"If I'm not getting stronger, what's the point?" -RZ

Welcome to MY world.

[yourmissnay]

[yourmissnay]

It's been in the end of 2018 already. May the new year brings the joy and the best verse of my self. Happy new year everyone! 😊

[yourmissnay]

Hi, Dad. How’s heaven? Do you like staying there? Which one you like more, stay there or here with me? Well, fine. You don’t need to answer. You can’t answer it anyway. I don’t need your answer. I just need your presence. Hell yes, I miss you Dad. You just left 100 days ago, but I miss you more than anything in the world. I miss you like hell. I’ve never been a cry baby before. You raised me tough, and I grew up as a strong girl. I never cry because of any little things. I didn’t cry when I fight with boy in elementary school. I didn’t cry when I fell from the bus in junior high school. My ex hurted me but it didn’t make me cry either. I don’t even cry when you die. But these days my eyes just like a leaked tap. I was crying every single night, when I was alone in my room. I thought it just because I was tired. But it wasn’t. It was you. When I was alone, the memories about you hitted me so hard. I suddenly can remembered how your smell. I remembered how it feels when your warm hand rubbed my back till I fell asleep. How your pointed nose sniffed my cheek when you kiss me. Your harsh words when you thought me drive. Your angry face when I came home late. Your silent when you’re mad at me. And then, I realized about something. I never cry when Mom mad at me, or when someone else yelled at me. I only cry if YOU mad at me. Mad and dissapointed. Even if you didn’t say anything and acted like everything’s okay, I’ll knew when you held those feelings and i’ll cry. Even now, I cry so hard when I working on this post. I cry because I miss you, Dad. I cry because I miss you but I can’t hug you. I cry because I made you dissapointed so many times. I cry because I made you mad at me countless times. I cry because I’m not yet telling you how bad I am. I cry because I didn’t get any chance to apologize to you. I’m so sorry Dad. For being a rude girl. For smoking each times I feel hard. For playing around and spend most of your money. For being a childish girl. I never hate you, Dad. I love you but God loves you more, and I’m happy about it. Rest in peace, Dad. Sleep well, let’s meet each other in heaven.

[yourmissnay]

What I learn today is on this picture. This picture looks so good, and I suddenly imagined how delicious the taste. But when I ate the food, the taste was so far out from the expectation. So, don't judge anything only by the look. That's what I've got.

[yourmissnay]

Have you ever been on the worst-scenario-self-apearance? Well, I did. Many times. Fortunately, I have some companies that bring back my bright day. So, let's meet my traveling-life-saving mates! 1) Aloe Vera Gel. I've got sunburn after spent all day under the sunlight. This mate helped me to cooling and shooting my skin immediately. 2) Hair Scent. When I was so busy and there's no time to wash my hair then my hair smell so... ugh. I'll sprayed this buddy all over my hair and tadaaa... my hair's smell good all day, instantly. 3) Aromatherapy Oil. When I suddenly got headache, cold symptoms, or felt sickening, just inhale this oil and put a little amount on my temples and back of my neck. It feels so refreshing. 4) Hair Clasp. Well, I think most of girl with medium to long hair have this item at least one in each bags 😆 5) Orange Concealer. It's not okay to have dark circle under the eyes on your traveling pictures. So yeah, this company really helped you remove those spots. Well, those are my 5 life savers. What are yours? Feel free to told me, I'll be glad to hear 😆😙💋💄

[yourmissnay]

God gave you shoes to fit you. Just put 'em on and wear them. Be yourself, be proud of who you are. 👞👠👣 #shoestagram #oxfords #leather #comfy #mystyle #whatiworetoday #womenstyle #oxfordshoes #instafashion #shoesaddict #shoesoftheday #haveanicaday

[yourmissnay]

"I'm not crying because I'm sad. It's because of the wind that's blowing." ☔🍃 #instaweather #rainyday #gloomy #heavyrain #grayday #rainyweather #raining #chill #fingermood #instamood #gloomyday #fingerstyle

[farhanashahnaz]

Tips for transforming a bedroom into a dream space

1. Simplify. Having less things in my room has made it a more peaceful place, and easier to keep clean.

2. Bright clean whites has made my small bedroom feel a lot bigger. I chose white bedding, and white walls, and introduced color with pillows and throws. 

3. Opening the thicker curtains during the day helps my room feel like less of a cave, and nothing beats beautiful natural light. I have sheer curtains to filter the light a bit, and it really brightens the space.

4. Plants! I love having living things in my room, and having a few succulents on the window sill and on my nightstand is so easy. They don’t need much care, and are an easy way to decorate.

5. Invest in your bedding. I had the same sheet set for years and years, and recently started buying new bedding and I love it! Soft sheets, cuddly pillows — treat yourself when it comes to your bed. 

6. Make your room personal, put paintings up you painted, frame photos of you and your best friends, or decorate with something you love. 

7. Make it have its very own vibe, whether it’s a clean white room, to dark wood and dark bedding, to twinkly lights and decorated walls, just make it completely your style!

[yourmissnay]

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[yourmissnay]

覆水盆に帰らず。

[yourmissnay]

Faith means living with uncertainty feeling your way through life, letting your heart guide you like a lantern in the dark. - Dan Millman -

(at Taman Lampion Monjali Jogja)

[yourmissnay]

In relationship, the one who expect more from their partner is the one that will hurt the most

[ps-imadethis]

They say variety is the spice of life, and this little slice will do just that for your bag collection. Inspired by Kate Spade’s stylish take on summer’s fan-favorite fruit, the juicy colors of this watermelon tote and the fun you’ll have painting it make for a DIY that is TOTES amaze. 

To create: Block off the top portion of the tote bag with painter’s tape. With a paint brush, fill in the area with pink fabric paint. Next, paint the bottom portion with green fabric paint. Once dry, remove the tape, then tape off a middle strip, filling in with lime fabric paint. Let dry completely, then glue the black gems across the pink section in a scattered pattern.

[yourmissnay]

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[yourmissnay]

I'm 21 years old. I'm also a Daddy's girl.

[yourmissnay]

If our love is only a will to possess, it is not love. It's ambition.

[yourmissnay]

5 Things I Hate More Than Anything

When: 1. Someone making a mess in an unstable situation, DELIBERATELY. 2. Looking for somethings I need and can't find it anywhere. 3. Being disturbed when I'm focus on doing something. 4. People borrowing my stuff and they don't return it. 5. Someone order me like they're God.

[yourmissnay]

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