heart of gold

[yunseoxfmd]

this is goodbye. after 4 ish years here i’m ready to leave. it’s time to close this chapter.

you might be wondering why i said four years. i’ll explain that at the end of the post.

i know that some of you will read this and some of you won’t. i’m aware. but i wanted to give an explanation for my departure to those who care. because it’s a little more complicated than i’ve lost muse. 

yes, i have lost muse for suwei. about a week ago i was contemplating leaving. i decided i would try to revamp wei first. that fell through. i submitted a form i put my effort into for it to be ignored. i look on the app count to see that my position has been reserved. i didn’t even get an explanation. i had to ask for one. let me disclaim though that i understand her reasoning.

and that seems to be the huge problem at famed. if you don’t ask you don’t know anything. it would have been nice to know that someone else had reserved the position so my app was deleted.

i can reserve another spot or wait for that position to possibly open up. but this has made me come to the realization that i don’t care. i’m not editing my app once again. and i’m not going to stalk the page.

on top of that plotting has become a chore. this group has never been the most welcoming. i’m tired of trying.

i haven’t been at famed for four years. but exie joined in 2018 with sohui. a muse i’m surprised if some you remember. i’m also exie.

their are some people i truly do care about and your the reason i wanted to stay. so this is a little appreciation post for you guys. if you’re tagged below feel free to pm for my discord or tumblr.

@fmdduri / @fmdrioh / @alicefmd / @fmdminhee / @fmddaehyun / @fmdjiah

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important update in the tags.

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click here to help an indecisive mun out.

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location: dimensions recording studio when: sometime in november with: @suweixfmd

the last thing yoojin really wants to be doing during the height of her solo promotions is to begin recording remixes of already released songs. maybe yoojin’s just annoyed with the fact they wouldn’t be having a group comeback until next year, and said comeback seemed to harken back on their softer, girlier concepts that yoojin isn’t exactly thrilled about. although she was more than happy to have made her solo debut, things just weren’t the same. although she was having fun doing some things on her own – believe her, she wouldn’t trade these opportunities she was getting for anything – but, that didn’t mean she didn’t miss her members immensely as she had schedules outside her group mate’s. 

she’s trying to make the best of it, really, even though she didn’t really care for the remixes, at least they were scheduling her time with her members. was she exhausted and sore ? sure. but she was finally getting some dedicated time with her members.

a byproduct of her not being around her members in particular was her being rather clingy. luckily, most of her members were happy to oblige when yoojin wrapped her arms around their necks and hung on their backs, or when she took their hands and laced their fingers together. it had taken some time before yojin could do it with suwei without feeling a bit awkward, that was now long passed, and yoojin was always happy to platonically cling to her friend. which just so happened to be what she did the moment she showed up, albeit a bit late, to the recording session cozied up in sweat pants and a jumper. she steps up behind her friend and wraps her arms around her shoulders, giving her a light squeeze. “ how upset do you think the managers would be if i just took a nap right here on your shoulders ? ” yoojin asks, letting out a long sigh and closing her eyes. “ do you have any snacks on you or something, i forgot to eat … ” yoojin questions with a meek smile. “ they won’t get to recording my part for a while – maybe we can sneak away and grab something from the cafe … ? ”

suwei wasn’t to thrilled about the remixed releases either. it’s not that she didn’t like the concept. it was a way to show off sounds they usually didn’t do. but it felt kind of counter productive. andromeda was still a rookie group and still had something to prove. she didn’t like questioning dimensions. but it was hard to wrap her head around the fact that instead of preparing for a comeback they were instead releasing remixes. schedules were slow and while she appreciated the break she wish she had more to do. it was hard to work on a solo career that didn’t exist.

filming for the remixes was the first time in a while that she’s really been able to see her members. they still had practice together but even then they didn’t really get to see each other. yoojin was always busy. with her new brand deal and solo debut she didn’t really get to see her. and eunah was off doing her own thing. she was happy to see everyone in the same room for a schedule. even if it was only a remix that would be released on youtube. and it would never be mentioned again.

she turns to the door as yoojin walked in before turning again. she wasn’t surprised that she showed up a few minutes late. she isn’t surprised when she feels arms wrap around her shoulders. she feels a light squeeze. she leans into the squeeze. she loved to be wrapped up in her members embrace. she was known for giving hugs. hugs for comfort no matter the occasion. she liked to cuddle whenever she could. something about being held by yoojin made her feel safe. maybe it their history. maybe not. but it is normal for her and yoojin. she’s happy that they can still do this without it being awkward. “i don’t think they would appreciate it unnie. but you do deserve one.” she says as yoojin let’s out a sigh. “and you can’t forget to eat. don’t make me call you to remind you. we can sneak out just this one time. but i’m bringing snacks next time.”

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        closed for @suweixfmd / #famedscheduleq421 : dms songwriting camp

it’s irrational, she’s well aware of that, but for some reason eunah took it personally when upper management, by way of one of andromeda’s managers, informed her of the songwriting workshops dimensions was hosting for their idols. sure, it was a cool opportunity that she’d be happy to take advantage of regardless of her level of experience or skill in the field, but … why point it out to her so specifically? was it just because they knew she’d be interested? because it was always a good idea to work on your craft? or was it, as she ended up clinging onto, more indicative of the company’s dissatisfaction with her work?

– if that was the case, she felt it was thoroughly unfair. hadn’t basically every single she’d released shot up the charts? she’d given them a number one not four months ago. maybe the issue was with andromeda’s group releases … but still, she’d place the onus for that on them. she’d submitted and worked on plenty of unused songs that would suit the group down to a t. it wasn’t her fault that they didn’t pick them. 

whatever. she’d be better off leaving all of this negativity at the door. if no one else picked up on it, eunah was sure that at least suwei could feel the bad vibes wafting off her. 

“so, any sparks going off for you?” she asked, as they settled into the your turn part of the workshop, in which they had a gracious twenty minutes to think about and apply what they’ve learned. “i’m … not feeling very inspired, i won’t lie.”

suwei wants to be a lyricist. or at least she wants to try. if she only wrote one song she’d be content with that. and while she would love to perform one of her songs and see others perform her song she isn’t holding her breath. it’s a dream of hers, but she was raised to be rational. she isn’t really good at it. she hasn’t made this desire known to anyone either. so far she and a few select people know about it. one day she’ll write a song. if she’s lucky she’ll be able to show it to someone.

when she was told about the workshops dimensions was holding she almost felt like or was a push to actually work on it. this is something she’s passionate about. this was a chance for her to really work on it. she had no schedules to worry about. she could throw herself into it.

"not really." she replied as eunah approached her. she was sitting in the chair staring at the blank page. "but are you okay eun?" one of her greatest gifts was the way she could so easily read her members. they’ve been together for years. and she had a special way of noticing if something was off with one of her members. she didn’t like to pry, but she always made it know that she was available if they needed it.

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starter for @suweixfmd

the arrangement plays in her ears, a softer ode that renews the big shrills and rifts of mariah carey. the soft hums follow along with the earbuds tuned in, and her eyes falling through the hallways each step leading her closer to the studio.

little to no information leaves her face painted in a humble stare, smiles as she dips her head low. “hello.” minjung greets, taking out an earphone. “i’m minjung of equinox, and i look forward to be working with you.” the stranger doesn’t register in her head clearly, just as another fellow idol she’s seen around in places far and further throughout the years. it’s the producer who rings more familiarity when she follows suit with another greeting aimed towards him as she tosses her bag on the sofa before taking a seat.

“i must have an awful memory, so do you mind telling me your name again?” it’s a question posed as far from rude — the lightness of her voice, and the smile stationed across her face enough to pose for formalities.  

she hums the lyrics as she stands in the middle of the studio. she arrived shortly before minjung. which meant her hair and makeup was done and she was ready to start. she turned around as the older idol walked in. she was happy to be their. she had plenty of time with andromeda’s slow schedule.

before minjung had a chance to introduce herself she knew who she was. suwei wasn’t a fan of equinox’s new sound but she did listen to some of their older songs. she enjoyed the sound they had when they first debuted. so she was familiar with the members. minjung from what she could tell was cordial enough. she personally isn’t a member she would label as friendly. or at least she doesn’t come of as friendly. and she’s sure that after promotions end she’ll never see her again.

it wasn’t uncommon for idols to have a poor memory. an idol asking her who she was wasn’t new to her. andromeda wasn’t an established group and it seemed not a lot of idols outside the company knew of them. she didn’t blame them. “suwei. member of andromeda.”

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for anyone who has my discord pm me for my new username. i’m currently unable to log in.

also for anyone who still needs a thread for the christmas album i still have one baking thread and one christmas tree thread available. leave a like if i can pm you to plot.

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Shuhua dancing to Hyuna’s ‘Red’, Momoland’s ‘Bboom Bboom’ and Sunmi’s ‘Gashina’.

[yunseoxfmd]

closed starter for @fmdtaeyong / taeyong was a support system for her creative endeavors. as an experienced lyricist it made sense that she listen to his advice and follow his lead. despite being opposites in personality they got along in a creative sense. she wouldn’t consider him a best friend. and she felt he thought the same way. she respected him as a senior and artist. but their relationship was strictly professional. when they talked they talked about music and their schedules. she could however confide in him her musical goals. something that she hasn’t even told her closest friends or members.

with titan touring for the rest of the year they had to make do with the time they had to work together. andromeda’s activities left her schedule wide open. but titan was an established group. she sat at the table taking a spoonful of her ice cream. this was common. they often met up for lunch or something sweet as they worked on lyrics. “i have plenty of time to work on lyrics. andromeda has filming for a day and then my schedule is pretty clear. how’s the tour going?”

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here’s a quick base christmas album plot call. i have zero available for the album recording. one available for the baking and one for the christmas tree.

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“i think you’d look pretty.” lux offers. in truth, the butterfly costume isn’t as detailed as they’d imagine truly complementing her appearance. wei was someone who could carry off a lot of ornamentation without it swallowing her. while their styles were rather different, lux could imagine wei looking gorgeous in something beaded or stoned. 

looking at the shelves around them, they found a cinderella costume - a pretty white dress with a beaded bodice, long, full skirts, and lace detailing. “i think this would suit you too, but you should get what you like.” they told her, putting the dress over their arm. “it’s your costume, after all.”

suwei wasn’t sure if she loved the costume. it was cute. but she wasn’t sure if she loved it. growing up halloween wasn’t really something she celebrated. she didn’t dress up in costumes. and despite being an adult she still felt it would be fun to dress up while exploring what seoul had to offer for the spooky season. but maybe the wasn’t the right costume for her.

she watched as lux grabbed a cinderella costume from the rack. she put the butterfly costume down as they approached. she grabbed the skirt of the dress admiring it. "it’s beautiful. i’ll go try it on." she said taking it from the other idols hands.

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alice was a little foggy on why she’d been chosen herself. she was sweet, yes, and sincere, but she wasn’t exactly a fountain of wisdom. still, she intended to help as much as she could. “i suggest snacks! bring extras to school and share at lunch. you could also join some after school activities and make friends there!”

comments started to trickle in and alice waited for one to jump out at her. after a moment, she read one aloud. “i want to be an idol, but i’m nervous about training. is it as bad as people say? what was your experience like?” she read from the screen. her eyes darted to wei, feeling a little bad for picking such a loaded question.

"school can be daunting, but i feel the easiest way to make it through is be yourself." it doesn’t always work out. but she’d rather be genuine and make friends who like her for who she is. not everyone likes her and she’s had to accept that. "be willing to show people who you are and you’ll eventually find them. going off what alice said put yourself out their in a way that makes you comfortable. common interests are a great way to make friends."

she smiled while scanning the screen for a comment as they started to flood in. she turned to alice as she started to speak. "from my personal experience i enjoyed training. it can be difficult but it’s worth it. but everyone has a different experience.” she turned directing the question at alice. “how was training for you?"

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suwei wasn’t a baker but she wouldn’t mind having basic skills in the kitchen. she wanted to work on it. she wanted to be able to make meals for her loved ones and family in the future. she stood in the dorm room kitchen looking over the recipe again. she wanted to make halloween cookies. it seemed simple enough. but it was proving more difficult then she thought.

“does this look like a candy corn?” she asked the other idol in the kitchen. on the counter a pile of dough that looked oddly shaped sat in a pile of flour. “i feel the edges aren’t straight enough.” she looked at the dough while trying to straighten the edges out once again.

[yunseoxfmd]

like this for a random starter. i might pop into your pms to plot something out.

[yunseoxfmd]

closed starter for @luxfmd / she really had no use for a halloween costume. but she felt it was more for the experience then the actual costume you bought. and she’d probably find an opportunity to wear it. she had a few things lined up for the month of october. which is why she found herself in joy party browsing the costume selections.

lux stood a few steps away from her. she invited them this morning when she decided it was a perfect day to go costume shopping. “what do you think of this?” she asked holding up a butterfly costume. “do you think i could pull this off?” she said looking over the costume another time.