Like Destiny (Part 5)
Description: Gyuvin and Ricky finally talk it out (and more). Tags: M x M, Gyubrik, Geonrik, smut, fluff, swearing (I don't censor the words), Ricky is a brat, Gyuvin is down bad, plot with eventual smut, side Binneul, small Jyungtael, a little bit of Geonmaet too, but Gyubrik is the main plot. A/N: Chapter 5!!! Rah!!! Sorry for the uninformative summaries, I'm not very good with them. I've been busy with helping my parents move and dealing with work, but for some reason being busy has me feeling inspired to write. Please enjoy! AO3 link
Did Gyuvin hear that right? Ricky wanted to marry him? What the heck was going on?
"Gyuvin, are you okay?"
Hanbin peered into the room after hearing him curse loudly on the phone.
"Hyung, hey! Yeah, I was just talking to Ricky. S'all good."
He tried to sound as calm as possible as he ended the call. Hanbin pursed his lips a little as if unsure, but then nodded and left.
"There's leftovers in the fridge if you're hungry."
Gyuvin sat still on the bed, processing everything that was happening. He was talking to Ricky about their date, making plans and setting a time for it. Gyuvin had said it would be a surprise, and they shared giggles together at the anticipation. Now, Ricky wants to marry him? Suddenly? Where would they live? Would Ricky's parents even approve of him? Weren't they like rich rich???
Gyuvin was about to freak out again when he started wondering why he was thinking of actually marrying Ricky in the first place. He had a right to say no... right???
"Wait, do I actually wanna marry Ricky or something?"
Gyuvin groaned. He hasn't even known Ricky for long, why was he even considering it? And the craziest part? The longer Gyuvin thought about it, the more he realized he wouldn't even mind. He lay still on the bed, ignoring everything around him while his mind raced.
"Qubing?"
Ricky???
Gyuvin shot up from the bed at Ricky's voice.
"R-Ricky? Why are you here?"
Ricky furrowed his eyebrows, looking very cat-like.
"I called you so many times. You wouldn't answer. Hanbin hyung said you were just lying on the bed and not moving."
Gyuvin reached for his phone. Ricky called? Why didn't he hear anything? The phone lit up and Gyuvin's face paled as the time read 8 pm. He was in bed for hours?! And he didn't even hear the phone ringing (there were 5 missed calls from Ricky). He also had to be at work in an hour. Then, his stomach growled. Right, he hasn't eaten anything for hours.
"We brought food."
Ricky said as he walked into the room. Gyuvin looked at Ricky's concerned face, trying to figure him out. Ricky was such a mystery, and this scared Gyuvin as much as it intrigued him.
"I have to get ready for work."
"Gyubing," Ricky took Gyuvin's hands. "Its okay, Hanbin hyung will cover for you. He's already there with Hao ge. They've informed Jiwoong hyung."
"Oh."
"Come on, let's eat. Then, we can talk."
Gyuvin followed Ricky silently. Ricky's hands are soft.
They sat on the couch as Ricky unpacked the food, chicken and soup. Comfort food, Gyuvin thought. And his stomach made a sound again as the smell wafted into his nose. Ricky giggled, and it was the prettiest sound Gyuvin has ever heard.
"Here, eat. You look and sound very hungry."
Gyuvin smiled and took a bite of the chicken, it was really good. He made a mental note to ask where they got it from later. Ricky was unpacking their drinks.
"I got you mango."
Ricky smiled, and Gyuvin melted.
"Thank you."
Ricky, of course, got strawberry.
"Are we alone?"
"Yeah, Hao ge said we should we should talk. Everyone is giving us some privacy."
"Right. Yeah, we should talk."
Ricky's face settled into a more serious look when he sensed Gyuvin's discomfort. Gyuvin wanted to squirm under the intense stare but tried his best to stay calm and still.
"S'really good."
He mumbled, trying to distract Ricky from reading his face.
"Yeah, its my favorite place. I'll take you someday."
Ricky sat up straighter as he waited for Gyuvin to fill up, and the younger was being uncharacteristically slow, dreading the conversation that was to come. He finally put the bowl of soup down and switched it for the mango drink, he took a sip and his eyes widened. It tasted heavenly.
"Whoa."
Ricky smiled, pleased at the reaction.
"I'll take you there, too."
Ricky seemed to know a lot about good places to eat, and Gyuvin wondered for s split second whether they were expensive. He has got to stop thinking about Ricky's money. Gyuvin cleared his throat and braced himself.
"So... uh, do you wanna maybe explain yourself?"
His voice was a little quieter than his usual over-the-top tone. Ricky smiled, trying to ease the tension that returned, but all it did was make Gyuvin's stomach flip and blood creep into his cheeks. And although it was the last thing he should be thinking about, Gyuvin couldn't help but melt at how pretty Ricky looks.
"Well, its kind of a very very long story."
"You said everyone's giving us time to talk, right? So, there's no hurry. We have time."
Now Ricky is the one who looks as nervous as Gyuvin feels.
"Do you remember Luna?"
"The girl Hao mentioned?"
"Yeah, well, she's my ex-girlfriend."
Gyuvin was a little surprised. He doesn't mean to stereotype Ricky but Ricky didn't really give off bi vibes. But then again, people always misplaced him as straight while he didn't even swing both ways.
"I guess you had some history, huh."
Gyuvin surmised that Ricky talking about it must mean it wasn't really anything good, and he must be right by the way Ricky lets out a dry chuckle.
"Understatement of the century."
Ricky stretches out his limbs and plops onto the cushion behind him. He looks up at nothing in particular, contemplating where to start, and Gyuvin gives him time.
"Gyubing."
"Hmmm?"
"How was your first time having sex?"
Gyuvin blushed, caught off-guard at the sudden question.
"Well, uh... it wasn't that bad, but it wasn't that pleasant either. I probably should've realized I wasn't that into receiving after the second time, though."
Ricky just stared at him in surprise and barked out in laughter after a few seconds of silence.
"Oh my gawd, I did not expect your first time to be with a guy, let alone as a bottom."
Gyuvin doesn't know if he could probably get any redder.
"I knew I was gay since middle school... And hey, its good to experience things to get to know what you really need."
Ricky nodded in agreement then let out a sigh as he fell back into the soft cushion.
"Well... I for one wish my first experience didn't happen at all."
Gyuvin took Ricky's hands in his, drawing soothing circles on it like he did last time. Ricky sat up and looked at the boy in front of him, he thinks Gyuvin must have some sort of superpower like an empath with the way he could read Ricky's internal turmoil so easily.
"Whatever Luna did to you, it doesn't define who you are."
Ricky nodded. He never let it define him. He worked extra hard to hide that part of him, went on with the confidence and grace that looked like a natural part of him from an outsider's perspective. But sometimes, Ricky was tired.
"I know it doesn't define me."
Gyuvin squeezed his hands softly.
"But you also don't have to be okay all the time. Being vulnerable also takes strength."
Ricky wanted to let go and just cry it out again, but he stopped himself. He needed to explain things to Gyuvin, tell him everything. He deserves that. And for some reason, Ricky actually wanted to tell him, wanted Gyuvin to know everything that made him who he is. He was also confident that Gyuvin wasn't going to run away. Surely them still ending up holding hands after Ricky spoke about marriage was some sort of positive sign, right?
"Luna, in the raw-est sense, sexually assaulted me."
Gyuvin frowned.
"Why would she do that? Weren't you in a relationship?"
"Yeah, we actually were. That was the worst part." Ricky looked at Gyuvin and his hands intertwined. "If she told me she wanted to have sex, all she had to do was tell me. And I would've been okay with it."
Ricky let out a breathy laugh.
"To be honest, I would've done anything for her back then. I think that's what hurt the most. I couldn't understand why she did what she did, and I still don't. Its not like having sex was a big deal, at least it wasn't at first. We had our own little bubble, and in it, sex wasn't a big deal."
"I don't understand..."
"Exactly, Gyuvin. To any normal person, just talking it out would've been the right approach." Ricky sighed. "I heard whispers, but it never bothered me. I just didn't know they affected Luna so much. Talks about my sexuality. I never hid that I was bi, and Luna didn't care either, at least I thought she didn't. I'm not really sure anymore."
"What did your sexuality have to do with anything?"
"Well, you know how Luna and I never had sex up until the-" Gyuvin nodded, "Yeah, so word spread that we didn't sleep together cause I was gay and wasn't attracted to her, or something along the lines. i guess I should've talked to her about it. That was the only mistake i made. I should've made sure she was okay."
"Ricky, you know what she did was not your fault, right?"
"Yeah, I know."
"Okay, just making sure."
Ricky smiled. His heart was about to burst.
"I do know that now. But for a while, I also blamed myself a lot. First, I was in shock. She broke my heart, and with it, my trust. It didn't help when she started blaming me out of guilt. When I wouldn't answer her calls or make time to let her explain, she turned on me. Instead of apologizing, she resorted to resenting me. I guess it was easier for her to accept what she did if she could blame me for part of it."
Gyuvin looked sad, even sadder than Ricky felt.
"I was really lost, and Hao ge was there for me the whole time... He picked up the pieces, faced Luna for me, held me every time I cried, and fought with my parents even though he never had to do all that."
"He really came through for you, huh?"
"Yeah, I don't think I could ever repay him. Its not like he didn't have his own battles then. I didn't want word about what really went down with Luna to spread, so he had to deal with coming out to his super traditional parents while simultaneously taking care of me, convincing my parents to call off the engagement to Luna."
"They still want you to marry her?"
"Yeah... I don't blame them though." Ricky shrugged. "They don't know what really happened and must think its some silly fight that went down."
"Still, they shouldn't push you to do something you don't want."
"Well, its just the way things are in my world." Ricky sat straight and looked at Gyuvin in his eyes, expression a little softened than before. "But my parents aren't that cruel. They just push me to marry her because I don't have anyone, and Luna is actually a really good business move for them. That's all they see her as. So, you see... If I were to have someone..."
Gyuvin's eyes widened. So, that's why Ricky wanted to marry him. Gyuvin was both flattered and a little disappointed. Ricky wanted to marry him out of convenience, it all made sense.
"Gyuvin."
Gyuvin was pulled out of his racing thoughts. Ricky gave him a small smile, and it was as if he could read Gyuvin's thoughts.
"I really like you," Gyuvin was about to have a mini heart attack while Ricky earnestly confessed, a small blush was also starting to form on Ricky's own cheeks. "I know it sounds stupid right now, like I just need you to get my parents off my back... But I swear, planning that date, the first time we kissed and cuddled, that time we stayed up all night talking... I never do that with anyone, you know... You just, you make me feel like I wanna be good and have a normal relationship. And it kinda scares the shit out of me."
Ricky mumbled the last part a bit. But he couldn't stop now, he felt a word vomit coming up.
"Ricky-"
"And I know I sound crazy, but from that night we first met you were so sweet to me the whole time even though I kept pushing you away. I was so drunk and you were so sweet and we kissed and talked and it all felt so good. Then Hao ge tried to make me admit my feelings and I got scared when I started to like you so much and it was so easy to open up to you. Then I fucked up with the whole Gunwook thing, and I don't even know why I did that-"
"Ricky!"
Ricky finally shut up when Gyuvin held his face between his hands, squishing his cheeks a little. Ricky went red from embarrassment and his cheeks felt hot at the way Gyuvin was staring at him. He looked fond, a big smile on his face.
"Aren't you... Angry? Or, uh... a little upset?"
Gyuvin let out a laugh, and Ricky wanted to die. Gyuvin's wholehearted laugh came from his gut, reverberated to his chest, and his eyes crinkled into little crescent moons. Gyuvin laughed with his whole heart.
"No, Rwick, I'm not angry." Gyuvin softly caressed Ricky's cheeks. "I always knew you were special, and I knew it wasn't going to be easy."
"How were you so sure about me?"
Gyuvin shrugged.
"I don't really know either. But when we kissed in the bath tub, and we spent the night just cuddling and sleeping, I knew I couldn't just let you go."
Ricky was melting for the nth time that night. His eyes round and earnest as they stared at Gyuvin with adoration. He was utterly gone, whipped, down bad, whatever, for the deer-puppy guy in front of him.
"You scared me a little to be honest," Gyuvin chuckled as he took in Ricky's big boba eyes. "You were so fascinating and unpredictable. I was ready to go to war for you before I realized we hadn't even gone on a date."
Gyuvin fidgeted a little and squirmed in his seat, while Ricky's expression faltered a bit.
"Qubing, if its about Gunwook-"
Gyuvin's eyes widened.
"No! No, uh... Its not about him. As I said, I was ready to go to war with anyone for you."
Gyuvin giggled as Ricky blushed.
"Trust me, he doesn't faze me or make me insecure. Well, that is, as long as you promise nothing is going on..."
"I promise!"
Ricky was far too eager, surprising even himself. He smiled sheepishly as Gyuvin grinned.
"Then that's enough for me."
"Then what is it?"
"Well, I did almost falter a bit one time... Hao once warned me not to get too close. I mean, he was someone closest to you so it was a little disheartening."
Ricky nodded. He wasn't mad. He understood why Hao was looking out for Gyuvin.
"He was right to warn you. I can be kind of unpredictable... And let's just say even though Hao loves me, he really cares about you too. As much as he really really wanted me to open up and be happy, he didn't want me to hurt you either."
Gyuvin nodded.
"We really owe him a lot, don't we?"
"Yeah, we do."
Ricky laughed. He felt much better now. He didn't know what good deed he did in his past life to deserve the level of loving and understanding he was receiving from those around him, but it must've been a really big good deed.
"Ricky."
"Qubing."
"I wanna kiss you."
Ricky giggled as Gyuvin leaned forward to close the gap between them. Ricky put his arms around his neck, pulling him in. Gyuvin leaned all the way in, deepening the kiss as he slowly pushed Ricky onto the pillow he had been leaning on.
Gyuvin was now on top, and he squeezed Ricky's tiny waist as the other let out a little moan. Gyuvin used the chance to slip his tongue in, exploring Ricky's mouth, who had become relaxed and compliant. Tongues dancing together, not even fighting for dominance.
Gyuvin pulled away as Ricky let out a little mewl of disappointment. Gyuvin chuckled and he took a few seconds just to stare, Ricky's face looked flushed and his eyes looked glazed, plump soft lips red from their kiss, and his cheeks were a tinge of pink. Gyuvin's heart fluttered, Ricky looked ethereal.
"Qubing..."
Ricky whined, and Gyuvin was out his trance. He's never wanted someone so bad, and although he loved Ricky's dominant and confident demeanor, whiny Ricky was doing things to him.
"Let's get you more comfortable princess."
Ricky blushed at the nickname as if he hasn't been called that numerous times. Gyuvin manhandled him, carrying him to the room and to his bed. He buried his face in Gyuvin's neck, which was warm and smelled like soap. Gyuvin shuddered at the sensation of Ricky's hot breath on his neck, getting more turned on by the seconds.
Gyuvin was gentle with Ricky, gently laying him on the bed and giving him soft kisses all over his face and down his neck. Ricky's eyes fluttered at the sensations, his skin tingled everywhere Gyuvin's lips kissed him, and his skin was enveloped in warmth wherever his fingers touched.
"You're so beautiful."
Gyuvin declared, like an oath. Ricky gasped as Gyuvin left marks that trailed down his intricate Rolemodel tattoo. He peppered kisses all over his face, his eyelids, the tip of his nose, till he reached Ricky's inviting lips again.
Ricky felt warm all over, and usually the slow pace would have him feeling impatient, but Gyuvin's slow tender worship had him reeling. His head buzzed with anticipation, his heart beat fast but steady, his face was warm, his body simultaneously felt both relaxed and tingly all over. And oh gosh, Ricky's dick was hard.
"Qubing..."
Ricky was already feeling wasrm, breathless and full, and all they had done was kiss. Gyuvin had a small smile and looked at him so intensely... and so full of love, Ricky felt like he could get drunk on the devotion. And maybe he was.
"Take this off..."
Ricky tugged at Gyuvin's shirt trying to take it off. Gyuvin took away Ricky's hands and kissed them tenderly.
"Let me do it, princess."
Ricky's breath hitched as Gyuvin swiftly removed his shirt, his eyes trailing down to the lean muscle. Perfect. Ricky's fingers traced Gyuvin's body, down to his abs and close to the waist of his pants. Ricky's touch was electric, and Gyuvin did everything in his power not to devour him right then and there.
"Undress me, Qubing."
Gyuvin didn't have to be told twice. Not when Ricky's pretty lips were calling his name so cutely, not when he was already looking so ruined when all Gyuvin has done is kiss him. Now he wants to taste Ricky in a different way.
Ricky's top came off easily, and he raised his hips and squirmed a little to help Gyuvin take the whole thing off easier. Ricky looked just as beautiful as Gyuvin imagined he'd be, milky white with a tinge a pink. Ricky blushed as he watched Gyuvin admire his naked body, feeling conscious about his leaking dick, a sign of his arousal.
Gyuvin squeezed Ricky's waist once and leaned down to continue peppering kisses all over his body. He placed kisses on his stomach, down to his thighs, his fingers grazing over Ricky's sensitive nipples, eliciting a gasp. Gyuvin finally stopped between Ricky's legs, holding his thighs apart and giving a kiss to his tip.
Ricky's hand flew to grasp at Gyuvin's head, grabbing his hair to take control. He tried to squirm but the younger held him down tightly, Gyuvin's large hands holding on to his thighs. He licked along Ricky's length and took in the tip of his cock, sucking on it. Ricky could feel his tears welling up, he wanted to cry as Gyuvin's warm mouth enveloped him. He's never felt anything like it, feeling so taken care of while having sex, like he was something delicate and precious... so loved.
"Qubing!"
Ricky calling out his name only spurred on Gyuvin's determination. He squeezed Ricky's thighs and stroked his length with one hand as he bobbed his head up and down, attempting to deep throat him. His nose brushed against Ricky's pelvis, and he thumbed around his puckering hole, slowly easing the finger in as Ricky gasped and his legs shook. He rode out his first orgasm as Gyuvin continued to suck, letting go of his dick only when he swallowed everything.
Ricky pulled up Gyuvin for a kiss, who happily obliged. He was also reaching out for lube that he kept on the side table near the bed, generously coating his long fingers thoroughly. Gyuvin leaned down to kiss an eager Ricky, whose gasp turned into a moan as Gyuvin eased two fingers into him at once.
"Fuck, your fingers are so long..."
Ricky whined, still a little sensitive from his orgasm. Gyuvin chuckled.
"You're taking me so well princess, but this isn't even half of my dick. Are you sure you can handle it?"
Ricky's eyes widened slightly, half in anticipation and arousal, half worried about how his ass was gonna take it. He nodded quickly as Gyuvin let out another chuckle.
"So needy and excited," He kissed Ricky's lips again, sucking on his lower lips as his fingers carefully prepped his entrance.
Gyuvin removed his fingers and Ricky whined again at the loss, but it soon turned into a moan as Gyuvin coated his dick with lube and let the tip slip in.
"Can you take it, baby?"
Ricky nodded, his head in a daze and unable to comprehend coherent sentences. Gyuvin slowly slid in his whole length, giving Ricky time to adjust as he bottomed out. Ricky wanted to cry again. For the first time in his life, he felt like he finally understood the act of making love to someone. His hands flew up to cover his face as his tears fell.
"Ricky..."
Gyuvin carefully removed Ricky's hands, a concerned look on his face.
"Are you okay? Am I hurting you?"
Ricky shook his head, signaling no.
"No... Feels good. Too good."
Gyuvin smiled, wiping away Ricky's tears as he kissed him softly.
"Please... Please move-"
Ricky couldn't complete his words as Gyuvin pulled out halfway and slammed into him. He groaned at Ricky's warmth enveloping him, and he tried his best not come right then and there. He slowed down a little with his thrusts, dick twitching at Ricky's little ah ahs right in his ear, nails digging into his arms.
The mix of pain and pleasure had both of them in a daze. Ricky mewled as Gyuvin hit a particularly sensitive spot, and he coordinated his movements to result in Ricky coming quickly because Gyuvin wasn't sure how much longer he could last. With Ricky holding on to him, making pretty sounds, his hole clenching around him, and then placing small kisses on Gyuvin's neck every now and then, it was all too much.
"Qubing, come inside me... please."
Ricky let out a desperate plea as he came all over their stomachs, and Gyuvin was a weak weak man. Who was he to deny him when Ricky had asked so desperately, moaning so prettily?
Gyuvin chased his high as Ricky rode out his orgasm and cried out at the slight overstimulation. Gyuvin came undone, warm liquid filling up Ricky, who was sighing in contentment. Gyuvin made a few sloppy thrusts to empty himself completely and ride out his high, placing sloppy kisses on Ricky's cheeks and down his neck and finally collapsing on top of him.
Ricky pulled in Gyuvin for another kiss, like he couldn't get enough. And Ricky thinks that he for sure will never get enough of Gyuvin. They felt so right together and fit together so perfectly. Like it was destiny.