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[hollowandcoldanddark]

intro

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im 20. bad things are happening to me. i don't know.

im tentatively asexual but i want to post about sex and relationships and my trauma in some place. i don't know.

warnings for ramcoa and explicit content

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everything fucking sucks, season 2

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i only take 3 medications and god do they cause me all sorts of fucking problems

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and nowww for the fun game of am i triggered actually horny or do i just need to piss!!!!!!

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im a crazy person but i think that new to the scene radqueer user heartshapedscapel is just aka dreamie again. hm.

if youre a normal person then wtv i just...

[hollowandcoldanddark]

when i encountered the term ramcoa and looked it up i thought it was satanic panic v2. now i don’t. thank you for posting about this stuff

thank u for not seeing the term and coming into my inbox to lecture me. Hope you have an okay day

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Sorry I spammed your blog with one billion likes. I just gotta eat them all. I don’t often find people in talking about ramcoa experiences in a way that I understand well and true so yay ig. Thank you for existing.

dw about it

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i just keep feeling grief. idk how the fuck im gonna be normla about this tomorrow. i guess. im angry!!!!! i dont want things to change im not allowed to be angry bc you didnt od anything wrong but why why whybwhy

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i just i just i just its not enough what i have is not enough i want more all the fucking time and im so sos os sad to have less instead i want more greedy greedy i hate that you couldnt make it work i hate it i hate it i want more its not fair its not enough you do everything asnd i am fucking worthless but c lealry youre still here so let me burden you more ITS NOT ENOIGH IM TOO GREEDY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASDE YOJU DONT UNDERSTAND I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT DO THREE MONTHS I CANT DO AYHING I DONT WANT TO PLEASE PLEASE PLEADE PELASe

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why did i only post like sage wisdom bullshit here defeats the purpose of a vent blog this is where im at im clingy and lonely and everything fucking sucks and i cant be a role model

WHY WHY WHY id otn want thingsa to change its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard I DONT WANT TO BE NICE OR COMFORTING OR ACCOMODATING I JUST WANT THINGS NOT TO CHANGE I JUST WANT YOU PLEASE ITS PLEASE PLEASE

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WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY JUST MAKE IKT WORK I KNOW YOJU CANT I DONT WANT TO BE SELFISH NO NO I WANT TO BE SO SELFISH IM I NEED TO BE SO SELFISH I NEED HYOU I CANT BE ALONE I CANT CHANGE I CANT CHANGE ANYMORE I KNOW ITS NOT A CHOICE YOU DONT UNDERSTANMD PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I CANT CHANGE ANYMORE

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I LITERALLY CANNOT ANYMORE I LITERALLY CANNOT I CANNOT CHANGE I CANT CHANGE ANYMORE I CANT LOK AT YOU OR TALK TO YOU IT JHURTS I CANT CHANGE YOURE AWFUL I AHTE YOU I CANT CHANGE I CANT CHANGE ANYMORE TOO MUICH TOO MUCH

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the person @akadreamie in the ramcoa tag writing about how it’s not real and how now they’re deciding to develop did blah blah blah. Cmon. Content warning for what this person has done - racism, ableism, pedophilia and grooming, other bullshit

Post by @plural-blocklist · 4 images

💬 9  🔁 5  ❤️ 22 · Anti endo/fakeclaimer in tags · This user has posted to r/sc and r/fdc This user has an active beware TW for racism, ped

Post by @belovedofbede

💬 2  🔁 1  ❤️ 2 · Rezcalls lore is DEEP... · Apparently he isn't real? Recently in a google document that he has since deleted, he claims to

I know the people in these posts are generally pro endo and there are battling community perspectives about that but this guy famously has been chased out of our goddamn community like 3-4 times now. “Social experiment” my ass.

I don’t agree with all of the opinions in these documents. Some of these things I wouldn’t stand for normally or want to give more nuance to. But I will stand with my community before with this fucking predator, even if that means not always fully agreeing with everything https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1QiDBiWkXFyKew4iX5SQvY9bIevRgHG-ThyxOXjocRq0/edit?usp=drivesdk <- someone compiled a list of his accounts to 2024

Mega-document about Rezcalls

Mega-document about Rezcalls. Time and time again this individual has and will continue to act atrociously online, I decided to put a docum

Rezcalls

Since Rez has decided to make a document attempting to “cancel me”, this has been made to document all of my personal interactions with him

It’s all the same guy. Literally just fuck off. Grow up.

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How did you knew you had did? What are the symptoms?

not to be a massive fucking hater but this is one of my worst pet peeves on earth. what is did. how did u know you had it.

for the second question, google it. read from survivors. etc.

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i think the urge to coin more things must comfort someone but i honestly find it pointless a little insulting and anti recovery?

its not for me so i dont really care but its all thats in the ramcoa tag rn. the reality boils down to that you, as a survivor, do not have some kind of one size fits all programming, and these labels are more likely to be detrimental to your wellbeing than not.

to be cruel, sometimes it seems like the blog owners go through all possible variations of posts, just trying to mine more "content" related to traumatic illnesses.

[2thecosmos]

I'm tired of non-survivors talking about RAMCOA/OEA. I'm tired of them acting like they can police what constitutes as RAMCOA/OEA. I'm tired of them thinking they know even half of what survivors have experienced and do experience. I want a space where I and other RAMCOA/OEA survivors can exist without the infiltration of non-survivors. We can't even talk about this issue to non-survivors. It's hard enough facing RAMCOA/OEA. We don't need non-survivors adding to the pile.

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the fucking ramcoa tag is a disaster rn

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this is the tag:

coining post (mostly unnecessary or transramcoa)

transramcoa introductory garbage

ramcoa isnt real

absolute trash atm, we need better like distinguishing tags