Yukihime-Chan

☆ She/Her ☆ 18+ ☆

[sea-starlight]

I believe Ichigo is still in love with Rukia and he is in an unhappy marriage with Orhime and regrets marrying her. 

[landing-amongst-the-planets]

S A M E!!!👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[andromedaium]

Even Bucky’s plums had more character development than Orihime before chapter 675. Now they’re on an equality.

[shirukayo]

Okay so I just noticed, I made one mistake in the translation of the video on Bleach’s editorial staff, Toya’s comment on Kubo’s views on the heroine.

At around 0:40, in the sub it’s, “So you prefer Orihime, huh”

But upon closer inspection, the male host actually said:

“Mune ha ka…”　or as written in japanese, “胸派か。。” which means, “So you prefer boobs, huh”

Okay, okay, calm down. Before I receive any hate or death threats from anyone saying I’m making this up to make fun or insult a certain someone, I will explain.

Mune/ 胸 means breast/boobs, 

Ha/ 派 means a faction, usually used when telling your preference (ex: Inuha(犬派) if you prefer dogs and Nekoha (猫派) if you prefer cats)

You can go check and listen to the video, yourself. I’m just translating guys, no offence meant :D And when I’m wrong I make sure it is corrected. I apologize for the mistake.

I’ll be translating and subbing the whole video btw (if anyone still cares about it lol). I’ll make sure to correct the mistake in the previous video.

Peace.

[ichirukilover]

Don’t worry it was already pretty clear why he choose Inoue and also everyone laughing at him made it even more clear. 

[swabin10-deactivated20180424]

Thoughts on otp

I just wanted to say this.

I was thinking about all the talk on orihime being sexualized and remembered when I lived in Japan.

Orihime’s character is sexualizing ofc but tbh that’s how most japanese men want a japanese women to be. They want a petite, docile, clueless women who needs a man to help her, etc. Flip the role around where it’s a blunt independent woman that doesn’t need no man and she’d make a man uncomfortable as fuck.

Now not all japanese men are like this. It’s just most majority of them want to be “the man in charge” and to “lead the way” which is okay but in small moderations. That’s why in my opinion I like ichigo and rukia better because even though ichigo has to save rukia sometimes she doesn’t portray herself as a damsel in distress. If she gets her ass whooped she gets back up and fights. Both rukia and ichigo make this dynamic duo that even though the both of them are opposite sex they can still fight on the same page and back each other up. I like couples who respect each other on the same level.

I have nothing against orihime but I believe that ichigo and rukia were the op powerhouse couple.

[peachtiger]

Orihime is still to afraid to let Ichigo know he's being stupid or a jerk or reckless. How would a relationship work when you can't tell the other they hurt your feelings? I mean seriously how would things work is Orihime can't tell Ichigo he's done something wrong. If i remember correctly she even tries to apologize for his insensitivity a few times(and ishida and other try to make her feel better) other times tries to brush it off by joking. It's all the makings of a bad relationship.

I remember some people have told me this is why they think IH is a boring pairing. Because Orihime tends to go along with most of Ichigo’s crap, and they think it’d be a passionless relationship. Or she’d just do whatever it took to please him, *cough* the fugly dress *cough*, without thinking bout her own wants and needs, even if that means she’s humiliated in the process. Idk, personally it irks me when Ichigo treats Orihime that way, sometimes he’s aware of her feelings, because she’s his friend, like it’s hard to ignore a crying Orihime, who’s obviously got a lot on her mind. But then other times he’s just o insensitive toward her and it makes me wanna slap or punch the shit out of him, like Yoruichi and Neliel did. Like I may not ship them, but he could at least be more polite to her. But then again this is Ichigo, and this is how he is, it’s his personality. He’s really better with Rukia, at least he can be himself around her without hurting her feelings, the worst he ever does is talk shit about her art then gets kicked for it. But even now, he’s actually more complimenting towards it, so it shows how much the two have gotten closer. Ichigo and Rukia literally complete one another, lol. But Orihime and Ichigo, it’s like trying to put two puzzle pieces that don’t fit, together. She needs someone that’s more aware of her feelings, and can read her like a book. Someone she can relate to on a deeper level, one that actually cares about her physical, mental and emotional well being. I feel like that’s the type of person Orihime would be able to have a healthy, happy, and equal, functioning loving relationship with.

[caisenmaecila-blog]

i believe so.

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

A few people have asked me if I really think Orihime will actually accomplish something in this new arc, and my answer is absolutely. I really think she will, why? 

Because I remember this ….

REBOOTED SOULS DATABOOK.

Kubo wanted to update old and new readers alike, and he made a point to mention certain aspects of each characters progression. In Orihime’s two pages a bit of foreshadowing is mentioned. 

 “She obtained a menacing new power through training,and in the time of war the power is manifested.”

So YES, I do expect to see something soon.  

[el-yawm-deactivated20181026]

I dunno if that’s a officially released translation or not, but it looks like who ever translated it was purposely misleading; “戦時下 で 、 その 能力 が 発揮 さ れる —” which literally mean “It can be demonstrated in times of war“. And I don’t see “menacing new power” anywhere in “護 たち に 救わ れ 現世 へ 帰還 し た 後 は 、 更 なる 脅威 に 備え新た な 技 の 修得 へ“, no offense to the translator, but things just aren’t adding up.

“人間 の領域を超えた能力ゆえに藍染に目をつけられ, 虚圏に さらわ れ た 織姫。一護 たちに救われ現世へ 帰還した後は、 更なる脅威に備え新たな技の修得へ。 戦時下で 、その能力が発揮される–”

There’s also a whole bit about Aizen, which was left out. This translation is definitely weird.

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

Thanks for adding this in :) I wasn’t sure myself, how official this translation really is, but the gist of it is that something is expected out of Orihime in this arc. I’m waiting, we’re all waiting. I’m just trying to be more open minded, I at least don’t disregard her like others do to Rukia.

[el-yawm-deactivated20181026]

Yeah thats good too! You’re obviously more open minded than the IHers and even me maybe lol. But it never states for what war; it just says she did it for “Further threats“/”更なる脅威“ and it even shows a picture of Tsukishima, so this was clearly talking about the Fullbringers, and nothing more, its still entirely possible she won’t do anything at all.

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

Ahh ok I see. Well you know…if it happens that she indeed accomplish something Noteworthy, then good for her, if not what a shame. That’s, that. Thanks for the info, why anyone would leave so much out is a bit suspicious tho.

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

Hey remember when...?

Ichigo put down his Zanpakuto, that he so longed for, for so long….Then turned his back to the enemy, to gawk, and ‘chit chat’ with Rukia?

This has been “A friendly reminder” ;)

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

''It makes more sense for ichigo to end up with Orihime and Run is to end up with Renji. Ichigo is still a human and Rukia is a soul. '' Didnt FB arc showed us that Ichigo cant live a normal life? Rukia was already out of the screen, Ichigo was with that dumb bimbo, was he happy? no he was not. SMH. STUPID PEOPLE.

Warning shit loads of  jackassery in this reply, please be advised.  ┏|￣＾￣* |┛

LOL Anon, at first all I saw was “dumb bimbo”, and “SMH. STUPID PEOPLE.” and was like “Hey what you call me?”  (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻  

So then I put my glasses on, (⌐#▨_▨)…… (⌐▨.▨) …..(⌐▨▽▨) “Oh…Jeez Anon, so harsh.”  

anywho….

Yes, like I mentioned in the reply you’re quoting from. I too think that was the  purpose of the Lost Agent/Fullbring arc, it was to show how a normal life was NEVER intended for Ichigo. Even the setup for the arc says a lot 

PLUS  Kubo has made this point very clear since the beginning of the series. ”The instant the boy took the sword in his hand everyday life up until now announced it’s end-!!!”  

I also agree with you about Ichigo and Orihime having had time to themselves, to actually have a more meaningful relationship, but Kubo cocked block that shit right quick. “Ichigo do you want to go with me to… NO” ..” InoueI’ll walk you home..NO”….”Inoue why are you healing that guy?”…..”Kurosaki- kun was crying why does it hurt so much when Kurosaki-kun cries?”  Ugh, always so depressing ,disappointing and painful. Do you notice how Kubo always does this when it comes to IH? 

Ha! but do you notice how Kubo always ends up doing this with IR? …..

[caisenmaecila-blog]

“When I closed my eyes, a figure of a woman came into my mind. She is a little girl with black hair wearing a black kimono. She has high temper and haughty eyes. Memories of our days together casual. Days when we entrust our lives each other, when balanced our swords. There is no way to forget it. I know this woman. The memories that were carved deep into the depths of my soul were floating. Rukia…!”

— Kurosaki Ichigo, (Booklet of DVD movie - Bleach Fade to Black)

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

Does rukia know inoue is in love with ichigo? I was sure she didn't o.o

@onlyjane99 hi dear.

Well….it’s true that in canon Orihime only said she “liked Ichigo”

She never said that she loved him, or was in love with him not to Rukia anyway. The only one she said, or admitted that to was to Rangiku.

Even in her so called “confession” she only said that she “Could fall in love with the same person” in each of her Five lifetimes.

She never said Ichigo, or I should say Kurosaki-kun “I love you!” Or “because I’m in love with you” etc.

That scene was more a confession to the readers, than to the actual Ichigo. It was used to justify to us why she left to Hueco Mundo, (other than being kidnapped) and to help us understand her state of mind.

I’m sure Rukia has figured that Orihime’s ‘crush’ as grown to be love, or love according to Orihime.

No one can deny that Orihime is in love with Ichigo. Thus far that’s what her character’s development has solely been based on, that and being ditsy and a very nice person, of course. 

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

if rukia knows that orihime is in ''love'' with ichigo, then why didnt kubo ever make Rukia think about it? how do i say it, like make Rukia think about orihime's ''love'' for Ichigo. Make Rukia talk about Orihme's ''love'' for ichigo. Or talk about the relationship between ichigo and orihime for once? Instead, we always get Orihime talking about Ichigo and rukia's relationship. I really dont think rukia knows about orihime's crush on ichigo.

I’m sorry but i’m going to disagree with you on Rukia not knowing about Orihime’s feelings towards Ichigo. Remember chapter 52?

Granted Rukia could be just as naive as Orihime about certain things, and she might not have grasped the ‘depth’ of Ori’s feelings, but to say she knows nothing, yeah no….I, in good faith can’t agree with that. Sorry.

I mean why is Rukia knowing Orihime’s feelings such a big deal? What about Ichigo’s feelings? Isn’t that what matters here?  YOU CAN’T MAKE ICHIGO FEEL SOMETHING HE DOES’NT ! 

For the argument’s sake let’s say that Ichigo is also in love with Orihime as well, (Shh! No boo’s, let me explain ….) Then Rukia also having had developed feelings for Ichigo, at the end wouldn’t affect anything. Why? because she loves Ichigo, and would want him to be happy, even if not with her but with someone who she too cares for.

So tell me why couldn’t Orihime do the same? Why is it so horrible for Rukia to also be in love with Ichigo? Don’t get mad but, I highly doubt Rukia would pursue Ichigo tbh. Rukia would just continue doing what she’s always done. Just more (♥_♥) now.  Her love would come without strings attached, or expectations  to be met. True love is given freely. 

 So tell me why couldn’t Orihime do the same? Why can’t Orihime step aside, she claims to love Ichigo, then why would she want to impede the happiness of the man she loves?  Orihime isn’t a selfish person, or is she?

Oh but you know they are those who say “Ichigo and Rukia have absolutely no romantic feeling’s for one another.” So then what’s the worry? Why does it bother them so much? Fuck what we “ichi//////////////////ruki’s” think. 

Or is it this?……..

I don’t know about you but, I’v never looked, or known anyone to look at their “close dear precious best friend”, the way these two look, and react to each other; but I have seen this, in the eyes of a couple who are deeply connected, and YES deeply in love with each other. So forgive me for not knowing how to properly have a best friend. Looks like I’v been doing this friendship thing all wrong all these years.

Anyways…..

About Kubo not having Rukia think, or let alone dwell on the relationship between Orihime and Ichigo thus far is probably because it wasn’t necessary for Rukia’s character development, like it is in Orihime’s case. Orihime has been ‘hung up’ on not being what Rukia is to Ichigo and not being able to connect with him the way Rukia has, and her character has been conflicted by her feelings. Unlike the ichihime fandom, or whatever they are calling them self’s now, Orihime at least recognizes that between Ichigo and Rukia there is something very special, and very profound.

[sarisama-deactivated20161109]

oh my godd, why are these orgs saying orihime is isshin's ''daughter-in-law'' because of some filler scene?? lol, did they forget that Isshin literally perverted on orihime in the FB arc? he was like: ''hey, that's not fair you know...'' if we go by their lolgic, Isshin is perving on his ''daughter-in-law''.

Sounds to me like a whole lot of this is going on….

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They say that the HM arc was a deconstruction of everything that happened in SS arc. And just thinking about how Rukia was the heroine in SS and Orihime in HM, I can't help but notice how it's a blatant constrast how Rukia pleaded Ichigo to not come for her while Ori literally went to HM coz she wanted to be rescued by Ichigo (in the GJ fight, she laments how Ichigo did not come for the purpose of saving her). Just another thing that makes me dislike Orihime so much.

ANON, YOU’RE COMPLETELY right on everything there, but lemme say – “HM arc was a deconstruction of everything that happened in SS arc“?

Their entire Orihime arc started with major Ichiruki moments –

– and it ended with one

[makilovespie]

ichigo, literally all throughout the soul society arc: i need to save rukia i need to save rukia i need to save rukia i nEED TO SAVE RUKIA ARE U LISTENING I NEED TO SA--

tumblr ichihimes: aw look at that. he wants to save his mother figure! that's so sweet! such familial love!

ichigo, during the hueco mundo arc: at first i said i was gonna save orihime and ya i'm still gonna do that obviously but basically grimmjow is right and i came here to fight him and win.

tumblr ichihimes: that is so ROMANTIC!!!! he came to hueco mundo to SAVE ORIHIME!!! HE LOVES HER SO MUCH!

[blacksobriety]

Can I just say that I do not understand. I cannot piece together how Ichigo ended up with Orihime because I have never, ever been able to make the connection. If I think two people should be together it’s because I can see something there.

The Death and the Strawberry. The Sand and the Rotator. The Black Sun and the White Moon. The King and Queen. One Shinigami and One Boy.

I don’t understand why I have been led on all these years just to be hurt. I have been crying for hours. Never have I been so invested in something that I cry for over 4 hours. I have cried to my mother, my brother, and my best friend.

My time has been wasted, I will not lie. I have waited for an IchiRuki ending only to be given the complete opposite. When I saw Bleach was trending on Tumblr, I opened it without thinking and realised that 686 was out but before I rushed to read it, I saw a picture of Rukia standing next to Renji and I knew that I had been betrayed. When I saw the first page of the last chapter I cried because I looked at Kazui’s eyes and knew exactly whom they belonged to.

I will never forgive Tite Kubo for betraying me and an entire fandom. I will never forgive him for deviating from his own vision to please the people. He once said that he couldn’t draw Ichigo without Rukia but in the end we find that is a lie because all he did was separate them and make the rain always pour in our heart’s.

[murkyburning]

Bleach Ending Headcanon

Here’s why Ichiruki and Ishihime didn’t happen:

Because if they did, then Ichigo, Rukia, Ishida and Orihime would all be genuinely happy.

And if they were genuinely happy, then Yhwach would come back and destroy them.

Nobody wants that to happen, so they resort themselves to being miserable.

Ichigo is miserable because he’s not with Rukia.

Rukia is miserable because she’s not with Ichigo.

Ishida is miserable because he’s not with Orihime.

Orihime is miserable because, although she’s with Ichigo, she knows that he’s really in love with Rukia.

Renji is miserable because, although he’s with Rukia, he knows that she’s really in love with Ichigo.

Chad is miserable because, now that he’s a competitive boxer, he’s using his fists for personal gain, not to protect.

THAT’S MY STORY AND I’M STICKING TO IT

[zukiyuki]

IchiRuki... I love you.

It’s been 3 days since I’ve read bleach 686. For 3 whole days I’ve been trying to make sense of the ending. I felt sick to my stomach when I saw the first page of the last chapter. When I saw that kid’s hair, thinking that it’s Ichigo’s kid…Aww sweet, I thought happily until I saw his eyes and I knew.

I fucking knew those eyes were Orihime’s. And my heart just fucking broke right there. I swear okay…I puked in my mouth when I was forced to realize in the middle of chapter Ichigo and Orihime got married. I felt sick to my stomach and for 3 whole days I’ve been tormented by the fact that Ichihime is canon. Official. Every day for the past 3 days I woke up thinking, “Fuck! Ichigo married Orihime”. I couldn’t get out of my mind the image/moment of Ichigo looking so normal calling out to Orihime, in his home, wearing an apron, so goddamn obviously a wife. Ichigo’s wife. With a child that obviously has his hair and her eyes. Cut me Kubo. You cut me deep.

Fuuuck that hurts.

That moment replayed in my mind for 3 days and every single time I’d feel sick and I’d puke. I have no words to describe this shitty feeling in me when all these years… for 10 whole years I believed that Ichiruki was the endgame. Ever since the first time I watched Bleach.

I swore I tried to be as objective as I could when I read Bleach because I knew that I could be reading Bleach with Ichiruki colored glasses. I NEVER wanted to be the fan that ignored the author’s intent and only saw what I wanted to believe. And still I was wrong. I thought I saw signs pointing towards an Ichiruki end. Reading Bleach 686 made me feel like I ended up with a visual novel‘s bad ending despite being so careful with the choices. Like where the fuck did I go wrong?

So I spent 3 days looking back from 686 all the way to the beginning. Urrrgh… I could finally see how. Wow… Haha. Hindsight is really 20/20. I just can’t believe how blinded I’ve been. And oh my god! How ironic it is too. I thought they were mental for thinking it will end with Ichihime. I thought they read it wrong. Hahahaha. Turns out I was wrong. I was the mental one. Talk about perception failure. Soo fucking ironic. Realizing I was wrong was a damn hard metallic pill to swallow. Must be all that iron(y). Hah!

全部私の間違いだ。

It was all my mistake. Bleach was really a just shounen manga. So shounen that it hurts. And it ended just like any other shounen manga when it comes to pairings. Unsatisfying..and pretty lame.

Ahh… I thought Bleach was different because in the beginning it read and felt different. It was so pretty how it started…with the whole destiny thing, matching zanpaktous, plus all the matching symbolisms and parallels plus poems. So grand and epic. I thought it was so freaking romantic even though it’s a shounen manga I’m reading. It filled me with happiness because reading romance novels and shoujo mangas was only mostly about love. Bleach satisfied me in a big way with its grand, massive and vast universe with all the characters and their adventures. Bleach was really damn delicious to read. I was thrilled as a reader to be able to read something so epic. Bleach had many treats to occupy my mind with its story. Discovering little nuggets of information and putting the puzzles together was so fun. It made me squeal with glee, smile all stupidly and warm my heart. It was intense. I love all the connections between the characters. There were so many to enjoy.

Most of all, the Ichiruki bond. Ahh, ICHIRUKI was written so perfectly.

I was not wrong about Ichiruki’s bond. Kubo wrote that beautifully. So beautifully that I fell deeply in love with that bond. That hard-to-define…more than friends, less than lovers bond. It felt so otherworldly, most probably because Rukia is a shinigami and Ichigo is a human. They complement each other. Black & White, Yin & Yang, Sun & Moon. That they connected right through from the heavens to earth was beautiful to me. The way they met was the most perfect moment of a fated meeting that became unbreakable bond when Rukia pierce her zanpaktous into Ichigo. That meeting set the chains in motion. Absolutely beautiful and poetic.

That bond between Ichigo and Rukia grew into a bond went beyond love. So I was not wrong in the beginning. Definitely not wrong. I KNOW that Rukia and Ichigo never showed any romantic overtures towards each. I could see it in the manga. It was more than enough for me that they had this connection. From the first instance they met they connected. I know that it wasn’t romantic. It’s precisely that thin line of more than friends, less than lovers connection that they have with each other that I love. I freaking LOVE that connection. To me it was the most beautiful bond every written. Ever. Including all the romance novels, all the shoujo mangas I’ve ever read in all of my life. Their connection felt immense and otherworldly. The fact that it was hard to define was exactly why I LOVE the idea of Ichigo and Rukia together. So I ended up believing and hoping that unbreakable bond, that connection could or would evolve into romantic love.

Except when it didn’t. I see it now. So I realized looking back, Kubo did write me a conclusion to IchiRuki bond. Chapter 423. I should’ve understood in that final page when Ichigo and Rukia face each other with that empty space between them that that was it. When Rukia disappeared from his vision and he couldn’t see her anymore. He was human and she was Shinigami and all they ever were… is more than friends less than lovers. Period. Never mind Ichigo’s future angst after 423…In a nutshell I finally saw how Ichihime was foreshadowed.. Rukia was sidelined. I HATE to admit that then but now it make sense. Back then HOW could I accept that Rukia’s part in the manga was over… I love Rukia. It was unthinkable for me to believe that was it. From the first chapter till chapter 423.. those moments between Ichigo and Rukia were real and NO ONE can deny that. They were never JUST FRIENDS. They were way way way more than that. They connect in a way that is ineffable. That is truth.

Still, I love chapter 423, I thought it was beautiful and painful the way Ichigo and Rukia said goodbye. If only I realize the huge significance of that chapter then. I would have wallowed in that ending more. They were… never meant to belong. Haha. It’s ironic because that was my favorite soundtrack from the SS arc anime. That soundtrack was from the episode where Ichigo and Rukia parted the first time. So dramatic and intense and it gave me feels in my stomach. I played that ‘never meant to belong’ track often enough that when I think about it now…That was a sign from the universe. Hahaha. My stomach is bloated from all the irony right now.

So basically… for shounen mangas… it was enough that Orihime loves Ichigo. For a shounen mangaka… there was no need to develop Ichigo’s feelings for Orihime. I, the reader was supposed to understand that as soon as she confessed in chapter 237…that was the endgame pairing. It was MY mistake that I read it wrong. Like a stupidly naïve little girl in love for the first time, I thought Bleach was more than shounen. I was taken in by all the pretty words and poems and symbolisms. See, Kubo never promised romance. I knew that and yet I hoped and wanted different. Haha. Me so stoopid. Orihime’s role was just that. That girl’s unrequited love was all the romance a shounen manga needs. Haha. That’s all the romance needed to fill in between the lines, the cracks and in between the panels.

I, the reader didn’t need to see how Ichigo ‘fell’ for Orihime over the course of the story because its not important. It’s a shounen manga. Like every other generic shounen manga there ever was. And that’s why her romantic feelings were the only thing that was clearly stated. And good god! How obvious it was written! Soooo in my face that I can’t get away from it. Her love was pounded into my eyes for every single chapter she‘s in, how much she loves Ichigo… It hurt me you know. That love of hers… to see her loving Ichigo so much and yet but to never see him reciprocate in any way. Still she can’t stop herself and still love him. There was nothing in the moments between them that Ichigo react to Orihime that made me feel or thought that Ah! I think he likes her… or Ah! He’s beginning to care for her in a romantic sense. I never saw that. How could I, the reader fall for kind that ‘love’. For me to support such love. No way. Her admiring, heart-in-her-eyes. Urrgh! I can feel how much she wants to be loved by Ichigo. It defines her existence. It’s in her every being. She wants so badly to have him love her back that she’d curled into herself in pain. I hate feeling the way I feel when I read her part in the manga. Her feelings for Ichigo don’t make me cheer for her or love her. Instead it turns me off and I ended up feeling hatred for her. Weird, right?

Her I-want-to-be-your-reflected-in-your eyes love and yet I never once saw her reflected in Ichigo’s eyes. Never ever saw it. Instead I SAW who is reflected in his eyes. Rukia. But of course now I see that it didn’t mean squat. And yet for Kubo it was enough for Bleach to end with an Ichihime pairing. Because it’s a shounen manga. That sentence answers all my questions about how it ended the way it did.

The very outcome that I didn’t want to happen happened. I have so much to say on how I can’t ever support Ichihime. Since now that my eyes and mind are clear, I can see how he wrote Ichihime moments. It’s definitely not something I want to support and I would have quit Bleach in an instant. MY MISTAKE. I perceived the manga differently. Truth is, it was the opposite of what I perceive. EVERYTHING is the opposite of what I believe. Wow… it really changed my view of Bleach.

I thought Kubo was a progressive male. Turns out he’s just a chauvinist at heart. Because that’s what Ichigo and Orihime’s relationship is. Brrr..I get cold chills of disgust just thinking about such a relationship. Instead of a deep connection from two people. What won was that shallow one-sided love.The kind of love that waits for him to notice her…While he goes off doing manly heroic stuff. Puke. I should have realized much earlier.

Fuck! So that’s why she was always hanging around in the sidelines. She’s always there. I sure as hell noticed that she got a lot of screen time towards the end despite being so goddamn fucking useless. I get so angry reading her in the manga. Don’t care how strong she is.. just when it fucking counts she failed. She always failed. She’s useless in battles as a fighter. She’s useless as an emotional support. Aww that’s right.. but she can heal…aww she has godlike power.. aww what lovely little woman aww tits and ass..aww fat boobs! That princess character type, damsel in distress pretends to be strong do nothing but wants to try her best with all her heart and she got stronger because she wants to be there for him type. That’s what Kubo intended for her character. Putting those words together should have made me want to support her to get her man. But again it doesn’t worked on me. I‘d dumped Bleach in a sec if I had known this was Kubo’s intention all along. I was too enamored with Ichiruki.

I should have realized since Kubo always puts her in the peripherals, the moments Ichigo and Rukia were together she’s just there waiting for her turn. Part of the foreshadowing.That’s why she’s always there. So I, in actual fact, was suppose to understand that at the end of the day Orihime’s patient unwavering love trumps Ichigo & Rukia unbreakable, indefinable bond. Suckballs! I was supposed to swoon with bated breath at her five lifetimes in love quote back in 237. Puke. I hated that 237 chapter. In the end she ended up exactly like the healer princess waiting for her big strong warrior to come back from battles to come home to. Sooth his wounds with tender loving care… Puke. Not my idea of a relationship. Typical generic love.

I get it.Bleach belongs to Kubo. He decides how he wants to end it. I respect that. But with everyone married with children? And happy like some weird utopian end. Did he have to marry them off?! Fuck that was a punch to my face. An ending where everyone becomes sooo human… after all that grand adventure.. all the character growth… All that coming of age stories for each character.. And they all go back to having boringly human lives. It was the complete opposite of how they started. I wished it was an open-ended end. Or all the humans lost all memories of soul society. An ending where Ywaach in fact won. Wipe everything out. Any other ending but Ichigo married to Orihime! Urgh! It’s boringly human. When all of his characters are so far from being human. Instead of choosing the otherworldly bond that goes beyond love that he himself created. This to my thinking fits the supernatural, powerful character and world settings of Bleach. Bleach heroes and villains were epic. The Bleach universe was so fucking grand and it always made me choke with excitement. All the intrigue and mystery. And I hope what little romance I can get would be epic.I wanted Epic. Ichiruki is EPIC.

I was so wrong. I forced my own expectations into this story. Fuck what an amateur mistake. I messed up. I’m angry at myself. Should’ve cut my emotions off the moment I realized I was too emotionally attached to Bleach. Ahh Kubo.. I definitely read your intent wrong. I can see it now. For 10 fucking years Bleach, I read you wrong. Apparently it is logical from early on that Bleach would end in this manner with the pairings. I was too blinded in love with Ichiruki to notice the signs. Not gonna get emotionally attached to shounen characters ever again. I’ll be chill and detached in future. It’s fucking brutal to not get the pairing end that I want. I am so raw with it. It’s like a fucking open wound.

So I want this pain to end now.

I’ve never needed to voice my thoughts online and have it posted so that it becomes a tangible memory that I can look back into be reminded of. It is enough for me to read that there are people with similar views as me. This time though…I’m due. I need to give myself a verbal (and written) closure to 10 years of fanatically loving a story created by a one Japanese man. I had a lot of fun. It was a monstrous rollercoaster ride like I’ve never been on before. It was wild and awesome. I cheered and jeered at the antics of the Bleach characters. I can’t deny that Bleach had a part in my life and hold a piece of my heart. It made me feel alive and lucky that I was born in this day and age. To come across a story that’s in a foreign language and realized what a gem it was. I really felt it was worth to be alive. Bleach has inspired a lot of things in my life so I won’t say that these 10 years was a waste.

I’m amazed that I stuck this long. 10 years is a long time to keep me interested…Of course it is Ichigo and Rukia that kept me going. I think that a part of me will always be angry at how it ends. For the most part Bleach had brought me joy. Ichigo and Rukia will forever be my ideal couple. It’s such a cheesy sentence… “forever be my ideal couple” But I suspect this will be the truth until the day I die even as I move on and read and ship other fictional characters, Kubo you set that ideal couple bar so high that other authors may never be able to surpass it. I thank you for creating that Ichigo and Rukia bond that I love so much even when in the end you made Ichigo and Orihime official. And I would still thank you even if the latter part of that sentence made me hurt and cry.