Clotilde. (The Archive and The Repertoire)
An object of my family's history that I would place in The Archive as a tangible representation of our lineage, stories, and survival are my great grandmother's rings. They are on my hands nearly every day, going through sinks and towels and hair and showers. Caressing fur and faces. Clinking against glasses and yanking snags into sweaters that I cannot bring myself to care for more than the metal lacing the bases of my fingers. They belonged to Clotilde Ruiz. My Puerto Rican queenpin who I appear more like every year. I think of her often, though she did not know me. And though she did not know me, she knew of me. More than knew of me, she predicted my existence as though I were the second coming of Christ or the harbinger of the apocalypse. All while selling cocaine and dying in her hospital bed. As for The Repertoire? A careful oral history of our oldest cookbook. Arroz con pollo guisado, coquito, home remedies for illness or headache or menstrual cramp or broken heart. And it is my job to remember. It is your job to remember. It is everyone's job to love and remember in case they do indeed require comfort food or do indeed fall ill or do indeed find themselves aching to be held. This knowledge is important, because in order to understand us, you must first see us. Hear us. Eat our food and sleep in our rooms and know the smell of metal mixed with our skin, though much of our jewelry has not rusted through its inheritance. It is the most expensive thing I own. I speak of the metal of blood. In order to understand us I must ask you some very important questions.
De que es tu cadena? De oro?










