ot5 cortis x 6thmember!reader
Summary: In which you got placed into the group Cortis after they debuted, though you knew you didn't belong, you just wished that it wasnβt obvious that you didn't
Contents: small angst, crying, tears, , cortis members being slightly mean, lowkey a seonghyeon fic ig, implied mentions of death, happy ending tho and that's probably it idk
a/n: this is NOT apart of my 6th member series, this is just a random fic
The early morning was like any other, you sat in your dorm room alone scrolling through whatever was on your twitter page; memes, people arguing over politics, someone trying to be funny, and a bunch of tweets on Cortis, your group.
Not that it really felt like 'your group' though, nothing about it was. It wasn't your idea to be in the group with them, it wasn't your choice in where you got placed in dances, nothing was yours.
You knew becoming a idol was hard, you had known that even before you became a trainee, but you didn't know you'd feel this out of place, or put off. The company had put you with them in hopes of having their first co-ed group that actually lasted longer than all the others had.
Though, you could tell the boys didn't like you, not because you were bad or anything (at least you hoped not), but because you didn't fit, they already had bonds formed with each other, inside jokes that had already been made, they didn't need a sixth member, more importantly, they didn't need you.
You looked over at the clock seeing the time 4:25 AM, rehearsing was at 6:30, though you always got up way before the boys did to get there, just so you didn't have to feel it, feel their silence because you were there, feel their shared looks to eachother, it was always easier to avoid it you learned.
By the time, you were getting ready to stepped out the door, you heard a door close, meaning one of the boys was up for some reason, you stopped for a moment seeing it was Keonho who was awake.
Keonho noticed you stand there by the door your hand hovering just above the handle to close it, his eyes flickered over you before he simply looked away and walked to the bathroom, leaving you there.
You watched him walk away, a small breath escaping your lips as you shut the door quietly behind you, your gaze falling to the wall opposite the door.
"Just a few more years, then maybe this will be over." You whispered to yourself.
That was what you had told yourself since you had been placed there, you didn't know why exactly a few years was what you would say, but it always reassured you, besides the foolish ways you thought about getting out of it.
A hour after you left, the boys had joined you at the rehearsal room, you standing off to one side and them on the other.
Your managers was talking about your comeback, for the GREENGREEN album, what they thought would be good for the group. You had stopped listening as you noticed Martin fooling around a bit and the others laughing.
You almost laughed too, before you realized that you shouldn't laugh, you had no place to laugh, all you had was that weight that settled heavy in your chest everytime you saw them laughing and joking around with one another.
"-And we want more sixth member promo this time since Yn was added after the first album." You heard one of the managers say causing the boys to fall silent.
"We also want to see more of you Yn, since we had to just add you in the back of the dances last time." Another manager said, this time speaking to you.
'Please, don't put me in the front of a group I don't even belong in for a dance' You wanted to say, but you simply nodded, knowing that your words wouldn't make a difference.
"And that also means we need you guys to act.... closer in public." The manager spoke up.
"We are close." James stated confused, the same look mirroring the others.
"Yes, you five are close, but you six are bot close, we can tell," The manager explained. "You should have been close months ago, especially you Martin, your the leader."
Martin glanced away from the managers after they spoke, he knew they were sort of right, but it's not like they could force it. Cortis was like a puzzle m, and you were the piece that just didn't fit.
"It's okay," You spoke up causing everyone to look to you. "As long as I don't do anything other than being on stage and rehearsals then we don't have to change anything."
"What about promo? And the vlogs and stuff they do?" A manager asked, his eyebrow raised.
"I won't do that part, that way your not forcing anything, the boys still have their five member bond and I will just be there for the singing and dancing." You simply said, as if it was nothing, though the words still felt bitter in your mouth.
"No," One manager cut the other off. "That's not gonna happen, that's crazy, you can't have a sixth member group just for singing and dancing, if we wanted that then we would have just hired background dancers."
The boys stayed silent as the managers argued with eachother, sure they all had their own opinions, they all didn't think you really fit in the group, but they weren't interrupting yet.
"Yn, don't you wanna be in promo and vlogs with them? Why just singing and dancing?" A manager questioned.
"Of course I wanna be in it, but I don't fit, that's the problem and I know it, that's the reason why none of the boys have said anything, they know it too, and so do you," You said, your voice slightly shaky. "I mean, why am I even here?"
"Because you're good at singing and dancing." A manager said. "And... we really didn't have many places left that we thought you would go good in."
"Right," You scoffed. "Why am I still here then? I mean I'm not actually needed for anything, they have it down." You motioned to the boys, you're eyes now glossy.
"Okay.... maybe we should calm down a bit." Martin interrupted, glancing between you and the managers.
"Better yet, why don't I just leave?" You spoke, wiping away a tear that threatened to fall. "It would be better anyway."
They watched you walk out grabbing your bag on the way out, the door hitting shut behind you. No one said anything, they didn't really know what to say.
You had walked all the way down the hallway, in front of a few chairs that were along the wall, before tears started to slide down your cheeks blurring your vision as you leaning againstthe wall. You knew you shouldn't cry, it made you look small and weak, which you hated more than anything, except you couldn't stop the tears.
Tou barely registered the light footsteps coming to you, they sat beside you for a moment before hesitantly wrapping a arm around her shoulders pulling you closer put giving you space to move away.
Through your blurry vision, you noticed the striped sweater that belonged to Seonghyeon, he was the one beside you.
He didn't speak as tears poured from your eyes, he was just silently there, surprisingly. He noticed when your tears had lessened leaving you with just the marks and red eyes. "You.... okay?"
You sent him a small glare, obviously you weren't okay.
"Right, sorry...." He stated realizing what he said was dumb. He was quiet for a moment before speaking "You know, you do belong in the group, you shouldn't just leave."
"I don't think I can stay in tge group, Seonghyeon." You told him. "I don't belong in it." You added, lightly pushing off his arm that was on his shoulder, before standing up.
Seonghyeon quickly stood up. "Wait! wait, just, let me make you belong in the group."
"What? Seonghyeon, I don't it works like that." You stated, your brow furrowed.
"It does, I'll make sure you feel like you belong in the group, the others will too." He informed, his eyes watching your expression.
"You'd do that?" You questioned softly, earning a small nod from him. "It's been 5 months and you're just now thinking of doing that?"
"Uh, oops? I guess we were a little mean to you at the start." He admitted, his voice a little soft.
"Okay, maybe a lot, but I promise we're going to make up for it." He told you, his eyes gleaming.
"Oh will you?" You asked, crossing your arms over your chest, raising a eyebrow.
"Mhm, and just know I'm going to force you to do promo and vlogs now."
a/n: ignore how bipolar this is, I wrote it at 3am T-T
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