Zenith

A room with no walls.

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𝒲𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓌𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓈𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝓌𝑒 𝓁𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑒𝓃𝒹

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あなたが美しい人や死んでいる人以外は気にしない

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You'll wish you had stayed with me. You'll wish you treated me right.

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Call it scarring or a permanent memory, we can never just 'be friends'

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‘sorry’

I said it once, I should never have been the one to apologise after that. The biggest mistake was all on me, I knew what I had done and I was prepared to fix it.

You shut me out, didn't let me back in, didn't open your heart. Told me I needed to change. 

You never looked at yourself and thought ‘He’s trying his hardest, how can I help? What can I change to make us better’

Always my fault, never your own, too perfect to see, it was never on me.

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‘murder’

That ‘murder’ in his eyes is pain. The pain of losing more than just a ‘person’ in his life. 

Wanting to stay away because just a glimpse of you drives him insane.

The teacher knows what is going on and the pain I am going through. A torn apart family combined with a torn apart heart. 

Unable to be repaired by any others. Trapped in time, begging to get out, but haunted every single day by the thing he fears most.

These final days of school will be the hardest days of school, not just because of education, but also made harder by the girl that once loved him. 

Around and around in his mind, every day, worse than the last.

There is no ‘murder’ in his eyes. Pain, frustration, and anger. The feeling of crying every moment of the day. The confusion and frustration that drives his mind. The mighty roar suppressed inside him. 

You judge too much. You think too little. 

But underneath this constant pain, frustration and anger. He is still left wondering, will she ever come back. A slither of hope as he still admires her deeply. A slice of pain as he doubts she ever will.

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I want to hate you because I can't stop thinking about you.

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If you think you are perfect, then you won't change when people tell you that you need to.

When you look at yourself, know what you need to change and change it; that is the only thing that makes you perfect.

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You know true pain when you know they didn’t try.

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Late Night Madness

How can you tell if your relationship means anything when your s/o flirts with everyone around you.

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You’ll never know true pain until you’ve really tried.

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:o

Can't wait for the day Karma hits you hard and bitch slaps you out of existence.

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Better to be sad and honest than be proud and deceitful

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Sound Familar?

Giving up is the easy way out, pushing yourself to the point of breaking is when you have done enough.

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Hope isn’t real, hoping for something to change won’t change anything. 

You're the only influence on change, and you didn’t do anything to change it.

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Fact.

Feelings don’t exist when you're trying to reach a goal. Its a challenge for yourself.