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Being autistic and not being diagnosed Until youre an adult is crazy. like you're telling me I could've gotten help instead of being pushed everyday to self destruction, or at least I could've better understood why everyone hated me and why I couldn't make friends, but we chose not to? I always feel so helpless when i think back on yearlong social struggles and see other autistic people be like yeah that happens.

Void Rant: Crash-Out

Putting thoughts out into the void again. I'm not sure I understand people that well. It's so strange to be a afraid of people, something I almost certainly need. I miss so many people who are still around, and some who are far. I deeply wish I could figure out how to keep friends near me. I'm sorry I was never enough, or maybe too much for the people who did come near. I wasn't given the right pieces nor taught how to play, and honestly I'm still very confused. I miss the people I used to make things with, I miss the people I laughed with, and I miss the people I cried with. There's a few that no matter how much I tried I couldn't figure out how to keep them. There's a few who I hurt because I was afraid I was going to keep them and that I would hold them back. I hope I'm better, and as much as my heart hurts for the people in the past, I do hope I can feel like I'm just right for someone in the future. It's just taking a lot longer to get there than I'd like. I tell myself it wasn't all my fault, but I'd do anything for a handful of you, so I don't blame you. I wish past me was worthy of you all. I love you guys.

I watched joe pera. It was really nice. Shares a lot of my values while also making me think.

note 20

Bought a note 20 so looks like an updated doodle gets to be posted on here to celebrate

#pretty girls #drawing #clip studio paint

Every experience I have with drugs or substances, or people who use them make me understand why people use them less.

First pay check in 3 years hits on monday for like 2600. Feels cool I guess, but my kid and her mom are struggling with the change, and I feel so tired. I'm proud of myself I guess, but Im really sad watching everyone else feel depressed from the roles I put them in. Makes me wonder if I'm in the right life.

#Girls #Drawing #Magma

Here's an update on art. I've been more into web development.

#Art #Girls

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art pisses me off like in general

NeoVim users talk about how easy and extendable their editor is, then walk yu through a vague ass 3 page tutorial with 5 branching paths and manually installing and changing 3 files just to start being able to use plugins. WTF is this absolute trash. I'm fucking screaming internally.

I haven't watched the Chucky finale yet, but I hope those who have had a great time. I know I'm excited.

#Chucky #charles lee ray #I just hope people like this series like i have.#2 of my friends with whom ive enjoyed chucky with me dont anymore #makes it harder to watch