zeeveryday

fragments of my mind.

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a word or two from the blogger:

if you look for short stories, light talks, random shots, and bullet journal inspiration, this archive might be a good stop for you from your hectic days.

my name is Zee,

and let's relax and chit-chat, shall we?

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A princess for the day 🕊️

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I feel the pain.

I feel the sadness.

I feel the loss.

But, I also feel the faith.

Consists of shattered tinted glasses.

Mended with lines of hope.

Everything is gathered,

in different shades of blue,

radiating multiple hues,

like a thunderstorm inside a kaleidoscope.

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ㅡ 1915 Koffihuis

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Traditional market hopping, Yogyakarta.

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Traditional market hopping, Salatiga.

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Dear 2024...

There were moments I fell down. I crashed. I was stuck in a pit I thought there was no escape. I was all I had.

It turned out that it was what I needed all along: to be alone, and to only have myself.

I was able to look within me, finding answers and growing extra limbs, wings, arms (you name it)... so I could get myself out of that dark pit. I could fly higher than I ever had. I could take myself to places I had never been to. I could get my smile back.

In the midst of all those chaos, I always knew that losing something meant providing space for new things to come. This year was full of giving and taking, losing and receiving, all about shrinking and growing spaces. I could feel all my feelings. I could give all my hearts. I could receive the hearts of the people who actually mattered to me.

By the end of it, I was exhausted and drained, but deep down, I knew that my heart grew. My heart was swollen and bigger than ever from all the storms I went through.

And I know all these things happened so I can give and receive more love.

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If I wrote a book, the last paragraph would be:

The future had always been unknown, but the first step I took forward felt like it calibrated the upcoming chaos; still unfamiliar, but the process felt just right. I was still unsure of what the future held, but I was ready for the journey. And maybe, you too. Maybe, your first step is all you need.

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Converse Chuck 70s Parchment

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Acceptance

Accept that it is over.

Accept that life is gonna be so much different.

Accept that any ending is a beginning of another thing.

Accept that you deserve to move on.

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Healing is like...

Once, you felt everything at once, melting in a flaming hot pot. Then, the feelings gradually subsided. Anger left. Disappointment went away. And what's left was regret and sadness.

You thought those two would go as quick as the others, but they didn't. They were the ones that stayed the longest, burning your chest, daggering deeper to your heart. They were the only feelings lasted that gave you torture, maybe for eternity.

But just like every other pain, it would heal. It definitely left a scar of a lifetime, as a reminder of your struggle and healing process.

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Dear 2023...

Yes, I was mentally more drained. Yes, I was in constant chaos and self-doubt.

But, did I do more things that I used to limit myself from? Also YES.

Thought I have stopped growing, just to find out I have sown seeds that grow into sprouts in places I have never planted before.

Thank you, 2023.

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