Random Sudanese Girl Shares Her Thoughts

FREE SUDAN Sideblog @askgpgp Changed my tagging system: Photos from Scenes from Gpgp are now tagged 'gpgp scene' Flash Facts are tagged Flash Facts Tw abuse: Also have an escaping abuse tag. Please send me any posts you think will be useful. Also have the 'save' and 'adulting' tag for job related stuff and the like

[risingphoenix87]

As always, I'm in need of mutual aid to catch up on bills and pay for groceries/household needs!

Monetary donations have dried up, and I received alerts that I need $11 in subscription fees (for extra Google drive space and Amazon music, both of which help me function day to day. On top of that, I still need to catch up on over $1200 in Internet/home phone, electric, rental and pet insurances, and past due rent/water/sewage bills! I reapplied for TDAP and SNAP (the $55 I got in SNAP for August is gone, so I have no way to pay for food), and I'm still waiting on an SSI decision. I'm just so exhausted by all of this, to the point where it's hard to sleep at night because my intrusive thoughts are getting worse.

I'm sorry, but any help is very appreciated right now!

CashApp: $lunafirebird87

Ko-fi: lunafirebird

[risingphoenix87]

Still in need!

[risingphoenix87]

I seriously need $230 by Tuesday (Sept. 3rd) to keep my Internet and home phone on! I have a ton of other bills, but that's the focus right now!

What color do you think I should wear more of?

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Voting ended onSep 8, 2024

[risingphoenix87]

Another disaster:

This was the result of my not realizing that autopay on my electric billing wasn't turned off. I need to get out of the red so I can breathe and be less stressed.

Please help!

Should I dress Archie up for Halloween?

Yes- he'll be so cute!

No- are you out of your mind??!!

Voting ended onSep 20, 2024

[yumnasfunblogsaysfreesudan]

Please help my friend!

[onedollopofsourcream]

My name is Erin, I'm 32, disabled physically and mentally. I'm autistic and a butch lesbian living in the deep south in a homophobic Baptist mainly place.

I get SSI but most of it goes to my abusive grandma who demands it due to us being allowed to live with her, rest goes to doctor or therapist I must see.

Grandma does not allow us to eat, use or touch anything of hers she doesn't want us to taint it with our corruption and vile souls. She has anger issues and strikes out easily, she abused my mom mentally and let her husband physically abuse her. We used to live on our own in a house... that had holes in the walls and floor next to no plumbing and a bad exterior.

But we've been stuck here ever since then.

We desperately need food for the kids, for my family, for my grandma's cats aka ours as she feeds them shittu, cheap garbage. I can starve whatever I've done ut since childhood, but please think of the kids. It's a lot to ask but uf you have anything yo spare please share. We're in desperate need of help we havent had help in week.

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[is-this-fascism]

please help me survive homelessness

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hi, i'm living in my car and need help surviving. i'm making a meager income on music, but still end up dead broke constantly. until that income increases, i need donations to survive. please help me out if you have anything to spare!

my car is broken down and doesn't move anymore. i'm stuck charging my phone and laptop at the local shops, and can only get food from the few fast food places around here. it's all very expensive and i need help affording it. please consider feeding me so i can keep making music and eventually escape this hole!!

also consider purchasing my music on Bandcamp or joining my Patreon to set up recurring payments.

[is-this-fascism]

please help me survive this week 🙏 i've been barely hanging on lately. idk why donations have been so slow. please help me out if you have anything to spare, even $5 will help

[is-this-fascism]

i cant afford dinner tonight. please help me out if you can!!

[handmadeayoosh]

Hello friends, I'm Ayoush Crochet, and I'm also Ayoush trying to help my family.

Please donate

Ayoush’s Crochet Journey

Hi, I'm Raven, and I'm running this campaign on behalf of my friend Ayoush. Any money raised will go to her in full. Please note the campaig

✅vetted by @el-shab-hussein✅ click here

✅vetted by gaza-evacuation-fund ✅

I'm here to tell you a few things. There are many haters and liars around, but I want to thank @el-shab-hussein who refuted all these false claims. However, You can follow up on this matter through this link click here

First, I'm the one who makes these crocheted pieces, and this is indeed the business card. You can see it on this page and contact me there as well. Click here

It was under our business name. But I lost the pieces and the business phone when my house was bombed.

That's why I'm here; I need your help and support. There are many hateful people here who wish us harm and genocide, but I'm striving for my dream and trying to help my family. These are some pieces of my work from before the war. I hope you can help and support us so we can continue living and alleviate our suffering.

Also, if you wish, you can follow the page on Instagram and view many more pieces of art.

Click here

[pankape-sketch]

Selfie with Pelli 📸

[cjbolan]

A rainbow fish. No connection to the children’s book. Enjoy! [Image description: a rainbow-colored fish swimming. End description.]

[jaafarwael-blog]

Hello,

I am Jaafar from Gaza. I am currently in northern Gaza, and we have not yet been displaced to the south. Things are very difficult here — the cost of moving to the south is $1,000, and a single tent also costs $1,000, if we can even find a place in southern Gaza. The south is overcrowded, and renting a plot of land costs $1,000 per month, or even more depending on the area. 🙂😢

I started a donation campaign in the middle of the war and received good support, but due to personal circumstances, I recently created a new link, and unfortunately, I have only received a small amount of donations so far. 😓💔 I appeal to you to help me with my new campaign and donate whatever you can 🥺😭. Every amount you give will save the lives of my family and me and may help us cover the cost of moving to southern Gaza! 😓 Thank you, and I pray that God blesses you and provides for you 🧡🫂

Here is the donation link ⬇️**

Urgent Support for Jaafar

Hello, my name is Elizabeth Barnes and I am a US citizen organizing this campaign on behalf of my friend Jaafar, who is raising funds to sup

[yumnasfunblogsaysfreesudan]

I won't be as active for a bit.

[belal-gaza56]

Hello friends 🧡

My name is Bilal. I am a 35-year-old father of four children 👨‍👧‍👦 from Gaza. I lived a simple life with my family. I worked hard every day to provide my children with a decent life and a better future.

But the war took everything from us… 💔

In a sudden bombing, my home was destroyed, and the place that once brought my family together became nothing but ruins. I lost several members of my family, and I, my wife, and my daughter were injured, leaving us with deep physical and emotional suffering.

After losing my home, my job, and my only source of income, I became unable to work because of my injuries. My responsibilities became greater than my ability to provide. Today, I live with my children in a small, worn-out tent ⛺ that does not protect us from the heat of the sun ☀️, the cold of winter ❄️, insects 🐜, or rats 🐭 that have become part of our daily struggle.

Even the little food we manage to get 🍞 does not remain safe for us, as the rats eat it, and my children cannot eat it afterward. We are living in extremely difficult conditions, trying only to survive through fear and hardship 💔.

The tent where we live is located near the yellow line, and we have nowhere else to go or a safe place to shelter. It breaks my heart to see my children suffering while I cannot provide what they need 😢.

I ask kind-hearted people ❤️ to stand with me and help us provide medical treatment for my wife and daughter 🏥, secure the basic needs for my children, and help us overcome these unbearable circumstances after losing everything.

Emergency Appeal for Belal's Family

Because of the war in Gaza, I lost everything — my home 🏚️ and my work in law, as I am a law graduate ⚖️. My wife and my daughter Malak suff

Please donate whatever you can to help us and stand by us during this difficult time 🙏. Your support can give my family new hope and help my children have a safer and more dignified life 🤍.

Please share our story with anyone who may be able to help 🤲.

Thank you to everyone who extends a helping hand and feels our pain ❤️.

[yumnasfunblogsaysfreesudan]

I know that Tapblaze has outright stated that Alicante is nosy, but I do not believe it. He does not give off the vibes of someone who wants to know what's going on. I do, however, believe that he knows the gossip anyway. He's canonically extremely perceptive and knows a lot of people.

[yumnasfunblogsaysfreesudan]

Nobody ever really mentions this, but escaping an abusive home feels very wrong (mentally). Even if you're escaping a very dangerous home. It can feel like everything is fine all of a sudden (even though it's not), and you're making a big fuss over nothing (even though you're not), and the abuse has stopped (it hasn't). Leaving an abusive home feels terrifying. Your brain can fight you. It's hard. It's hard, even if you know that you'll be hurt if you stay. It's hard, even when you have a good opportunity to leave.

Leaving an abusive home is difficult. You're still doing the right thing.

Writing down a timeline of the abuse can help you combat these feelings. So can learning more about abuse.

[yumnasfunblogsaysfreesudan]

Speaking from experience: If you ever move out of an abusive home, don't go back. They (your abuser) have not changed, they will not honor their promise to change. Don't go back.

[mjalti]

miss ana, i'm very close to my baby brother (14). my mom is a self-centered, brat who is physically abusive & i'm 24 and his whole life i've been sheltering him. he's my all. my job offered me an opportunity to move away (different country) and i want to take it as it means more income, chance to get him away from abuse. im planning to come back for him in future n he knows but he's obviously hurt n scared n upset. and idk what to do/how to soothe him. is it the best time to take this offer?

My personal motto is: There is never a bad time to take a better job opportunity, do not let this world fool you. Your brother is 14; he is old enough to survive on his own. So I would say: consult him. Ask him if he is willing to put up with your mother’s behavior alone for 6months-1 year while you get settled in your new job and can bring him with you, or if he would want the both of you to be stuck with her the foreseeable future? Ask him how you guys should tackle this issue. In my opinion, he toughs it out for a year, and the both of you live in a new country together while making a plan for his own independent future (I mean, financially when he’s older, not “you’re 14 by 18 you’re out” stuff). If you have family around, even better. He can try to crash on people’s couches etc as long as he’s safe. There is no easy, immediate solution at this moment, if you can’t bring him over with you. Additionally, you can also talk to your company if it’s a possibility and ask for documents for ur sibling, if you can prove you are financially responsible for him or something. 

[naramdil]

if you read something about abuse and it resonates with you then dont doubt yourself for a second. I remember convincing myself that my situation was different and that I was just over exaggerating and I remember trying to validate staying because it was hard to admit to myself that it was abuse. and I thought maybe my case was an exception or something. I dont really know what kept me there other than self doubt. but I know if I had not kept it to myself and if I had someone telling me that my worries were valid that I wouldnt have stayed as long as I did.

[risingphoenix87]

(tw abuse) advice our encouragement for someone who wants to move out of an abusive home yet is scared to because they don't want to disappoint people or deal with the uncertainty that comes with having to fend for oneself?

Firstly, I remind them that it's their life, not their family's life, or anyone else's. I know what it's like to be petrified over disappointing family members; the key is doing your best to reframe your thinking and remind yourself that your happiness matters, too.

And NGL, sometimes it is hard to fend for oneself and there can be a lot of uncertainty. I'd say they should keep in mind that it's not always like that, and that for all of my stress about life, I'm happy to be in my own space.

[punkeropercyjackson]

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I can’t take my siblings yet, but I’m hoping to be a safe space they can stay at if necessary.

I’ll keep the rest of the advice in mind. I’ve researched places to stay, but I should look into food and other programs.

Thank you, I really appreciate it.

You're extremely welcome!And keep repeating that 'yet' part.Your times will come as long as you work towards them with all you have and so your siblings will achieve alongside you too.Let 'someday' be a set date even if you don't have it pinned just yet

[punkeropercyjackson]

tw abuse, religion mention.

Please may I ask for advice? Eldest sibling to eldest sibling.

How do you gain the motivation to move out of an abusive home? I’ve wanted to leave for years, but my mind keeps telling me I should stay. I’m scared I won’t make it, that my siblings will be hurt as a result of me leaving, and that the outside world will be just as bad or worse than living here.

I know what I need to do to leave, but the idea of doing it feels different. Real and scary. My mind keeps telling me it’s not bad enough to move. That I’ll make a huge social blunder and everyone will hate me. I’ve never been allowed to have a job, and I’m not good with social cues, so I feel very unprepared.

And I can’t trust myself to commit. One hour I feel I must get out immediately, another I’m thinking of everything that could go wrong. It’s hard to do anything that would get me close to moving out. I keep praying for the motivation to move out, and looking up articles on abuse, and it helps for an hour. Then I feel stuck again.

Take your siblings with you.Convince them to as much as needed.Then the motivation will have even more of a purpose and less reason to not overpower your fears.And stack as many resources in all forms-Food,contacts,places to stay and whichever and i do mean literally whichever else you can get your hands on-as possible.You'll need them and so will they and you'll all be better for it.Do it for you,do it for them,do it for the 'us' you bunch could be and deserve to be once liberation reaches