Fili of Durin

Independent RP blog of Fili. Mostly modern AU but canon verse is welcomed. This Fili doesn't have a canon background. He'll mold to the verse you and I create. 21+ Can't follow back through this thread. Main blog: whiskeyandmayhem.tumblr.com

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

[closed rp] zombie!verse

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

Kili listened to the blond’s story of where he currently resided and couldn’t help but feel a twinge of something. Was it jealousy? Fear? Fear of what? That the man would be all too willing to return to the boarding school he now called home, go back to his group that relied on him, forget of his existence? Or maybe it was dread. That he allowed himself to open up to this stranger so quickly and with little to no hesitation. And now the man wanted to return to his family and friends. What use would Kili be to him? Other than just another tagalong. Another mouth to feed and a body to worry about. Kili’s appetite quickly left him and he looked down into his lap, flipping the can of meat around in his hands but not really paying attention to it. “Sounds like the perfect set up, really,” he muttered under his breath, trying to keep a scowl from forming on his lips.

But at Fili’s offer, Kili’s eyes snapped up and went wide as he processed the question in his mind. “You want me to join you?” He repeated, more out of disbelief. “No.” The word came out harsh and he quickly stood, turning his back to Fili as he pretended to busy himself with sorting through what belongings he had left. After a few seconds worth of silence, Kili sighed and hung his head. “I don’t do groups, ok? I like to be responsible for one person, and one person only,” he turned and jabbed his finger into his chest several times, “me.” But he wasn’t willing to let the man go so easily. The connection they made already was alarming and it had the brunet wondering, but to drop the life he knew so well by now to just join Fili and his group? Kili groaned and leaned back against the table. He knew what he would eventually regret what it was he was about to say, but he couldn’t help it. Fili piqued his interest in many different ways, and Kili wanted to hold onto that for as long a possible. “Alright, fine. But only after that leg of yours heals…” Frowning, he turned back around and cursed silently under his breath. 

[yourgoldenlover]

At Killian’s harsh respond, Fili frowned; he didn’t thought asking to join his group would be  troubling. But then he remembered that Killian was a loner, and perhaps had his reasons to want to stay that way, “I’m sorry..I didn’t mean-,” but then Killian changed his mind and said yes. His frown softened and smiled wide, “Alright,” he agreed but he didn’t miss Killian’s scowl; he seemed more uncomfortable than anything. Looking down at his can, where there were only a few bites left, he thought for a moment. “Killian,” he said turning to look up at him, “I can understand if you rather stay alone as you are. I just, I don’t know, got a bit selfish. I mean, I know in these times everyone does things their own way; some prefer to stay in groups, others think its better alone and I understand,” he looked back down at his can and took another helping with his fingers and shoved them into his mouth. “But,” he began to say after he swallowed, “I have to tell you, I wouldn’t be able to live in peace knowing I left you behind when I’m able to offer you something better than this place.”

After that he finished his meal quietly and threw the can out the window; sure enough the dragging moans of the infected that were on ground level were heard but died within the few seconds. Fili sighed and looked down on his bandaged knee; Killian only agreed to go after his wound healed, but how long could that take? He had people depending on him and the supplies he found; he needed to be back as soon as possible. But he also knew it would do no good to risk himself or Killian in his condition. To think he could put Killian in danger somehow unsettled him and much worse to leave him here; perhaps it was because of the intimacy they shared, but Fili felt strong feelings for this man he met only a few hours ago. But those were quite the intense hours and Fili felt like never parting with him.

[say-that-you-love-mee]

[madelinecee]

at your service. 

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

[closed rp] zombie!verse

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

Kili was beginning to form a thought to retort to Fili’s comments, but the sound that ripped from the blond’s stomach had him snorting back laughter. His own was rumbling pathetically from the lack of food and he shrugged. “I don’t have much,” he admitted, stretching his arms above his head, “but I’m sure we can figure something out.” Moving over to his discarded bags, Kili began digging through the cans and packages he had stuffed in there. It was true, his food supply was running ever lower with each passing day and Kili was beginning to skip meals in order to save some. But he couldn’t let this stranger, his new lover, starve so he began pulling out what he had. Most of his supply was canned items ranging from fruits to meats. The canned meats he wasn’t particularly crazy for, but the protein was needed so he had to suck it up and deal with it; it wasn’t like he could just waltz into a restaurant any more and order whatever it was he was craving at that particular moment.

Growling at the lack of options, he sat on the floor with his legs spread wide. He had three cans on the ground that he kept lifting and examining. “We got peaches, spam, or this weird can of spicy tuna…” He was mostly talking under his breath to himself, but at the last item, he looked up with a visible look of disgust on his face. “Last time I had this shit, I was sick for two days, just puking up every little bit of anything inside me. So… That’s totally yours if you want it.” Kili rolled the can to the man and held up the two remaining ones in his hands before sighing. “Overly salty meat for main course, and warm mushy peaches for dessert. If the times were different dude, I’d treat you to something a little more spectacular.” Kili stood and moved over to the small table, pulling a tiny handheld burner from his backpack and a flask with a large ‘X’ carved into the front holding what little propane he could find. “Tell me about your camp, Fili,” Kili said quietly, glancing over his shoulder as he used a handheld can open to open the can. “Is it as luxurious as my one roomed palace?” He grinned and turned his attention back to the burner, fumbling with it and adding a dash of propane before finally sparking a flame. He set the can of meat over the small flame and turned, folding him arms over his chest as he glanced at Fili.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili leaned forward and reached out for the can; he noticed how scarce Killian’s food supplies were and remembered how he used his own medic kit to help with his wound. The young man used what little he has to aid him and he felt bad; things are not what they were before. Like Killian said, times were different and the luxury to choose a meal was not an option any longer; with each passing day, foods become more and more difficult to find, as medical equipments, clothes, and any other necessary basic everyday item had turned into a rarity. But this brought on the darkest side of the living; walking dead’s are not the only problem survivors have to face. Some bands of people attack other survivors to steal their goods and even kill them if necessary. He has heard stories of other’s that have turned into cannibalism, but of that he wasn’t purely sure of, though it wouldn’t surprise him. Times were surely changing, going each day more backwards than forward; which was why he was grateful of his camp and team members.

With a sigh he motioned Killian for the can opener, “Don’t worry, I love spicy tuna,” he said as he began to open his can, “Was one of my favorite sushi rolls,” and smiled lightly at the memory; it was his and his fiancé’s favorite meal to dine over and it was at their go-to sushi restaurant where he proposed to her.  His smile slowly faded then cleared his throat at Killian’s question, “Heh, well to be quite honest,” and made a playful inspecting face as he gazed around the tree house, “Yes, it definitely is more luxurious,” and lightly chuckled as he set the can opener down and lifted the lid, “My uncle and I, along with some people we came across, took over an abandoned boarding school building,” he said as he took some of the tuna with his fingers and stuffed it in his mouth, “We cleared out great part of the building from infected and runners. My uncle took up leadership and organized our ever growing group, with time we have made it to a..well, a more normal living in this world,” he said and looked down at his can, “We got people of all sorts of ages…elderly, children…” and smiled giving a light shrug, “We got teachers teaching the kids stuff, we got scouts and patrols,” and pointed at himself with a small grin, “We got a medic and a nurse,” and his grin again began to disappear, “We got some sick kids,” he said as his eyes landed on his back pack, “One of them with lupus, which is mainly why I was sent out to scout for supplies,” he said scoffing and taking another finger full of tuna, “He’s in a lot of pain and…” he cleared his throat, “Man, this tuna is spicy!,” he chuckled trying to change the mood, “It’s a great place for what it’s worth, at least, we try our best,” then an idea came to his mind, “Come with me? We could definitely need the help with more young adults around! You were great back there at the drug store…I’m sure you’d be a great asset to our group. We got beds, stored supplies,” he said with a genuine smile widening more and more, “C’mon, join us!”

[yourgoldenlover]

[closed rp] PacificRim!Verse

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

Kili was deeply lost in a trance as Fili roughly handled and spoke to him. By the time he was standing nude with his lower clothes pooled around his ankle, his cock was fully hard and he cursed under his breath for being so damn weak. He had to break the intense connection between their gazes in the mirror and looked down, gripping the sink with a white knuckle hold as he tried to steady his breathing. “You want me to beg?” He asked through gritted teeth, his voice several tones deeper than previously. “Want me to grovel at your feet, tell you how amazing of a brother you are but an even better lover? You want to go back to when we were younger, Fili?”

Dark, pained eyes slowly traveled back up into the mirror and connected with the blue set staring back at him. Kili swallowed hard and let out a shaky sigh, dropping his head and letting his hair cascade around his face. “Fuck me, Fili,” he muttered under his breath knowing it’d be better to give in to what the elder wanted than to fight back. “It’s not like you would stop either way.” His sentence came out more bitter than he intended and he bit the inside of his cheeks. Clearing his throat, Kili threw his head back, gripped the sink harder, pushed his ass out against the thick cock threatening to fill him and snarl, catching Fili’s eyes for a final time. “I said fuck me.”

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili frowned at Kili’s words; that sour tone he used to describe their passionate encounters when they were young set him off momentarily, especially when he said that he wouldn’t stop either way. He wasn’t sure what Kili meant by that; their love affair had always been fucked up given the fact that they are related, but to his understanding it was something they both enjoyed and looked forward to. But he didn’t had much time to dwell on the thought as he felt the plumb cheeks push against his dick; he hesitated for a very brief moment, feeling his hands tremble around their respective holds on Kili. He shouldn’t be doing this, he shouldn’t fall back into his past that were nothing but nightmares to him. But his desire was too great and looking into Kili’s eyes in the mirror, hearing his order, it was as if a natural instinct came back to him and he obeyed. Taking a deep breath he gripped Kili tighter by the waist, holding him in place, and penetrated his little brother. A small gasp escaped his lips as a huge heated wave covered his body as his cock was being enveloped by the familiar walls. With only two thrusts he was buried inside his brother and he darkly chuckled, “Whoring your way through life, dear brother?” he bitterly growled as he pulled Kili’s head back by the hair and looked down his face, “Did any of them matched my touches?” he hissed over his cheek as he began to hump him over and over traveling his other hand downwards and wrapping it around Kili’s prick, “Were you searching for my cock amongst them?” he panted quickly jerking his brother, “Did any of them made you feel like I did?” and groaned hiding his pained face into Kili’s neck ravishing it with his teeth and tongue.

No one made him feel like Kili did; no one filled that void that Kili left in him, not even she. The smacking of their skin where they repeatedly connected  filled the air in the small bathroom along with their heavy breathing. It was all spiraling against him; with each thrust his thoughts were filled with melancholy, with buried feelings surfacing faster than he could imagined, with longing, sadness, relief, hate, anger,…love. He sunk his teeth over the crook of Kili’s neck, shutting his eyes tight to prevent tears from freefalling; he felt awful but he felt good. Fuck dammit Kili felt good and his body pounded him trying to make up for all those lost years! It also filled him with pain and jealousy to see how Kili sought comfort in other arms and he thrusted every single one of those impostors out.        

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

The gentle rumble of thunder brought Kili’s pulse to a quickened state. He sucked in a quick breath and his eyes went wide, instantly searching for the comfort in the blue set. When their gazes connected, Kili let out a soft huff and his shoulders relaxed enough for him to calm down, but he did not look away. Thunder never was one of his favorite things, and their cottage where he lived did hardly anything to quiet the angry clashing or hide the bright flashes of lightening. If for whatever reason Fili was not around during a storm, Kili would quickly collect the most blankets he could and bury himself underneath the fabric mountain until the storm was long gone. “I-is your Kili nice?” The young prince squeaked as another rumble of thunder crossed the sky outside. He sat up on his knees and crawled forward a little bit, his heart hammering inside his chest.

Swallowing hard, Kili nibbled on his bottom lip and tried to focus on anything other than the fear building up inside him. “The pizza things were pretty good,” he confessed softly, scooting even closer on the sofa to where Fili stood. He wished the elder would return to the sofa and sit down so he’d have an excuse to move closer, but he just wasn’t sure if this Fili would even care for him an ounce as much as his Fili would. But the thunder grew louder and the drops of water hitting the window increased and before he knew it, Kili was standing behind Fili, one arm wrapped tightly around his leg while he sipped the water slowly, trying to act as casual as possible. But when the thunder banged loudly, causing the window glass to rattle, Kili jumped where he stood and water splashed over the edge of the cup. Whimpering desperately, he dropped the plastic cup to the ground and turned, gripping Fili’s legs with both arms and burying his face against his thigh, trying to hide himself from the storm.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili’s eyes widen but chuckled lightly when Kee sought to him for safety, he sighed though at the drop of the cup. He looked down at the boy clinging to his legs for dear life and smiled warmly and patted Kee’s head, “My Kili is very nice, loves pizza, and to this day,” he said picking the boy up and carefully stepped around the puddle to sit on the couch, “No matter how old he gets, is still afraid of thunder,” and then another soft rumble is heard from the distance. It amazed him to see how this other Kili behaved practically the same as his Kili, “But I’m always there to keep him safe,” and smiled at the Kee in his arms. Reminded him when his Kili was at that age, at least he assumed the boy was around 10 years old, and always, always his protective instinct kicked in whenever he felt his brother in need. He gave Kee a light squeeze and smiled at him, “I’ll keep you safe, Kee.”

 Then his gaze lowered over at Kee’s clothes and really took a look at it; it was like a medieval custom, but so well made. He reached his hand out to touch the fabric around Kee’s arm, “Unbelievable,” he whispered, “You really are from another world…” and looked at Kee’s eyes, “How can you still be like my Kili?” he questioned but shook his head. He didn’t want to worry the boy over questions he didn’t have answers for; he must be even more frightened given his age and waking inside a strange place. “So tell me about /your/ Fili? Is he as handsome as me?” he joked trying to ease the tension.  

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

"I AM Kili!" The young prince cried out once more in frustration, not understanding anything that was going on. "And you are Fili! But you are not Fili! And I want Fili!” Though terrified all over and crying hard, Kili launched himself forward and wrapped his arms around Fili’s neck, hugging him tightly. The instant comfort that came from the hug reminded him so much of his brother and Kili let out a loud whine. Sitting back on the sofa, he sniffled and wiped furiously under his nose. “Why are you Fili but not my Fili? How is there two of you?” Sitting up on his knees, Kili bent forward and cupped Fili’s cheeks with his hands and pulled him close. With narrowed, blood shot eyes, Kili began studying the elder. 

The color was right. The warmth, the love. The shape. Everything was right. But his Fili had just started growing his beard in. This one looked like his had been growing for some time now, though cut back. Frowning, Kili ran a palm over the trimmed stubbled, feeling the roughness of the hair on his smooth unmarred skin. Chubby fingers studied the shape of his nose, which made his Fili’s and then ran his fingers over the mans lips. Kili felt his heart clench and he sucked in a sharp breath; they were his Fili’s lips. Moving his hand back to Fili’s cheek, Kili let his thumb gently rub against his lower lip and he looked at the man with longing and desire.

Did this Fili love his Kili like Fili loved him? He growled at the amount of unanswered questions and sat back, folding his arms over his chest. “I think a wizard did something, Fee. I don’t know how, but I don’t think I’m near my home anymore… Am I…” Though some things were beginning to make sense, Kili still was unsure of exactly what was going on. Either way, he was thankful to have wound up with Fili, even if it wasn’t the Fili he was used to. This one seemed to care the same way his brother did and was willing to help him out. Kili sucked back the last of his tears and gave his snotty nose one more rub before sighing.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili felt his heart race along with a heat coursing his cheeks as the young boy studied his features. When the small thumb lightly pressed his lower lip he caught Kili’s eyes and let out a soft shaky breath; they boy’s gaze was clearly intense and he recognized it. Could it be that this Kili held a unique bond with his world’s Fili? How bizarre to think there could be another him somewhere in another lifetime, but much more that their love is also shared between them. He was grateful when Kili pulled away; he sucked in a deep breath as he stood up and cleared his throat, “I’m not really sure, Kee,” he said as he rubbed his stubble in thought, “You somehow ended in this world while my Kili, the Kili that lives in this world, must have…ended in your home?” he squinted his eyes and shook his head; what if what the boy said was true? A wizard did this. If wizards existed in Kee’s world, “This is crazy…” he mumbled and suddenly the sound of rain tapped on his window making him break from his thoughts. Sighing he passed a hand through his golden locks and headed to the kitchen; whatever was happening he would have to deal with the Kili he had at hand.

Searching through the cupboards he found a smaller plastic glass and filled it with water and dampened a paper towel. Going back to Kee, he handed him the glass of water, “Since you didn’t like the soda, you’ll need this to wash down those pizza bites you ate,” and smiled lightly as he cleaned the boy’s mouth and nose, “I assume you liked those?” he asked and thunder was heard from the distance, “Hm, didn’t see all this rain coming,” he said looking out the window after he finished wiping Kili’s face. It had been so long since he had to do such a thing to his Kili, it felt like he had fallen 10 years back to their childhood.

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

There he was again, trying to figure out where Kili was. But Kili was right there, right before him! The more Fili asked about Kili, the more scared little Kili became until the little dwarf looked up with freshly tear filled eyes and a large pout. “I’m Kili!” He tried convincing the man once more. When the picture was held up in front of him, Kili leaned forward, narrowing his blurry vision on the image. Horribly confused, he snatched the picture up and held it nearly at the end of his nose, studying the sharp image. He was used to any portrait being charcoal drawn or painted and had never seen one with so much detail and bright color. But what confused him even more was how there he was, a spitting image of what the dwarf prince looked like, but it wasn’t him.

It was, but he was different, though completely the same. And the Fili he was standing next to was his brother, but it was a different Fili. And the scenary behind them was of a place Kili had never been to in his life. “How did you do this?!” He cried out, shoving the confusing picture back into Fili’s hands. “How did you put me in t-there but without me being there! A-are you a wizard?!” Kili scrambled back on the sofa until he was as pushed into the corner as he could get and he drew his knees towards his body. “I’m Kili! And you are Fili, but you aren’t! You have to be a wizard! You cooked food without even starting a fire! O-only wizards can do that!”

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili had to cover his mouth once more as he watched the boy reacting so unexpectedly to the picture; this was no game. No little boy inventing an imaginary world inside his mind. He stood up and paced a few feet away from the child as everything seemed to settle in his mind. He looked down at the picture and then at the frightened kid on his couch, “This has to be a dream…” he muttered to himself as he shook his head closing his eyes, “It has to be,” and pinched himself. Pain. It was not a dream, it was real. He opened his eyes and slowly made his way back in front of the boy. He sat on the coffee table and just stared at him; his watery brown eyes, the pizza sauce smeared around the boy’s mouth, such a familiar sight to him and yet it wasn’t. “You aren’t from this age are you… Kili?” he asked and hearing his own words made his skin bump; he made a bold move but he couldn’t help himself. He reached his hands out and cupped Kili’s face gently as he examined more closely the boy’s features. Everything. Everything was in the right place; from his hair, his eyebrows, wide expressive eyes, slim nose, naturally rosy lips, to his small chin. It was all there. It was Kili and yet it was not /his/ Kili.

Could it be that he and his brother had lived another lifetime? Lived in another age and world and be together as well? He let out a sigh as his stomach fluttered at the thought; his heart skipping beats if he indeed was with another Kili. If so, that could explain his Kili’s sudden disappearance and it made him worried where he could be? If this was all true, then did his Kili, miraculously, travelled to this parallel world too? Was he alright? Would this so called other Fili find him? If this was indeed how it was, then /why/ was it happening? He couldn’t find an answer, but simply marveled at the thought that, quite possibly, he and Kili have lived once a long time before and they were always meant to be together. And this boy here was a reminder of that. It sounded outrages and extremely cheesy but here this kid was, with clothes and rambles from another world and time, scared and confused as he was, “You really are Kili…” and softly rubbed his cheek with his thumb, “My Kee,” and yet he wasn’t.  

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

Scooting off the sofa as he was called into the kitchen, Kili trotted over to Fili’s side and stood on tiptoes, glancing up at the plate of foot waiting for him. His brow knitted and lips pressed into a tight frown as he reached up with a dirty, chubby hand and prodded the small bites of food. He hissed when his finger tocuhed the hot cheese and quickly pulled his hand back. “What is it?” Looking up at Fili, he frowned. “And how did you cook it so quickly? Not even momma can make something to eat so quickly.” Deciding to give it a try anyways, Kili reached up and grabbed the plate with both hands and brought it down closer to his level, looking over the small bites of foot in great curiosity. It was nothing he had ever seen back home, but still looked appealing enough to try.

With a slow reach, Kili grabbed one of the pieces and brought it to his lips, letting his tongue flick out and test the flavor first. Unsure if he truly like it, Kili took the smallest bite he could, whining when some of the cheese stuck and refused to break off. Not wanting to fight with it, Kili spit the bite back onto the plate and shoved it back on the counter. He instead reach out for the glass of dark liquid and wrapped his fingers the best he could around it, bringing it down to him. Without hesitation, he took a large sip, not expecting the fizzyness of the drink and quickly spit it out as it traveled up his nose. He dropped the entire glass to the ground and bent over, coughing, trying to clear his throat of the soda. Looking up at Fili with wide eyes and a scared look, Kili jumped back from the spreading puddle before it could cover his boots. “I don’t like that,” he stated simply before snatching up the plate and hurrying back to the sofa. As he took his time with the first piece, Kili quickly discovered whatever it was he was given was actually pretty good and proceeded to finish the plate quickly, making a saucy mess over his cheeks and hands.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili was surprised to say the least by the boy’s reaction to the meal, especially the soda. It was very strange to see, like if the boy had a taste of it all for the first time. Quickly picking up the spilled glass, he grabbed some paper towels and began to clean the floor when a thought came to him. Leaving the mess as is, he dashed to his room and frantically searched through his closet until he found a photo album. He searched each page until he found an old picture of him with Kili at the beach; he was 17 with long golden hair, during his surfer phase and Kili was 10 years old. His eyes instantly widen but he took the picture out and dropped the album as he hurried back to the boy on the sofa. Putting the picture beside the child’s face he compared the boys. His breath hitched and his sweat ran cold as his eyes were unable to tell the two faces apart, “No way…” he muttered covering his mouth and shaking his head in disbelief.

 He stood up and paced around the room trying to put the pieces together, but whatever he came up with was too surreal. Searching again for his cel. phone he dialed to his uncle and asked if Kili was with him, after he was told no and that he should keep his brother more in check he hung up and phoned Kili’s best friend, Rob. His brow greatly furrowed when he too said he hadn’t seen Kili that day; this was very unusual of Kili to disappear like that and without his phone. Then his eyes fell upon this boy that claimed to be Kili, the /only/ Kili in all middle-earth. Sitting back in front of him he shows him the picture, “Kili,” he said carefully, “Do you remember this day? Do you remember us being on this beach?” he asked unable to hide the shake in his voice. Whatever was happening, his heart was sinking thinking that something terrible has happened to his Kili and that this boy could be a blast from their past.

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

As the other Fili began walking through the home, Kili stood there in complete shock, looking around at everything. There were so many things he’d never seen before and it left him feeling even more scared and out of wits than before. When Fili returned and hoisted him up onto the sofa, Kili scrambled back and curled up around himself, burying his face in his arms to try and hide from it all. “Why do you keep yelling for me?” He asked weakly, too exhausted anymore to even cry. Letting out a shakey sigh, he slowly looked back up to Fili. “I’m right /here/! I’m the only Kili in all of Middle-Earth! That’s what momma said!” Kili was about to fall back into a fit of loud cries until he registered what this Fili had mentioned about food and he quickly snapped his eyes back up.

"Do you have any roast mutton? We was supposed to have it for supper but I don’t think I’m going to make it home in time for it… I’m going to be in a lot of trouble, aren’t I? B-but you can tell uncle that we tried but I don’t know the way home from here. I think when I fell and hit my head that a traveling merchant came by. Uncle always warned me to watch out for that ‘cause they will sell me in the markets. Was that where you were?" He asked curiously, remembering the bag of food Fili had when he found him. "Did you see any other dwarves there? Maybe the one who took me maybe he can show me the path he took. Cause I don’t think we’re very close to Ered Luin anymore. I don’t know these areas…" As he spoke, Kili slowly sat back up and loosened his tense posture, even flashing Fili a small smile. It bothered him that this stranger reminded him so much of his brother and being in his company helped put him at ease, but it didn’t help him miss his own brother very much. It was all confusing him more and more as the seconds ticked by.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili’s brow knitted with each given word by this boy; what was he going on about? Middle-Earth? Roast mutton? Dwarves? Ered Luin? This kid’s imagination was quite large for his age and more so his acting; it all just sounded like it came from a fantasy story. But why would the boy act when he is in a strange place with a stranger? What was the point in continuing a game when he is clearly frightened? It was all confusing Fili all the more, but when this Kili smiled at him, he felt his heart stop. It was exactly Kili’s smile, his Kili’s; the smile that easily wins him over and soothes his worries away from the moment he was born. Swallowing hard he reaches out towards the boy and lifts his bangs; there it was. A small bump with a few reddened scratches; the boy was telling some sort of truth. Maybe the hit hallucinated the boy into believing this little story inside his imagination. But how did he know about their names? And why did he resemble his brother so much? This was getting weirder by the minute.

Rubbing his face he stood up and headed to the kitchen; he wasn’t sure how to take all of this, but this Kili seemed to be hungry. So he made the quickest thing he could find; opening the freezer he took some pizza bagel bites and popped them in the microwave. Giving them the proper timing, he takes them out and sets them on a plate. He serves a glass of coke and take the items to the kitchen counter, “Hey, uhm, Kili, come on over and eat this. It’s not roast…mutton, but its tasty,” he said figuring that humoring the boy for a bit could ease him.  

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili felt the blood drop from his face as he heard the boy name every single member of his family like one of his own, including claim his brother’s name as his. The more he looked at the boy the more his resemblance to Kili became more apparent and real; the more those wide brown eyes became familiar to him. He felt his breathe hitch and he had to gather his thoughts as he took it all in; what was happening? Why was this boy claiming to be Kili and part of the Durin line? Even naming their mother who had…Fili looked at the boy who kept an intense gaze on him, making a flutter go down his chest and swallowed hard, “I am Fili…Fili of Durin, Son of…Dis, brother to Kili, eldest nephew of Thorin Oakenshield,” he recited the way he was taught to do from a very young age.

His brow was deeply furrowed by now, not sure how to take this or even to believe it. But something was going down; this so called Kili knowing too much about his family. Taking a deep breath he picked up his scattered groceries from the ground and put them back inside his bag. One thing was for certain, he wasn’t going to resolve anything sitting there with nothing but curious lurkers who are unwilling to help. He looked at the child carefully; the boy was obviously terrified out of his mind and his brow softened and put a hand softly on his shoulder, “Look, Kee, I don’t know what is going on and I am afraid of what is happening too. But I need you to calm down and come with me,” and stood up offering him a hand, “I promise I’m not going to hurt you.”

[littleprincekee]

Kili couldn’t explain what made him feel so compelled to follow the man, but he reached out slowly with a tremble hand and gripped the one offered up to him for help. As he stood, he reached down and scooped up his wannabe sword, clutching it tight. His hand stayed with Fili’s and Kili couldn’t help but frown at how much smaller his was than this strange form of his brother. It felt different than what he was used too; larger, stronger, rougher. It all made him miss his home and real Fili even more, the tears now rolling freely down his face though no sounds were coming from him. Kili refused to let go on the hand as they began walking and he stuck as close to Fili’s legs as he could without tripping the man, wide eyes scanning the unfamiliar world with great curiosity. As the grass thinned to a concrete path, Kili let out a scared gasp and darted behind Fili’s legs, hiding behind them as large colorful beasts whizzed by at a speed much similar to the horses he was used to seeing where he lived.

Not wanting to look too much like a scared little child, Kili loosened his grip on Fili’s legs and stepped beside him once more, raising his sword in a similiar fashion to what he saw his brother use when he snuck out to watch him train before. Kili tried focusing in on one of the beasts, finding their speed too much and narrowed his eyes as a red light flicked on and a row of them slowed to a stop. More confused than anything, Kili looked up to Fili and wiped his cheeks free from the tears. “D-do you kill these?” He asked softly, not wanting to alert whatever it was to their presence and glancing a peak at them once more from the corner of his eyes. When he saw the people of this Fili’s land sitting inside, his brow furrowed deeply and his lip jutted out in complete disbelief, his heart thudding horribly fast with how confused and upset he was over everything going on.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili looked down at the boy confused, “Kill? You mean the cars?” judging by his clothes, he figured the boy must still be on some sort of make believe game and decided to humor him, “No we don’t kill these, but they can kill us if we are not careful when we cross by them. Come on,” he said gripping this so called Kili’s hand tighter as they crossed the street. Reaching the other side he looked down at Kili and frowned slightly; he kept noticing how the kid would scare easily and looked genuinely disoriented. Fili found it very strange, but then again this whole situation was far from normal. “Look, uhm…Kee, I live in that building over there,” and pointed at a bone white building with its borders painted black, “We have to cross the street again but this time we don’t have a traffic light to help us stop the cars, so I’m going to pick you up to make it easier for us to go cross, alright?” and adjusted his grocery bags on one arm and slowly wrapped his other arm under Kili’s bottom, “I’m not going to hurt you,” he reassured him as he lifted him up.

Looking both ways before crossing, Fili quicken his steps to get to the other. He didn’t put Kili down until they reached the floor where his apartment was. Standing by the door he set Kili on the ground and searched for his keys; he opened it and ushered the boy in, “Kili?” he called out locking the door and making his way in. He set the bags on the counter and hurried to his room, “Kee?” he called again as he stepped into the room; the bed was empty and there was no sign of him around the apartment either. He frowned and searched for his cel. phone and quickly texted him. Seconds later of sending it he heard the sound of Kili’s phone on the nightstand, “Dammit, Kee,” he muttered as he shook his head and sighed. He must have left to their uncle’s or a friend’s house and forgot his phone. Remembering he had that little Kili in his living room he rushed over to him, “Uh…alright,” he stared down at the child and passed a hand through his stubble, “Sit here,” he said helping Kili on the couch and he sat on the coffee table facing him. He stared at him more trying to comprehend what was happening, but until his grown Kili came back he wasn’t so sure what to do, “Uhm…are you hungry?”   

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

"NO!" Kili shrieked, scrambling back even further from him. He caught the blue eyes that could calm in in an instant and locked onto them, trying to force himself to stay upset in proof that those blue eyes did not belong to his brother. "You are NOT FilI! Not my Fili!” With balled up fists, Kili rubbed his eyes hard and blinked several times, crying out in frustration now when the new form of Fili refused to go. But the more Kili started wide eyed into the blue ones staring back at him, his sobs sobered into a mere hiccup. Sighing in defeat, Kili rubbed the snot from under his nose with the back of his hand and looked down at the ground sadly. “M-my name is Kili,” he started, trying to remember the proper introduction he was trained to give. “K-Kili of Durin, um. B-brother to Fili, son o-of Dis and sister son t-to Thorin Oakenshield!”

Looking back up at the man claiming to be named Fili, Kili shot him a desperate look. “Y-you aren’t Fee! I-I want Fee!” The warm tears quickly refilled the scared boys eyes and rolled down his cheeks, mingling with the old ones before dropping off his face. He quickly pulled himself back into his curled up position and rested his chin on his arms this time, keeping his eyes locked only on the blue ones, seeking the comfort the orbs brought him. “Why do you look like him?” The boy asked weakly with a trembling jaw, trying hard to keep his growing emotions at bay. 

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili felt the blood drop from his face as he heard the boy name every single member of his family like one of his own, including claim his brother’s name as his. The more he looked at the boy the more his resemblance to Kili became more apparent and real; the more those wide brown eyes became familiar to him. He felt his breathe hitch and he had to gather his thoughts as he took it all in; what was happening? Why was this boy claiming to be Kili and part of the Durin line? Even naming their mother who had…Fili looked at the boy who kept an intense gaze on him, making a flutter go down his chest and swallowed hard, “I am Fili…Fili of Durin, Son of…Dis, brother to Kili, eldest nephew of Thorin Oakenshield,” he recited the way he was taught to do from a very young age.

His brow was deeply furrowed by now, not sure how to take this or even to believe it. But something was going down; this so called Kili knowing too much about his family. Taking a deep breath he picked up his scattered groceries from the ground and put them back inside his bag. One thing was for certain, he wasn’t going to resolve anything sitting there with nothing but curious lurkers who are unwilling to help. He looked at the child carefully; the boy was obviously terrified out of his mind and his brow softened and put a hand softly on his shoulder, “Look, Kee, I don’t know what is going on and I am afraid of what is happening too. But I need you to calm down and come with me,” and stood up offering him a hand, “I promise I’m not going to hurt you.”

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

[littleprincekee]

Hearing a strange, familiar form of the voice he was hoping to hear most, Kili didn’t even look up before launching himself at the figure crouching before him. His arms spread wide as he knocked the man to the ground, burying his face in his chest and ignoring whatever it was in his arms that spilled to the ground beside them. It took him but just a split second to realize the chest was far too strong and wide to be Fili’s, though the calming scent was there, masked under a more unfamiliar scent. When Kili pulled back, from a quick scan, he didn’t recognize the man at all. He figured his mind played a cruel trick on him, letting him think Fili would actually be in this strange part of the land and he scrambled back, crawling away as his tears resumed terribly hard. “L-l-leave me alone!” He nearly screamed at the familiar stranger, looking at him with impossibly wide eyes.

It was Fili, but it wasn’t Fili. The hair was far too short, the body completely different and none of it made any sense to Kili. Drawing his legs close to his chest, Kili quickly hid his soaked face inside his arms and resumed calling out for his brother, though his voice much stronger and nearing a scream by now as fear completely consumed him. The useless weapon which seemed to be the only thing Kili knew in these strange parts sat helpless by his feet and Kili quickly forgot about it. Through his sobbing, a well heard ‘F-F-F-FEE!” ripped from his throat, though muffled from his hunched over position and Kili quickly snapped his head up, hoping the strange man resembling his brother in an odd way had left and the correct Fili came.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili was rather dumbfounded when the child launched towards him like that and as he sat up their eyes locked. A gasp left his mouth as the uncanny resemblance to Kili when he was younger was sitting before him; those eyes, those wide brown eyes that he knew so well were right there in front of him in that child’s face.  He looked around again, shaking his head as the idea seemed so stupid to him, that couldn’t be Kili. Kili was at his apartment all grown; this was all nothing but a mere coincidence. An unspeakable resemblance, nothing more. Still no parents around. But when his childhood pet name, given by Kili himself, shrieked from the boy’s throat, he jerked his head towards him, “Wha…who are you calling, boy?” he asked noting the odd clothing he was wearing. He assumed the boy just came from a school play or simply enjoyed playing pretend, “Where are your parents?” he asked scanning the place once more, but all he got were curious looks from people walking by them, “I just want to help you,” he said, even though he was unable to shake off that odd feeling inside his chest, especially now that he saw the boy’s eyes. And the name…he must have heard wrong from all the sobbing the kid was making, “My name is Fili,” he said trying to calm the child, “I am a soldier, I help people. What is your name?” he asked carefully, having that sensation inside his chest grow.   

[littleprincekee]

Crossover!RP | Closed Starter

He knew he should have listened to his mother; the concern etched in her face and the stern tone in her voice should have been enough of a warning for him to stick close to their home. “Do not go wandering, Kili. Stay where myself or your brother can still see you, do you understand me?” But Kili was too eager to abide by Dis’ warning. The further he ventured from his home, the wider his grin grew and the more excited he became over his little impromptu adventure. The thicket of trees casted a dark shadow around him and Kili clutched his makeshift twig sword tightly as he weaved in and out of thick, heavy roots. As he began feeling overly confident in his abilities, or lack thereof, of his scouting around for nothing in particular, Kili didn’t notice the throng of roots twisting menacingly near his next step. His foot went right through, and as he fell, he was unable to stop himself. The first thing that connected with the ground was his head before his hands made it out to stop himself.

Kili awoke some time later with a throbbing headache and a sore foot. In a moment of blind panic, he began crying out and clutching his thigh in an attempt for extra leverage to remove his foot from the tight grip. Only when he gave a great yank, he found no resistant and looked down, startled to find nothing but bright green grass beneath him. Kili scrambled to his knees, tears streaming down his face, and he looked around, crying out once more when he realized he had absolutely no idea where he was. His surroundings were highly unfamiliar to him and it left his heart beating wildly in his chest. Jumping to his feet and reaching down for his stick sword once more, Kili got into the best battle stance he could as he scanned the strange lands.

Adults walked by and looked at the small child with curious glances, but continued on with whatever they were doing. Kili’s eyes widened when he saw their strange garb and looked down to see he was still in the clothing he remembered himself to be in. The more he looked around, the more scared he became until he fell back down to the ground, his small body now wracked with uncontrollable sobs, weakly calling out for his brother, mother or even uncle; anyone who could come rescue him from this strange place he didn’t want to even be in. 

[yourgoldenlover]

“Happy to be back on land, eh, soldier?” the grocer said as he handed Fili his bags. Fili chuckled lightly and nodded, “You have no idea, Steven. Great seeing you,” and took off out of the small supermarket near his apartment. After two days of being back home, he had to make a small grocery list to fill his refrigerator; a task he had left for Kili to do when he was away on his military leave. But he had missed doing simple things such as that and was content walking around the friendly little town where he purchased his apartment. There was a park on his way and decided to give himself a treat and headed towards it. If he remembered well, there was an ice cream truck nearby the kids playground; from a distance he saw it and smile to himself. So long inside a navy ship with nothing but water around them, same people, same faces, over and over, training, having sergeants bossing you around, he needed a getaway from it all and a little dessert was the right way to start.

Fixing the bags on his hands, he continued his bee line towards the truck, when suddenly some sobs got to his hearing range. At first he didn’t gave much thought to it, figuring the child’s parent would soon go to his aid. But it was the faint calling through the incessant sobbing of his name that made him freeze on the spot; a cold shiver hit him and his eyes widen. It sounded terribly like the way Kili would call him when he got hurt or scared. But that was when they were kids; Kili was now a 17 year old brat that was still sleeping on his bed being 2:00 in the afternoon. An odd feeling arose inside his chest and he looked back to see the crouching figure of the crying boy. Furrowing his brow he swallowed hard and turned to look at him better. He could see the back of the kid; his stomach dropped when he saw the child’s long locks of brown hair, so similar to the way his Kili sported since forever. He looked around noting how no adult was rushing to boy’s aid; unable to bare the crying coming from the child, Fili made his way to him. He was cautious not to startle the boy and slowly crouch down in front of him, “Hey,” he said as soothing as possible, “Are you alright, boy?” and tilted his head to see if he could catch the boy’s eyes.  

[yourgoldenlover]

[Closed RP] Rendezvous

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

Kili let out a puff of air and smiled sadly in response to Fili’s question. There was no doubt in his mind that something was off and bothering him, but there was also no way possible for Kili to ever explain it. Instead he shrugged and slouched back, frowning. “Teenage blues?” He knew Fili would never accept that answer so he quickly looked away, not able to look at his brother with the surge of shame he felt go through him. “I just got a lot on my mind lately, that’s all. You know what it’s like. Stupid crushes, trying to chill with friends and still get homework done. I dunno, Fee. This school thing just isn’t for me right now. And the more uncle pushes for me to do better, the more I just want to smack him across the face with one of my text books and just fucking drop out or something, you know?”

Realizing he was able to skirt around the true reason for him not being able to focus in class, Kili let out a small sigh of relief, already thinking about lighting up that second joint he had stashed in his drawer. How do you even begin to tell your brother that he is the reason you are failing? Because you can’t get him out of your mind, no matter what you do? It was the last time Fili came home that got Kili so hung up like this. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, but it was like something inside Kili’s mind just clicked on and he was smitten ever since. It was bad enough not being able to see his big brother as is, but now that he had these strange……. Feelings for him, it made it all even worse. Instead of doing homework at night, Kili would just lay there amongst his scattered school books and daydream until he actually fell asleep for the night. In school, he’d be sitting at his desk, wondering what Fili was doing at that exact moment; was he alright, was he on duty, maybe in his room, hanging with his roommate, did they dock and he found himself a beautiful girl to… Realizing he was deeply lost in thought, Kili looked up with flushed cheeks and a sad, hurt look in his eyes. 

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili frowned catching his brother’s expression and his hand absently went in to touch his brother’s cheek over the screen. What was going on inside his baby brother’s mind? He knew him all too well and could tell Kili wasn’t saying what was truly bothering him. He understood that being a teen isn’t always easy, especially when dealing with crushes; takes practically all of your thoughts and ruin whatever other task you had to do. He swallowed hard as his stomach churned a bit at the thought of Kili liking someone else; it was a stupid feeling he knew but couldn’t help it. He wasn’t dumb or stupid to understand why exactly he felt that way, he knew. As soon as he learned what true love is, he knew he had an unnatural love for his little brother. He always felt Kili was very special to him and as they grew older so did his love for him. It was a major reason why he decided to enlist to the Marines as soon as he graduated from high school; he had to make distance between them. Literal distance.

Last time he came to visit, he also purchased an apartment, having earned enough to get one on his own without the help of his uncle. He was very proud of it and to celebrate he asked Kili to stay over. That night they played video games and watched movies all night while eating take out. They both felt on top of the world, not having a stern uncle to tell them to keep it down or to go to bed, nor having a drill sergeant telling you to behave like a soldier. While watching a movie, he had his arm extended over the backrest of the sofa and Kili comfortably cuddled up against him. It wasn’t rare for them to cuddle, but that night Fili felt his body react to the closeness and it alarmed him; he was longing for his baby brother and that was unacceptable. Clearing his throat he sat straighter and decided not to push the conversation any further, “Hey, you promised me to roll on the grass and show me land,” and smiled trying to lighten the mood, “You better make it good too.”

[yourgoldenlover]

[Closed RP] Rendezvous

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

As the blond began flexing, Kili’s smile quickly faded. His eyes refused to look anywhere else and he knew he was staring, jaw slightly ajar, but he couldn’t help it. Ever since they were younger, Kili had found he had a deepening fascination with his brothers body, and as he got older and started figuring out a few things, that fascination changed into more of a guilty pleasure. It was clearly obvious that Fili had been able to focus on his body since he enlisted in the military and every time they chatted, it seemed Fili’s muscles deepened and grew. Kili was thankful for whatever it was he was doing in his life that kept him so in shape. Clearing his throat, Kili quickly snapped his gaze away and began fussing with the drawstrings on his basketball shorts once more in a nervous tic. “Y-yeah… Yeah, you’re getting there,” he forced himself to say with a soft chuckle, hoping Fili couldn’t catch the tint his cheeks turned over the webcam.

As he was looking down, Kili caught sight of the small bit of pudge his belly made as he sat and couldn’t help but frown. He wasn’t terribly out of shape, but he wasn’t exactly fit either. It didn’t bother him most of the time, but there were the few times he compared himself to his brother and it left him without an appetite for days, but Kili quickly caught on and tried to remind himself that Fili was actually making an effort to make himself look better while all Kili did was skateboard. The brunett knew he could just as easily put time and work into himself to give himself a similar type of build, but he knew the person he was in love with would never love him back, and not because he had a bit of chunk to him, but for entirely different reasons, so Kili found no real motivation to do so. “So the vibe I’m getting,” Kili tried pushing everything from his mind and just enjoy his conversation with his brother, “is that you are doing absolutely nothing else on that little boat you’re on than working on your muscles. Am I right? Or am I right?”

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili chuckled relaxing his muscles and set his tank top to the side, “Well, it’s all part of the schedule. The days I’m not on duty, I train,” he said and scratched his chin, “It’s not always exercising, though. Some days I train with guns or I’m put on a simulation if we were under attack,” and shrugged his shoulders, “But I admit, I do enjoy it,” and smiled looking at his brother. From a young age he always had a thing for exercising and anything that required strength, which was why he had joined the wrestling team at his school. Joining the Marines was the next best thing for him, even though he greatly hated to be away from his family for long; especially from Kili. “Now, tell me what’s all this about getting bad grades. What’s going on, squirt?,” he asked in a more serious tone. This was part of what he hated the most from being far away from his little brother, to know that something may be wrong with Kili and he isn’t there to do anything about it. He had always been very protective of him, even from their uncle. Always finding a way to defend him or have his uncle cut some slack whenever he grounded Kili. To know that there may be some troubles Kili is going through and making his grades slip worried him greatly.

[yourgoldenlover]

[Closed RP] Rendezvous

[darkhairedarcher-deactivated201]

Kili chuckled and was about to protest the thought of Fili ever misbehaving enough to see the neck vein in full effect, the request for the video chat came through and his heart nearly pounded through his chest. It was the same reaction lately every time they spoke over webcam and Kili had hoped he’d gotten over his unexplainable nervousness. In the moment of mild panic as he scrambled to sit straighter, Kili meant to decline the request to give himself enough time to make himself look halfway decent, but he clicked accept. Unknowing to him, under the impression he clicked the other button, Kili threw his laptop down onto the bed and began fussing with his disheveled hair, join hanging loosely between his lips. When he looked down and saw Fili staring up at him, he nearly joked on the smoke, turning the laptop away so Fili couldn’t see him couldn’t. He finally just stubbed the rest of the joint out on his bedside desk and smoothed down his shirt before settling back against the headboard, laptop resting on his knees.

"You can’t mess with someone like that when they’re high, Fee," he stated half mockingly, half seriously. Kili’s wide smile quickly appeared as he studied his brothers appearance. It bothered him how much he missed the blond and just how excited he got for these little moments to see him. Relaxing a little more, Kili pulled his hair over his shoulder and slouched some, unable to tear his gaze away from the man that’d been haunting his every waking and sleeping thought for quite some time now. "You still don’t look like a stereotypical military brat yet. Maybe I need to phone your boss man and request he gives you an extra shift or two." He shot his brother a wink to show he was only joking.

[yourgoldenlover]

Fili chuckled quietly as he watched his brother trying to get decent for the camera; it was even funnier to see him with the joint still on his lips. But as his little brother fussed over his appearance, Fili’s gaze softened taking the chance to take in the image. Kili was such a character; he never stopped to amaze him. He adored the arch of Kili’s thick eyebrows that framed so well his almond shaped wide eyes; his eyes are his favorite feature, they are so expressive. They always have the power to persuade him to bend him to whatever wish they had. Their uncle always looked down at the way he would always “spoil” Kili, but isn’t that what big brother’s do? He always knew Kili was different from their uncle and him; his demeanor being more sensitive but can be just as stubborn as Thorin, hence why he believes they always butthead with the other.

“Me? Mess with a person who’s high? Nonsense!” he chuckled, “You know you don’t have to pretty yourself up to see me, squirt,” and smiled admiring Kili’s own smile; his second favorite feature. Kili’s smile had the power to erase any worry or trouble from his mind and would always brighten his day. He was beautiful in Fili’s mind, which he knew it was an odd way to think about a brother. “Excuse me, but what is that suppose to mean? Look,” he said leaning back a bit and took his tank off, his dog tags came bustling down to his chest as soon as they broke free from the top, “Is this what you want?” and flexed his arms and chest, “Is this what a military brat suppose to look like?” and made a face as he flexed again.