Melodramatic

Just writing my own thing 

[yourqueensofie]

Tunnel

It's dark And I keep holding my breath.

Every step I hold unto this invisible thread Because as much as I hate it I don't want to leave yet.

I won't deny I'm crumbled and broken, And the world deserves better A thousand times more.

Every time I fall for someone new The feeling of how lucky I am always fades away. And I'm left feeling out of place.

Remorse, Guilt, Regret, And the whispers in my head. It's dark in this tunnel And the light is just a step farther away... I see it. I long for it. God knows I do.

It's all that I ever wanted. It has always been a dream, But do I really want it to come true?

[yourqueensofie]

I Told You So

When we were young,

we think too much

And quickly think

we know enough.

We hear stories.

And find mistakes.

Keep them by heart

To not have the same fate.

We thought we knew,

But then we don’t.

We said we’d be satisfied,

But faced with remorse.

We thought we’ll know

What must be done.

But here we are wishing

To go back to the start.

We said we won’t

Be the same as them

But here we’re holding tears

Keep lying to ourselves.

[yourqueensofie]

Unsaid

Measuring by time

Something so common.

No one decides

To stop for a moment

And think that maybe

Things are different.

See you standing there,

Your sight still overwhelms.

Been a long time since that day,

Where my feelings were certain.

Put a hand on my chest,

Still find the rhythm.

Your girl stands by you.

Remember she was the one that told me to

Not be afraid and take a leap,

Might find myself with you.

Now she's with you.

I lost you.

You said hello

Like there was never a history

Saying our names

Means a lot harder than it is

Everyone thinks we're over it

But for a moment we still are not through

How tempting to say out loud that I miss you.

[yourqueensofie]

Promise Me You'll Be Okay

I was lost.

I knew that.

Surprisingly, you came along. .

You had me covered.

My eyes widened.

Your warmth comforts.

.

Under the twilight skies,

Our youth so wild.

Nothing really mattered.

.

Then, I woke up.

I felt cold out of the sudden.

Knowing I can’t dream you all over.

[yourqueensofie]

Rebound Me

Hey

Are you okay?

Heard your girlfriend broke up with you 

before your game.

Say

Is it worth the pain?

Is it worth the tears?

Is she the last girl in the world?

Just stopping by

Wanna tell you I like you.

Would you mind

To be my guy?

Let’s go on dates 

and road trips would be nice

Promise I won’t break your heart

But also don’t hurt mine. 

.

.

.

.

.

.

Yet in the end 

We broke up so easily

Turns out I’m just your rebound.

A play date for a week.

Was it worth it?

Yes, I love you

I really do

But you were never mine.

Hope I could easily say goodbye. 

*Actually, this is a song that I wrote with my ukulele. Kinda inspired by Melanie Martinez’s song, Play Date.

[yourqueensofie]

Unsaid Truth

No one knows

how much she cares

that she hates herself

for betraying a friend

that was never her intent.

.

I’m sorry 

that I don’t know how to stop.

Now, I must lie awake at night

thinking of you

The lie I wished was the truth.

[yourqueensofie]

When I Think of You

Would’ve things went better had I not met him that day; that way- he smiled and as we held our gazes as if it’s not the first day, as if we knew each other for years and years. 

.

Would’ve things went better had I treated him way different that what he is, a girl’s long lost dream, well- guarded as I held unto his love for me tightly in fear he would be gone before my eyes can blink.

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Would’ve things went better had I not tried to reach for the brightest star that caught my attention at the moment I was in lonely and vulnerable in the dark. 

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Would’ve things went better had I not been so keen to see the love in front of me, not so big comparing to the love he given her with.

.

Yes, I feel the warmth of the ‘brotherly’ love as I sat beside him to talk about our day. Things would’ve turned a different way had I chose not to stay and forget the love I learned when we met.

That day. That way. Which made me stay.

[cosmicvngel]

I’m clingy as fuck but I can also get distant real quick. depends on how you treat me

[yourqueensofie]

Intentions

No one knows

Yet the answer is simple

Why I chose what is wrong;

Scared of never falling at all.

.

I never cared

If he would leave much sooner.

All I wanted then

Was to know love once if not forever.

.

Keep your sorry.

It was never your fault

That I fell

I should not have dared.

.

I already know.

[stargazerinmoksha]

the way you talk about the things you love makes me wonder if you talk about me with that same excitement when i’m not around and i’m not around quite a bit, so you have plenty of time to perfect the craft of making the most simple of things into something pure-hearted at best and to always be done with that same amount of energy— i love the way that you love things, i’m just happy that you love me like that too.

—a kindred spirit

[yourqueensofie]

The Day We Met

We first met

At the day not so special.

Dressed in casual clothes

At a dimmed- light headquarters.

The room was close to empty.

Filled by a couple of troublemakers.

And I was there when it all happened.

Time slowed out of a sudden.

I saw you across the room

Having your signature laughter.

Though, hadn’t I know then.

We met when our gazes crossed,

When I forgot to breath.

A connection formed.

Separating us never.

We met then.

A day in November.

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[yourqueensofie]

What feels like when the people you often talk with, out of the blue, just... ghost you.

[yourqueensofie]

It hurts.

I’m too young to feel this much pain.

You know why I suffer this fate?

Because I’m scared of losing you.

I’ve lost tons.

I’ve risked many.

I can’t let you slip away, too.

[thegoodvybe]

[bnmxfld]

Billie Eilish / watch