roosa

22 // tw ed // trying to become that girl

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t a g s

sugar.txt - original text posts

sugar.img - body checks

sugar.log - food logs

sugar.exe - exercise logs

s t a t s

160 cm - 5’3”

june 5 - 58.5 kg - bmi 22.9

june 12 - 59.3 kg - bmi 23.2

june 19 - 58.0 kg - bmi 22.7

june 26 - 59.3 kg - bmi 23.2

r u l e s

750 kcal deficit

70g protein

10 000 steps

20 zone minutes

2 litres of water

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hey boos the school year & training season are beginning again so i’m back trying to get off my ass. i’ve been eating like a monster which i kinda blame my bf for bc that man is 6’4” so he can eat whatever he wants without it really showing so he thinks we should have some snacks every time we see each other aaagh

thankfully i’ll have the excuse that i’m busy af the next few weeks so i won’t be hanging around with him that much so i’ll be able to skip those extra kcals

went for a run today for the first time in literally 2 months & felt like i was gonna die. rip all the progress i made in the spring

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Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.

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aaagh we made plans to go visit my bf’s parents in a month & i’m already freaking out abt what i’m gonna wear bc he comes from a firmly upper middle class family & i for sure don’t & i don’t wanna seem out of place

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i cut my nails too short so now i’m stuffing myself with protein so they’ll grow asap

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the best coffee truck ever is going to be at the festival i’m going to work at <3 hope i get situated somewhere near it bc they make the only actually delicious iced lattes in all of finland lol & having one at the start of my shift will make it much more breathable to make it through the 13 hours i work each day

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2 8 . 0 6 . 2 0 2 3

black coffee // 2 kcal

strawberry & lime skyr // 235 kcal

lettuce and light caesar sauce // 53 kcal

fruit baby food // 124 kcal

low-fat quark with blackberries and chia seeds // 168 kcal

t o t a l

581 kcal, 68g protein, 5g fiber

tdee ~1800 kcal

deficit ~1220 kcal

fasted 21h

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visual representation of what i lol like rn vs what i want to look like on the fall

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2 7 . 0 6 . 2 0 2 3

black coffee // 2 kcal

chocolate bcaa pudding // 148 kcal

sf energy drink // 15 kcal

mifu, macaroni and peas // 397 kcal

rye bread, margarine, lettuce, cucumber and mini plum tomatoes // 244 kcal

t o t a l

804 kcal, 63g protein, 12g protein

tdee 1760 kcal

deficit 955 kcal

fasted 20h

n o t e s

less protein than i’d like but i didn’t wanna increase my intake since i can’t work out this week + will probably eat over my tdee for at least three days this week

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i actually won’t workout in any way this week bc i got an appointment for a belly button piercing today bc someone cancelled their reservation 🤩

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i’m sorking security at a music festival from thursday to saturday & they’re like 13h shifts each day so i know i need a lot of energy but i just logged my planned meals into mfp & it’s ~1700 kcal per day now not including dinner 💀

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2 6 . 0 6 . 2 0 2 3

black coffee // 2 kcal

turkey filées // 528 kcal

a fruit smoothie // 112 kcal

mifu, macaroni and peas // 397 kcal

t o t a l

1040 kcal, 155g protein, 5g fiber

tdee 1760 kcal

deficit 720 kcal

n o t e s

so much protein & so little exercise :(

only had that smoothie bc i desperately needed some fiber lol

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aaaah it would be the perfect weather to go for a run but my knee is so done after cheer practice that it would just be dumb to attempt to run :/ will do a quick ab workout instead when i get home

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week 25 workouts

m o n d a y

2h cheerleading practice

3.2 km rec run

85 (57) zone minutes

11k steps

t u e s d a y

30 min full body workout (natacha océane)

26 min fartlek run

91 (63) one minutes

9k steps

w e d n e s d a y

250m swimming - 2’40”/100m

3 x 10m up a climbing wall

80 (67) zone minutes

14k steps

t h u r s d a y

20 min recovery run

15 min stretching

53 (33) zone minutes

13k steps

f r i d a y

3 zone minutes

12k steps

s a t u r d a y

6.5 km cycling - 13.9 km/h

1.5h soccer

6.5 km cycling - 13.4 km/h

71 zone minutes

14k steps

s u n d a y

30 min sprints & bodyweight exercises

42 (35) zone minutes

6k steps

n o t e s

that 30 min natacha océane workout took me more like 45 min bc i had to take additional breaks

the x (y) means that x is the amount of fitbit zone minutes i earned and y is the actual amount of active minutes (bc minutes of very strenuous activity are count twice)

had two runs in my plan that i skipped 😬

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so i ate like shit for a couple of days while i was with my bf but it was like, amounts a normal person would eat still

but yesterday was supposed to be my first day getting back on track so of course i binged on chocolate and chilli nuts

didn’t even burn any calories bc i didn’t go for a run like i was supposed to & i don’t think i will go today either bc i once again completely ignored my alarm & once j got up it was too hot to go imo

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someone drive over me bc i’ve eaten a ton of chips, a whole was pizza and half a litre of regular soda 😭😭

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okay i’m still nauseated so i’m just gonna start getting ready for Beach Day and just feel guilty abt not working out for the rest of the day

probably would help if i ate something but obvi i’m not gonna do that