I'm Afraid To Tell You How Bad It Is...

I could see myself through my own eyes, and sometimes I could hardly look. If I was two people, I would have parted ways with myself at this point.

[martian-warlord-queen-deactivat]

[atheist-overdose]

[zalinneiley]

#truth #realtalk #godspeed #saveyalater

[vnusplanetoflove]

ikea is honestly so sick and twisted for making those tiny fake apartments. like. ok. maybe I will walk around and daydream. fuck u.

[vnusplanetoflove]

ikea is honestly so sick and twisted for making those tiny fake apartments. like. ok. maybe I will walk around and daydream. fuck u.

[exitwound]

the way that i feel about him

[exitwound]

in the second video he explains that when he was 18 after his freshman year he declared a philosophy-linguistics major and wanted to be a philosopher and a poet but his parents wanted him to rethink things in terms of career and he did and ultimately chose to become a neurosurgeon but it wasnt what was in his heart and while he was in medicine and starting to feel frustrated with it and his inability to help people heal in the way he wanted to due to the systems and institutions he had to work within, he would agonize over these tiny decisions like whether to get all-season tires or snow tires and just agonize and agonize for weeks driving his wife crazy he didn't know what he wanted and he couldn't make decisions and it was because he couldn't trust himself anymore. because he betrayed himself

[zalinneiley]

"And it was because he couldn't trust himself anymore. Because he betrayed himself."

[humorholics-deactivated20200126]

Whoever thinks money doesn’t bring happiness, transfer it to my account

[lilsugarbush]

do i have any weird followers that want to transfer me money for absolutely no reason at all

[tripppydaze]

don’t be shy!!!!

[rwluvs69-deactivated20180709]

Does anyone else here think this makes a lot of sense?

[zalinneiley]

Kingdom99

[wnq-writers]

You’re allowed to miss the people who were bullets to you, but you’re not allowed to let them shoot you again.

allyfillebrown  (via wnq-writers)

[zalinneiley]

"Jamesy Boy Poem"

In my mind there’s a boy

who exists in chains.

Inside a cold, dark room

of painful solitude

is where he will remain.

Behind these walls

the sorrow is inevitable,

as relentless as

the passage of time.

Mentalities corrupt and dark,

brainwashed,

and hopelessly

blind.

Prisons are packed

with crowded spaces,

lifers and guards with

hollow faces.

Shackled hearts

afraid of changes

and weaken wills

become complacent.

Yet I maintain with patience,

time can limit

but not shatter my will.

Strength blazed across my chest

as solid as

penitentiary steel.

But the silence speaks,

it tells me all I need to hear,

it confirms my beliefs and its

promises I have to fear.

It reminds me that without

freedom I’m alone.

And these whitewashed walls

don’t make up

for blackened souls.

I’ve given 95%of my boys

a handshake than a pound,

before they were either locked

down or buried off

in cemetery grounds.

What I’ve done is who I am,

but who I am is what I do now.

I won’t let up or cease

to fight.

Just this time

I plan on doing it right.

And what’s right

lies within me.

I’m learning to

appreciate my struggle

for it would be hard to find

the joy of accomplishment without it.

We live and we learn.

We rise and we fall.

Like the heartbeat

of a sleeping giant,

with bittersweet dreams.

Stay up, ever down.

     ~Jamesy Boy

[bled]

[teenagepics]

[zalinneiley]

I created a new blog, so basically my writing will mainly be on here and all of my fun stuff considering drugs, partying, or half naked photos will be on my new blog thatbytch2hy ; so please follow my new blog for more!!!

[zalinneiley]

are you still on hard drugs?

Off and on, but I have little faith in my overall sobriety to be honest with you

[zalinneiley]

what nationality are you? Asian? white? Mexican?

I'm Japanese and Mexican + a little Ukraine. 😊

[zalinneiley]

Are you single?

Yes, I most definitely am!