sometimes i feel so blind

zoya 'zee' rojas practically perfect in no fucking ways. daughter. sister. student. lost.

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jin--seung​:

“Ah,” he seemed entirely unfazed by her dismissive response and instead only saw her for the glowing radiance that she was, “Another display of your wonderful charm and concern for me,” he continued to smile at her, a hazy distant look in his eyes that had nothing to do with the alcohol in his system and everything to do with whatever had been used to drug it. “You will  make a great vet once you finish school,”  he reassured her. 

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          “I am most definitely concerned for you, doctor,” Zoya said as a waitress walked by, holding up a hand to get her attention and asking for some water. From the expression on her face whatever was happening with Jin-Seung was happening to others as well. Zoya, of course, still asked for the water but felt a little bit at ease that whatever was happening was not just happening to him and so hopefully that meant a resolution would be quick. “I...honestly am not sure I want to be a vet. I started for my parents, and had done so much of it that I just...kept doing it even once I stopped really caring what they thought.” Telling Jin-Seung all this seemed...safe, telling anyone else and she figured she was liable to be yelled at for her lack of responsibility.

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jaxlafontaine​:

Closed: @zoyadiscovers​  Location: Salt Lake City, Utah 

It had been a lot of work these last couple of weeks and he was satisfied with the work him and Smoking Guns had created. They worked from sunrise to sundown day in and day out to create, produce, and record their music. The album was officially completed and Jax had never felt so satisfied in his life. Of course beyond Zoya. Being away from his family and her brought some light to how he truly felt towards the woman. She was his world and not being able to share the progress with her as he could of if he hadn’t blown things up would have perhaps made the transition much better. However, it was a blessing and disguise and pure tunnel vision took over leading to the completion of their debut album. Now it was just a matter of time for someone to pick them up or if they were successful enough in generating a following on their own. 

With a show scheduled last night to do a soft opening of their album, Jax bought a ticket for Zoya to come out and spend a few days with him. There was some repairing to be done on his end and he was just thankful she was acceptive of the offer. As he saw her come through the airport to the pick up lot with her suitcase in hand he couldn’t help but smile. Despite her missing the show due to some flight issues, he was still happy she made it out. There was no doubt he still loved her and he could only hope this weekend would prove that. “Hey stranger. You made it one piece. How was first class?” he smiled before embracing her into a hug, holding her against his frame for a few moments. “I’m really glad you’re here.” 

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          Zoya laughed at his joke, a bit of an eye roll at the idea of her having a seat in first class. “I wish I’d known they’d upgrade me,” she laughed back. “I feel like I dressed for coach,” she stated since everyone leaving at the same time as her was in suits and wearing heels while Zoya was in sweats and a sports bra with nikes. She was relieved though because she had been hanging out at the airport for like sixteen hours with all the fucking delays. It was a relief to hug him, even though she probably smelled like all the deodorant, and even though Zoya wasn’t quite sure about it. 

           Jax had said they’d talk when he got back and Zoya had tried to give him that space, any time she’d picked up her phone to text him she’d reread their texts and remind herself of everything they’d said. The one that kept her at bay was always the same. ‘You can be happy for others even when you’re going through your own shit.’ It had replayed in her head a lot, the idea he thought she’d be that vindictive hurt and she felt like he kept expecting her to do that to him and it wasn’t what she wanted to be doing. “I’m excited, I hate that I missed the show, feels like I wasted the ticket you got me, and the outfits I packed, is there another one tonight or...?” Zee rolled off, pulling out of the hug and straightening herself up, hand on the handle of her carryon suitcase. 

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kai-dragoumis​:

“Uh, I dunno.  I don’t have that streaming service so I’ll have to piggyback off someone.”  Which was typical for Kai, he piggybacked off everyone’s accounts since he didn’t have any of his own.  Kai smiled when he heard he could have Yoshi, he loved the green creature and always used him when he could.  “Thanks and yes!  A crown would be perfect for you.”

A sigh left his lips, “you are gorgeous Zoya but it just seems like I’m cheating on someone I’m not even dating when I call another woman beautiful is all.”  Yes, it was strange and it didn’t make much sense but he really did try and stay loyal to Rydell.

“Yeah advisor sounds right,” he responded.  As the two got situated with the game, he looked over at her when she mentioned Ry.  “Uh, there was a moment between us recently where she kissed me.  But she didn’t know what she wanted and everything just kind of fizzled out.  It is hard, like I want her and have wanted her for so long.  But maybe I have been wasting my time with all of this.  Maybe I should have just let it go years ago.”  He shrugged as he picked his character and the area where they would be playing.

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          Zoya pretended to place a crown on her head before he sighed, laughing a little that he conceded he thought she was gorgeous, a nice enough compliment on her birthday. Of course, he continued and said nothing overly shocking. Zoya knew she was hung up on Jax, but even a few months without him and she was doubting how loyal she really had to be to him. Certainly she didn’t feel guilty if guys were calling her gorgeous. Kai was hung up bad.

           Holding the controller in her hands and leaning back she listened to him. When he said they’d kissed it sounded like it had never happened before and Zoya didn’t want to say it was actually confusing to her he could linger on someone who had not even wanted to kiss him until recently. Maybe it showed on her face though, because as she picked her own character she had to control the judgement that wanted to appear on it.

            “Well, I definitely don’t think it should feel like cheating to compliment someone when it’s because of a girl who kissed you and doesn’t even know what that means,” she stated, selecting Daisy and then the pair of them moving forward to pick which vehicles they wanted. “I’m not exactly one who can lay down solid advice and I don’t know much about Ry so maybe she’s as amazing as you say she is but come on, Kai, you’re maybe not going to be on Forbes 40 Under 40 but you’re hot and nice and obviously loyal to a fault, if she’s not at the very least giving you some indication your effort is worth it then maybe the effort isn’t.”

           Zoya partially braced herself for the expectation that Kai would be upset with her. Looking down at her controller and then over to him.

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jin--seung​:

Jin Seung was entranced by every word that left her lips and absorbed every fact she revealed about herself into his mind for safety. “Strawberries! I like strawberries too,” and he clung onto a similar like between the two of them and it only made him more enamored by her to know they had at least one thing in common. 

When she leaned in closer from across the table to ask how he was, he practically fawned into her, joining her in the action and leaning in closer to her just for the sake of being nearer. “You are so considerate and caring to ask me that. Yes, I’m okay,” he reached for her hand so he could place his hand over hers if she didn’t pull it away, “Being with you here is… perfect. You’re perfect.” 

        Zoya did think she was considerate and caring but she wasn’t sure if asking the man if he was okay really constituted for that kind of question. It wasn’t an overly invested question and while it did seem like he was a nice enough guy...initially she was starting to think maybe he was having some sort of mental break. “I’m...definitely not, I feel like I just described how I was not super confident about becoming a vet, you know what we should do? We should get you some water,” Zoya suggested, looking around for a waitress. In most situations getting hydrated wasn’t a bad idea, usually it was what people got told to do when they didn’t feel well.

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For the new month I’m going to be clearing out any threads that are a bit old and no longer relevant. I’m tagging everyone so they know they if we’re still going, if we should probably start to close up, or if they no longer need to reply - so if they want to start something new with a refreshed muse they can! It’s also for my own reference because I lost track of all the threads I had.

KEEPING:

Luka - New Apartment - @xxlukajonesxx Kai - Birthday - @kai-dragoumis Jin-Seung - Paddy’s Day - @jin--seung Darren - News - @darrenxrojasx​

DROPPING

Mel - Broken In - @drdrago Alicia - Drinks - @maxnormalcy​

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xxlukajonesxx​:

[TEXT]: Did you wanna go out and celebrate? That could be arranged.

[TEXT]: I’ll see you in about an hour then. 

          Zoya put her phone down and looked up at the old computer in front of her. She didn’t have any sort of office at the firehouse but she sat at the front desk where everyone walked back and forth through. It was nice, the people who worked there were all sweet and nice, greeting her and letting her mess around in the trucks and down the fire pole. It wasn’t the job she was supposed to have, considering what she was at school for, but presently it was the job she was enjoying.

            It was sort of tight though, the job paid good enough but her savings were starting to run low and the human girl was starting to think she maybe couldn’t afford her apartment on her own anymore. Jax had been a potential option a few months ago but since their break up and his trip to Utah she had a pretty strong feeling that was not an option. She needed others. 

              Zee continued to work, answering phones and going through scheduling software, until the front door opened, lifting her eyes to see if it was Luka.

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kai-dragoumis​:

For Kai, it was nice to hear she would remember his birthday.  When it came to his family, it felt as if they only remembered because he was the tagalong that came with Jezebel.  Still, he did not like to dwell on such things, he figured other people had it far worse than him.

“Awesome, not going to lie.  I mean I love CoD and Halo, but my heart is always with the old school games.”  Kai admitted as he quickly grabbed his game to put in the console.  “I get Yoshi,” he quickly stated, all excitedly.  “I mean, unless you want him cause it is your birthday.”

The warlock’s eyes widened at her question, “I mean uh, well you are yeah um cute.”  He commented all bashfully.  Of course, he noticed Zoya was an extremely attractive woman.  He wasn’t blind after all, but he never really tended to tell people too often.  Unless it was Rydell, but he has been doing that for years on end.

“Oh, wow that is great for him.  Just never thought Utah was a place for that,” he shrugged.  Kai listened as she spoke about Jax, unsure what to say.  The LaFontaines simply had a hold on both of them.  “I get that, it is hard to open up to someone that hurt you in such a manner.  And you don’t want to get crushed again by just opening up to him.  I’m sorry, I wish I was smart and knew what the right thing to say is.  I’m here though if you need to talk.  I am actually a decent listener, just not a good advicer…good at giving advice?  I dunno the right word.”

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          “Are you going to watch that show? The Halo one?” she asked him as he started to set everything up. Zoya let out a slow ‘aww’ when he offered to give her Yoshi because it was her birthday though, tender smile on her face as she looked at his jawline, the dark hue of his hair over it. “Normally I would have bullied you into it but since you offered I’ll be nice, I’ll use Daisy since she has a crown and I should have a crown for my birthday.”

          With his ‘um’ing and ‘ah’ing Zoya perceived his agreement as polite, even as he flushed she figured his embarrassment came from his loyalty to Ry. “You don’t have to say so just because it’s my birthday,” she told him, nudging him with her foot again before drawing it back beneath her. “I won’t like cry or anything, I don’t exactly look like your type,” she smiled at him.

          “Me neither,” she acknowledged but with little context for the how and the why all Zoya could hold onto was the fact Jax said they’d talk about things. When Kai said ‘I get that’ Zoya watched his expression, kept her dark eyes on him as he continued about getting crushed for opening up. He continued saying he could listen, that he was a good ‘advicer’ but it sort of seemed like she wasn’t the only one who maybe needed to talk.

          “I think they’re an advisor,” she told him, leaning back in the lounge. It was her birthday, and she imagined he was trying to be polite but in reality Zoya had kind of accepted the fate that playing video games would be the best thing about it, so why not actually listen to the one person who was there for it. “Did something happen with Ry since the cafe?” Zoya asked, maybe too directly.

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jin--seung​:

It was as if some fuzzy blanket had wrapped itself around his senses when he looked at her and he leaned onto his elbow, unable to take his eyes off of her, marveling at every minute shift in her glorious expression and she found him attractive too. That revelation all but made him soar. 

“Ah,” he waved her question away thoughtlessly, “I don’t want to talk about me,” but he also didn’t want to make her upset by disregarding her question to him so he just answered it quickly so he could get back to what he wanted, “I was nervous, yes, but I was excited to get out of school and start working. Now tell me,” he was practically on the edge of his seat, the points of his shoes even seemed to be trying to find hers beneath the table, “About you. I want to know everything. What is your favorite color? And your favorite food? Ah, and your favorite film?”

             There was a dismissive ease to his words, like his mind couldn’t focus on the fact that talking to him could mean talking more about her. A peculiarity to moving on from a serious topic to ask her about silly little things. Zee didn’t want to be rude though and let out a gentle laugh. “Uh...I don’t know what my favourite colour would be, I wear a lot of brown so maybe that?” she began to answer him. “I like strawberries and I probably have watched Almost Famous one too many times.”

              Leaning slightly across the table, Zoya tried to see if there was something off in his eyes, like maybe he’d spoken to a vampire before this or was sick or something? “Are you okay, Doctor?” Zoya asked him politely.

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kai-dragoumis​:

“Actually, that is not a bad idea.”  Since he was born, he had always shared his birthday with his twin.  Yet, over the last year Jezebel had been taking steps of separating herself from him.  Have the two of them be more independent.  It was working for her, but for Kai he had been struggling.  “You might have to write that down so you don’t forget.  My birthday isn’t until November.”

It surprised him that his friend didn’t want to go out, but it was her birthday and if she wanted to play games he was all for it.  “Sounds cool.”  He pulled out several games.  “There is some Mario stuff if you want to just chill and have fun.  COD if you are in the mood for killing or Halo.  What are you in the mood for?  Or we can kick it old school and I have a N64.”

While she looked at the different games, he smiled.  “Yeah, it does feel that way I guess.”  At the mention of Jax, he was surprised.  “What is in Utah?  And why is he going there?”  He asked, wondering why Rydell’s brother would be heading out west.

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          Kai had mentioned his twin when they’d been in the coffee shop, his family and the like but since Zoya didn’t know them she didn’t imagine him needing to share his birthday. “I won’t forget,” she insisted, giving him a gentle nudge now that they were on the lounge together. “Friends don’t forget stuff like that.”

          “I don’t think I would know how to play COD or Halo but I did have an N64 so let’s pull out Mario Kart,” she requested, sure that if he did only have COD she’d have still played it but completely embarrassed herself trying to aim at things and missing completely. Though she might have enjoyed being able to talk to people, yelling at online boys could have been fun but not nearly as fun as Mario Kart with Kai.

             Finding the right one she offered it to him. “You guess?” she asked, nudging him a little with her foot. She probably should have dressed more conservatively considering, the tiny top she wore showing off under boob and cleavage that bounced as she nudged him. “You think I’m cute,” she teased him, toes against his thigh as she did so. If that was true Zoya was a bit worried, not that he’d do anything to her, Kai was sweet, she didn’t need to hide her keys behind her back anymore, more worried that if he didn’t feel the same way - that she was kind of like related to him - that things with Ry were even worse than they had been last time.

            “He has a bunch of gigs out there,” Zoya admitted, looking down at the pile of games. “Said we’d talk about things when he got back. Apologised for blocking me out but I honestly don’t know what Utah means other than he says it’s his chance to pursue his dreams, he kept saying how I deserve more than him, that if I lived in the city I’d be doing amazing things, and I didn’t really know how to tell him I don’t feel super amazing right now. Usually I just would, I’d tell him like every single thing I’m feeling but since he like ended things and just blocked me out, it feels like if I dump any of myself on him I’ll have wasted the breath, you know?” 

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darrenxrojasx​:

Darren…couldn’t say he could relate in any way. College had never seemed to be in the cards for him. It seemed like a useless endeavor when he knew that most normal jobs weren’t anything that he could actually do. Not necessarily because of lack of skill but because of lack of people skill. Yes, he had become better at putting that mask on in social situations over the years but when he had graduated from high school? He had been incapable of keeping that mask on for long enough to work in normal job. Perhaps that was why he fell into the job he did upon leaving his hometown. Any mask he had to put on was completely temporary and it didn’t matter at the end of it if his mask slipped. The people wouldn’t be around to remember anyway. “Try being picky growing up in our family. Our parents were more likely to cater to you than to care about what I enjoyed.” There With no bitterness in his voice, simply a stating of facts. For as much pressure that they put on his sister? At the end of the day Darren never doubted that they loved Zoya. Perhaps their biggest fault was loving her too much and expecting her to be everything they’d always hoped for. Stifling sure but it was still a form of love. “Remind me which class it was again. College requires so many I can’t always keep track.”

“Felix.” He said nothing more than the man’s name but his tone implied his distaste. In theory, and the keyword being there was theory, Darren should have had all the respect in the world for the man that was the pack alpha. But there was something about the man that he couldn’t quite come to terms with, something that made him lack all respect for him. Perhaps subconsciously a bit of it was a bit of superiority. Being a born werewolf from a long lineage rather than a man who simply turned a few years prior could have been part of the issue. But at the end of the day there was just something about Felix that had always rubbed him the wrong way even when they were growing up in the town together. Yes, Felix was several years older than him but it didn’t mean that Darren hadn’t encountered him in town once or twice. Never long enough to have true interactions or to get to know each other on in a real level but he definitely wasn’t the type of person that Darren ever pictured himself having as an alpha. “Well, wasn’t that kind of him,” the werewolf replied dryly, seeing no reason to hide his feelings towards the man where his sister was concerned. He had long since stopped faking much with her.

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        Zoya let out a heavy exhale, for someone who didn’t feel he sure loved portaying a bitterness about it all, bringing it up without necessity, which she could understand when it came to her parents but it felt like he was taking it out on her in this instance. It was moments like these when she believed Darren simply wanted to say he couldn’t feel because in reality it was a guise for the fact he was so hurt. “Fine, Darren, I will order what I want and you can relive our childhood,” she stated, no doubt aware he could tell her mood but since he could feel well, what was exactly the harm? “My Oncology class.”

         Could he really not have a nice night with her? Celebrate the things she wanted to celebrate without making it about him? “Yes, it actually was,” she stated, detecting his tone of voice. All the feeling in the world there. “He listened to what I was saying and instead of dismissing it, like I was a child, he actually helped me, so go on, get it out of the way, whatever it is you clearly want to say because I would really like to deal with the part of this conversation that is going to make me feel sick and anxious before I eat anything that will only make that feeling worse.”

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jin--seung​:

Jin Seung tried to pay attention to her while she spoke but oddly enough was having a hard time focusing on her words. He attributed it to too much to drink too quickly but he hadn’t even had that much to drink. Maybe the alcohol here was stronger than he was used to. Whatever the reason for it, Jin Seung found himself feeling light-headed, “Sorry,” he was aware she had finished speaking but the content of what she’d said was lost entirely on him while he tried to regain his composure, “I think–” he was going to say he thought he had too much to drink and needed some water but when he looked back up at her, he became entranced and suddenly everything that was dizzy cleared up and he blinked curiously at her because suddenly she was radiant. 

The way the lights of the room played across her skin, accented features of her soft cheeks and flushed lips, the slant of her brows and the cascade of her hair. It was as if he was seeing her, actually seeing her for the first time. “Wow. You are beautiful.” It astounded even him but he was too overwhelmed by her beauty to question it, he had no need to and even though the revelation came on quite suddenly he had no desire to wonder why.

          The man who had seemed quite focused on his job when she had come through the clinic seemed, oddly, distracted all of a sudden, his words starting and halting. She wondered if perhaps he was getting flush with the alcohol, but his apology and stunted words soon followed with ones that didn’t quite make sense. Well, they did, Zoya knew she was beautiful, her hair was thick and dark and shiney, her lips were perfectly shaped and she had gorgeous cheek bones and this was all before she started talking about her body, but it didn’t make sense from him. If he’d found her so beautiful why didn’t he corner her at his job...or start the conversation that way?

          “Thank you...you’re handsome too,” she offered, the way one might respond to a child offering a compliment. It was true too, he was handsome, he too had wonderfully dark hair. “Look at us, attractive people...who know about animals,” she awkwardly laughed. If she felt like his attention made sense she may have been grateful for it, things so confusing with Jax, her ex, but it just felt like she didn’t understand the why to it. “So uh...did you have jitters?” she repeated.

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jin--seung​:

Maybe the alcohol had affected him more than he thought. He blinked a few times as he looked at her when she said they had met previously and then slowly he started to recognize her. “Ah,” he quickly took her offered hand to shake it in greeting and bowed his head, “Jin Seung. Yes, I remember you. You were at the back of the group,” he said as he recalled that day, “You didn’t seem too interested compared to your classmates.” Not that her disinterest was a bad thing, just something he had noticed. 

“Once you understand their behavior then it is easy to know what they are thinking,” he said plainly. It was still a struggle sometimes because every dog was unique in the way they expressed themselves but there were generally a few major behaviors that were more or less easy to identify. “Did you enjoy the visit?” Genuinely interested if he and his team had left a good impression on her or not as the youths would likely be replacing them as the years progressed.

         Zoya nodded, looking down when he called her out on her actions. There was a weird feeling of awareness that not only her parents, who she was used to having negative feelings when Zoya did things they didn’t like, but also her brother would be disappointed in her. It was strange to imagine, since Darren insisted he didn’t feel things but still seemed to hold certain traits in high regard, from what she could tell he really wanted her to be a vet and be that smart, caring doctor. “Uh yeah, that sounds like me,” she cringed at her own words. “It’s not like I wasn’t interested, I just...was not as interested, I guess.”

          “Uh yeah, mostly,” she nodded her head. It wasn’t the lacking of talent in the man and those he worked with, it was her own fault. “I liked everything you guys had to show, I’m probably just getting jitters because I’m almost done with school. Did you have those?” Zoya asked.

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jin--seung​:​

The male had actually been a little preoccupied with his phone, looking through some recent emails from one of his patient’s parents, frantic that the poor pup was licking his hind leg after having received his first set of prescribed vaccinations and was just finishing off sending a response to the woman to let her know that was perfectly normal behavior but if the puppy started to limp or otherwise display any other concerning symptoms then she was more than welcome to bring the puppy back in to be assessed for an adverse reaction. 

“Ah,” Jin Seung looked up at the woman as she slid into the booth opposite him, reflexively nodding his head at her in greeting, “I hope not.” He’d had a few beers at this point and didn’t feel confident in attending to a pet patient while alcohol buzzed in his system. “Am I being irresponsible?” He asked her, speech accented as this was not his native language and while he was fluent, he still struggled with certain words and it was more noticeable now that he’d had a few drinks.

       Zoya gave a soft laugh and shook her head, “pretty sure if you don’t intend to go in then you’re fine.” Sliding the secondary beer towards him she allowed the laugh to fade into a soft smile. 

       “I uh...I visited the clinic the other day with my college class,” she offered as explaination as to why she’d sat down with him. Perhaps he’d noticed her because she was a few years older than most in the class, or perhaps he hadn’t, but she’d observed him. It was a small town and while it was a great place for the kids from the college in the neighbouring city to come in and see how a small town clinic ran it was pretty hard for the vets to hide themselves.

          “Your parents really seemed to like you, from what I could tell anyway, hard to know exactly what a dobberman is thinking,” she mostly teased, holding out a hand to introduce herself. “I’m Zoya.”

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kai-dragoumis​:

Inside her place, Kai turned around to look around before offering her the cupcake.  “Yeah, it is your birthday and people on their birthday eat cake.  Duh.”  The man mentioned as if it was a matter of fact,  When she mentioned it being his, he gave a sheepish grin.  “Sorry, I shouldn’t be trusted with sweets for too long.  I can’t control myself.”  It was nice though when he saw that she went ahead and took a swipe of the frosting also.

The warlock wasted little time in making himself at home as he plopped down on her furniture and looked up at her.  “Alright birthday girl, what shall we do?  There is the whole clubbing scene but then we’ll need to drive out to the city.  Or we can go to Stoker’s, it gets a little wild there.  Whatever you want.  After all, you are the birthday girl.  I’ll even carry you or do whatever you want…well almost anything.”

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        Zoya chuckled as he said he couldn’t be trusted, laugh falling from her lips musically as she continued to pick at the cupcake with her finger - why was icing the best part? “Guess for your birthday we’ll need like your real cake and then a diversion cake for you to find that will distract you from ruining the real one,” she teased, moving around her lounge as he took a seat.

         At the notion of going out Zoya immediately started to shake her head. She did not feel like going clubbing, she did not feel like going to some vampire club because overall she did not feel like going out. “I want to do what you suggested, let’s play some of your games,” she insisted, taking a seat on the lounge next to him, the bag of video games between them.

         Starting to go through the bag she pulled out a few games, looking at him as she did. ‘...Well almost anything.’ The words lingered in her ears. “I didn’t say yes to hanging out to do anything with you like that, you know? I know it’s not exactly like we’re related but it feels a bit like we are,” she informed him, flipping over a game to read the back. “You’re handsome, would be nice if it didn’t because Jax is apparently leaving for Utah this week but...it does.”

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St Patricks || Zoya&JinSeung

      Zoya had stepped into the pub owned and run by one of the Bolton brothers, not really sure which one since she wasn’t overtly close to the family. Honestly, even though she knew Jax was in Utah, she sort of wondered if maybe he’d come back and see his friend Willow for the holiday. He wasn’t there but...surprisingly, there was a face she recognised. Not the way she usually did but in this case from a tour of the local clinic some of the students in her class had taken, an actual doctor intended to slam them down for St Patricks? That was a bit amusing.

       With no specific company the young woman walked over to the booth he was at, two green beers in hand and sat down opposite him. “Not worried you’ll get emergency called into work, Dr?” Zoya asked the man.

@jin--seung​

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xxlukajonesxx​:

[TEXT]: Happy belated birthday! What did you do to celebrate???

[TEXT]: That would be pretty badass. But congrats again.

[TEXT]: I’m meeting a potential customer, but I’m free afterwards. When is your break?

[ TEXT ]: I ate a whole cake to myself, texted my ex for like an hour, watched reality TV... [ TEXT ]: Thanks. [ TEXT ]: I don’t think it matters, they’re pretty chill, so long as I answer the phone when it rings.

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jaxlafontaine​:

[TEXT]: Yeah, well I didn’t think it would spiral into this mess. And it’s okay, it’s not your fault. It was just like for the first time, my mind just halted and I was lucky if could pick the right pair of shoes to put on some mornings.  [TEXT]: Zee, you know how fucking incredible you are? I feel like if you were in some big city somewhere, what would be the likelihood of our paths crossing. I don’t know, maybe I believed it just because everyone around us were doing these amazing things and I wasn’t. I didn’t want to be a setback for you.  [TEXT]: I didn’t even know you were friends with Kai.  [TEXT]: I guess it was my hope that no matter how this shit goes down, that you wouldn’t hate me forever. Now I’m realizing that all along it was just me being selfish hoping you’d hold out a little longer just so I could figure it out.  [TEXT]: Look I definitely should have been a lot more open and me shutting down on you wasn’t fair to you at all. Even in the smallest ways like this, you have no idea how much it means. I’ve gotta crash shortly, early flight, but I’ll keep you posted with how it all goes. Thanks Zee.

[ TEXT ]: We never exactly got the handle on how to not make a mess of things.  [ TEXT ]: I’m really not doing amazing things myself, I’m pretty sure if I was in some big city it would be a lot of guys saying ‘why have you been in college for ten years?’ [ TEXT ]: He helped jump my car when the cold drained my battery at the gym a few weeks ago. [ TEXT ]: I won’t hate you forever, but I don’t want to make you be with me.  [ TEXT ]: Do whatever you need to in Utah. I don’t want to be a distraction to you going for what you need. Have fun.