It’s 3 in the morning currently and i dont feel sleepy at all. Although, i did wake up close to noon this morning, but, I say deserveddd after a busy 4 12s!
Life’s been going. Everyday i wake up not knowing whats going to happen in that 24 hours. I guess im just a little lost, still. Just going with the flow. Its actually been a strong current since that total 360 with my mom, I feel like i’ve always been sinking since then. There are times i get to stick my head up above water and breathe a little, but then i drown back in my ocean. Like, reality slapping my face. This last year has just been very difficult, i feel like ive aged 10x. Don’t get me wrong, im still grateful for everything despite everything. But, i still have a lot of questions. I believe in everything has a reason bs, but this one with my moms illness, i still cant find a reason. Every Sunday that i go to church, i cry and beg for enlightenment why this is all happening.
For a little less heavy topic - i bought a brand new car! It’s a thing that i shouldnt have been impulsive with for sure, but, it is what it is, and im really loving it.
Also, i started reading again! It either means i have more time on my hands now, or im simply turning a blind eye to things i need to do… It tends to be the latter being the procrastinator that i am.
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