Finding The Person I Want To Be.

Fitness. Happiness. Outdoors.

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(by Ása Steinarsdóttir)

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MISANTHROPY

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SAME STUFF

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St. Elmo’s Fire

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What is a legacy?

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This is our cat Simba, just relaxing on the stairs smiling at the camera

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Quarantine 15 is a THING. Orange and blue top was exactly one week ago, June 11. And the black top is today, one week later. For one week that’s a significant amount of progress. I’ll keep updating. :)

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Do you ever catch yourself like, “how does this person live with me, I’m such a ____” (fill in the blank).

I do this constantly to myself. It’s unhealthy self talk and TERRIBLE for my relationship. No one I’m so insecure.

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I am going through weird cycles where I don’t poop for like 2-3 days and then I poop like 3 times in a day and then another 2-3 days without pooping. 😭

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When the right thing to do isn’t fun.

Like get up at midnight and to put the awning in because the wind feels like it’s going to rip it off the front of the trailer.

But then when you’re done with that your body mysteriously tells you, you need to poop. So now I’m sitting in the barn bathroom on the composting toilet and it’s 12:25 am and I am alone. And EXHAUSTED. Holy shit. I am so tired. My limbs feel like they weight 50 lbs each.

And I’m not even getting that much poop out.

Did I mention that throughout the process Eric was extremely grumpy and snapping at me, like I wanted to be out there putting the awning in either?! 😔

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My thoughts have been traveling to dark places lately and I have been unable to shut them off.

Reviews at work are coming in April, my mind went to the worst option, they are going to let me go. I haven’t been the best employee lately and that’s really taking a toll on how I feel about my job. I need to correct that and change how I’m treating work.

I am starting to obsess about things with Tara again and be upset when things aren’t going how I want them to... it’s challenging. I just need to distract my mind with things that really matter and focus on things other than Tara. My ego is having a really hard time with her being present in our lives.

I don’t want to slip again. I’ve been in the dark places before and I really don’t want to be there again.

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When you want to be a mom really bad but you know you have to wait...

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I am a boss bitch. I have my shit together. I am doing the right things. I’m not giving myself enough credit for all that I am accomplishing. I am proud of this body and all the hard work it reflects.