You needed a job after moving to Chicago, and the sandwich shop down the street is conveniently hiring. Could you cook? Not really. But you had great customer service and the sweetest smile. What could go wrong?
Won't you smile for me, my Texas angel? It'll be all right
You just lay your head beside me, baby, just hold me tight
And I promise I'll watch over you 'til the morning light
pairing :: syd adamu x fem!baker!reader (established relationship circa early s2)
synopsis :: once she and carmy decide to go in as partners on renovating the beef into the bear, she figures it's high time her coworkers meet you, her wonderful girlfriend. little do either of you know, you just might know a few of them already. or : four times you accidentally met the bear staff and the one time you were supposed to. prequel to too sweet!
word count :: 5.2k
warnings :: only tidbits of syd until the end chunk, swearing, jen rambles about food, cliche but i love fics like this so tough luck, no use of y/n, jen writing dialogue is a warning in itself, i think i'm funny but probably am not, once again second fic in five years, i took creative liberties on reader's bakery, not proofread because i'm lazy oops
1. marcus brooks
It's a Saturday morning when he comes in. You're busy wiping down the laquered wood counter when the bell atop the door jingles, so it takes you a moment to look up. By the time you've put away the rag, he's standing in front of the glass case, eyes scanning the various baked goods with more intrigue than you'd usually see beyond folks figuring out their order.Ā You let him muddle in it for a few more minutes before awkwardly clearing your throat. It's a slow morning, and the silence only makes it worse. "Good morning, sir," you offer up, a warm smile spreading over your face as his head snaps up to follow your voice. "Is there anything I can help you with?"
He matches your smile, albeit with a sheepish readjustment of the beanie donning his head. "Yeah, my bad - I was just looking." After a few seconds of scanning the case again, he turns back to you. "Do you guys make all of this in-house?"
You can't help but brighten at the prospect of talking about your pastries. "Yes, we do! I - well, we - source everything locally and use all our own recipes." He's smiling back at you, clearly psyched by your eagerness to chat with him. He's looking at the case once more, eyes taking their time assessing each item. After a beat, he jumps in with an explanation.Ā
"I'm a - I do pastry, too. For a restaurant in the area, we're renovating right now. As of now, I've mainly been on cakes, and, like, messing with donuts, and stuff. I'm staging in Copenhagen in a couple of weeks, but I've been on the lookout for other stuff in town lately. To get inspiration, flavor ideas kind of thing."Ā
You nod, brain already running through the mental catalogue of what you've got available today, what's going to be seasonal soon, what kind of flavors a restaurant might look for in a dessert. It must be a nice one, because apprenticing in Copenhagen? That's the real deal. You've listened to Syd enough times to know that staging internationally is an insane opportunity. "That's...wow, that's amazing. Well, these are all my recipes, and as you can see, there's a lot of stuff to choose from," You say on a laugh, elbows resting on the counter as you follow his eyes across the case. "Just let me know what you want to try, or if you have any questions, and I'll get it boxed up for you!"
"Yeah, for sure!" He acknowledges enthusiastically. You wait, turning your attention to a few lone customers who purchase coffee before he comes back over, counting things off on his fingers as he lists them. "Okay, can I get a honey cardamom bun, a rhubarb and orange blossom tart, the blackberry-lemon pavlova, and...a chocolate chip cookie, please, chef."
Chef. Usually, in a situation like this, you'd be overly humble to the point of lowering expectations; say something along the lines of well, this isn't the big leagues or something equally as modest. But, the only other person you've ever heard use the title so casually outside of a professional setting is your girlfriend. More evidence toward Mr. Copenhagen being the real deal.Ā
"Chocolate chip cookie?" You find yourself asking. "Not a very complex flavor, chef." You do what you think Syd would, and parrot the title back to him as a sign of respect. It's followed by your playful grin, one that gets him laughing.
"Nah," he agrees, smiling widely. "It's for my roommate. Figured I should bring him something back so he doesn't kick me out onto the streets."
"Ah, survival skills, got it." You reply, smiling brightly back. You box up his order and ring it up, thanking him kindly for the tip and the conversation before he heads out.
The bell rings again to signal his departure, and you return to tidying up the bakery, thoughts occupied by the kind of amazing things one might bake and eat in Copenhagen.
2. natalie berzatto
Today feels like the most Monday of all Mondays, in your opinion. Nothing that bad has happened, exactly, but definitely nothing good - the L was delayed, so you were fifteen minutes late to work. The sourdough you prepped last night was overproofed when you pulled it out of the oven. Your produce guy had an issue with his growers, so you got half the raspberries you ordered along with some consolatory blackberries. You can use them, of course, but they wouldn't exactly work for the berry and pistachio tarts you were putting out for the season.Ā
The long and short of it was, by the time lunch rush was underway, you're about ready to start pulling your hair out in frustration.Ā
The only saving grace is that everyone else seems to be experiencing this generational Monday right along with you. It's a windy day, and most of you patrons come in looking frazzled and miffed in your own right. Syd doesn't seem to be doing much better, either, judging by the fact that her reply to your latest text checking in on her work day was something along the lines of knocking walls down.Ā
You debate how the hell to respond to that during a momentary lull, tsking empathetically at your phone screen when the bell rings for the millionth time today. You pocket the phone and look up just in time to see a pretty blonde woman whisking through the door, momentum carrying her all the way to the counter with a slight thud. Jesus, she's mumbling under her breath before morphing her face into an apologetic smile. "Hi, sorry," she says breathlessly, and you watch with slight concern as she brushes off the sleeve of her jacket and runs a hand through her windblown hair.Ā
You're wondering what she's already apologizing for as the woman continues to speak. "This might be a weird question - do you have any drinks you'd recommend without caffeine?" You're about to chime in that it's not weird at all, but her rambling hasn't stopped yet. "I'm expecting, so I'm not supposed to have a lot of coffee. But I need something to wake me up, and today is just not my day."
Your eyebrows shoot up at the same time that your first real smile today spreads across your lips. "Congratulations!" you tell her genuinely. "And don't worry, I get it. It's really one of those days, I think." Her whole body seems to breathe a sigh of relief as you commiserate with her.Ā Ā
"Right?" She agrees, nodding emphatically. "Everything that can go wrong is going wrong. Friends, family, work - and I work with my family, too. It's especially mind-numbing."
"Like the universe is taking every opportunity to throw a wrench in your plans? Because same." You supplement, earning a light laugh from the woman while you ponder her original request.Ā
"Well, let me think," you start when you've both caught your breath. "Are you good with something fruity? I could make you a lemonade or something...I feel like stuff that's kinda sour always wakes me up."
"Could you? That sounds perfect, actually. I feel like fruit is the only thing that consistently doesn't sound gross recently." She gushes while you nod.Ā
"I'll get that right out for you." You set out a large cup before crouching down to get the lemonade jug out of one of the fridges under the counter. You're about to pour it when a stroke of inspiration hits - the blackberries. You get some from the back, putting them at the bottom of the cup and mashing them a bit before adding ice and the lemonade on top. You put the top on and grab a straw before finding the woman at the end of the counter.Ā
"Here you go," you say. "I added some blackberries, they're fresh from this morning - hope that's okay!" You're about to assure her you can remake it if she'd rather have it plain, but she's already taking the drink and swiping her card on the pay pad.Ā
"No, it's amazing, thank you," she implores before taking a sip while you both wait for the receipt to print. "Fuck, that's good," she says around the straw before catching herself, smiling a little sheepishly when you hand her the receipt. "Sorry, it's really good, thank you so much!"
āAnytime,ā you say with a grin, āIām glad you like it.ā You bid her goodbye with a wave as she heads for the door, calling out āHave a good rest of your day!ā over the chime of the doorbell. She makes a fingers-crossed motion, and your smile mirrors hers until she slips past the door and out of sight.Ā
3. richie jerimovich
Itās an inconsequential Wednesday, but your mood is high. The reason? Itās one of your favorite parts of the workday - that time around 3:30 pm when kids of all ages come in after school, usually toting a parent or older sibling behind them. Youāre a firm believer in the fact that nobody on earth can enjoy food in a more heartwarming way than a little kid could. They might not have the most refined palette, but who cares about the nuance of flavor over watching a seven-year-old get frosting all over their face without a care in the world?ā
Youāve shared this observation with Syd many a time, which is why youāve just received a (now daily) text from her telling you not to let the kids eat all the scones. If you had a dollar for every time youād tried to explain to her that young children donāt even like her precious scones, youād seriously be rich by now.
You canāt help but smile when the doorbell chimes, watching with amusement as a little girl around six or seven comes rushing into the already kid-filled shop, tugging who you presume to be her dad forcefully behind her. The guyās muttering under his breath all the while, rubbing a hand up over his face and cropped head of hair as he clearly tries not to be annoyed by his daughterās antics. āHi, there,ā you say when they finally reach the counter, addressing the girl specifically before turning your smile to the man. āHow can I help you?ā
āHey,ā says the man, a bit gruff but not unfriendly. āUh, Eva- this is Eva, my daughter,ā he puts his hands on his daughterās shoulders, not even taking a breath as he amends his response. āShe dragged me in here ācuz some kid in her class-ā
āSimon,ā Eva chirps, nodding as if to be clear that this is a crucial piece of information for both you and her dad to have. Youāre sure to nod back so as to appease her.
āRight, yeah, Simon, whatever,ā the man is continuing, squeezing her shoulder affectionately as he steamrolls onward, āit was his birthday or somethinā the other day, and his mom brought cupcakes to Evaās class to celebrate. Sheās been pesterinā me all week to ask where they were from, which I made the mistake of saying yes to - that woman is a fuc- not very nice.ā
Youāre surprised by the way he starts to say it with his chest, correcting himself when Eva looks up at him knowingly, almost as if heās avoiding her scrutiny rather than feeling guilt for swearing in front of his kid. The image is surprisingly funny, and you have to bite your lip to keep from laughing. Even now, heās still going. āAnyway, thereās no way I was gonna deal with her and then not come, so here we are.ā
Youāre still in a state of half-shock, glued in place as you blink a few times before finding the words to respond. āO-kay, yes, I do remember doing a cupcake order recently.ā It is coming back to you, the more that you think about it. And, honestly? The woman youād been in contact with - Simonās mom, youāre sure - had been, for lack of a better word, a bitch over the phone. The memory paired with this manās comment makes you smile.
You turn back toward Eva. āI think I have some cupcakes still. Would you rather have chocolate or vanilla, hun?ā She shrinks behind her dadās hip a bit, suddenly shy in the way that youāve witnessed a lot from kids her age. Her dad huffs, but itās more fond than anything else. āItās okay, baby,ā he tells her, soft but firm. āTell the nice lady which one you want.ā
It takes her a few seconds of both you and the man smiling gently at her before she finally pipes up again. āChocolate, please.ā You nod, her dad scooping an arm around her shoulders to bring her back in front of him. He looks up to you. āAlright, weāll take two of those. Thanks.ā
You head behind the case, scanning the bottom few rows where you know the cupcakes should be. The slot for chocolate cupcakes is almost empty, but as if by a miracle, there are two left all the way at the front of the case. You pull them out with some tongs and put them in a little box, drawing a smiley face with a Sharpie before pushing the box over the counter and ringing it up. āLast two. You have good taste,ā you tell the man, although the last part is directed at Eva. She smiles, the tops of her ears going slightly pink. Her dad smiles at her and pays, guiding her to an empty table with a call of āAppreciate it!ā over his shoulder to you.
You go back to business as usual, cleaning up a bit since itās over halfway through the day, as well as boxing up some carry-out orders. By the time you look up again, Eva and her dad are almost done with their cupcakes, and you have to swallow another laugh at the fact that his face is sporting practically as much chocolate frosting as hers. Eva catches you looking and sends you an enthusiastic thumbs-up, nudging her dad with her hand until he does the same. You do laugh at this, grin splitting wide, and pull out your phone to text Syd back once theyāre out the door.
[ you :: the scones are safe. cupcake supply has run dry tho
4. carmen berzatto
Itās the ass-crack of dawn on a Thursday. You didnāt get as much sleep as usual - youād told Syd youād wait up for her, but sheād been home late, promptly spending another hour ranting about the stress at The Bear and how Carmy kept flaking on her. Her admiration of him as a person was paralleled only by her frustration with his behavior, and youād take spending time with her where you could get it these days, even if it meant listening to her complain. Although you might regret the decision slightly now that itās 7 am and youāve been awake for two hours and at the bakery for one already.
Youāre stocking the tray of eclairs when you look up, startling with a yelp and almost dropping the entire tray. A guy is standing there, deathly quiet and looking slightly apologetic in response to your reaction. You hadnāt heard him come in, so zoned out from the lack of sleep that you didnāt even register the bell.
Jesus Christ, you breathe, hand on your chest as you shuffle the jostled eclairs back into place and slide the tray in, straightening up. Thereās a hesitation, and youāre about to open your mouth and try to think of something to say when he finally speaks.
āSorry,ā Good start, you suppose. Heās scratching his neck awkwardly now. āI didnāt mean to scare you.ā You swallow the sharp response fueled by your sleep deprivation, because he does actually look a little kicked by the whole experience.
You settle for a sigh. āItās okay. Itās early - my brainās not all there yet.ā He nods as if to say same here as you straighten out your apron and shake off the adrenaline high. āWhat can I get for you?āĀ
It takes him a second to register it, and he clears his throat once the words process. Youāre not surprised heās in the same boat as you, considering itās early and youād only unlocked the door about three minutes before he showed up. āUh, can I get two medium lattes? One hot and one iced. And- how many shots of espresso are in them?ā
You smile, already able to see where this is going. āThe medium size would have two shots, and then three in the biggest one.ā He nods, eyes scanning the menu behind him even though heās already ordered his drink, like heās trying to keep them busy.
"Okay, can I add two more to the hot one? Please.ā He adds hurriedly, like asking for more than the usual amount of espresso and not following it up with manners might make you chase him out of the bakery.
You smile and nod. āSure. That one for you?ā You ask as you get to work on starting the lattes, opting to keep the conversation going since heās the only other one in the shop and itās much less awkward than him standing there in silence. He huffs out a short laugh, a small smile tugging at one side of his mouth.
āYeah, yeah, thatās mine.ā
āLong day ahead of you?ā
You can see half of his head around the espresso machine as he nods. āSeems like they all are, lately.ā He responds, running a hand through his already askew curls. He sounds so fatigued that you donāt even blame him for wanting four espresso shots.
You finish his first, sliding it over the counter before brewing the next espresso for the other latte. āWhoever this second one is for doesnāt need the extra energy?ā At this, he sighs. Not in an Iām tired of you dragging this conversation on type of way, one that almost sounds a little guilty.
āNah, uh, this oneās- kind of an apology.ā
āPeace offering?ā
āSomething like that.ā
āFor who? If you donāt mind me asking.ā Youād presume girlfriend, but hold out hope that if it were, heād find a more sufficient gift to earn her forgiveness.
āAh, a coworker.ā He looks fully sheepish now, like heās already gearing himself up to get the iced latte thrown on the ground in defiance.
āYikes,ā you arenāt able to stop yourself from saying in time. āWhatād you do?ā
āWell, Iā I just owe her a lot, recently. Sheās been picking up a lot of my slack.ā
You nod slowly, pouring milk over the ice and espresso before capping the drink and handing it over to him. Heās mid-sip of his already, and you grin as you ring him up. āEnough coffee in there for you, yāthink?ā
He half-laughs again as he pays, taking the other latte in his free hand once his wallet is back in his pocket. āYeah, just enough, thanks.ā
āWell, I hope the apology goes well. And that she likes the coffee. If she doesnāt, you were never here.ā Itās a joke that earns you another smile and a thanks before he heads out the door.Ā Ā
With the store once again empty, you head to the back room, fishing your phone out of your tote bag to check for any calls from the couple whoāve commissioned their wedding cake. Your heart lifts a bit when the screen flashes to life and reveals an unready text message from Syd.Ā
[ syd :: carmy is late - praising god and also preparing to kill him
You canāt help but grin as you type out a response.
[ you :: how tall is he?Ā
[ you :: just asking for the grave dimensions
[ syd :: too short to be acting like this.
[ you :: heard chef!!
[ syd :: love you
[ you :: love you too <3
5. family dinner at the bear
Itās Sunday evening, and youāve just locked up the bakery. Sydās standing next to you, hands crossed over her chest as she stares at you with a look of growing concern. Probably because you havenāt acknowledged her since she showed up to walk with you to The Bear, besides echoing her hi and allowing her to peck your cheek.Ā
Okay, sure, maybe youāre freaking out a little.Ā
But who wouldnāt be? Syd gave you a few daysā notice about joining her at the restaurant for family before dinner service tonight. It was initially meant for you to come for dinner at The Bear, stay behind after service, and meet everyone. Unfortunately, one of your employees bailed on opening the bakery last minute, so now you have to wake up extra early tomorrow. When you told Syd that, it apparently constituted the change in plans because she didnāt want you to be stressed about getting enough sleep.Ā
Sweet in theory - Sydās always looking out for you. But somehow this feels worse. Less casual, more like an interrogation or a job interview over dinner than a meet-and-greet with her coworkers. In your opinion, at least.Ā
You shakily slip the key into your tote bag, letting Syd slip her hand into yours and follow her as she heads up the street. The silence stretches as you zone out on the familiar buildings passing by, not even registering any other stimuli until Sydās free hand reaches toward your neck, making you jump.Ā
āWhat are you doing?ā You ask, hand coming up as if to swat her away, but sheās already retracting hers.Ā
āChecking for a pulse,ā she responds. Itās a joke, you know it is, meant to loosen you up. It doesnāt exactly feel like itās working, though. āAre you breathing over there, babe?ā
You debate trying to minimize your nerves, but you know lying to Syd is no use - sheās got your tells down to a science. āJust nervous,ā you admit. āI donāt know - is it, like, weird that weāre doing this? Like a formal introduction, and stuff? It feels really intense.ā
Syd shakes her head in answer, squeezing your hand. āNo, no, itās good - itās gonna be good, I promise. I just want you to meet everyone, especially since Iām so knee-deep in the restaurant now. I donāt want you to be this, like, nameless and faceless entity to them. Or for you to worry about coming to see me at work or coming in for dinner because you donāt know anyone. Itāll be better to meet them all at once.ā
You nod back, trying to digest the words and the rationality in them. Sheās right, of course, she usually is. You try and tell yourself that theyāre going to be nice - however much shit Syd might talk about Carmy or Richie or any of them when sheās upset, she wouldnāt be so invested in the business if they werenāt good people. Sheās told you they are a million times. Your whole train of thought is basically repeating that like a mantra.
She bumps your shoulder softly with hers, her fingers slipping from yours so she can wrap her arm around your waist and walk closer to you. āTheyāre going to love you. Theyāre just - theyāre fucking weird, but theyāre just regular people. You can talk to Marcus about baking the whole time if it gets awkward, seriously.ā Her thumb rubs into your hip in another attempt to comfort you, and you almost hate how well the proximity works to soothe your anxiety.
āOkay, okay,ā you say, the echo more of a begrudging giggle as Syd playfully prods your side with her fingers. āI trust you. Itāll be fine.ā The two of you complete the rest of the six-block journey arm in arm, making conversation about your day at the bakery to keep your mind off of things as best as possible.Ā
But eventually, you do reach The Bear. Syd extracts herself from you to get the door, holding it open as you tentatively step inside. Itās going to be beautiful inside, you can tell that immediately - the setup is gorgeous even though itās half finished. Theyāve pushed some tables together in the main room to fit everyone, and several heads are crowding around it, shoulders hunched as they finish setting out plates and silverware.Ā
āGuys, hey.ā Nothing happens at first when Syd speaks, the hustle and bustle continue until she pipes up louder. āHi - hey, guys! Hi.ā She repeats the greeting when all the heads in the room snap up to follow your voice. You can vaguely hear her introducing you, your name on her lips - but itās not computing, because youāre standing, frozen in place. So are the people around the table, like all of your individual brains are working overtime trying to catch up to the facts displayed before them.Ā
Four of the people staring back at you are gobsmacked - you process the beanie, the buzzed brown crop, the tattooed arms, the baby bump, and the matching golden heads of hair in record time.Ā
Copenhagen. Blackberry lemonade. Eva and the cupcakes. Apology coffee. Snapshots of the past few weeks roll through your head like a movie montage, and itās not until Sydās saying uh, guys? that you snap out of connecting the dots.Ā
āNo way,ā is the first thing that slips out of your mouth. āThereās literally no way.ā
And then everyone bursts into laughter. The process of elimination of whoās who is incredibly easy when coupled with Sydās nightly commentary - Richieās cackling, head thrown back, and arms folded over his stomach like heās never going to recover. Marcus is shaking his head. Natās got a hand covering her mouth to hide her giggles. Even Carmy is struggling to suppress a smile.Ā
It all gets abundantly more hilarious as you witness Syd flitting around the room, waving her arms as if trying to get a planeās attention instead of a room full of her coworkers and girlfriend. āHey! Hey - quick question - what the fuck is going on right now?ā Youāre laughing too, about to try and catch your breath to explain, but Richieās already gesturing wildly, pointing between you and Syd with the largest grin youāve ever seen on his face.Ā
āHow the fuck did you not tell us your girlās bakery was the one on Wabash?ā Sydās clearly trying to catch up, eyes narrowed and chin stuck out like sheās reading fine print.
Natās crossing the room already, pulling you into a hug before you fully register whatās happening. āShe basically saved my life the other day,ā she says over your shoulder to Syd, squeezing you tight before letting you go.
You canāt help but giggle again as you watch your girlfriend slowly process what all this means. āWait-ā her eyes are darting between you and Nat, then you and Marcus, then Richie. āSo, wait- youāre sayingā¦youāre saying that you all-ā Sheās caught Carmyās eye, and heās finally unable to stop the grin catching his lips. He just shrugs. āThe coffee."
Sydās eyes are bigger than the plates on the table now. Richieās losing it again, crowing things like you serious? and didnāt recognize coffee from your girlās place, huh? She looks equal parts shocked, exasperated, and amused when she finally turns back to you. āThereās no fucking way. Please tell me you're kidding.ā
You shake your head. āNot kidding.ā
āYouāve met them? All of them?ā
You grin as Nat steers the two of you toward the table so you can actually do what you came here to. āYep. Well, as my patrons, of course.ā
āLoyal patrons, now,ā Marcus chimes over the dull roar of conversation. āIām definitely coming back, man, your stuff is insane.āĀ
You beam, trying not to let his compliments get to your head now that you know the caliber of work he does. Richie and Nat are nodding in agreement as the former starts doling out food. You catch Carmyās eye across the table, giving him a joking look. āSo, wait, did the coffee work? She spared your life?ā
Syd groans, head in her hands, muttering I canāt believe this, I canāt believe this, I canāt believe this, I canāt believe this, over and over into her palms. Carmy smiles, huffing out one of his short laughs.Ā
āSo far,ā he allows, trying not to look so amused at Sydās reaction to this whole thing. āI think we might be regressing after this, though.ā
Dinner commences, and youāve never been happier to be wrong about a situation in your life. The food is beyond good, of course, some coriander chicken thing Syd had told you she and Carmy were workshopping. You get introduced to the members of the staff you donāt know randomly - Tina hugging you from behind your chair, Ebra extending over the entire table to shake your hand, Sweeps and Fak giving you fistbumps and making jokes at the othersā expense.
At some point, you find Sydās hand under the table, lacing your fingers with hers and letting your thumb glide over her knuckles. āAnd here I thought I was gonna be the one out of the loop,ā you tease under your breath, which has her kicking your leg lightly under the table.
āI seriously cannot believe this is happening. Okay, I get them, but how did you not know? I never shut up about them at home, feels like.ā
You canāt help but grin. āWell, itās not exactly like youāre giving me an in-depth physical description every time you complā talk about them,ā you quickly correct when Marcus raises an eyebrow at you down the line of chairs.Ā
āYeah, I guess.ā She wipes a hand over her face, centering herself somehow before moving on from the surprise of it all. āSo, not nervous anymore?ā Your smile softens, your knee meeting hers under the table.
āNo,ā you tell her. āNot nervous. Deeply enjoying this actually. Dinner and the whole situation.ā
She smiles too, pulling your hand out from under the table and pressing a kiss to the back of it, earning an aww from Fak in the background and a subsequent yelp as Richie punches him in the shoulder. āGood. āCause itās really nice, having you here.ā
āItās really nice being here,ā you respond. āGetting to see the place in person, not just from pictures on your phone. And putting faces to names - or, names to faces, I guess.ā This gets a groan out of her, and sheās leaning into you, pressing her shoulder against yours.Ā
āYouāre never going to let me forget about this, are you?ā
āNo, theyāre never going you forget about this.ā
āJesus Christ.ā
As dinner comes to a close, Richie pipes up from the end of the table. āSo, wait, does this mean we can get a friends and family discount now? āCuz Evaās already pesterinā me about cupcakes again.āĀ You smile, shrugging.Ā
āDunno, weāll see. Iām sure something could be arranged.ā Richie and Fak are high-fiving, even though the latter hasnāt even been to the bakery anyway.Ā
You glance at Syd. Sheās already looking at you - smiling, basically glowing while she watches you interact with her friends, fitting in like itās nothing at all. You know this is one of her favorite places to be; not just at The Bear, but in a room full of people she loves - albeit if you all tease her relentlessly the entire time.Ā
Marcus nods in agreement to Richieās reaction. āWell, either way, Iām coming back. Need to try all those crazy tarts you got.ā
You take one last look at her, mirroring her smile before tearing your eyes away and meeting Marcusās gaze. Youāre already positive Sydās gonna rib you for a detailed run-down of each interaction youāve had with your coworkers the minute she gets home tonight. Luckily, youāve been reminded of pretty much all of them tonight.Ā
āYou can try anything you want,ā you assure Marcus. Your hand finds Sydās knee this time, squeezing it under the table. āI have a strict policy on scones, though.ā
visual is for vibes only, readerās appearance is nondescript!
pairing: luca x fem!reader
summary: luca comes home after a long night and cuddles up to his girl
warnings: brief mention of alcohol
word count: 1.0k
a/n: @claraswritings posted some pictures talking about lucaās biceps and it inspired me to write a little something for it, so, go check her outā¤ļø
You couldnāt help the way your eyes fluttered in and out of consciousness as you laid in bed.
It was creeping into the early hours of the morning and Luca had yet to come back from a work-do for somebody or otherās birthday.
You had your duvet cuddled up to your neck as you tried to resist the urge to sleep. Just a few minutes longerā¦ heād be home soonā¦ you could wait it out.
You drifted off again, head seeking out your pillow like a knight on a devoted quest, only to snap awake again at the sound of keys in the door.
You blinked sleepily as you heard the rustle of your 6ā2 boyfriend trying - unsuccessfully - to sneak back into the house unnoticed.
A colossal crash sounded from the corridor followed by a string of whispered curses. The shoe rack had fallen over.
āLuca?ā you called quietly from bed. The swearing subsided and, a few moments later, footsteps approached the bedroom hesitantly.
Luca poked his head into the room, squinting in the dark, āDarling?ā
He made out your open eyes in the dark, blinking back at him. He frowned slightly.
āWhat are you still doing awake?ā he cooed softly, making a beeline for your side.
He perched on the side of the bed, gently rubbing a hand over your cheek as he looked you over, āThought I told you to sleep and Iād see your pretty face in the morning?ā
Your eyelids flickered open and closed, open and closed, tired beyond comprehension and still fighting sleep. You nodded, āYeah, you said, but I wanted to wait up for you. I couldnāt sleep.ā
āI see,ā Luca murmured, fingers sliding over your shoulder and beginning to trace a lazy pattern up and down your spine, sending tingles through you.
āWell, Iām home, now,ā he said softly, āDo we think we can try and get some sleep?ā
You nodded, reaching for his free hand. He held it out to you and you wrapped both hands around it. He smiled fondly at the sight, āYou seem very tired.ā
āCause, I am,ā you mumbled, pressing your cheek against the mattress, and revellling in his touch and voice both.
āHow aboutā¦ā he purred gently, pulling back slightly, āI go and get you a nice cup of water, and get changed out of these clothes, and then we can cuddle up properly, hm?ā
You liked the sound of that. You nodded, rolling over with a yawn.
Luca gave your hip a soft pat and stood again, āDonāt fall asleep on me, darling. Iāll only be a few minutes.ā
You grumbled incoherently as he disappeared down the hallway, in search of a water for you.
He returned a few minutes later, as promised, a glass of water in each hand. He was now in only a grey t-shirt and boxer shorts, padding quietly towards you.
āStill with me, gorgeous?ā he asked, setting the cups on the nightstand.
You nodded, pulling the blanket back for him, āQuick, get in, before we lose all the heat.ā
Luca climbed into bed, pressing himself up behind you, and tucking the covers over you both once more, āIām in.ā
He leaned down to your neck and breathed you in, happy to finally be home.
Your own nose scrunched as you smiled tiredly, āYou smell like beer and your fancy cologne.ā
āDo I?ā he chuckled, pressing a lazy kiss to the back of your neck, āIām sorry, beautiful.ā
āSāfine,ā you mumbled, sinking back into him. Before long, you shifted fussily, dissatisfied with your current arrangements.
You pushed up onto your hands, looking at him expectantly, āShift.ā
Luca laughed quietly at your demanding tone, the sound rumbling deep in his chest. He sat back against the headboard and opened his arms for you.
You turned and wormed your way around until you rested your head on his chest.
āThere you go,ā he said, his bicep curling beneath your head, like a soft pillow, letting you nestle your cheek into his thick arm.
You hummed appreciatively and Luca lent down, pressing a kiss to the top of your head.
You nuzzled closer to it and felt his arm flex subtly around you, tightening his grip on you. You relaxed as you felt him do so.
He noticed the sunken look in your face, exhaustion quickly taking over. He whispered reassuringly, āClose your eyes, gorgeous. Iāve got you.ā
His big hand began to run over your head, gently caressing your scalp and moving with a tender touch through your hair.
You sighed against him, the smooth motions of his hands lulling you to sleep, slowly but surely.
You let your face bury into his chest, breathing Luca in and letting him absorb you completely. All the tension seemed to drop from your body.
His arms tightened around you, pulling you inexplicably closer to him and cradling you close to his heart. He kissed the top of your head again.
āJust sleep, darling,ā he said, letting his own eyes close as he simply held you, āIām here. Iām not going anywhere.ā
The sound of his heartbeat, the gentle strokes of his fingers, the warmth of his body. It all had your eyelids fluttering shut for good.
With a final, soft sigh, you let go. Your body relaxed completely against his, the weight of the day finally lifting as you succumbed to sleep.
Luca stayed awake just a little longer, listening to your steady breathing, a content smile curling on his lips. His arms remained around you, holding you close, making sure that even in your sleep, you never felt alone.
summary: emery walsh refuses to see a movie adaptation before she reads the book. but when she starts to run out of time, she must resort to listening to the audiobook, even during surgery.
word count: 1.1k
tags: fluff; nerd and bookworm walsh; garcia and walsh bestieism
BOOKWORM WALSH MASTERLIST
Emery observed you quietly. She watched as your eyes flitted back and forth, scanning the pages of your current read, and as your nose scrunched up in reaction to some confusing plot point. The beams of light from the setting sun shone through the half-closed shades, warming the living room. Emery swore there could never be a prettier sight than her wife reading a book, enveloped by the warmth and glow of the fading day.
The two of you had a routine for nights like these, when your work schedules allowed for little overlap. When you got home from work, youād wake your wife. While Emery was getting up and ready for the hospital, you would make dinner, which was more often than not breakfast foodāyour signature dish, and her favorite, was shakshouka. After you both ate, youād drift over to the couch, where youād spend whatever time you had before Emery had to leave. Sometimes youād talk and laugh about random stories, and other times the two of you would simply just lie together, content just being in each otherās presence.
Tonightāafter throwing together a couple bacon egg lettuce tomato sandwiches on some Costco croissantsāyou slouched back into the corner of the sectional, threw a blanket over your legs, and flipped open your book. After washing the dishes, Emery joined you, lifting your feet into her lap.
She was dressed in her scrubs and her bag was already slung over her shoulder. If she wanted to make it to rounds on time, she probably should have left already, but Emery couldnāt bring herself to leave you yet.
Mindlessly, she rubbed your calf, earning a satisfied hum from you, and Emery smiled. Her eyes couldnāt stay far from your face for long, and she noticed your eyelids drooping, the setting sun and quiet music putting you to sleep.
This was her favorite place to be, and she wanted nothing more than to stay in this moment forever, but glancing down at her watch, she knew sheād already pushed her luck five minutes too long.
She sighed and gave your feet a squeeze before moving them off her lap. āTime to go save the world.ā
Her smooth voice cut through the reverie and caused you to pout. āDonāt go,ā you whined. āI hate when you work nights.ā
āSo, like all the time?ā Emery raised her brow as she stood up and rounded the chaise.
You nodded, looking up at your wife, who was now leaning over the back of the couch.
āāM sorry, love,ā she mumbled against your forehead, giving you a kiss before standing back up. āI have this weekend off though.ā
āOh, yeah.ā You pushed yourself to a more upright position. āRemember, I got tickets for us to see Project Hail Mary on Saturday?ā
Emery paused, her hand stilling on the door handle. Turning on her heels, she frowned. āWait this Saturday?ā
āYeah, why?ā You tilted your head. āDo you have other plans?ā
āNo,ā Emery replied, frustration knitting her brows as she remembered you telling her about these plans. āI justāI havenāt even started the book.ā
You stifled a laugh, an amused grin tugging at your lips. You knew your wifeās disdain towards movie adaptions and her insistence on reading the book if she was going to watch the movie.
āWell, you better get reading,ā you sang teasingly.
āRightāā she gave you a sarcastic stare as she turned to open the doorā ābecause I have so much free time.ā
āI hear the audiobookās really good,ā you called after her.
āIāll check it out,ā Emery responded over her shoulder, closing the door behind her. But before it could shut all the way, she stuck her head back in. āI love you.ā
You grinned softly, all playfulness gone. āI love you too.ā
For the next couple of days, Emery found herself listening to Ray Porterās voice every chance she could. Even during surgery, her usual 80s soft rock playlist paused and replaced by the Project Hail Mary audiobook playing on one point five speed.
By Friday afternoon, picking up a day shift before her weekend off, Emery was about three quarters of the way done and was ready to finish off her day charting with her headphones in. Of course, being a trauma surgeon, something else always came up, which was how she found herself in the ED elbow-deep in a manās abdominal cavity, once again cleaning up one of Abbotās messes.
āHey,ā Garcia greeted as she entered the trauma room, rubbing her hands together with sanitizer. āArenāt you supposed to be off?ā
āI was,ā Emery answered, still focused on suturing this manās liver, something she really should have been doing in the OR. āBut somebody need their ass saved. Again.ā
She gave a pointed glance at the ED attending across from her, who smiled sarcastically in return.
āYou know,ā Yolanda started, a mischievous tone creeping into her voice as she peered in on the procedure, āeveryone was talking about your routine appendectomy earlier.ā
āIām that good.ā Emery shrugged, causing her fellow surgeon to raise her brows.
āOh, so it has nothing to do with your sci-fi audiobook playing in the OR?ā
Emery paused, looked up, and gave her a deadpan glare.
Yolanda laughed. āYou guys going to see the movie soon?ā
āYeah, tomorrow,ā Emery replied before explaining how she forgot until you reminded her earlier this week, and how she was trying to finish the book before then.
āSheās a saint for putting up with you,ā Yolanda joked with a certain fondness.
Abbot, picking up on who they were talking about, interjected, āHow is the missus?ā
āGood,ā Emery responded shortly, glaring at him again.
McKay, who had been listening in on the conversation while monitoring the airway, mustered up the courage and said, āYouāre going to see Project Hail Mary? I took Harrison to see it last week. They did a really good job with it.ā
Emery simply hummed as she refocused on her sutures.
āFist my bump.ā Cassie grinned, her eyes crinkling above her surgical mask.
Pausing her movements, the sutures already tied up, Emery stared at the other woman, almost squinting into a scowl.
āItāsāitās a line,ā Cassie stuttered as she awkwardly unclenched her fist and lowered her hand. āFrom the book.ā
Emery felt the corners of her lips twitch up and was grateful her mask was hiding her smirk.
āUsually you not stupid,ā she said as she held out her hand for the forceps Perlah had been holding. āWhy stupid, question?ā
Understanding the reference, Cassie chuckled and shook her head.
1/? ā«¾ Sully!Reader x Sully Family ā«¾ Reader is Jakeās sister, who is brought back into existence via a Recom body to use as leverage during the events of ATWOW. Ā ā«¾ WC 6.8KĀ
Ņ READERĀ āReader is an adult ā¬Ŗ She/Her ā¬Ŗ Physical features beyond a Recombinant/Naāvi body are not explicitly described. āĀ
Ņ CHAPTER TAGS ā«æ Graphic Depictions of Violence, reader is routinely sedated and is currently out of her mind, Amnesia, Dissociation, Confusion, Grief, Angst, Minor Character Death, Hurt/Comfort, Threats of Death, Minor Interrogation, Canon Divergence, Rotating POV ā«æ
Ņ AUTHORāS NOTE ā«æĀ A little bit of an out there concept, but I ran with it, and now I am invested. Note, this story revolves around the reader as much as the entire Sully family. POVs rotate, and the family and their dynamic (both during turmoil and in the quieter, sweeter momentsā are very much the focus.) This is super experimental, as I am unsure if there even is a market for this kinda thing! Nevertheless, I thought Iād throw it into the void to see if it sticks. Also, to note, I am a firm believer in letting your characterās actions affect the plotā so though we are loosely following canon here, things will not be the same timeline-wise, nor events-wise. Youāre important to the plot people, look alive!Ā
She comes to when her knees hit the ground. An explosion of sound and color, of existence, of a profound nothingness of anything before this.
āNow I know you know who this might be, Sully!ā
The alien bellows into the thicket, sending a flock of birds fleeing. It garners a laugh from the tatted-up, blue woman with a tail and anā AR, Jake remindsā the ghost of him that has been speaking to her long before his death.
The barrel is flush against her temple, not digging in, but relaxed in a way that is nonchalant, unbothered. That makes it worse. It makes her feel disposable, like cattle, like garbage. A confirmation of all the things she already believed herself to be.
She floats.
She feels so disconnected from this that she really canāt do anything but stare and breathe. As if her body just decided that her mind did not need to be here, be aware, and it was fine to stay put. Let the world blur and the noise turn into listening through a wall. Itās almost comfortingā not knowing how to feel because it is too much, so she defaults to nothing.
She settles on the dense green. Green, when has she ever seen so much of it? In old movies. In century-old documentaries watched from the back of an aging classroom, bitter and wanting? In the glimpses sheās had of Tommyās course material? When she was young enough to love digging through her older brotherās things, and then old enough to sign to put them in storage, post-mortem?
āItās come to our attention that you had you a little loose end back home. Well, we didāja the mighty kind favor of tyinā it for you!ā Suddenly, his hand is a vice on the base of her neck, rattling her like bait on a line. Her brain rattles in her skull, and it tugs her back into her body with a force so strong that she has to catch her breath.
Itās the purest thing thatās ever filled her, and itās so strange and scary that she feels like sheās going to choke on it.
A beat.
His hand on her jaw, twisting, showing āYou know this face!ā He sounds smug, like an asshole. ā āN we saved you a trip and brought it all the way to hell just for you!ā
Another.
Too many after that, and then, the alien peels back with a sigh, gesturing to another, āCross this one off the list.ā Then, sheās manhandled into arms that are the first to hold her in years, and before she can hate herself for almost reaching for the comfort of flesh, sheās strapped back into the helo, and she is in the sky.
Flashes of it. blue. clear. More flocks of birds? So many. A million sounds that strain under the whoop whoop whoop-ing of a rotor blade. Sheās flying. Jake, Tommy, Iām flying! Look!ā
For hours, she is cargo. Brought out, shoved down, picked up, and strapped in.
āPrick her.ā
A pinch on her arm after every landing.
The more it happens, the more she is convinced this is the strangest form of purgatory. They fly, they land, the man does his spiel, and when nothing happens, they leave.
They call to Sully, Sullyā But the last Sully is already here, under their knife. She wades through a fog, her mind not sharp enough to connect the dots, unwilling to form, to reactājust observe.
She feels the passage of time in the strain that begins to press down, strong enough to begin to coax her from apathy and begin to entertain the onslaught of questions that begin to bubble to the surface.
āRequest for data retrieval. Three clicks westbound. How copy?ā
āSolid Copy.ā The alien grunts and looms over her. Dog tags brush her hair, and the clinking of them is comforting. He signals to the man in the pilotās seat. Human. A man. She wants to call to him, ask him something, anything, but she canāt speak, canāt move. Whether itās cowardice, or self-preservation, or the way that your throat locks up in your nightmares when you scream, she does not know.
Her addled mind has yet to question why he looks so small from where she sits.
Grunts of reluctance, but they end up landing anyway, and this time, here, she sees something so distinctly human that she feels almost spiritually drawn to its presence. The fleeting sight of metal, of structure, grips her soul tight. It begins to nudge her into a level of consciousness absent from her in the green and blue fever dream.
It is lost when the pinch in her arm returns.
Cycles of varying awareness, in a spindle of an uneven spool of yarn.Ā
The alien, the one with sunglassesāwho wears her like a backpackā goes to undo the million buckles that hold her together, and the alien they call colonel, the loud one, the mean one who shakes her, tells him to leave her there.
With a nod, he backtracks. With the final click of a sealed restraint, he follows his team into the brush. The rhythmic beat of rotors slows to a halt.
And then, in the deafening silence, too loud for the unfamiliar titters of natureās peace, she is alone with the only man who looks like her.
She does not know that her hands, if sheād had the chance to see them, were as blue as the ones that pressed that gun to her temple, the ones that strained her neck and tied her like a hog.
Itās a momentā long or short, she doesnāt know. Her lips move for the first time since sheād come alive from the long dark.
āHā¦elp.ā
It takes everything. All the energy stored, little it was. The man in the front seat hears her; she knows he does. He shifts, head turning, but not enough to reassure her of his attention. As if heād heard a noise and filed it as an afterthought.
Her eyelids grow heavy, and it becomes so enticing to let the dark take her once more. Perhaps then she could try her chance at a different dream. A different hell. Maybe it would suit her more than this.
āBut itās nice here. Would be nicer without the aliens.Ā
Deep breaths. Deep and slow. Three things you can hear, see, smellā irritation, as childish as it feels, fills her when she struggles even to do this.Ā
Come on, kid.
Jake?
Didnāt raise a quitter.
Iām scared, Jake.
A shot rings out.
It doesnāt so much startle but slowly coax her attention towards where she thinks it might have come from. Maybe from where the aliensāthe blue aliensālet the forest swallow them whole. Parted the leaves like the Red Sea, and left her to wonder.
It brings the pilot more concern than her plea, though, because heās barking something loud and fast, a gun already in hand, head half out the window.
More follow, and more, and moreā shouting, rustlingā enough to get the pilot to start the helo up again, sending the foliage that surrounds them into a loud dance.
She watches the sway of color, of earth, and can only think pretty. She figures that whatever is to happen next is fine, because she doesnāt think sheās ever seen flowers this close before and is okay to leave now, happy to rest.
She wonders if Tommy knows the names of each one and the bugs that live in them. Maybe she can ask him soon.
Theyāre back, she thinks, when a bright flash of tall and blue bursts into the clearingā but no, because the pilot raises his gun, and pulls the trigger.
Thereās shouting, movement, nothing she can understandā but what she can is that the man in front of her has died, because he is now skeweredā once, twice? with poles? No.
Arrows?
The death startles, but her body fails her. Doesnāt so much as twitch. She has no time to process, canāt, because suddenly, in the corner of her eye, she sees them.
Right at the side door, as if they were about to throw themselves in. Two sets of eyes, staring, blinking, confused, yellow, like the sun. A million things that filter into incomprehension of the scene they just stumbled upon.
She doesnāt know what does it, will never know, but the words leave her lips without effort or prompt, as if possessed.
āHelp.ā
Strained, painful, horrifically gratingā but enough. She doesnāt feel anything after that, just a sudden calm that soothes her heart, that tells her to lay back and let it happen.
āHelp me.ā
They blink, and blink, and exchange looks and biting words she canāt understandā but thenāHands, blue, but smaller and more nervous than sheās seen from the others. Pulling and tugging at the straps, jostling her, checking, saying things she canāt understand.
āPlease. Help me.ā
Is she still talking?
The other one, the taller one, keeps his head in a fervent swivel, looking back at them with greater frustration the longer the smaller one takes. He sounds urgent, pleadingā eventually he tosses him a knife, and she closes her eyes, and waits.
There is no pain, no metal sluicing through her gutā only snapping, clunking, and relief from a great pressure she didnāt realize was suffocating her. She breathes deep and full, letting a smell so very strange fill her nose. Itās nice, she thinks, sweet. It doesnāt bite back or feel thick and sludgy. Nothing you could get at an air bar.
Then, sheās a backpack again, except the body beneath her feels smaller than hers, younger. Still, it compensates for her dead weight, harried and with the helping hands of the one whoād cut her loose.
Then theyāre moving.
There is no sudden fade. Instead, she grows. The skin of her legs begins to sting. It becomes less of a simple pain and more pointed, more recognizableāif not from experience, then from ideas. From concepts of things that she can only conjure from her imagination. The prick of thorns, the scrape of bark, the brush of nettles. Somehow, she feels fond, happy to know what existing amongst life felt like. Not flat, smooth, and bent around her. Rather, unyielding, unrepentant, and loud in its existence.
The noise comes second.
The loud tremors of a heart pushed to its limits, right up against her ear. Things sheād only hear through busted laptop speakers. Bugs, rustling, crooning, the flap of wings, the titters of life. The slap of leaves as they carve a nervous path into the earth.
Then Nausea, full and hot in her throat.
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Beeping, loud and urgent.
It makes them panic, running turns into a flurry of hands patting her down, following where the sound is loudest. They land on the right side of her arm, and at the sight of whatever they find, they begin to argue.
She doesnāt understand, but itās a good sound, a fond one, a very strange thought formsāher brain wondering if the aliens are brothers, somehow.
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She feels it, the pinch, and can only be glad they figured out how to shut it up.
They readjust her, the blip over, and continue. Pace quickened. Silence loud.
Everything lulls into blotches of light and color, her tongue thick in her mouth, her face tingly, and her skin sensitive against belts that pin her arms to the small of her back. Just feeling, with no fight to react to it.
For some reason, she wants to hum, wants her headphones. Maybe a coffee.
Then, there is so much noise. Talking. Theyāve stopped moving. Sheās satisfied enough to ignore it. Complacent with her tingly face shoved into skin.
Then, sheās somewhere else.
On her back, lying on top of bound wrists and elbows, itchy, uncomfortable with the sharpness of her bed? No? Definitely not her bed.
When the itch amalgamates with the rest of her pains, she is met with the sky again. The Beautiful sky.
When Loāak and his brother burst into the clearing, heaving and sweaty and legs caked in mud, from following the sounds of their motherās song, Loāak does not think heās ever seen them so relieved.
Across the way, she cries to the great mother, running to them with Tuk still in her arms. The pound of her feet a comforting rhythm. Their father, so hard and stoic, different now in his love, now calls to his sons with a reverence and affection and worry that makes his chest hurt.Ā
Loāak savors it; their fleeting ignorance of what he knows is going to very quickly turn into a situation.
And it does.
Explanations spill from their lips before their dad can pull out his knife. Itās disjointed, rushed, harried, and addled with events they have yet to truly grasp. Theyāre not even done talking before heās grabbing the woman off Neteyam like sheās a disease, shucking her into the grass, checking them over, their heads, their backs, their limbs. When he finds nothing major, he presses their foreheads into his chestā just like when they were boysā and they fold so quickly that they would be embarrassed if they had not almost died.
He chances a look up, and his mother has tucked his sisters behind her, bow drawn and so very still. Loāak startles then, because if theyād just give him the chance to really explainā
āNeteyam.ā His mother rasps, her throat hoarse. āWhat is this?ā Itās weary and confused, from a body that has already begun to drain the adrenaline, only to have it spike again.
āMotherāā he begins, breathless, almost. He looks like doesnāt really know where to start. Doesnāt know what to say thatāll make sense or make them understand. āAh. Sheā sheāā he gestures to her, weakly, and he can only exhale a defeated breathe.
āWeā ahā found her on the way hereāā
Loāak, loud, jumps in, looking up at their father, nearly vibrating. āIn a scorpion, dadā she was all tied up and shitā fuckā I mean, sorryā and she, she was asking for help. I mean, we couldnāt just leave herā¦ā he trails off, momentum gone, once he realizes that thatās all they really have.
He begins to panic.
They saw her, took her, and ran like hellā back to their parents so they could make everything better. Tell them what happens now. Try not to think about how maybe if theyād saved one life, maybe things wouldnāt be so bad.
A pressure behind his eyes. He shakes it away. Hand itching to grip at his dadās cummerbund like a baby. But he wants to, so badly. His heart flutters loud in his ears, knuckles aching for the familiar cling of leather.
His dadās jaw sets hard, like it always does when he has to decide something when he has no good choices. Which is every day, now.Ā
He locks eyes with their mother.
āBaby.ā His dad says, heavy. Itās a look, just oneā but it raises their hackles, sets them on edge. Theyāve seen their parents have entire conversations without even needing to speak. Whatever he tells her to do has her squeezing Tuk in her arms, closer, and ushering her children to follow.
The air changes, becomes forebodingā just like at the shack. Loāak doesnāt know why he feels like he knows what his father is going to doā but actually, maybe he does. The evidence is miles away now, in a place they were forbidden to go to, but Loāak went anyway. Dragged his whole fucking family with him. Where Spider was taken, and their parents took the lives of many to save them. Their dreamwalker bodies were left for the great mother to decide what to do with.Ā
No one to place Atokirina to guide them home, to visit them at the spirit tree, no memories to relive but violence.
He and Neteyam share their own glanceā and he looksā¦troubled. Torn. Different. Doesnāt know whether to trust his father with the life theyād just hauled ass to save, or push. His big brother, the mighty warrior, the pillar of the Sully children, whose hands are trembling.
Loāak presses closer, just enough that their shoulders brush.
Later, he will tell Loāak itās because he had to carry a grown woman half across the forest on his back, with an assurance that does not reach his eyes.
He doesnāt want his brother to see more death, to feel it on his hands. To reep what Loāak had sown. That alone makes Loāak speak before his brain can catch up.
āDad, please donāt kill her.ā
āAnd what a thing to ask your parent.
Loāak thinks it is too much. What if she were with them? Then what? Theyād just saved an evil sky person? One who has killed Naāvi? Burned their homes and destroyed Eywaās gifts? Killed his aunt Sylwanin, his uncle Tsuātey, his grandfather, Kiriās mother? Erased generations of his Omaticaya heritage in a single afternoon, to steal the precious metals of Eywaās flesh?
Still, it presses on him. He feels his stomach curdle and his heart race at the thought of it. It feels wrong. It doesnāt make sense because he does not feel this way about the people his parents just killed. That NeteyamāGod, Neteyam too, huh?āHad to kill.
When they burst into the clearing, Loāak hadnāt even noticed the sky person aiming for them before Neteyam had shot an arrow, then another, and then he lay dead in the front seat of a Scorpion. Where they expected to find guns, a chance at a level playing field, they instead found a woman bound, unable to move, whispering for help.
āShe looked scared. I donātāā he pauses, doesnāt know why heās so choked up about it, he feels bile in his throat, and a pressure behind his eyes. āShe doesnāt even look like she knows whatās going onāā
āSon.ā
Itās soft, coaxing, and that scares him more.Ā
āDad, she begged us.ā
Silence. Mulling. The flicker of ears, the work of a jaw.Ā
A soft inhale, thenā
āLoāak, go with your mother.ā
He panics, heart racing because that isnāt an I wonāt.
āDad!ā
āLoāak.ā His mother steps in, leveled, but unrelenting. āMaāitan. Your father will be fair in his judgement, and do what is best for our safety.ā She lets out a breath, and a hand suddenly presses against his heart, her lip quivering, before she bites it down. āMy good boy. My sweet, soft-hearted boy. Please, come. Trust.ā
And that does it.
Like the final give of a bowstring, he takes one look at his motherās face and relentsā buries his head into her neck and tries not to feel ashamed when he lets her comfort pull him away. He tells himself itās the exhaustion, a coercion greater than him.
He glances at the woman, lying in the grass, eyes half-lidded, looking soā¦helpless. Like a Palulukan could come and start gnawing at her ankles, and she wouldnāt mind, nor be able to do anything to stop it.
Eywa, please give this woman the chance to die with honor.
Jakeās wife, his other half, catches his gaze and nods, eyes hard and permissiveā to do what needs to be done, if he has to. It is okay. It is right.
A father protects.
She walks away with their youngest son tucked under her chin and their baby girl at her hip. The others follow like lost ducks, dragging their feet, exhausted, changed. Still, she will shield their ears, their eyes, their hearts. Preserveā even if theyād just been hostages. Threatened with death, their own and their siblings. Leverage, to get to him, to make him pay for choosing good, for once in his goddamn life.
Even if Neteyam, his baby boy, not even an hour ago, shot a man clean through for aiming a gun at his mother. Saved her life, had no choice, no time to think on it.
Itās the sharp, sudden realization that nothing will ever quite be the same. Jake knows this because Jake has been to hell and paid every price. Aware of the rot that takes hold and never really lets go, just hides until it decides to remind you of its existence when youāre at your weakest.
And he fucking hates it with every ounce of his being.
It should be him, him only, doing the dirty work. The things that the Naāvi donāt want to fucking do, never want to do.
His kids should be singing, dancing, beading, being silly and sweet, and being utter nightmares. Living, loving, and giving their parents a hard time without the fear of a greater consequence.His family, his babies, still so small, still growing into themselves and the world, have no choiceā because of who their father is. What he is.
He glances behind his shoulder and sees the last flash of blue disappear behind the thickest tree. As if it changed anything to cover more of what they knew their father might do on the other side.
He pulls the pistol from his hip, heavy and scuffed, checks the mag, and presses forward.
Itās different, at this angleā more intimidating, she thinks. It was easier to pretend when the colonel pressed it against the side of her head, just out of sight. Her face, she feels, doesnāt move. Just a slow, automated blink and the blurred edges of metal, and a steady, circular dark hole that her eyes begin to focus on.
āName and rank.ā
If her mind was here, if she wasnāt more drugs than person, she would hear how itās bitten out, ground in a way that seeps into the air, makes your baser self, your animal self, prickle with fearā making you afraid before you even know why, because your body knows that itās going to die before you do.
And itās in English.
She chops the question in two. She doesnāt have a rank. She has a name, but canāt bring herself to move anything but her eyes, and still, they are not truly looking anywhere.
To her now-self, his voice is mean. Way meaner than the first man. Yet, the cadence, the tone, the texture. It wraps around her and holds her tight. She feels years of confusion, of loneliness, slough from her back. It makes no sense. None of it does.
She feels the sudden, cool press of it against her brow, soothing in the unnatural heat that begins to burn her from the inside. She leans into it, feels like itās okay to do so.
āAnswer the fuckinā question.ā
Her eyes wobble, her ears starting to ring. She wonders why an alien, of all things, would speak English and have that accent. So distinct, so personal, straight from the slums of The Bronx, of all things.
You sound like my brothers. She wants to say, to laugh with the huge blue man that shields the sun from her eyes so she can keep looking at the sky without it hurting too much. Laugh like itās the funniest coincidence in the world, and then cry her heart out until she follows wherever her family went, so everything can be okay again.
A hand grips the sides of her face, the smushing of her cheeks together. She lets him. It feels better than when it was by the scruff of her neck. This feels more personal, like sheās a human.
Over his shoulder, the beautiful sky. Blue. A blue that sheās never seen before, but is suddenly in abundance now. On skin, on plants, above her, in the water sheād seen in the haze of the helo to this place sheās in now, surrounded by alien strangers who saved her from the other alien strangers.
Oh yes, the water. Loud. It flowed free and bountiful, unconnected to a meter that racked up bills she couldnāt afford.
The man is pressing her into the itchy grass as if he tried hard enough itād save him the effort of digging a grave. It's okay. She keeps her eyes on the blue. Itās okay.
So pretty she thinks, again, for the millionth time, and how she wishes she could reach up and touch the cloudsā theyāre white, not black, or brown. They swirl into each other in a way she never thought clouds could do.Ā
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One of the things that Jake had always been assured of was whether or not he needed to pull the trigger.
Because hesitation in the face of death will have you at the end of someone elseās. Your wife, dead, your children, dead. Your village, burned.
But right now, watching this woman, this girl (all the avatars come out young. Who knows how old she is? Maybe they made her young on purpose.) stare down the barrel of a 45 Cal without even a hint of how close he is to blowing her brains out with his children tucked away behind a tree?
And the thing is, Jake isnāt stupid enough to use a gun, give away their position, lose the anonymity that the forest provides. Those grunts were trained to raid homes, buildings, concrete, and ironā Not the Naāring. Not Ayram Alusing.
When did green ever stop us, Jake?
Itād be with his knife, clean, or with his arm around her neck, squeezing until he heard that familiar clean click. No mess for his family to see, a body dragged into the brush, and a dip of his hands in a stream.
He looks into the eyes of the stranger below him, wrapped up in RDA-issued restraints, looking too innocent, too docile. The stranger his sons saved because she asked for helpā tied up in the Scorpion they had used to come down here and threaten his children. Make them hurt, make them beg for their lives, make them feel fear like a child never should.
He looks at her and sees all of them.
āName and rank.ā
Heās quiet, both for the sake of the tiny ears behind that tree. Ears that are too sharp for their own good, and because Jake knows that volume does not get through to people. Words do. The conviction behind them.
And he lets the anger, the hateā putrid and so utterly human, seep into his inside voice. A steady volume that his endless list of foster fathers, teachers, and drill sergeants worked so hard to get him to learn.
He presses the pistol further, letting her head tilt back, her lips part. Not with fear, no, just reflex. Jake looks, really does, mouth a hard line. A time of being on the other side allows him the knowledge that there is nothing these people wouldnāt do. His babies, his mate, they donāt get it. They really donāt understand that nothing is sacred. There is no line, no horizon, no āsurely, not this.ā
Not when money is God.
They couldāve trained her for thisāthe sole purpose of getting a mole into all he holds dear. Get his guard down through the goodness of his sonsā hearts. They couldāve drugged her, stuck a tracking chip where no one could reach. Laid her out on a table, gut her, put a bomb in her fucking stomachā a long distance detonation. Pumped her full of bags of Sarin so when she threw up, all she had to do was poke a baggie, and theyād all die. Slow. Of chemical sicknessā something Jake could not defend them from.
They know the people have rules, integrity, humanityā more than they ever willā And how they love that, knowing the Naāvi will only go so far.
So he fights back the human way, the way they understand.
āAnswer the fuckinā question.ā
Whatever light is in her eyes begins to dim, and he finds himself reaching out to pull her from wherever she thinks sheās going, because he has questions. Important ones that will decide how this ladyās story ends, how he and his family move on from this grove. Go home and rebuild themselves from the ground up.
āHey.ā He bites out, instinctually, and her eyes refocus. Still unbothered by the fact that heās grabbing her face with a kind of disrespect people like him could never tolerate. She stares beyond his shoulder, far, far away into the skies he knows and loves.
He wants to hiss and tell her not to look, to stop looking at where she is, charting a mental map in her head right back to his home.
He stares, searches for what feels like forever, and seesā¦
Nothing.
Just two, dilated eyes that wobble when the light hits them.
Is there anybody even in there?
A husk, maybe? An avatar without a driver?
Loāak said she asked for help. Pleaded for it.
She couldāve disconnected, severed the link when she realized things didnāt look like they were in her favor. Went to report something to someone who had the clearance to initiate a strike, the positioning of the attack was enough to give them a search box.
But her eyes are open.
Why else could she talk then, and not now? Not when heās about toāā
Jake is unsettled.
He takes a deep, deep breath and then lets her go. Her head hits the ground like a stone. He tucks the pistol back into his holster, hand steady. Eyes on her, alert, even if sheās got her arms flush against her back in a way he knows is painful. He grabs her by the strap that digs into her shoulders, and is met with no resistance, no fight, when he maneuvers himself behind her. His chest pressed against her back. Her breathing is slow. It doesnāt hitch. Her eyes remain on the sky.
He waits, again.
She blinks, again.
Then, the crook of his arm slides over and hooks itself under her neck.
ā-and nothing.
He doesnāt press down; rather, looks to her side profile, as if it would change anything from this angle.
He also begins to ask the only fucking person whoād know what to do right now.
He never really knew how to start these things, but he meant them. If you got him to get on his knees and beg to a god he couldnāt even see? Thereās a desperation there, raw and ugly. Itās taken the entirety of his childrenās lives for him to even get to the point where he asks her for stuff in his head, simple things. A good catch, good weather, time with his kids when thereās none to give.
Eywa.
A prayer, a ridiculous concept twenty-odd-something years ago. Still is, sometimes, because heās nothing if not walls built upon eachother in the shape of a man. He clears his throat and steels himself.
Great motherā he starts, deep inside where the doubt is, eyes searching, looking around the grove already before heās even asked the question. I need a sign. Anything.
His ears flicker with the sudden, loud chirping of nantang. No, that canāt be it.
He continues, knee pressing into the earth, keeping the small of her back straight. This woman cannot defend herself, and I need you to do it for her. He feels the conviction so strongly. Something not just for his son, but for him, Jakeās own conscience.
His bicep flexes, instinctual, wondering why it hasnāt moved yet. He exhales, clearing his head. He grounds himself, loosening the knots that rile him up. Neytiri promised his son that he would be fair. The Oloāeyktan Jake, and not the angry, distressed father Jake.Ā
Another breath, Guide my hand. He urges, begging. The arm he holds feels less sure the longer she makes him wait.
A minute passes, and then another, and another, and Jake finds himself continuing to add time to the counter.Ā
The thing is, Neteyam does not expect the silence.
If he couldnāt smell his dad, and the distinct, strange, sickly-sweet cloy of the woman, he would think that nothing was happening. His motherās ears flicker now and thenā to check, bow in hand. She looks beyond the tree more than once, growing more concerned as time bleeds on. His father is not a lingerer; He decides with discipline, efficiency, and experience. Every second wasted is another life at risk.Ā
But he doesnāt even hear talking.
Just the wind, the Naāring, and the titters of their Ikran that wait for them in the trees, alert sentinels.
Then, the rustle of the grass, and the drag of tired footsteps that make him so very afraid to look at what he left behind.
His brother, who stands beside him, who, too, has also brought out his bow. Even if mom told them both that they did not need to, that they needed to rest with their sisters. He has that same hesitation. It shows when Loāak, the one heād expect to charge toward the mess, attempts to meet their dad halfway around the tree, but canāt bring himself to do so.Ā
Then, Dad appears. His gun, holstered, his knife, too. Thereās no fresh iron on the wind, no bite of steel. Dad looks exhausted, so unsure. For a moment, all he can do is stare at the ground.
Then, he crosses over to their mother and gently ushers her around the tree, murmuring. She relents, ears flickering, tail swishing, and places a sleeping Tuk into Kiriās arms. Gripping her mateās arm as he leads her to where their children canāt witness.
What happened?
It is only in their absence that he feels safe enough to look up and lock eyes with his baby siblings. There could be a discussion if they knew what to discuss, but there are no clues, no hints, just shots in the dark of what became of the strange, silent, bound woman heād hauled on his back like a fresh kill, adrenaline thick in his veins, and left in the itchy grass that always leaves his ankles bothered.
He looks into his sibling's eyes and sees fear, uncertainty. The sight itches more than any grass could.Ā
He makes himself get up. Even if the blood rushes to his ears and he has to fight not to swayā in an effort to soothe them with answers they could not reach for themselves. To soothe himself and smother the images of the arrows heād fletched for an Angstik hunt buried into one dream walker, one human. The beginning of a list he knew he would have, but did not thinkā¦it would be soā¦
Neteyam steels himself, stands without a word, and goes to disappear behind the bend where their parents had only moments prior. He hears the faint, worried calls of Kiri and Loāak and silences them with a gentle, raised hand.
He presses forward.
When he rounds, he looks fully, eyes straining to see across the berth. There is a moment where heās so sure heāll see her dead, or somehow worse, just goneā the only memory of the strange woman a divot where her body had lain. He tries to prepare himself for it, in the moment but pushes himself to just look.
āAnd sheās where theyād left her.Ā
Adjusted, now, so that her limbs are less awkward, more dignified, but she's there, her chest still rising and falling with fragile life. He sees his parentsā forms looming over her, weapons holsteredā
And then, something small, so much so that he almost misses itāĀ
A single, newly sprouted Atokirina perched atop her nose.Ā
Huh.
Then, a shrill, ear-piercing wail. Familiar. One that has everyoneās ears lowering, his mother giving a startled hiss, bow knocked, his dad with his rifle already in hand, and Neteyam rushing over before his parents begin to rescind their decision of peace.Ā
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āSon, stay backā!āĀ
āKehe Maāitan!ā
āNoāI got it! I got it!ā He already feels breathless. He strings his bow around his chest on the way, the itchy grass already irritating his feet. He slides near the end, tail swishing, crouched.
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Heās lifting up her shirt sleeve and pressing on the bright red, obnoxious-looking circle that had previously silenced the yelling from the womanās arm. It had freaked him and Loāak out so much earlier, and it is only because of his brotherās impulsive need to touch everything and act first that theyād gotten it to stop so quickly.
āNeteyamā son, what?ā
He lets out a breath, gesturing to the device. āIt stops making noise when you press itāā
āYeah, butāā his father is squatting, rucking up the shirt sleeve past the womanās shoulder, and giving the now uncovered device a long, inquisitive stare, his brow furrowed deep.
Itās a thick, grey, and yellow, flat brick glued flush to the side of her armā Reminiscent of some kind of fucked up Insulin pump. Jake pinches his brow, massaging into the cartilage. He exhales heavily, his gaze flickering to his eldest, who looks like heās trying his best to look okay. God, his kid is exhausted; he should be at home, stuck in his Grandmotherās tent until she drills it into Jakeās head that heās fine.Ā
āDo you even know what itās saying?ā
āToā¦press the button?ā His eldest gives weakly, shrugging, unsure now. He starts scratching at his ankle, eyes darting from the device to her fatherās stare.Ā
āYeah, but itās asking you to do that so it canā-ā he shakes his head, sighs, and places his AR back in its holster, adjusting. He points to the device āInjection.ā He says, slowly and in English, āIt means thereās probably a needle or somethinā hooked up to her bloodstream. Every time you press it, I reckon thatās whatās making her allāā Jake gestures to all of her āYāknow.ā
His ears drop, and all the remaining energy seems to sap from him. The way his shoulders slump, Jake has to stop himself from slinging an arm over his shoulder, pressing his head into his chest. āWe were hurting her?ā
āWhat, really?ā He hears over his shoulder and looks to find that the rest of the kids have come running over, too. Neytiri, the only thing keeping them from joining the fray, has her hand pressed against Loāakās chest, keeping him from surging forwardā and the look on his boyās faceā¦Jake works his jaw.
He sets his voice hard, āNo, no. Listen, we donāt know that for sure. Even if it is like that, then itās nobodyās fault but the people who put it in there, got it?āĀ
āButā¦ā
āGot it?ā
Two, poorly unison-ed yes sirs is the response. Jake nods, even he if can still see them chewing at their lips, thinking too hard. He takes a moment to look at the device again, committing it to memory, before he pulls her sleeve down. Then, his eyes flicker up on their own, and he is once again surprised to see that hers are still open, cross-eyed, staring at the floating seed like it's her entire world.
Might as well be, it did save her a whole lotta troubleā¦nā gave it to us.
āAlright.ā He starts, coughing, standing, ignoring the crick in his knee. āFamily meeting.ā
The kids start converging on him, but he shoos themā āAway from the body, away.ā he walks a couple of feet, his little ducks on his heels, his wife corralling them, Tuk in her arms once again. He shrugs on the pelt of the marine, Oloāeyktan, letting it settleā just to see this through. Let them get home.
āAlright. One, no pressing that button again. Weāll wrap the arm, stifle the sound until Norm and Max can either disable the sound, or get rid of it.ā They all nodā Kiri already pulling off her poncho, bunching it up in her arms.Ā
āTwo, straight to your grandmotherā all of you. I donāt wanna see you walkinā in any other direction but her tent, yā hear me?ā Nobody has the fight to refuseā Just silent nods, sloped shoulders, and Neytiri triple-checking her children with her eyes, letting out a click when she sees something she doesnāt like.
He sighs. āOkay, good. Three. Weāreā¦weāre gonna talk aboutā¦this. Okay? Today was hardā justā jusā cāmere. Cāmere.ā He relents, opening his arms and reveling in how they all pile in, and how it feels like his first real breath of air in hours.Ā
Itās all limbs and elbows and suffocation, and he loves it. Heād never let go if he could, lest it slip away.Ā
He holds on tighter, eyes shut. Just a little longer.
you know i've always been alone / 'til you taught me / to live for somebody
around her, bruce wayne never needed words. she went to bed early as usual for his wife. she was serene as one can be, the rise of her chest as she breathed brought him much comfort; to know she was alive, in her most peaceful state, and soon to be in his arms.Ā
he was not one to initiate intimacy. it was always her reaching for his hand, kissing his lips, unbuttoning his dress shirt. heād never been loved like that before. he was treated as desirable, of course, for his wealth, his status as a wayne. but it never felt like joining her in the bath tub. the sight of their naked forms a welcomed sight, not out of lust, just pure love. it never felt like scrubbing coconut-scented shampoo into each otherās hair until their fingers pruned like raisins, or leaving a note on her bedside table before patrol: away for a while. thinking of you.Ā
lying next to her, he brushed a strand of her curly locks to her ear. his touch lingered for a moment too long, before pulling the sheets closer to her chest. it was the middle of winter, yet she still insisted on wearing a loose cami night gown to bed. she stirred in her sleep, her eyes blinking as she slowly returned to the waking world.
ābruce?ā she murmured with a lazy smile.
he shushed her, his thumb brushing across her cheek. he pulled her close to his chest, rubbing small circles on her back.
to say she was the best thing in his life was an understatement. ever since the death of his parents, bruce thought he was alone in the world, that having a family was out of his cards for him. the world merely tunnel visioned into one goal: justice. For every child in gotham that has to live with the same pain as he did. she saw him and more. she saw the life he supposed he was damned to live by and his immeasurable pain in his heart, and still loved him as fiercely. he saw it in her and in alfred.Ā
he lives in the fear of losing something so preciousā yet why he fights so hard.Ā
you know i've always been alone / 'til you taught me / to live for somebody
around her, bruce wayne never needed words. she went to bed early as usual for his wife. she was serene as one can be, the rise of her chest as she breathed brought him much comfort; to know she was alive, in her most peaceful state, and soon to be in his arms.Ā
he was not one to initiate intimacy. it was always her reaching for his hand, kissing his lips, unbuttoning his dress shirt. heād never been loved like that before. he was treated as desirable, of course, for his wealth, his status as a wayne. but it never felt like joining her in the bath tub. the sight of their naked forms a welcomed sight, not out of lust, just pure love. it never felt like scrubbing coconut-scented shampoo into each otherās hair until their fingers pruned like raisins, or leaving a note on her bedside table before patrol: away for a while. thinking of you.Ā
lying next to her, he brushed a strand of her curly locks to her ear. his touch lingered for a moment too long, before pulling the sheets closer to her chest. it was the middle of winter, yet she still insisted on wearing a loose cami night gown to bed. she stirred in her sleep, her eyes blinking as she slowly returned to the waking world.
ābruce?ā she murmured with a lazy smile.
he shushed her, his thumb brushing across her cheek. he pulled her close to his chest, rubbing small circles on her back.
to say she was the best thing in his life was an understatement. ever since the death of his parents, bruce thought he was alone in the world, that having a family was out of his cards for him. the world merely tunnel visioned into one goal: justice. For every child in gotham that has to live with the same pain as he did. she saw him and more. she saw the life he supposed he was damned to live by and his immeasurable pain in his heart, and still loved him as fiercely. he saw it in her and in alfred.Ā
he lives in the fear of losing something so preciousā yet why he fights so hard.Ā
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