trusted Lena and still thought that the other trusted her. “I’d be lying if I said that my life has been really spontaneous and eventful, it’s basically been almost the same thing everyday, although I haven’t hung out with my sister as much lately..that’s probably the weirdest thing, I think she’s avoiding me.”

            “why do you think i showed up with it? if it were up to me, we’d be having kale salads, but i didn’t feel it was right to torture you when i haven’t seen you in so long.” a teasing smile places on her lips as she rounds the counter to open the fridge. she pulls out two cans of soda and hands one to kara before sitting back down. she wishes it was hard alcohol, but this will do for now. “barry?” her eyebrows shoot up in surprise. “it doesn’t seem like nothing. this barry has you smiling as if he means something more? want to talk about it?” she’s genuinely interested. she can’t remember the last time kara’s looked giddy -- over someone else at least. and it provides lena some wiggle room with her own thoughts. except, it doesn’t because kara pays attention. she forces a smile on her face, but it doesn’t quite reach her eyes. “yes, i know.” she blanches at the mention of alex. a nervous laugh slips past her lips. “alex, right. yes. well. that might be my fault. i’ve kept her busy with work at the lap. and things. she... yes.” she looks up and gives the best smile she can before taking an obnoxiously large bite of her pizza. 

[youngestluthor]

fcsterbrry:

“alright well then i’m definitely in.” barry stated as he looked over at her. “i was dealing with things in central city and i really would like to get back to that so i’ll do whatever i can to help.”

           “perfect. i’m glad to hear it.” she moved around her desk and pulled open the bottom drawer. she grabbed an expensive bottle of scotch and two glass tumblers. “do you partake? i like to seal all new partnerships with a drink. if not, i can get us something else.” 

[youngestluthor]

newncrmal:

      alex knew that she would have to face this head on at one point or another, she just figured that she would have been more prepared when she did - unfortunately, that isn’t the case. the longer lena speaks the more alex realises she actually has no clue what she should do. she knows that she only really has two choices in this situation. she denies absolutely everything she may or may not feel, or she just accepts it with the idea that she would deal with the consequences when the time came. but - there’s always a but when it comes to alex - she doesn’t know if she would have the strength to do that. she hasn’t been able to since maggie.

“you being a luthor has absolutely nothing to do with this,” alex scrambles to her feet and faces the brunette. “you know that that has nothing to do with – god, lena. this – no, just no,” she shakes her head and moves her hands through the air, using her physicality to express her point even further. “i trust you, okay? kara trusts you - name and all, it’s just –” she can barely get her thoughts out when lena continues to talk. every single word cuts through alex like a knife to butter. a part of her wishes that the kiss had never happened, that alex had been left on her own so that any decision she made while fuelled by liquor, but on the other hand – god, she’s thought about it every single day since. all she can picture is how lena’s lips felt on her own, how it felt to be grabbed by the other and kissed hard. all she can picture is that moment - that one glorious moment that, for once, allowed alex to feel something that she hadn’t felt in a long time.

she felt… wanted.

“— i can’t ignore it,” she finally admits. she’s practically shaking at this point. so much so that she has to grab the back of her chair to steady herself. “you have – you have no idea how much i’ve been thinking about – about that,” she points at nothing, barely able to meet lena’s eyes. “i have no idea where we are, i don’t know how to get home, and i don’t know how i can look my sister in the eyes and tell her that we may never see national city again. i needed to focus on that, i need – i need – that’s what i was focusing on. i needed to figure that out and then you – you,” she finally looks up at lena and exhales slowly. “all i can see is my feelings for – my hard feelings – for you… my sister’s best friend,” she lifts her hands and runs them both through her short hair as she sinks back onto the table. “i. am. so. confused.”

            lena feels herself vibrating. it’s nervous energy and she quickly realizes how little she’s actually been nervous in her life. there was moving to national city and launching l-corp. testifying against her mother in court. and finally, confront alex after their kiss. a heat kiss that she can still close her eyes and feel. with a small smile, she curls her fingers into her palm again -- this time to stop her from reaching out and grabbing alex. because they are both idiots. it makes her feel better to know she’s not going to be push aside because of her last name. not that she really thought she would do that, but the self doubt lingers in the dark corners of her mind. 

“look, alex, i know that. i just... was tearing myself down. giving you an out if you really wanted it. whatever would make it easier if you want to reject me.” the words hurt her as she says them, but she stays steadfast. “i know.” it leaves her mouth in a rough -- jumbled up, but she’s sure alex gets her meaning. “i think i have a pretty good idea. there’s so much shit in my head these days, but my mind keeps going back to that. and how i might have fucked it up by kissing you back if it was a mistake. because we both are stupid and have been avoiding it.” she exhales trying to calm the shakiness she feels. 

“i get it, alex. all i’ve bene worried about is work -- about getting us back. because if i don’t have that, what do i have? i know you understand that. we might never get back, but we both have to try and that’s why i can’t stop thinking about you.” she sets her jaw and starts pacing again. the hard feelings part stops her and she turns on her heel to look at her. “can you not bring up kara? because...” she huffs. “it’s... i know!” she throws her hands up and walks towards alex, then stops and takes a few steps back. she stares at her. “i... can...” she’s tongue tied and the experience is unfamiliar. it makes her feel off balance. “to be clear, you definitely want to kiss me again, right?” 

[youngestluthor]

svpcrwoman:

      “hey – hey!” kristen jogs down the hall as she catches a swish of lena’s hair before it disappears around the corner. “are you, uh… are you heading out again? i figured i’d make some breakfast, but uh –” she waves a hand, quickly dismissing the idea before the other even has time to reply. “actually, it’s fine. i was just heading out myself, you know? gotta kick the ol’ noggin’ into gear,” she points at her head and switches weight from one foot to another. “sorry.”

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              work. lena needs to get to work and go over all the data complied. it had been a week and finally the numbers were beginning to make sense. she thinks. she can’t be sure and maybe it’s wishful thinking, but it would be better than sulking. she’s halfway out the door when she hears kristen and she stops. the guilt flushes her body and she turns immediately. “hey. no, hey.” she holds up her hands to stop kristen from apologizing. “we talked about this, you never have to apologize to me. i need to apologize. i’ve been flaky. what are you going to make me?” she lifts an eyebrow as she ushers them both back towards the kitchen. “i can take the day off. being the boss has perks.” she kicks off her heels and sets about making coffee. “how’s the head?”

[lenazor-el]

Well, you know where to find me. My name’s on the building.

[youngestluthor]

kxradanvcrs:

Turning back towards the other when she starts to tease her, Kara just points and pretends to glare. “No! Do not think about it.” She says before breaking out into a grin and running over to take the first potsticker, mumbling a little ‘thank you’ before skipping back to the other food. “I didn’t mean about the chaos going on, I meant more about work and personal life, but yeah, with the chaos, it has been..hectic and I have tried to figure out a way back but it hasn’t been an easy task.“ She admits and shakes her head, taking a bite of the pizza and raising her eyebrows a bit. "Er, no, no of course not, just wondering about a friend, for all I know I may be the one acting odd.” Kara jokes with a laugh.

            a laugh follows at kara’s insistence that she leave the food where it is. “i wouldn’t dare mess with your food.” she lifts a piece of pizza and goes for a bite, but realizes she can’t stomach it. not at the second. something to drink would be great. “do you have anything to drink? i’ll grab it.” she looks at kara expectantly and then looks her over. she’s in one piece and that’s good. it takes something off her mind. “personal life, huh? any interesting news to report about. strictly off the record.” she’s hovering on the edge of the seat, nervous energy humming around her. “you’re not acting odd. i’m... sure it’s me.” she sighs again and hates how she’s coming off. but she doesn’t know who she could and should talk to about lex or alex. “tell me what’s been going on. i’ve been a terrible friend.”

[youngestluthor]

fcsterbrry:

   “i mean.” barry said as he looked over at her. he was pretty confused by the whole situation. all that he knew so far that the woman in front of him was friends with kara. “i’m a little confused but other than that i guess i’m on board.”

          lena needed to relax. she was vibrating at too high of a frequency and she was going to crash and burn. barry was a friend of kara’s and she couldn’t go burning bridges so early. “i’m sorry.” her smile faltered for a second. “i can’t even...” she sighed and flexed her fingers a few times. “we’re trying to figure out how to bring all the universes back how they belong. i’ve got a great team and top of the line equipment, but that means nothing without the best minds working behind them. i understand if you’re busy. i’ve just heard good things.”

[youngestluthor]

newncrmal:

      lena’s actions are completely lost on alex over the course of the day. her focus is on the screen ahead of her, eyes only for the data over the course of the storm and the eight or so weeks of being in this strange place. she doesn’t even realise that the lab is emptying around her, the amount of bodies around her trickling down to one - till only lena luthor is left. it’s only when her name is said a second time that the agent’s attention is stolen from her current task. she swivels on the chair, confusion shifting her expression as it finally dawns on her that no one is left. she’s about to say that she’s not ignoring the other, that they’ve simply just had too much work to focus on anything else, but she doesn’t – she can’t. not when the kiss is mentioned.

“i – that’s not –” that’s not what, alex? not accurate? not what’s going on? she can’t say any of that because it’s true; alex danvers has been avoiding lena luthor. unsuccessfully, it seems. “what do you want me to say, lena?” she eventually asks, giving in to the fact that there’s no escape from the conversation. eventually, she’s going to have to face what she had done. may as well do it now. “i don’t – i don’t know what to say.”

          she knows she shouldn’t pry or force alex to talk about things. but she’s selfish -- she’s a luthor after all. maybe it would be best to shove it down and let it go, but lena can’t do that. it’s not the way she’s built. not since moving to national city. she wants to figure it out because at the very least she doesn’t want to lose a friend. not only is alex a brilliant mind, but she’s become a major part of her life. and lena hasn’t stopped thinking about the kiss and how the beer mixed with alex tasted. it’s fucking maddening. she exhales and blinks a few times. her fingers curl into her palm and she counts backwards from five. she’s sure her therapist calls them grounding techniques, but she can’t be bothered to really figure it out.

“you have been and that’s okay. i was too. but i can’t do it anymore. not when we have to work together.” among other things, but lena needs to find a way to build to that. she doesn’t want to scare the agent away. “i want you to be honest. if you regret it, i understand. i’m a luthor and everything.” she says the last bit with some self deprecation. it can’t be helped. “if you want us to forget about it, okay. i know you’ve got a lot on your plate, but i have a few things to say before you shut me out, okay?” she clears her throat again and uncurls her fingers. she presses her palms along her trousers until they feel dry. “i liked it. kissing you, i mean. and it’s not just because i haven’t been kissed in a while. it was because it was you. i like spending time with you. you’re smart. you keep up with me. you’re funny and caring. you carry a lot on your shoulders, but still keep looking out for everyone else. it makes me worry, but that’s not what we’re discussing right now. and for the first time in a long time, i want to be selfish. with you.” 

she realizes that she’s pacing, but it doesn’t stop. she keeps walking a few paces and then turning and walking a few more -- rinse and repeat. the energy built up in her limbs is enough to make her feel mad. “if you don’t feel the same way, i understand. no hard feelings.” she tacks it on before she takes longer steps. 

[youngestluthor]

@newncrmal

          a week. a whole fucking week alex has been avoiding her. the first few days, lena thought nothing of it. the two of them were both busy people. if it wasn’t something in the lab, it was something at the deo for alex -- especially after the freak storm. lex was back and lena had worn down the carpet in her office and personal living room. but a whole week and she felt like she was slowly losing her sanity. the kiss still hangs in the air between them. sharing a workspace has become uncomfortable almost. other lab employees tend to avoid the two of them together and she wonders if she’s truly soured. she finds herself snapping at the tiniest of things. maybe it was lex or maybe it was the unresolved words and emotions floating between her and the eldest danvers. sara told her to be brave and fuck if lena wasn’t going to try. 

she spends the better part of a day organizing it so only her and alex would be left in the lab together. she slowly sends home each and every employee until the workspace is empty. she continues to work as if nothing is out of the ordinary, except the unsteadiness of her hands. she places the beaker down and slips off her protective eye gear followed by her gloves. “alex.” she clears her throat and thrums her fingers against the cool top. “alex.” her voice is a little more insistent. “you can’t keep ignoring me. i remember the kiss. i know you remember the kiss. so please stop and talk to me.” 

[youngestluthor]

viridescentarcher:

      “for good reason,” oliver chimes in. then again, this collision - or whatever it is they’re calling it these days - has granted oliver freedom from behind bars, it’s safe to assume that that it’s also a possibility when it comes to the other luthor. god knows what would happen if lex is released in a city filled with the very people he attempted to eradicate. “— and what makes you think that i have any interest in listening to what a luthor has to say?” the eldest queen lifts a brow. “better yet, why should i even trust you?” he’s not exactly known for being a saint himself, but that doesn’t really matter in his eyes. oliver queen is a hypocrite, and has absolutely no problem in ignoring this face. “give me one good reason why i should work with you.”

           “it’s good to know you can pick names from headlines and magically know everything about them.” she feels her jaw tighten and she knows she needs to relax before she goes off. it’s been a hard week, month, year -- and lena honestly doesn’t know how much more she can take. not from this dead eyed asshole. she brings her fingers to her temple and rubs. “i don’t know, maybe the greater good. if that holds no interest for you, again, there’s the door.” she sighs and lets out a frustrated groan. “i don’t need to prove myself to you. look at my track record. if you don’t trust me, then trust those around you who do.” she wraps her fingers into a tight fist and she tries to ground herself to the moment. she wishes alex was here, then immediately shakes that thought from her mind. “because i genuinely want to help. i want to get everyone back to where they belong.” she blinks a few times before returning her gaze to him. “it’s the truth and it’s all i can offer to you. if it isn’t good enough, get out and have fun in whatever dark and dingy cave you reside in.” 

[youngestluthor]

kxradanvcrs:

Laughing softly at the sight of her best friend with her two favourite foods practically blocking Lena from Kara’s sight, she lets her into her place, shaking her head a little. “Aw, you don’t have to bribe me to spend time with me, Lena.” Kara points out and takes the bag of potstickers, setting them quickly to the side before also taking the pizza to put on the nearby table. “But thank you for this anyways, I’m starving.” She admits, already putting two pieces of pizza on her own plate, grabbing another plate for Lena. “I’ve been good, just busy with work and things, but are you okay? You seem..a little nervous about something.”

             lena’s relieved when kara ushers her into her apartment. she’s not sure she could handle rejection. at least not in public. she slips in and locks the door behind her before the reporter can change her mind. the food is an odd combination, but she feels her stomach grumble in appreciation nonetheless. “a little bribery never hurt anyone. but if you’d prefer, i can have it returned.” her tone manages to come out teasing as she grabs the plate handed to her. she pulls the potstickers out of the brown paper bag and sighs at the loud sound it makes. she pops open the cover and hands them to kara. she knows better to grab one before her best friend. “good, really? even with all the weird shit going on?” she clears her throat and grabs herself a piece of pizza before sliding onto a stool. “i’m just tired. been working long hours. i have nothing to be nervous about. do you?”