My little world

Sophia | 25 | Depressionen | Borderline | Essstörung | PTBS | Last cut:28.12.2024| 🌸

[worthless-misery]

Maybe I'm really not worth shit.

[sa-dnesss]

Can’t sleep. Can’t wake up. Can’t remember the last time I felt like myself. My thoughts are loud but my mind is empty. Food doesn’t taste the same anymore. Conversations feel far away, like I’m watching my own life happen without me. I’m tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix. Days blur together until weeks disappear. It’s Monday, then somehow it’s Sunday again. Everyone else keeps moving forward, and I’m standing still, pretending I’m okay while quietly losing pieces of myself I don’t know how to get back.

[worthless-misery]

I think I'm paranoid. I'm always scared. I always feel like something very bad will happen.

I hate this. I don't want this.

[sa-dnesss]

and just like that, I’m back in the same place I fought so hard to get out of

[survivor-of-my-childhood]

Versprich mir, dass du nicht böse sein wirst, wenn ich entscheide, dass es Zeit für mich ist zu gehen. Wenn ich entscheide das ich schon lange genug gekämpft habe. Wenn ich nicht mehr kann...

[scarsofwars]

[lovelessfa1ry]

being a person who nobody has ever cared about is kinda insanely horrible lol

[nientechemisalvi-deactivated202]

[worthless-misery]

Sometimes I think it might stop. But then I feel stupid because it happens again.

Over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and-

You get the point. It never ends.

[gedankenleer]

Ich bin geblieben, obwohl ich längst hätte gehen sollen.

[night-thief]

"Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there's no room for the present at all."

- Evelyn Waugh, Brideshead Revisited

[worthless-misery]

It's not that I don't want to enjoy things. It's just that I never feel like I deserve to. It feels wrong.

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[speakingspirals]

i don't want to feel anymore. i need everything to stop.

[drunkpunks]

i don’t want this body, this mind, i don’t want this. i want out

[earthtodes]

Normalize breakfast Dates.. Let’s go get pancakes and orange juice and talk..