02.2 WORTH IT 𖦹 sim jaeyun
You and Jake decided to pursue your relationship, the problem is you can't keep it a secret for much longer.
★ pairing — dom!jake x sub!mreader
★ tags — fluff and then smut yayyy ;P, jake is whipped for reader and has him on a pedestal, he is very caring, jake has to come out and face his fears, a lil talk about jake's sexuality and how he's been dealing with that, sunghoon is a key character here lol, bodyworship, bj (reader receiving), unprotected sex (don't do that irl!!!), anal fingering (reader receiving), basically too much happiness made them both horny, jake was very desperate tbh, a lil of aftercare.
★ notes — eng isn't my first language, i'm sorry in case there are any errors regarding grammar or anything else! Also i've never written something so long before, i hope you enjoy it!
★ word count — 4.1k masterlist
You’re busy washing your hands inside the bathroom’s sink, and you've just finished doing your skincare routine when a certain someone starts knocking on the door with a little too much energy. Music was blasting from your phone but it became insignificant compared to those knocks.
“Hyung, c’mon! Can’t you just wait a few more minutes?” You yell.
“I’m basically pissing myself!” He yells back.
You sigh loudly before opening the door.
“I’m not leaving, I still gotta finish here,” you begin, “if you gotta pee then… just pee,” you continue.
Jake grins as he closes the bathroom’s door behind him.
“I actually don’t have to pee,” he affirms with that dumb smile scattered across his face.
“Oh, I would've bet that,” you scoff as you attempt to hide your amusement.
“I just wanna be with my baby all the time… is that bad?” He asks, pouting.
“God, stop!” You say, laughing at him.
“You can’t even wait for me to finish washing my face!” You add, “you're ridiculous.”
“Yup, that’s right,” he casually admits.
You just sigh, picking up your moisturizer from the sink. You begin gathering all your stuff and putting them in your pouch.
Jake comes behind you and hugs you from the back. His nose caresses the nape of your neck. Then, he starts placing soft kisses behind your ear. You breathe in as goosebumps cover all your skin.
“I’m done, let’s go,” you say as you pull away and giggle at his reaction. He pretends to be offended but his play doesn't last much, just a few seconds.
“Where are we going?” He asks, excitedly.
“Your room?” You suggest.
So, you finally head to Jake’s bedroom. Before entering, you carefully check no one sees you as you get inside together.
“Did you lock the door?” Jake asks, holding your hand and leading you to his bed.
“I did,” you quickly reassure him.
He throws himself on the fresh sheets, you follow his movements by getting on top of him. He lies down, a smile creeping on his face as you grab his chin and kiss him.
He breathes out on your lips, releasing all the tension of the day. Kissing you, feeling you all over him was regenerative, just as much as a good night of sleep.
It’s been a month since you finally accepted your feelings for each other, and decided to pursue them. The other members are still unaware of everything happening between you two. You suspect that Sunghoon knows, but is too shy to bring it up to you. But still, you can read the way his eyes move on you and Jake when you’re together, you can clearly tell he noticed that the way you two interact has shifted.
About the other members, you have absolutely no idea. You’re terrified thinking that they actually found out, and that they could be speaking to the HYBE CEO right now about kicking the both of you out.
But they’re your friends. Aren't they?
They would never do something like that, they would talk to you first… right?
Your eyebrows furrow as your lips move around Jake’s lower lip, trying to concentrate on how sweet he tastes rather than all those worries of yours.
He shifts the position, placing himself above you. His tongue moves freely inside your mouth, and you let him.
Slowly, his lips move from your mouth to your neck. Your skin is fully covered in goosebumps in less than a second.
You attempt to not make any noises as he sucks on the skin. The pleasure makes you completely forget that he’s not just kissing and stuff, he’s leaving a mark on you.
Your eyes go wide as realization hits you harsher than expected.
“Jake, wait!” You say, whispering.
“What’s wrong?” He begins, his face suddenly terrified, “are you uncomfortable? Did I do something wrong? Please tell me,” he continues saying, frenetically.
“Oh, no! Not at all, just…” you start saying, “I think it’s better if you don’t give me a hickey, you know?” You explain, cracking a laugh as you point at your neck.
“Oh…” he sighs, relieved.
“Yeah, you’re right,” he finally says, sitting on your lap as your back is still pressed on the bed.
Your mouth opens, ready to talk. Then, you hesitate. Only air leaves your throat as words get stuck.
“What's wrong?” Jake asks, caressing your face and pulling you up.
You scratch your forehead. “Don’t you think… the others should know?” Jake almost interrupts you, you lift your finger to make him understand that you’re not done yet, “we’ve been delaying this talk for the past month but I don’t think it’s doing us any good…” you explain, your voice losing its confidence towards the end of your sentence.
Jake gets off your lap to sit next to you.
“I- yeah, you’re right,” he admits.
“You said you would've been the one to do the speech, yet you still haven't,” you pause, searching for the right way to speak your mind, “I want to make clear that I’m not mad at you in any way. I’m just reminding you that a month ago you said that you would’ve done it… you know?” Your tone is calm, controlled.
“I know, I’m sorry,” Jake says, his hand rubbing his face.
“Just… Can I get one more day? It’s because I gotta find the right words… I haven't prepared anything yet, I actually have no idea how to-” he looks around while his face suddenly darkens, he appears terrified.
“Of course, hun,” you reply while taking his hands and holding them between yours, trying to reassure him. You smile at him, full of affection and gratitude. You can tell he enjoyed that little nickname.
“Are you sure you still don’t want me to go with you?” You ask him.
A month ago he explained how it would be easier for him to be alone, as he announced this huge change in both of your lives.
While you were out to the whole group from the beginning, Jake quite never had enough courage to communicate his true feelings.
And he always knew. He knew from even before the beginning of the group’s career that he liked both boys and girls. And also, he’s aware of how supportive the whole group has been with you when you came out.
Despite all the positive circumstances, he couldn't bring himself to talk and to make his true self come to the surface.
He was convinced that since he was bisexual, and not gay, he could've just stuck to dating girls only, that his attraction towards the same gender could’ve stayed a secret, forever.
That should’ve been easy, right? He just didn't have to fall in love with a guy.
He could've had occasional hook ups with boys here and there. What mattered is that he didn't actually fall in love with one.
Everything went according to his plan, until he stopped denying to himself his deep feelings for you, and decided to pursue you. He realized later on that falling in love with you was the best thing that could've happened in his life.
So, he’s said from the beginning that he wanted to be alone while announcing your relationship. Because all of this isn't only about the relationship, it’s also about him literally exposing all of what he had always hidden, even from his closest friends.
“Yes babe, I wanna be alone. I think that if you were to come with me I wouldn't be able to let it all out,” he explains, tears filling up his eyes that you love so dearly.
You hug him, wrapping your arms around his neck.
“Everything’s gonna work out,” he tells you, whispering on your skin, but it's more like as if he's trying to convince himself. The sweet fragrance of your body wash surrounds his nostrils, instantly giving him a sense of deep relaxation.
You pull away from the hug in order to kiss him again. He smiles on your lips.
Then a sudden knock is heard from the door.
You immediately pull away from each other, both of your hearts rushing uncontrollably.
Jake gets up from the bed, as he gets to the door he points towards his wardrobe. You immediately understand.
His face frowns out of worry as he waits for you to hide inside the furniture. As the wardrobe’s door closes, he opens his room’s one.
He’s met by Sunghoon, standing right in front of him, his arms crossed tight on his chest.
“What are you doing?” He asks, nonchalantly. He observes the room standing behind Jake as the boy desperately attempts to act casually.
“I- uh, nothing, why? Do you need anything?” He asks, the tears still trapped in his eyes.
“The door was locked,” Sunghoon pauses and his eyebrows furrow, “have you been crying?” He questions, slightly worried.
“I was… man, I was changing my clothes, you know? And no, I wasn't crying.”
“Yeah, sure… whatever” Sunghoon says, not convinced at all, “you know you can talk to me about anything, right?”
Jake’s eyes go wide, then he just nods.
The other sighs, “food delivery just arrived, tell y/n too,” he later says.
Jake’s eyes now go even wider, he now has the certainty that Sunghoon noticed something. He tries his best to not completely panic.
“I know he’s in here, somewhere…” The boy says before leaving, he gives Jake one more suspicious glance before turning his back and heading to the kitchen.
Jake immediately closes the door and you get out of the wardrobe.
“He definitely knows,” Jake states.
A day has passed. Jake is alone in the living room, reminiscing his thoughts while trying to remember the exact words, the ones he's carefully decided to use in order to explain your relationship and also his sexuality to your groupmates.
“We’ve been in love for a long time, that’s why we thought…” he whispers to himself. “We realized we had feelings for each other and…”
He sighs. “Fuck!” He exclaims right after, louder than he intended to.
“What’s wrong?” Jake hears someone saying, coming from his left. He suddenly turns and sees Sunghoon.
The boy really caught him doing something suspicious a day after another.
“How- how long have you been standing there?” Jake asks, petrified.
“I just got here,” Sunghoon explains. He then goes to sit on the couch next to his friend.
“So… what’s wrong? Why are you cursing at yourself like that?” He asks. He chuckles softly, but you can still catch the seriousness of his tone.
The two of them always joke around with each other, but Sunghoon notices right away when things start to get more serious.
Jake’s palms are sweating. He’s not ready, he still hasn't gone through his whole speech for a tenth time.
The more he thinks, the more he forgets what he had been miniciously preparing the past night. He desperately tries to grasp each sentence, but they just disappear in the fog inside his mind.
Sunghoon doesn't rush him. He watches him, but he doesn't say anything.
Jake takes a big breath, his gaze frenetically wandering around the room.
“I’m bisexual… Also me and-” he he suddenly says, his voice is so low he’s almost whispering. Pure fear slips out as the words leave his mouth.
“Oh, I know. We know,” Sunghoon replies, not bothered at all.
Jake’s jaw drops out of confusion. He can't distinguish whether all of this is truly happening or if it’s all a big joke he could only be fantasizing about.
“What… what is that you know?” He asks. His hands tremble slightly, he places them on his knees trying to steady himself.
“Both. That you're bi and that you and y/n are dating,” Sunghoon explains, smiling a bit. That smile is actually an attempt to make Jake feel at least a little less nervous, because there's actually no need to be, even if that can be so hard to believe.
“How…” Jake says, more to himself than to the boy sitting next to him. He doesn't understand. He doesn't even care about his failed speech anymore, he just wants to understand.
“Trust me, it was very obvious.”
“It was?” Jake asks, reminiscing all the past month in just a few seconds, searching for clues.
“I mean, it was very obvious that you always had feelings for y/n, and we also knew you still liked girls, so… eventually we figured it out,” he pauses a moment before continuing, “I know this is a big deal for you… I mean officially saying this, but I can assure you there’s nothing you should be worried about.”
Jake nods, slowly. He’s still processing everything, still feeling in danger.
“I want to make it clear that it doesn't change anything for us. It doesn't change anything in the group and in the way we see you. Also you two dating isn't a problem at all, you don’t have to worry,” Sunghoon states, his voice firm and confident.
“Also, I’m happy that you can finally have him. I mean, man… I saw you, you were desperate,” he then adds, laughing.
“Oh, shut up,” Jake replies. He smiles a little bit, his voice still low. He knows it’s over and that it went well. His body just has to adapt to not feel in danger anymore.
“I’m cooking ramen, d’you want some?” Sunghoon asks, changing the subject, catching Jake off guard. He gets up from the couch as he speaks.
“Uh- I’m not hungry… I’ll eat later,” Jake tells the other.
Sunghoon nods and leaves the living room to go to the kitchen.
“I seriously did it,” Jake thinks to himself. He feels the tears from the previous day coming back to him, but this time out of happiness and relief, not preoccupation.
“I spoke to Sunghoon,” Jake announces as he opens the door to your room, not even knocking. You’re lying on your undone bed, wearing just a shirt and a pair of boxers. Jake doesn't react, he still looks unbelievably happy and confused at the same time, so you try your best not to make anything awkward.
You move under the covers, your muscles tensing up.
“Really? How did it go?” You ask him as you nervously play with the bed sheets, wrapping them around your fingers.
“It was… so normal,” he says, still not believing. He then sits down on the bed, his hands too close to your body. The feeling of being this exposed to him makes you shiver down your spine. Also the anxiety of wanting to know how your groupmates view you now is eating you alive.
Jake pauses. He looks at you, intensely.
“Is something wrong?” He questions.
“Oh, no… no, keep going,” you say while attempting a smile. You feel the sheets on your lap shifting.
“I was saying…” Jake begins, his hand goes on your thigh. You freeze. Your breath gets stuck in your throat.
“It was extremely normal, I was so confused… I still am, actually,” his gaze wanders around as he speaks, “he said they all already knew… I- but I mean, they’re all okay with it… with me being bi and us dating. It’s great, isn't it?” He finally says.
You nod, smiling. “Yeah, I’m so proud of you baby, and I’m so happy that we don’t have to worry anymore.”
“You’re right,” Jake replies, he smirks back before shifting his position, ready to kiss you.
“I’m so fucking happy, I’m not even able to explain it,” he whispers on your lips, the sight of you and the warmth of your body making him realize that all of this is real.
The fabric of your underwear starts to suffocate you.
He leans in and your body immediately arches onto him. Your hardness hits his belly, but he doesn't seem to notice yet. As for you, you have to try very hard to not be already making noises.
“You’re so handsome,” Jake tells you after pulling back, as he observes you, looking all around as he was deciding which inch of your skin he should kiss next.
He makes you lie down, gently accompanying your body. He starts kissing your neck as his fingers rub along the sides of your hips.
You can feel he wants it too, it’s so clear. But you choose not to rush it, you want to see what his next move will be.
His face is flushed as he pulls away from you and moves his hands at the beginning of his sweater.
“Is it fine with you if I take this off?” He asks, hesitant.
“Oh, yes it’s fine. Take it off, please,” your words come out definitely more desperate than you intended. Jake chuckles but doesn't comment on it.
“All this happiness, the things going so well for us… it’s making me horny,” he frankly admits as he undresses himself. Your mouth falls open, not expecting him to be so explicit about it.
Your eyes are met by his abs. Your hand moves to touch them with care. You unconsciously bite your lower lip, trying to refrain from your hunger.
“D’you enjoy what you see?” He asks you, chuckling.
“I definitely do,” you reply as your body aches for closeness. You pull him back into a kiss. It gets messy very soon.
His tongue swims between your teeth, not acting gentle anymore. His hands move under your shirt as he pants on your lips, he presses himself against you as if he wanted you to notice how hard he was getting just by kissing you.
All of his movements are giving away how much he’s been desiring to have you like this. But it’s almost like he actually wants you to know. As if the thing you deserve the most is to know how hot you look and how turned on he is by you.
“Can I take this off as well?” He asks you, his voice pleading. His eyebrows go up and his eyes grow bigger, already imagining what he’ll be seeing next.
“Yes, please,” you answer.
He breathes in deeply before undressing you. His hands slightly tremble, and he doesn't attempt to hide it, at all.
Your cheeks are flushed, both by being shirtless in front of Jake and by the desire that is corrupting your mind.
He grinds onto you, his dick hitting yours which is only covered by the thin fabric of your boxers. You can’t help but moan as he does so.
“Can you feel how hard I am for you right now?” He asks you, tempting.
You just nod, your throat feels sore as if it can’t pronounce any words anymore but just make meaningless sounds.
You swallow hard as Jake’s hand grabs yours. He puts it on his pants’ waistband.
“Do you want this?” He finally asks. As he does so he leans onto you, his warmness radiating against your exposed skin.
You clear your throat before speaking. “I want this so badly, hyung,” you admit.
He smirks for just a second, you’re barely able to grasp it. After doing so, he guides your hand to unzip his pants.
He sits down for a moment, just to pull them off completely. Once he’s done, he goes back above you.
“You know you look so damn good, right?” He tells you. His hand moves to the hem of your boxers, his thumb hitting your cock.
You nod, flinching at the touch.
That’s the last thing he says before pulling down your boxers. He literally gasps at the sight. He moans just by looking at you.
Your tip is leaking, begging to release itself soon.
He immediately moves down, between your legs. He doesn't say anything before taking you whole inside his mouth. It’s like the only thing he ever wanted was exactly this.
His eyes go backwards as he moves up and down on your dick. Your abs clench.
You become a mess of whimpers and moans, you don’t even try to hold back anymore. You want him to be aware of how good he’s making you feel, how much you want him to keep doing exactly what he’s doing.
He pulls back for a second just to breathe. Then he sucks on your tip right before licking up and down the sides of your length. Later, he wraps his hand around it, firmly.
He begins sucking on it again, his hand following his tongue’s movements.
This could easily be the best thing you’ve ever experienced in your entire life. You still struggle to believe that it’s Jake to be making you feel like this.
“Babe, I’mma-” you start saying as you feel your orgasm growing closer, desperate to free itself.
As he hears your words, his movements get faster and faster, and he keeps that pace until you finally cum inside his mouth, filling it completely.
He pulls out, out of breath. He cleans the corners of his mouth before sucking two of his own fingers.
Your eyes go wide as you soon realize what his next move is.
He doesn't give you any time to recover before he spreads your legs, putting one on his shoulder. He tickles your entrance before pushing his fingers inside.
“Hyung! Oh God…” you moan as you clench your fist around the bed sheets.
“How good does that feel? Huh?” He asks, looking intensely at you.
“You’re so perfect,” he continues as he observes your body, attentively.
“You look like a literal sculpture,” he says, his mouth open, mimicking your expressions.
“When did I get so lucky?”
He just keeps showering you with compliments of any kind, as his fingers keep working your insides.
“Getting you nice and stretched,” he chuckles, “ready to welcome my dick,” he adds. You nod and bite your lip.
“When will you put your cock inside me?” You ask him, desperate to feel your walls wrapping around his hardness.
“Soon baby, don’t worry,” he reassures you.
He puts a third finger in and starts moving faster. Your dick is hard all over again.
You gasp at his sudden movement, your ass pulling him deeper inside you.
“You want me so bad, don’t you pretty boy?” He questions.
“Yes, hyung,” you say in between moans.
“Alright,” he says right before pulling his boxers down. Your eyes light up at the sight of him.
He places your calves on both of his shoulders before placing himself between you.
He aligns his dick with your entrance before making his way inside you. You and Jake gasp at the same time.
“Fuck, you’re so tight,” he says, biting his lips as he looks at you.
He starts moving, slowly.
You whimper as he pleasures you. His gaze covers each inch of your body as the room gets more and more heated.
His movements start to grow faster. A loud moan escapes your lips.
Jake caresses your tip as he fills you completely.
“This pretty dick of yours, made especially for me,” he says while rubbing it.
He groans as he pounds inside you. Your ass bouncing back as he slams onto you.
“Fuck- you look as if Michelagelo himself sculpted you,” he says before moaning again.
“Yeah?” You ask, out of breath.
“Your body is so full of perfect details…” he pauses before whimpering, “so perfect it cannot be accidental.”
He holds on to your thigh as he goes faster and faster. The bed creaks below you.
He lowers himself in order to kiss you as he continues to fuck you.
He groans on your lips as your walls squeeze around him. He continues hitting that same perfect spot of yours, and you know you won’t be able to last for much longer.
The room becomes a complete mess of moans and whimpers, while the sound of your bodies slapping together echoes between the walls.
“Fuck! I’mma-” Jake says, his eyes widening.
“Hyung, come inside me, please fill me up completely,” you beg him as you almost cry out of pleasure.
Jake groans as he buries his load deep inside you while continuing to move in and out of you.
You soon cum too as he strokes your cock and keeps on moving. Both of your bodies begin to tremble. He collapses next to you.
His breath is as heavy as yours. Both your chests run up and down.
His pinky finger rubs against the skin of your thigh. He carefully approaches your lips, leaving a soft kiss on top.
His hand now moves to caress your cheek. You turn to face him, you can’t help but smile.
“That was… perfect,” he says, whispering.
You just nod, your eyes struggling to not stare at Jake’s lips for too long. He just kisses you again, embracing you completely.
You hug each other tightly, an attempt to make that moment of yours last forever. A shared intimacy that’s too precious to let go of it too soon.
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