J.K.

Please reblog my poems my family is dying

[youngkauai]

I just want your love to know me Rain passes with the season's change I think I know the route to my train But of my friend's I can not say the same To be indifferent is to not exist With all of my being I long to exist To disappear For my head not to stir Nostalgia's a drug But it seems like a blur A trip I will not remember And yet these nerves again begin to stir Acceptance which I've yet to earn

Nostalgic Memories

J.K.

[2018]

[youngkauai]

Breath escapes my lungs and paints the space in front of me

Pace slow, water plays at my feet

It’s harsh outside, a hardheaded environment

Lines play in my head

A laugh that was too hard

A line that was too cheesy

Embraces never coming second, their nature foreign still

Goodbyes only worse, lopsided, never even-keeled

Impressions too much for I, it is never solely me

A soul that’s always single, and only wants to be

‘Acceptance’

-J.K.

[2018]

[youngkauai]

I’m starting to think there will always be a reason why we regret losing our past relationships. There should always be something you miss from anyone’s love It doesn’t matter the level of intimacy, for there to be any at all, regret will follow. But that’s the fun part. Everyone loving in their own way. It makes you optimistic. It makes you realize there’s always something out there. Something you haven’t had. And something you’ll end up missing.

Do You Still Think About Us, Cause I Do [J.K.] (via youngkauai)

[youngkauai]

There That woman there My desire Talking for hours upon hours My occupation I love her, or so I think She hasn’t said And the silence is starting a hunger I crave the reciprocation But there Over there, there is a lady And she is kind and she is wonderful She tells me all that I need to hear But I do not forget the woman who neglected to do so Instead I fixate on her I am blinded by my greed of affection So blinded that the amount I received goes unnoticed And the hunger poisons me It fuels anger Anger for love I will never get and blindness for love I already have Love I damn well don’t deserve

A Greedy Lover [J.K.] (via youngkauai)

[youngkauai]

I hate happiness So smug So condescending Desired it so Or so I think Or could I be pretending

The Feather (2017) [J.K.]

[youngkauai]

The street cracks under my feet I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders Keeping my pace Making my way up the boulevard Stopping for lights Crossing with unknown pedestrians Some smile, others never look up I desperately scan every face searching for an answer Someone to reassure me Motivate me Tell me I can do this Silence 3 blocks away My palms sweat and my knees buckle The world is jumping on my shoulders The ground can barely hold me People still come and go I avoid contact My mind racing marathons back and forth I have to stop myself from thinking so hard as I almost miss my turn Here I am, I have arrived I stare at the big building and feel one thing, intimidation Run, run, run I cannot do this I am afraid I turn around and head home The world climbs down off of me and slumps on to the pavement My body feels reborn and I sprint miles just to show I can I arrive back from which I came Sitting down feeling new Thinking it was much easier to never try at all

The Fear of One Hundred and Ten Percent [J.K.] (via youngkauai)

[youngkauai]

Long day at work Long walk home Long list of music for the trip Long line outside the corner store Lots of construction, I take the long way home Long list of chores now that I arrived The long for food, I order out Long wait for delivery Long night alone The only thing that isn’t long Is the life that we own

A List of Time [J.K.] (via youngkauai)

[youngkauai]

Tell us more about this perfect match. I've never been in love, so I'd like to know what that is like.

When you find someone to love who is also your match everything is so effortlessly beautiful it's scary. Ive never felt more fortunate

[youngkauai]

Are you happy at this moment in time? If so, why?

I am incredibly happy every day now. I found my perfect match and continue to grow with her and love her more every single day. 

[youngkauai]

She always popped back up The girl marked with flowers I could smell her on days I could see her on others Trying to remember When it was last I stood in front of her

The Girl Marked With Flowers (2016) [J.K.]

[youngkauai]

I was going to write a poem But I got lazy I was going to love you my hardest But you were crazy Now I am stuck off-beat Now I’ve gone off sleep Now I’ve gone off my meds So now your song is stuck in my head

Hi Spotify (2017)

[J.K.]

[youngkauai]

You Me Tragedy Precedes Ending

Preceding (2017)

[J.K.]

[youngkauai]

Look into my mind I know you'll find your name Pushed ourselves for miles I write you from a train Longing for a greeting For me that was too hard I'll wish you happy birthday From the back of this postcard

The Spotless Mind (2016)

     [J.K.]

[youngkauai]

The sky is so blue The kind of blue you can get lost in The kind of blue that melts your pupils And soon you are dancing Floating around Looking for the next cloud, any cloud To take refuge upon But this sky is so blue Too blue There are no clouds But instead, a sea of that decadently soft blue The kind of blue that reaches to your soul and captures you Surrounds you And after long you realize you are surrounded That this is no blue sky And you are floating You can’t be sure of your safety All of these waters un-trudged These waves that pull you wherever they please These waves that could dunk you Drown you at any moment You realize something else This sea owns you You have fallen for it’s beauty but become captive to it’s nature Where did this start You cannot remember You only remember being blinded A tunnel beckoning to you Lost in a hue Lost in what you do not know And giving up all that is in you to understand

Blue (2016)

     [J.K.]

[youngkauai]

Tears left in my arms So sad So vulnerable Of your heartache, I could not recall It never mattered Only that I was there And if you needed You could reach for an embrace And dampen my sweater a little more

North (2016)

     [J.K.]

[youngkauai]

I need less time with my thoughts. I could destroy mountains I have already climbed if I have enough time to dwell on their foundation

Overthink and Self-Destruct [J.K.]

[youngkauai]

I am going to drink tonight A toast to you Carrying the weight of my week in this bottle I am weak from feeling so awful A toast to you You break hearts so flawlessly Those hearts even still write about you

A Toast to You [J.K.]