The world is ignorant. It knows that you’re suffering but it doesn’t do anything. It’s sick of you. It only wants positivism. And when you’re sick of the world, and you decide to leave, it then fucks everyone over. And the world claims it didn’t know a thing. Maybe to protect itself from guilt. Its oblivious to the fact it was the sole factor it could have prevented you from leaving. And then it starts to advocate for prevention. in all the wrong fucking ways. Expecting you to be the one to have reached out for help. Hotlines and programs meant for you to come out. Friends and family who are there only if you directly say and explain the exact thing and reason why you need help. And at the same time they can only offer a few words in a few moments and move on. But speaking out directly is one of the hardest things that people who decide to do cannot do. They drop hints but everyone turns a blind eye. The world knows you’re suffering and doesn’t do a damn thing. It knows your problem. The least thing the world could do is to address the problem because you have failed to and decided to leave. Because you alone could not help yourself. its not you’re fault. The world always says everything has to be done by you. You’re choices, you’re happiness. But you know, sometimes happiness isn’t a choice. It drives me crazy hearing it. There is no one on this earth who is happy everyday. But if happiness is a choice, why isnt there anyone? Those who left, I’m sorry your community has failed to address you. And maybe part of the reason is to fuck everyone over. cause initially they fucked YOU over. I hate this world too. I’m just a negative ball taking up potential positive space anyway. I’d like to leave too. Because i’m tired of living. because the first thing i do when i wake up is cry that morning is here. and wonder how not existing would be nice. The world doesn’t care now, so why should it care when I leave. Its a long journey it leave. but maybe one day.
