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Currently setting up my sims 4 cc sideblog so if you see a sims post popping up for about a minute it’s just me reblogging to the wrong blog AGAIN. Sigh.

#Delete later

doctorwhogeneration

#me the entire show #But i love that #it's sooooo gooood guys #dirk gently's holistic detective agency #dghda #dirk gently

chanmi-n-yunnie

Because Nat likes long haired/ponytail Yunho

gwinny5k

The worst trick a childhood anxiety disorder pulls is, you spend your early years being applauded for being so much more mature than your peers, because you aren’t disruptive, you don’t want any kind of attention, you don’t express yourself, you keep yourself to yourself - this makes you a pleasure to have in class, etc etc - and you start to believe it’s virtue. But you’re actually way behind your peers in normal social development, and who knows if you can ever catch up.

deliciousstomach-deactivated202

Never heard a truer thing in my life.

#THIS #I never thought about this at all #but it makes so much sense #The joys of anxiety #my old friend

ilikeyoshi

me: hey how long is this thing going to last

someone: haha you just want to know when you’re off the hook

me: hah

me: (actually i just need to allocate the right expectations and backlog of energy and make sure the rest of my day falls in good accordance with it so that i don’t feel time-crunched and propel myself into a hysteria because if i don’t know how long this thing lasts or when it ends i can’t possibly know when literally anything else starts and my entire life becomes an unraveled realm of anarchy with no rhyme or reason and how is that not terrifying to you)

ilikeyoshi

me: hey how long will this take

someone: oh like twenty minutes

me: ok

*an hour later*

me: *clinging to every learned social skill i can think of with the desperate hope my distress and exhaustion doesn’t show*

someone: hey we’re almost done don’t be so crabby

me: *smiling* *internally screaming at this SENSELESS CHAOS*

ilikeyoshi

someone: hey do you want to do [involving time-consuming thing]

me: hey that sounds fun! when were you thinking?

someone: oh we’re doing it right now

me: oh. like. now-now? like right now. like you want me to stop what i’m doing and get up and do this thing with you, suddenly, with thirty seconds of warning. now. like this second. immediately. now?

princechaewons-deactivated20170

2011 was legendary

#Wth #It's been 6 years?#SIX YEARS???#Feel like 3 at most #Where does the time go #kpop

mymodernmet

aestheticacadema

aesthetics

imovedhurgle-blog

Fatphobia runs deeper than conventional beauty standards and what clothes we “can and cant” wear.

Fatphobia is so internalized and we’re so aware of that. Me and any of my friends that are also bigger can’t even eat around people because of the looks and the judgements we’re scared we’ll get from people.

Hell I can’t even go out in public, i can’t dance, I can’t hang out with my friends, I feel like I can’t do anything without being some sort of laughing stock.

because somepoint, in my life, ive seen a video or soemthing of a fat person doing something that’s just a normal part of life as something that’s funny, that if i were to do some silly every day thing, it’s funny specifically because I’m fat.

so yeah. you can reblog your “fat is beautiful uwu” posts and then turn around and reblog a post thats supposed to be funny because a fat person is eating weird, dancing, or just having fun because you think its funny that their fat even though you wont admit thats the reason.

thanks

imovedhurgle-blog

i mean i make a lot of shitty text posts but this one was actually rlly important im not gonna let u guys ignore it

imovedhurgle-blog

im trying to not sound angry when i say it but you dont gotta be bigger to be able to reblog this y’know ppl need to aknowledge this is an actual problem

insteadofdisappearing

they say that thirty meters down in the ocean, a diver loses his senses, forgets which way is up, and swims deeper and deeper and deeper down. they say it’s like being drunk (or stupid) (or maybe some of each) to get dizzy in a dark place and stay, to forget the thing that’s trying to kill you and follow it. and i am always thirty meters under. it is always dark and i am always forgetting to breathe, always forgetting that you are the thing to escape from. this is the midnight zone they warned you about, i am too deep in to go back up.

rapture of the deep || sarah kate o. (via allthesinkingships)

insteadofdisappearing

no more apology texts. no more reckless highway speeding. no more scribbled poetry in the back of spanish class. there is nothing left to lose. there is nothing left for you. you haven’t seen me since i dyed my hair and it’s nice to have something you didn’t get to ruin. i’m dressing different too and lipsticking my way out of the girl you tore apart. i can finally breathe easy. i can finally be grateful that i never really meant it when i kissed you. look, it’s me without you. look, i’m doing just fine. look, goddamn it, i’m lighter than i’ve been in months. there are seven billion people on the planet. i don’t think you matter so much anymore.

I MET SOMEONE WITH YOUR NAME AND DIDNT FLINCH // s. osborn (via allthesinkingships)

iguanamouth

a mess

itastemetal-deactivated20200404

this is THE BEST explanation of this aspect of mental illness i have ever seen

prokopetz

Today on Social Anxiety Theatre: mentally rehearsing elaborate justifications for completely innocuous actions just in case some hypothetical interlocutor demands an explanation.

ven-gethenian-blog

Oh my god OTHER PEOPLE DO THIS TOO???

kerryrenaissance

There are people that don’t do this?

bedbugbiting

Bonus: blurting out your explanation to a confused person who doesn’t care and didn’t ask.

vcigar2

wheres all the support for the emotional abuse victims

vcigar2

no, seriously. victims of emotional abuse have it hard because they do not have the physical marks or the records to “prove” to someone they were hurt and are hurting. most people will not take emotional abuse as seriously as physical abuse, saying “you should get over it” or “sticks and stones”. thats fucking bullshit.

emotional abuse victims who have been forced to do or say or be things you never wanted to, i love you.

emotional abuse victims who have been gaslighted and manipulated to the point where you no longer know what is real, i care for you.

emotional abuse victims who are told they will never be loved by anyone else and they are not a good person, you are amazing.

emotional abuse victims who feel manipulative and often catch themselves mirroring actions of their abusers and feel sick to their stomachs because theyre “turning into them”, you are not them and never will be. you are so much better than that.

emotional abuse victims who have to live every day suffering because nobody understands how messed up you are from what they said or did or made you do, you arent alone.

anyone who reads this, i care for you. please support all victims of abuse every single day because they deserve it just like they deserve the love and care those in the past have failed to provide them

stellarremnants

This is the worst b/c my abuser doesn’t understand that they’re abusing me nor does my family, who also is being abused by this person. My friends and loved ones definitely don’t know how bad it really is. Being abused by an extremely intelligent person is so scary. I live my life in a constant state of “I’m turning into that” and it makes me want to die.