Yours truly

ultimate shitposting - by your girl Bogi

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ABOUT ME..

Name Bogi 😼(she/her) 22yo - from Hungary 🇭🇺 - taken - ...and I'm shitposting about my (art university) life 🤠 !!!

I love : art / printmaking / searching for new music (I'll list my favs below) / long train rides / open minded ppl / videogames / deep talks / chestnut trees / pro lmbtq+ / retro furniture

(I'll write more when i have time)

My favorites :

TheWeeknd - Amy Winehouse - La Dispute - Gorillaz - Michael Jackson- Hayley Williams - Ashnikko - TheNBHD - Radiohead - Mitski- Lana Del Rey - Tove Lo - Show Me The Body - Vs Self - Joost - Horsegiirl -

and so much more ...

[yourboo-gi]

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Cool bread i saw

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What THE FUCK is this thing

I love it.

[heavensghost]

House zine! Words from anything by adrianne lenker

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Again. I live the vibe.

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Just as i choose to save my light.

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Tegnap úgy fél év után először leültem írni a naplómba.(Előtte is nagyobb kihagyásokkal írtam csak.) Mindig elfelejtem mennyit segít egyszerűen csak leírni mindent ami épp történik - a jót, a rosszat, mindent.

Vegyetek egy füzetet és egy kellemesen író tollat guys. Megéri az az ujj görcs eskü.

[heavensghost]

[yourboo-gi]

I love the vibe

[yourboo-gi]

This song goes on and on in my brain like a carousel.

When this album came out it found me in the perfect time, and after i tried to heal from that low place.... For a long time i tried to avoid it whole. But now I can listen to it without the urge to cry, and it's still such a good album.

I wished for better days, and now I'm bobbing my head happily. Full circle⭕.. but as we know it's not a circle, it's a spiral 💜

[yourboo-gi]

Guys I'm trying i swear !!!!

I'm so locking in this summer, this fuckin diploma work won't have a chance against me im SO DOING IT IM DOIN IT IM DOIN IT

i feel every minute passing by me and I'm incredibly stressed but hey at least I don't feel numb anymore !!!

[yourboo-gi]

The way she says "proper" is so addicting

This album is a new find for me, it's such an unexpected sound from the P!nk i known before.

[yourboo-gi]

"Am I incapable of healing?...

... I'm not gonna cry

I got more time to give.

I'm not gonna cry

Find another dream.

Cause I'm about to solve it

Put my engine back into overdrive

So i can breath again

Photosynthesize again..."

I think of younger me often, who listened to Gorillaz much more than i do now.. how different these lyrics must have felt in the past. I always loved this song.

[yourboo-gi]

Yesterday i learned, when you think everything is perfect in your life and the only thing wrong with it is YOU BEING YOU and the reason you can't be happy in a perfect scenario is in fact YOU being in it is actually called depression.

How crazy is that???!! Yeah guys i know, i wouldn't have guessed either!!

I found myself writing a cons and pros list about my life and actually questioning why i don't want to be and why i constantly feel sad and hopeless... And guess what? I learned i literally don't have a problem , a reason to feel this way. I just do. Only because of me. That is depression guys.

Yeah i know.. you're probably thinking "hey Bogi, that's like, super clear to me, how tf you're finding just out?" - it's not like I didn't know, like in a logic way i understood it, the concept of it and all - but it's not so easy to see thing trough when you're in the middle of them. Life is not black and white to easily tell things apart (sadly!.. still yearning for it to be!!) so i just convinced myself I wasn't depressed, I'm just this way to begin with. (which is still a thing im trying to unlearn)

[yourboo-gi]

I spent so much time learning and doing printmaking, and after years and years and almost having a master diploma, i find myself enjoying EVERYTHING ELSE other than that. I just can't find the joy in it anymore, and it makes me feel terrible hopeless... This is the only goal i had infront of me..

What if i never get back into it?

Video editing, painting, writing poems.... Anything but being in the art studio. I'm completely burned out by it.. I don't even wanna make a linoprint or anything.. i find myself avoiding printing even in school projects..

It was and still IS a big part of me and my life.. i don't think I'm ready to redefine myself and my life purpose again.

[yourboo-gi]

Sometimes i just forget things i love to do. I wrote a poem this week. Felt unreal.

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Yesterday it was SO sunny and hot outside, typical summer weather, and then at afternoon it got gloomy and rained a little.. and i missed it sooooo much!

I miss the grey sky and the rain. I miss fall.

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It's the last few weeks of the semester but i feel nothing. I'm supposed to wake up with a stomach that feels like a stone, and super high anxiety... But.. I just don't feel it?

Is this healthy or the opposite? Did i just learn how to cope with stuff, or i just completely lost hope and my will to care about university?

Stay tuned we will find out on the last week 💃🏻