it’s been a minute since i’ve been on here, but looking back at my old tweets and posts on here when i was with you is really sad. we’ve been broken up for almost 2 years now and sometimes i’m still in disbelief that i allowed you to treat me so poorly for so long. you emotionally, financially, and almost physically abused me and i find that so insane. i was really young in love and naive to believe that putting myself through that meant that you loved me. it’s just shocking to me because my relationship now is so different. we love each other, and i truly mean that. we fight but it’s because we don’t want to lose each other. but being with you and all the trials and tribulations i’ve faced has showed me how forgiving and kind of a person i am. it’s taken me two years to really get over how you treated me and hurdle the emotional barriers you created in my current relationship, but i forgive you. i look at who i am as a person, and see that i have so much empathy towards others. i’m always there for everyone no matter who or what, because that’s the person i am. yes, i make jokes and roast on my friends, but i still believe i am kind because when it comes down to it, i would take a bullet for every single one of my friends. and i think forgiving and feeling empathy towards someone is kindness in itself. but yes i am a people pleaser, but i don’t always see that as a bad thing. sometimes i see it as me putting others before myself and understanding how they feel, so i do things to make them happy.
overall, as i approach 21, i look back at my life and see where i am and what i have accomplished both internally and externally. from that, i see growth and pride in who i’ve become and continue to grow in to. through all the rough patches in my life i’ve managed to come out stronger and carry a life lesson with each trial.
idk this was a rant but i wanted to say how i felt LMAO
