My 1 month smoke free

Been heavily abusing weed for 5 years and had enough of the consequences. On the 04/10/16 i will go smoke free until 06/11/16, to show myself another way of life and go from there.

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Goals

- Become healthier  (losing weight in the process) 

- Less anxious  

- Save money 

- Better relationships 

- Working towards being out of £10,000 debt  

- More focused and motivated 

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Decision day!

Today, i decided i was fed up and had enough of being a stoner. I woke up and the first thing that was on my mind was a spliff .. and so i went and had one that was around 8:30am, I'm off work because i had surgery last Thursday and i should be recovering, easing myself back into day to day life, but i have just abused being able to be stoned. I normally smoke when i finish work and then throughout my time not working, whilst I'm with my partner with my family before i go out. It is literally part of my life, 

I love weed and don’t believe it is poisoning, i understand how people like me abuse and suffer from addiction to things, may it be anything. I would love to have a relationship with weed where if i fancied doing it one evening i could, and not have to make sure its there so basically eliminating the addiction. 

I have been smoking weed on and off for the last 10 years, but 5 very heavy years of smoking probably 60-80 £ a week. I am a functioning stoner which i mean by going on with my day to day life but not to my most productive and most certainly not my happiest. 

I have experienced mental health problems since entering adulthood, depression and anxiety .. both due to cannabis. Granted many things have happened during my time to add to my depression but cannabis has just been used to suppress these feelings making them even worse. 

I have put on a lot of weight, become very unhappy with life and just hoping that this month of pure detox will kick me into the right direction. I think by me using a one-month goal is me being realistic lol, it really helps my mum is a stoner too and is joining me on this hell of a journey!