I'm getting into ITWTV, I just got done with season 1 and already in the 3rd or so ep of season 2 and all I can is — I FUCKIJG HATE LESTATT OMFGGG😭🙏 BRO MADE ME SO ANNOYED I ACC HAD TO TAKE A BREAK TO BREATHE N RANT TO MULTIPLE PEOPLE I JST COULDN'T TAKE THE RAGE ALONE LIKE UGHNDHHHHH. THIS BTCH ANNOYING AFF like literally maybe it's because of my hormones rn but it was almost like he had my blood boiling istg. Please take note that I have not finished the series, please don't hate me ik he must have fans – I don't know his backstory, but right now I don't really care I just hate this guyghhh
I yearn for more fics of Grace's experience in another planet n him being culture shocked to some Eridian school traditions while teaching weird lil singing alien kids...
Dont get me wrong, I absolutely ship Mercelot & Lance w Gwen but all these videos on tt saying both of Lancelot's love interests chose Arthur over him and all he could do was watch AIDJEHXIMGGG omfg this might be my first yumeship, forget abt them, I'll treat u sm better, IF I WAS ONE OF THEM I WOULDN'T DO U LIKE THIS🙏🙏 The series acc did my boy so dirty wtf
LIFEE IS SOO GOOD AS A MULTISHIPPER because what do you mean I could just go for days n days reading Merlin ship fics cuz I love every single ones. I mean E-V-E-R-Y. As long as Merlin is in the ship, I accept it. Merthur? classic, love it. Mercelot? fantastic, give me more of them right now. Mergwaine? hot af omg. Mergwen? sure. Mergana? fuck YES. Merthian? they look cute, yes please. Merlin with ANYONE on the castle? UGHMGGBYESSSSSS
It's nuts how common it is to not allow children to be angry, even (especially) in households where adults are angry all the time. As a child I knew my own anger was unacceptable--not just expressing it outwardly but feeling it at all. So now as an adult my immediate reaction to my own anger is often to feel guilt instead of like. Noticing when someone is being rude or unfair or my boundaries are being violated or whatever. fucked up.
Like, you don't actually love them and you know you don't, but you know you could. You realise that you could easily fall in love with them. It's almost like the bud of a flower, ready to blossom but it's just not quite there yet. And you like them a lot, you really do. You think about them often, but you don't love them. You could, though. You know you could.
Why does the idea of — having someone to wait for, for years and years, knowing they're waiting for you too, having to get involved with so many people but still having one person in your heart, hidden deep inside of you – a crevice that you check in with only once a week at dawn, a corner of your mind that exists at every happy and devestating memories — make me feel something everytime?? ugh I yearn for it. I wanna fall inlove so bad😔 and when I mean fall, I MEAN fall, not just saunter vaguely down, I mean being in the middle of having tea with them and then having full blown realization in your mind that tells you, "Holy shit, I love this person, like, I LOVE them," and then getting paralyzed by that thought as you disassociate and freak out for the rest of the hangout😔😔 ugh
Just started watching Suits bc all the lawyers I talk to say I should, but I can’t focus on the fake law crap. There’s too much gay! S1 ep7 Harvey was geeking out about Star Trek and Mike, in a very let’s-have-sex voice says “yes captain” and the camera focuses on Harvey for like five whole seconds. Bro was not thinking about law right then, just sayin
I've recently set up a Google Drive folder linking up to many deleted fics. I have a little hobby of tracking down great deleted fics and downloading them for my pleasure, and I'd say I've gotten pretty good at it tbh. I didn't realize I have so many now, so I set up a drive folder and decided to make it public.
I have it organised by author, so hopefully you can recognize the stuff. I'll put the names of the authors in the tags, and you're def gonna recognize them. People on twitter are already freaking out about everything I have lol. (P.S. ever heard of yours, in murder by May Marlow? Read it. Cuz I got it.)
So please enjoy my library of recovered fics. I also take requests if you want me to find a deleted fic of some sort. Altho be warned, my area of expertise is tomarry, but I'm sure I could still track down a few fics.
Edit: Btw I'm still adding fics to this folder. So if there's anything you're missing out on I suggest coming back to check every once in a while.
Edit 2: There's an ongoing problem that a few people have brought up to me. Turns out some people can't open the files. The reason why is because I download the webpage directly from chrome, usually, and those are html files, but when I download the webpage, the file isn't automatically recognized as html for some reason, so I end up putting it into the Google drive and it's an unrecognized file type, which is why some of you can't open it. There's an easy way to fix that. Just download the file then rename it. Add ".html" to the end of the file name and you should be good to go. And for those that don't like to read html files, you can convert it to an epub or wtv else by using free sites like cloud convert and then you're good to go.
Anon asked me for a rec list and I've been meaning to put it together for a long-ass time so...buckle up friends this is a long one. I had to break it into two parts because Tumblr apparently has a character limit.
FOUNDATIONAL TEXTS
These are the fics that got me hooked on the pairing. I would not be in the fandom or writing fic if not for these...
Baby, I've been running - freakydeakymoonmagic
God of Nothing - machiavelli
all your stars - lordmarvoloriddle
The Foul/The Great - merrivale
contrapasso - saidcain
Ink - EclipseWing
Too old to be this young - Nadia_Castillo WIP
The Fire, Burning - freakydeakymoonmagic
Kaleidoscope - RenderedReversed
In Your Soul is Sealed a Pleasure - mosiva
CONTINUED ->
CLASSICS
Fandom classics that either cooked my brain (positive) or are comfort fics.
What Souls Are Made Of - Emeralds_and_Lilies
The Untouchable - TreacleTeacups
Retreat - Lomonaaeren
I Can't Carry This Anymore - lemonchase
A Dangerous Game - Cybrid
Dripping Fingers - May_May_0_0
draw me after you (let us run) - ToAStranger WIP
No Glory - ObsidianPen WIP
Holly & Yew - LovelyLotus WIP
(Going forward, the recs will be split into three categories: fics that set my brain on fire (adrenaline rush), my comfort fics (dopamine rush). WIPS that make my life worth living will be included in part 2. )
BRAIN FIRE PART ONE: LONGFICS
Ills of Murder - EclipseWing
tempor · al | ary - asterismal (asterisms)
Proposal Series - delightfull
the pleasure, the privilege - asterismal (asterisms)
Those Made of Lightning and Blood - A_Single_Cactus
the snake, the soul and the lovers - jjaegerbomb
vita mutatur, non tollitur - UnbotheredGoose
But I Can Break You - NeuroWriter14
Memories of a Killer - ChemFreak - Harry Potter
Entwined - purplewitch156
BRAIN FIRE PART TWO: SHORT FICS/ONE SHOTS
Undoing - wynnebat
Treason - Alissia
For Voldemort and Valour - Acnara
Valiance - kyrilu
The Tattoo - crowthing
Bend - RudeHellion
Sola Fide - crowthing
the loneliest creature in the world - be11etrist
Hungarian Dances - eldritcher
nothing left to lose - eleven_eaves
Prison Blues - exarite
Pancakes - Divida
BRAIN FIRE PART THREE: CHECK THE TAGS LOL (DDNE AND/OR SPANK BANK)
Surrender - Kushimani
you're a parasitic, psycho, filthy creature (finger-bangin' my heart) - ToAStranger
Anabiosis - dutch (itsevanffs)
Lover's Cross - frankie01
And all my mother came into mine eyes - cannibalinc
Thirst - ObsidianPen
tautological - eleven_eaves
Violent Delights - Katsitting (Nekositting)
Tom's Dick and Harry - andromaxeoftroy
From the Cradle to the Grave - Alissia
Machine Men - CRUXIFIXION
Monster Fucker - Anonymous
A Single Love - Vee (Vera_DragonMuse)
Doubt it's going to change what we are inside - Soulseeker (Laserswordtraining)
Verboten Vows - A_Single_Cactus
As the French Do - exarite
the thing lay dead - pwplicity (duplicity)
awake from a dream into a nightmare - orphan_account
Infinite - duplicity
normal schoolboy stuff - Kleina
Dream to Keep You - Soulseeker (Laserswordtraining)
Уродство - ArveyMammy
COMFORT PART ONE: LONGFICS
aurora polaris - AGlassRoseNeverFades
consumption - Laeveteinn
An Epistolary Exchange - Ramabear (RyMagnatar)
Forever, preferably - JoWithTheFlow
Nobody Special - riddlereading
At the end of every road - sassysquatch
soulstice - marvohlo
Remember When We Ruined - mosiva
COMFORT PART TWO: SHORT FICS/ONE SHOTS/SPANK BANK
Thin Skin - Iselilja
uvidimsya zavtra - TreacleTeacups
Your legs give way, you hit the ground - TheOnceandFutureQueenofTarts
Hell Is Your Son and Other Stories - wynnebat
The Emperor and the Star - wynnebat
In Bed with the Enemy - Alissia
we who walk in shadows black - Evandar
Pureblood Omega Etiquette - temptresslove
A Matter of Perspective - lemonchase
HONORABLE MENTIONS:
The first harrymort fic I ever read (saved me from dr*rry hell):
Executor - Qliphoth
My favorite fic that I have written (corny self rec):
from what I've tasted or desire - ictyn
I've read a (frankly) absurd amount of harrymort fics, scouring the ship tag from top to bottom. There are a handful that have been deleted as well as a handful that I couldn't remember enough tags to find...I love this ship and all our amazing writers and fests and artists and I'm so happy to be here FDHLKAHFKHFA.
Part Two (WIPS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING) HEREEEE