Zora Kane

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[umbrellanumber5-deactivated2021]

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This.

This is why people who stay in my life are neurodiverse like me!

[nottoolateforthegame]

Huh

[thisisnotjuli]

this!! I swear I lost like all my friendships bc of this, like I had a group of friends in hs that one day I realized “huh I haven’t talked to this people in a while” and popped in to say hi and they were all awkward?? because they hadn’t seen me in a while?? and that’s when I realized that friendship works different for them?? I was like yeah I haven’t talked to you in like four months but it’s not like I’ve forgotten about y'all why would anything change, and they were all like we haven’t talked to you in four months why are you here again acting like nothing happened? and it was really confusing for me

[mimir-bashir]

YEAH! THAT!

Also I have a thing where I just put the people on pause. If I don’t see them or contact them, my brain kinda put them in stasis. I don’t think about them nor misses them, and I stay on what I last knew about them (how they look, what they study/work). So when we meet again I’m like “wait, you’ve aged?” and I have the same familiarity with them thanI had before.

[gender-snatched]

Anyway all my mutuals I haven’t messaged in forever - this is why

[official-lucifers-child]

oh my gods this makes so much sense??? there are people who i haven’t talked to at all for literally over a year and we’ll pick up like nothing happened, but for their people it’s just like…… falling apart but onesided???? i think we’re still on the same level but actually we’re strangers??

[link-the-feral-anon]

Ohhhhhh

[shark8-my-leg]

OHHHHHHHHH….

[quarra]

Ok but listen, on the other side of this, as a person who moved hundreds of miles away from everyone i knew and then became a hermit for several years, it was SUCH A FUCKING RELIEF to get in contact with an old friend and have him be like, “my friendship levels do not degrade, so in my mind we are still awesome close buddies” and i almost fkn cried. I thought he would be mad or would have moved on because i had slacked on my reaching out to him and staying in touch and doing all the friendship things. But NOPE. 800 miles of distance, depression, and life changing circumstances didnt steal our friendship and i am SO GRATEFUL.

[thatlittleegyptologist]

#came back to tumblr after four years #lottie and I immediately went like that spiderman meme yknow tags via @rudjedet

I have literally no friendship degradation whatsoever. I will not have spoken to someone for 5 years or more, and they’re still as much a friend to me as if I had only seen them yesterday. I’m just very bad at communicating if someone is not in my direct orbit. So when Sonja reappeared on this site I basically screeched into her notes like a banshee because I was delighted and we picked straight back up where we’d left off.

[elodieunderglass]

Happy to go on the record that I don’t expect regular contact and will welcome hearing from people after a long time

[zorakane]

My parents are in town and they call me at 8 saying we want to go out can you get ready and everything. (I moved out a few weeks ago.)

I say, this is my weekend, I know you are all excited but I use this to catch up on sleep. They say fine. Get ready by 10 then

I say, alright but I need more time so give me until 11 and we'll go for lunch. You guys have breakfast, I'm very tired.

They say fine. Say that I have to be ready by 11. I have to do this.

So I wake up at 10 and rush to get ready and I am down at my apartment lobby at 11

I waited for a while and then called them to ask are you already here because I came to the lobby and I don't know where you are.

They say oh your highness told us 11 so we're getting ready for 11. And I said, I said I'll be ready by 11 so you don't have to do this. I just told you exactly what you told me to tell you.

And I get attitude now because I did what I said I would and they didn't.

Just feels like home.

[guerrillatech]

[lylahammar]

why is it that someone gently saying "hey hey whoa" while another person is crying like the most intimate and comforting thing

[skarlettriott]

phone goes off: *ding*

message/incoming phone call:from my mom

Me: entire body tenses up

message/incoming call: from bf

Me: *happy squeal*

[zorakane]

Still a life update. I've been dating this guys for over 2 months now. Honestly, no complaints. It's nice to be cared for and loved when everything seemed so broken. We talk everyday. We still have new things to do. We still have fun. It's hilarious that I get to send snaps to him.

He's a gift and I'm sort of a gaming community that simps for him. It's honestly heartwarming.

And we talk each night, send each other messages when we feel like it. He pulls my heartstrings and I really want to see him but he's across an ocean. When I talk to him, the distance doesn't seem like much but after that, it's coping with the fact that we aren't together physically. I can't kiss him for a few months. I can't really jump him anymore. But I will I hope.

It's frustrating to know that the person who loves you for you isn't here with you.

[zorakane]

So a year ago I was miserable about my ex boyfriend because he thought he couldn't trust me.

Today, the guy I've been dating for the past one month and been friends with for 8 months before just sent me snap videos declaring his love for me while he was out with his friends. He's fine and he has a few friends to help but this guy is so heartwarming.

Life gets better.

[zorakane]

So my parents took away my video game from me and that was the only way that I got to connect with friends. So now it’s just me watching stuff online and then working on classes. I don’t know if this is really going to be healthy for me but hopefully it will be.

This sucks so much. I feel like I’m just getting stressed at work and then stressed at home and my escape was that game. Now that it is gone, I just don’t know what to do with that nervous energy anymore. I need to see a therapist soon and there’s a lot of toxicity around me at the moment but I’m just stuck. Venting isn’t helping. Working isn’t helping. I’m just here.

[zorakane]

So the guy I liked was an ass. I found another guy to crush on. But like that didn’t work out either. But I guess 2021, I will embrace being single. It’s much better for me and I think I don’t want to let this go right now.

[zorakane]

I like a guy. Again. Ugh.

[zorakane]

So I’ve never written this often but I guess I’m in the state to do so. I’ve found that my down times are the ones that fuel my writing, if it is going to be from the heart.

So, there was a guy who sorta likes keeping me in the grey zone. What is it with guys and grey zones? Am I really that person who they find attractive enough to mess around with but not actually have any commitment with? Don’t get me wrong, being single is a lot of fun, but it’s also slightly irritating when people won’t really let you be completely single. I’ve found that, for me, personally, I do single best, without regrets when I don’t have people telling me that they’re interested.

The loneliness does get you enough that you begin compromising. You convince yourself that the guy in your class who keeps you in the middle zone is good. But they’re not. So...

[zorakane]

Toxic relationships really fuck you up, huh? I get that sometimes you don’t know that you’ve been in one. Sometimes you just don’t really want to leave it but toxic relationships are like horrible appendicitis operations that you really need to get out of you.

The worst part is that you can only do this yourself.

My toxic relationship made me lose my mind. It still affects my relationships with guys and I really can’t do anything about it. Not everyone is my ex. But the fear of being left alone, left on read, left for someone else, left because I didn’t pique your interest anymore....just leaving.

I have a guy flirting with me right now. And I can’t seem to think whether this guy is actually doing this for real or if he’s doing this because he’s a fuck boy. I can’t decide and I’m fucking losing my head over a guy again.

[420yunki]

[mimibtsghost]

Just in case you ALL forgot..

DO NOT TRUST BTS WHEN A COMEBACK IS NEAR. The hair you see might be FAKE. Yes those boys go the extra mile and wear freaking WIGS to hide a new haircut and/or color. They also post old photos as a way to make you think their hair is still the same. And if an artist is visiting, they will wear hats and post the photo in black and white. DO NOT TRUST WHAT BIGHIT GIVES YOU EITHER. Do not even trust a song teaser. Those things do NOT even sound like the actual song. To sum up, TRUST NO ONE. Not even yourself as your ideas might have been brainwashed by an old promise or rumor. The only one you can trust in this sea of continuous trust issues, anxiety and blood rush is Namjoon spoiling things on Vlive. UNDERSTAND?

[fuckyeahcomicsbaby]

IT Workers Share the Most Idiotic Things Non-Techies Have Told Them

[kodiak-attack-deactivated202103]

i remember one dude that came in last week that tried to convince me that his optical drive was his hard drive

[bouncyirwin]

People who have to work in customer service have it the hardest 😭

[zorakane]

Alright. I know people aren’t probably reading this as much but I wanted to document something as it was fresh.

I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago and he didn’t want to. He wasn’t good for me and was manipulative about it. Gaslighting was very common. I was a convenience to him and he was something like a necessity to me.

At this point, I don’t know if I am the toxic person because I gave him the confidence that he was important to me and was a good person. Maybe I was the one who reassured him way too much that he was all that I cared about. Maybe he had too much confidence that I would never leave him because I had more feelings. Maybe he became so secure in the relationship that he never bothered.

I loved him. But he didn’t. He said he cared about me a lot but he could never say that he loved me. We were on different pages and I was going to move away. He wanted to try for a relationship but it was hurting me a bit too much to keep something like this going. It was horrible to hurt him.

He’s still a friend but today, he commented on some of my work. I published an article about something I am quite passionate about and he replied saying that he was bored by it. He wasn’t the audience meant for it. But it reminded me why I got out. His achievements were important and to be celebrated. Mine, even if they were big, were just things I did. No appreciation. No pride. Even though I expected him to feel happy the most.

I guess it is for the best.

[alicegotthestrap]

twilight but jasper’s texan accent is like boomhauer’s from king of the hill and alice has to act as a translator bc absolutely no one understands what the fuck comes out of jasper’s mouth