Disco Disco (Party Party)

a Disco Elysium sideblog. I'm Parker/Quinn, 28. main blog: httpsawesome

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Hello lovely people

I'm Parker and this is where I post random disco elysium thoughts that I don't want to share on my main. There will be nonsensical headcanons and finished fanfic along with fanfic rough drafts/unfinished scraps

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tags: fanfic (for finished and unfinished fanfiction), headcanon (for more serious character thoughts), funny thoughts (for unserious character thoughts), AU thoughts (the tag for every AU I think of, which will be individually tagged as well like 'android AU' or 'genderswap AU).

Most importantly: You can bug me with asks about character headcanons on any of my blogs at any time. Actively I would love random questions about characters.

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Hey I found something when I opened my laptop for the first time in MONTHS, I think I was rewriting [DRAMA] from Kim's POV

TRIVIA BUFF: Senior year. What is there to say about senior year? There are countless movies depicting this time period. Ferris Bueller’s Day Off (1986, watched four times). Booksmart (2019, watched three times). The Last Picture Show (1951, watched once). But what does it mean to you?

PRACTICALITY: It’s the year before college. Worrying about adventure and good times is for other people. This is the time to buckle down, load up your portfolio with awards and gushy letters from your teachers and make yourself the best looking candidate around. Then you can get out of his Hell hole.

Work-Study is a part of that plan. The school only opens up a few spots for students, only for seniors, only for those who have proven they can handle an intense workload without their grades suffering, given out on a needs-based motion since it pays.

ALIENATION: And you need it.

BUSY BODY: [Easy: success] - Some students might crumble under the pressure of so much, but you are not ‘some students’. Keeping up your perfect grades on top of Work Study will be no problem. Why not throw in an extracurricular on top of it all?

VOLTA DO MAR: [Medium: success] - Eventually even you can snap from an overloaded schedule. You’re doing enough.

RULE OF COOL: Imagine: you’ve pushed yourself so hard that you have a very public meltdown in front of the whole school. You’ll forever be known as the boy that went Cuckoo In Calculus, or something.

TRIVIA BUFF: [Hard: success] - Season two, episode nine of Saved By The Bell (original air date November 30th, 1990) ‘Jessie’s Song’ features Jessie taking caffeine pills (or speed) and having a mental breakdown. It is remembered mostly in an ironic, mocking sense because of its over the top acting and compressed timeline.

Kim put in his application halfway through his junior year, two minutes after the digital portal opened. Halfway through summer break he learned that he was approved to work in the front office, helping with paperwork and relieving a lot of administrative stress.

LOGIC: Good practice for the future. A lot of jobs, even outside an office, require paper documentation of everything.

PASSION: Plus, boring paperwork is kind of relaxing for you. Repetitive motions and all that.

Every senior student gets a study hall period, privilege of almost graduating, and that’s when Kim works in the front office. One day, about halfway through the year, he is called into the principal’s office. He’s sitting behind his desk, the perfect picture of authority, except for the fact that he looks out of his depth and is struggling to get whatever he wants to say out of his mouth. Kim is sitting in the chair meant for students and is trying his best to not twiddle his thumbs.

“You’re a very fine worker,” he starts, trying to keep a cover of an unshakable mentor figure but several things just aren’t clicking for him. “One of the finest we’ve ever had, truth be told.”

OVERACTIVE NERVOUS SYSTEM: Well, someone is about to be replaced. Probably by some steroid-filled football player that won’t do a damn bit of work but will get just as much recognition. Who is that someone? Take a look in the mirror and taste the rejection, baby.

COMPOSURE: [Medium: success] - “Thank you, sir.” You do not appear nervous. You do not ask

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If Cell Phones Existed in Elysium

Harry: Lost it completely with the events in Martinaise, and before the game it looked about how you would expect. Frequently cracked, broken and replaced often, and because of that its always especially cheap cell phones. What no one knew, and what Harry is unlikely to remember on his own, is that he had been careful about keeping the photos safe even if the phones get broken a lot and they were always transferred onto the new phone.

Kim: Would actually hate taking notes on his phone, greatly prefers writing everything down. Really, he rarely uses it out and about and seems outwardly incredibly lowtech. It might seem ironic, since he is a very mechanical guy and all that, but he seems like the type of guy to always prefer the 'old fashioned ways' of doing things. He does have grindr installed on his phone, hidden in several layers of folders.

Cuno: Does not have his own phone, swiped someone else's one day. It isn't currently linked to any service but it still holds a charge and can go on the internet, making it very practical for the two of them and he also does have games on his phone.

Cunoesse: Regularly steals Cuno's phone to play games, also uses the notes app a lot. Cuno claims he never looks at anything she puts there and says that app is 'boring' so its all hers.

Jean: Has the most cracked phone screen you can possibly imagine. He sometimes cuts his fingers on the glass. Says he never has the time to get it replaced or fixed, which is true accounting for the fact that he spends his free time doing overtime or rotting in bed.

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Kim's deep seated repression was a defense mechanism he welded himself into because of necessity, but how quickly he connected with Harry implies that he is so desperate for change he is willing to risk The Worst.

But on the other hand, the more attached he gets to Harry the stronger that protective urge gets. Kim loves to take care of his things, he makes sure that everything he cares about gets maintained so they stay with him for as long as possible.

It would be Very Early onto Kim having romantic feelings for Harry that he thinks the closer they get the more likely Harry could get hurt, and he is willing to keep himself increasingly miserable the longer he was convinced that His Feelings are the problem

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I've seen some jokes about Kim having a big fear response to bugs/spiders but I think he wouldn't make a big stink about bugs. I think he kills them and really only would transport them because Harry feels very deeply for bugs, but then Kim just starts taking them out on habit eventually.

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i think the very first summer they experience together, Kim uses the trigun to take a photo of harry spraying down the kineema with a hose, shirtless and in jean shorts, and from then on until the bombs drop it stays in his wallet

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Cut part of a fanfic that I eventually started writing with the skills

It's late at night when there is a knock at your door. Late enough that good things rarely happen around now, but you feel very certain that whatever is behind that door is something you want to invite in.

Or maybe you're just fucking lonely enough to answer the door for anyone.

It's been two weeks since Martinaise and no one has yet to visit you on medical leave. Kim's called a few times- more times than you feel like you deserve. It makes sense that he wanted to make sure you didn't die after you two separated, but he kept calling even after that.

When he doesn't call you, you have started to call him. And he usually answers! It never stops feeling novel when you hear that "Lieutenant Kitsuragi." that he always answers with.

You hobble to the door. Your leg is actually not giving you a ton of trouble today, but that's comparing the pain to every other day. It's still an almost fatal gunshot wound to the thigh, so it hurts like a fucker and you call out once to make sure knock doesn't leave.

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if you showed kim that video "how to cover your car in milk tutorial" he would be so disgusted he wont speak to Anyone for a full 24 hours

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hey! I finished the kimharry fic based on the headcanons of yours that I agreed with.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/80020071

it is smut so you know take that into account and all, I don't know I haven't sent someone a smut fic before

that's all :) thumbs up

Good morning!! This is so delightful thank you so much anon <3 <3

Harry's neck is gonna be green and orange after this

I've read it already and will leave a comment later today/in a bit, but it was really fun!!

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i think the canonical genderswapped yuri version of kimharry has harriet as greatly preferring anal. begs kim to fuck her ass. look into your soul and know this to be true

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IMO there aren't enough fics where Kim is suffering emotionally/mentally

(Under the cut is a long ramble of various things I think Kim does/feels that are related to being mentally unwell or struggling)

love thinking about Kim barely treating his trauma and stressor disorder, thinking if he represses it (like everything else) it'll just go away (this has never worked for anything but he will continue to do this until he breaks). Love giving him really bad OCD and he's constantly checking things, has to make sure the motor carriage is locked at least three times, has to go down the same checklist every single morning and night or else he feels like he's not protected enough

love imagining his relationship with restraint reaching the precipice and he suffers cause he has to deny himself Everything. Control! Restraint! If he doesn't take too much then it can't be taken away from him later! He denies himself everything until he's desperate for anything to look forward to and it bleeds out (his pilot's uniform, the way that he doesn't eat at all during the day unless Harry pesters him enough, the way he can't let anyone know what music he actually likes)

In my mind he has chronic nightmares. He can't sleep with the window open. He hasn't cried in front of a person since he was twelve and the idea of eventually doing so in front of Harry is scarier than having a gun pointed at him. He tortures himself with repeating scenarios where he and Harry are in danger so he can think of a plan for how he will save Harry, but rarely/never himself.

Kim can't feel at home if he doesn't have food in the kitchen, even if it's a sleeve of crackers. He eats everything very very quickly - people have tried to jokingly ask if he even tasted it but he hates those jokes - and he almost always clears his plate completely. Sometimes he says that he feels like he concentrates better if he's starving.

He latches onto Harry very quickly for a sense of personal comfort and barely even notices. He tries not to think about how quickly and easily he folded Harry into his daily routine and every single thought, and especially never thinking about how if Harry were to ever leave him (by any means) he will absolutely break into a million pieces. His mind is a series of walls that protect him but also block off so many things that even he struggles with pushing through them.

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Endurance and Physical Instrument are the internalized homophobia holders for Harry which makes it all the more sweeter that they are Into Each Other in a way that neither will ever talk about or bring up

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And half light. Dont forget about half light.

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Half Light is always watching from the sidelines, seeing that they are doing gay stuff (that they won't acknowledge is gay), desperately wanting to be involved but too terrified to voice it

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Disco Elysium (Video Game) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Harry Du Bois/Kim Kitsuragi Characters: Harry Du Bois, Kim Kitsuragi, Jean Vicquemare Additional Tags: POV Kim Kitsuragi, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Scent Kink, Sweat, Autistic Kim Kitsuragi, but its subtle and not the focus, Public Sex, risky public sex during the day even, Masturbation, Pining, Car Sex, Kim is as obsessed with Harry as Harry is to him, they are pining because they can't communicate their emotions Summary:

In past relationships, Kim has been told that he moves too fast. He expects things too quickly, or he wants something the other person isn’t able to give. Not just romantically, but there have also been friends that have had to inform him that he wants to spend too much time with them or his interests are too boring. He’s aware of that, and has done the work to correct it.

Especially with Harry.

Kim is pretty sure that Harry is queer, and he can entertain the idea that he’s interested in Kim, but he’s also still early in his recovery. And they’ve only known each other for four months. He can keep things casual for a long time. Possibly forever, if that’s what it requires, cause as often as he imagines what Harry would look like naked and on his knees, he also really enjoys that he has someone that wants to play board games with him.

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Been thinking about the kimharry stretching eachother’s back idle animation and I think that’s how they’d go about sex too, like as a friendly we do it together for the benefit of both us, I trust you, is this fine, Harry being sloppy and untrained, Kim in good shape and precision on point, the friendly that was nice afterwards as they retake their positions.. it just says a lot about them I think

OH I absolutely love this

Cause Harry and Kim in just a WEEK grew to really REALLY trust each other. If you view them as only platonic friends, its still like. Hey, we're both queer, we trust each other immensely, and its just like-

(Admittedly that first paragraph was written last night and I passed out, everything else is this morning)

The thing about like. Kim and Harry has a queer platonic relationship is that in some ways it looks the same as a romantic relationship, in my mind. They would just be intertwined with each other in a way that neither of them ever Thought they would have with another person ever again, and they lean on each other in a way that people tend to assume is for married couples

but the fact that the whole thing is them helping each other out and its just about like, just experimenting and feeling good, would be helpful for the both of them. Harry is in an incredibly precarious spot emotionally post-game and jumping straight into them as a relationship has a huge chance of Harry falling into the same patterns with Dora, of completely losing himself in the relationship with Kim and too focused on keeping him then finding out who he is as a person.

And Kim is even more repressed than Harry, according to one dialogue in the game. He's emotionally closed off and that mixed with Harry being very emotionally like. . . not open in a healthy sense. His emotions are harder for him to keep in, at least for a while post game, and that wouldn't mix with Kim not opening up. And I sincerely imagine that Kim has never had a real close friend. Like the kind of friendship where you can be truly vulnerable with that person and you click and get each other, maybe he had a strong relationship with Dom outside of work but he is gone and beyond him I don't think there was anything else.

Kim deserves the space to just have a friend. Someone that he will talk about nerdy things with. Not a single one of his co-workers know that he likes to read science fiction let alone what specific books are his favorites, or his favorite tiptop driver or that he likes to paint mini figs*.

They are perfect to imagine just like.

Harry can ask Kim questions that he wouldn't be able to ask anyone else. Stuff he would be truly embarrassed at having forgotten and Kim would be understandable with answering them all. Kim would also listen to Harry talk about whatever he does remember, even if it is traumatic or surprisingly emotional, and he would trust that it isn't going to make his life harder. This is like, a time period/environment where anyone knowing you're queer is a deeply deeply serious thing and Kim wouldn't ever use it against him, even if their friendship crashes and burns horribly (it won't though don't worry).

(I've been yapping long enough but I have so many thoughts. Cause like. Kim likely doesn't have a lot of sexual experience either, realistically. I know that I have written the opposite but lets ignore that LOL, Kim has a lot of moments where he is seemingly shy or self conscious and I think he realistically doesn't have a lot of confidence going out and flirting with a stranger, so for a lot of it he is learning right alongside Harry. And it is like, the most ideal situation for him selfishly cause Harry doesn't really know how inexperienced Kim is when compared to him, so Kim feels like he can stay in that bubble of Harry thinking he's so cool. Harry wouldn't think he's any less cool for this but Kim is just that like. Conscious of how he's perceived. Stems from that one line he has about being afraid of looking like a joke, I think.)

*This might be also a weird thing I'm doing but I want to do it anyway. I mentioned painting mini figurines cause I had read the new chapter of A New Dream by kyberism this morning and that detail is lifted from this fic. I think Kim just really would like warmhammer figurines and stuff like that :3 idk shared headcanon so I wanted to give a shoutout, and I love sharing the love of fics so this is also selfish for Me.

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o7 I will tell you when I finish the kimharry fic, I’m gonna have a lot of free time in a few weeks so I’ll probably cook it up then

FANTASTIC I AM SO EXCITED

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Endurance and Physical Instrument are the internalized homophobia holders for Harry which makes it all the more sweeter that they are Into Each Other in a way that neither will ever talk about or bring up

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I think you make excellent points that are things they would be into ,especially liking the leaving marks + denial of his own pleasure for Kim and simultaneous mix of praise and degradation for Harry

feeling inspired to try making a nsfw fic for them actually, I agree with the processing trauma like this it could be very healing! Gotta finish the things I'm working on first but regardless thank you for the inspo

SODHGOISDHFOSDHFOUHASDFOSHAFOIHSAOFSHA ToT oh anon this is lovely, I hope the inspiration carries you to a finished fic!!

i consider headcanons i post to be public domain so absolutely feel more than free to just like. pluck anything that you see fit!