Z's Writing Dumps

I'm a writer, except I don't commit to any of my writings

[chuuyastinywaist]

Was having a debate with my sister and we ended it with the conclusion that chuuya is the most merciful out of all the mafia, for example atsushi saw Chuuya save Hella civilians and went oh the mafia isn't all bad and I bet you dazai heard that and found it too funny to point out that no chuuya is just spider George and he is a outlier and shouldn't have been counted and he actually had the right idea when his impression of the mafia was from akutagawa. Anyway!

I went back to work and thought about it and now I don't think that's true, Chuuya is very kind and compassionate but I don't think he's got the most mercy... I think he just sucks at murder.

Think about it

. Tried to kill cthulhu with corruption, he's fine and vibing in the ocean

. He wanted to kill shibusawa in dead apple, he came back with a movie deal.

. His secret french brother? He's fine and living his peak dramatic gay dream of mourning in a basement.

. Went to kill ranpo, someone with no abilities and the stamina of a baby, got himself trapped in a book.

. Dazai.

Like every single person chuuya has said hes going to kill is completely fine. In fact the only time someone chuuya knows actually dies is if he becomes friends with them like the flags rest in peace. He's got the opposite of friendship is magic powers.

Like murder is kinda a big part of his job description and he just doesn't really do it?

Lowkey it would be extremely funny if we found out later than chuuya just doesn't kill but his acting is so good no one clocks him on it or calls him out. He saw what happened to oda and went well rip to that guy but lippman built me differently.

[sikuanlili]

[wiskiemonk]

i just think they should be besties

[catchymemes]

[pandoras-tear]

Conan: I need you to show up at this exact location within the hour dressed as a missing teenage girl, I’ll send you a picture to go off. Bring enough bombs to derail a train traveling at 285 MPH without killing the passengers inside. Prepare to be shot at.

Kaito, texting back: 👍

[falsegods-and-hollowkings]

you’re sending this… to your roommate. who you’ve spoken to sparingly, who you purposefully acted like an absolute batshit insane person to so he’d leave you alone. you’re going to repeatedly send watch out for serial killers. for a week. without further explaining yourself. kim soleum what the fuck, man

[falsegods-and-hollowkings]

so I applaud your survival skills but also Jesus H. Christ. okay, lesson learned, kim soleum isn’t just capable of being manipulative he’s a little bit of a dick 👍

[sylveaugust]

it's the fact that HE SOMEHOW DID NOT REALIZE that this was a batshit insane thing to send his roommate in the first place and got a result that well aligned with his other goal anyway

he actually might be a little psycho, guys. how do you NOT KNOW how insane that sounds.

[sylveaugust]

I like that his hair is messier

[sylveaugust]

Also. He looks more traumatized

[lunacias]

I wish you could see it, too

[saerisaerisaeri]

🦋

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[zeeamoe]

I'm aware of how I look and I'm confident in how I look

I've had people telling me I look pretty I've had people telling me my body looks good and I feel good about it and I believe it

and I know it myself I look at myself in pictures and in the mirror and think I look pretty I know I'm pretty and that I look good

but there's just one of those days where you put on clothes and you look in the mirror and you don't like how those clothes look on your body and you take it off and wear something comfortable and you don't like how it falls on your body and you take it off and wear something tight and you don't like how it wraps your body and you take it off and you don't like how your body looks

and in your head, it's like 'I look great, I know I look great, but why don't I like how I look right now?' in anything and in nothing

[zeeamoe]

It can't be mended I don't want it to be mended I'll keep the scars, and the cracks, and the wounds I'll just keep replacing the bandages of my broken heart

from 'Bandages' - by me

[zeeamoe]

Dear Future Lover,

One day I’d wake up in the middle of the night from a dream about my father I’d wake up crying with a panic attack You’d wake up too, and I’d ask you to bring me a glass of ice water

I’d ask you to stay by my side and let me tell you my problems I’d tell you that I’m gonna say some horrible things And that you might hate me for it

I’d say please agree with me Please be on my side And pretend to understand Just for one night

I’d tell you how I hate my parents How I blamed them for everything wrong with me Because it was easier than to blame myself

I’d tell you how I wished I didn’t know any better about the world How I wished I wasn’t any smarter So that I could live blissfully ignorant

But I know I wouldn’t be able to Because I wouldn’t be able to stand myself if I did

I’d tell you how I wanted to kill myself Even though I never really wanted to Because there’s so much to do And so much to learn

But I’m tired of not being able to do anything Of not being heard Of not being understood

And I know no one ever will Not even you The same way I’ll never understand you perfectly As we could only understand some parts of each other

I’d tell you how I’ll never be kind enough Never be good enough How they’ll never be proud of me How I’ll never succeed

And you’d try to dismiss it But I won’t let you Because you promised to agree with everything I say Just for tonight

I’ll let you comfort me in the morning We could have a drink You can disagree with me then Hate me then And leave me then

[zeeamoe]

Am I going to die like this?

Like this It’s not fair is it? We should have been able to become anything To be everything We could have We could

It’s weird that I keep blaming on things How I wish I could write instead of typing How I wish I could dance without learning How I wish I could sing without judgement I keep making excuses As if it would justify me not doing things Even though I would keep making excuses No matter how comfortable I get The ideal situation will never happen And if I can’t accept that, I’ll never be able to do the things I want to do

But I hate it so much I hate that I can’t sing out loud because I have neighbors I hate that I can’t dance because I have no space And I hate to do anything where people can see me Because they’ll see how much I suck But everyone has to start somewhere But it’s so hard to start when you’re past twenty I wish I was younger But I am still young And I wish I had time and space But I had all the time and space I needed

If I didn’t have the perfect situation, I should create it But I don’t know how I don’t know if I could be brave enough And I should do it scared But I’m really too scared And there’s no encouragement Even if there is, I seem to hate it No, I hate it Because it feels offensive And it feels demeaning But it’s the truth How do I keep going?

I will do it when I have time I will do it when I’m alone I will do it when I’m not tired I will do it when I have the money I will do it when things get better I will never do it, will I?

[aggie-k225]

Soleum-ah,

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more doodles

these are all old art btw, will try to draw kse again sooner or later.... kse... sigh..

[gokucat]

feeding her stuffie must live on....

[samballie]

Reading GSGW is really fun because the author is fucking crazy 🥹🥹🥹 This author's special little talent is planting foreshadow so far back it's frankly amazing. Also. You don't even know it's foreshadowing before it's too late and you start screaming

Readers with life in our eyes and joy in our hearts: oh wow beloved MC of hit webnovel GSGW Kim Soleum sure is going through the horrors right now! Surely nothing worse can happen to him, who's already going through the actual worst

Baek Deoksoo, author of hit webnovel GSGW: hey remember that throwaway line really far back that both you and the mc don't even remember anymore and that everyone assumed was a small plothole?

Well it wasn't.

Readers a few seconds later:

[carpediemisnicebuticannot]

Braun is BEYOND 4th wall breaking character, he is the 5th celling shattering one, the stage manager of this story.

He's not sitting among the audiences on the 4th wall, but he's above the stage, like the technician, observing both characters acting on the stage and the reactions of the audiences.