The Musing Mermaid

Staying inspired out of water takes practice

[celibacyissexy]

Day 70

So empty and yet so full. How do I transform this into something beautiful? Why do I distract myself the closer I get to discovering my truth?

Oh, full moon. Help me end this chapter. Help me to not need to be filled.

Physically.

Emotionally.

Spiritually.

I don’t need anyone’s attention but my own.

Help me to sit with being empty and full. Empty and full. Awake. Alive

[13kylark]

Self love

Is paramount

If we let go of it

Everything else topples down

If we are not sure about loving our self

How can we make others feel sure about loving them?

We must nurture our own garden every day

Without it the flowers around us start to wilt

It’s almost like the people we love can feel our own love dying for ourselves

And in turn they begin to feel unwatered

I will not let this garden wilt

My

Will

Won’t

Wilt

I continually fall in love with my own heart every day

For all of its complexities

complex cities

Of understanding

I travel into them

With my soul passport

And trust I will always be welcome

[13kylark]

october 12th, 2019

Too quiet for too long.  

I’m forgetting words to my own song. 

When you let letters fall away, you ignore the map.  

Lose your energy and Life = one big nap.  

I don’t want to be asleep.  

Won’t be complacent and lie. 

I want to be awake now.

When I’m alive, I fly.  

[13kylark]

Love reign on me

[13kylark]

4/21

I used to dread birthdays

Mourn them like it was the end of the world

Another year older

Another year I could never return to

Somehow it feels like I’ve been trying to get back somewhere my whole life

Instead of trying to move forward

I’m changing my path

Moving forward is much more natural

I respect nature

I honor its wisdom

Want to live in its embrace

I will convince myself to celebrate each passing day the way I now celebrate my birthday

I will convince myself of the joy

Rather than mourning the loss of it first

I will live in the joy

Stay there awhile

Bathe in it

Soak in it

Let my feet prune up

Until I’m so saturated with joy

I won’t answer to any other name

[13kylark]

April 20

So.

Here we are again.

At a road block.

And it’s our job.

To remove it

Again and again

Until the road is clear

The path is paved

And free to travel

I will remold my neurons

I will retrain my dna

To be clear and free

And release resistance

So that I can step into all that I already know

I am grateful

And growing

And protected

Always

Creator protects me first

I protect me second

And my light

Protects everyone I come in contact with

Here is my highest self

The low must dissipate

So that this high frequency can be lived in every day

[13kylark]

4/19

Spend more time on your self

Than sitting around

Comparing you to everyone else

[13kylark]

4/18

The best days are the ones where I spend all day living

Instead of commentating on life

The days where everything falls into place

I don’t even look in a mirror

Or scroll

Or compare

Or let my heart freeze up with worry

Instead I breathe

Listen

Write

Laugh

Take in the beauty of the world without having to categorize it

Those are my favorite kind of days

[13kylark]

4/17

I may be a perfectionist

But I’m not a masochist

Masochists keep trying to perfect even what hurts them most

Maybe it’s a fault

That things have come so easy to me

I thrive in ease

And top myself from a place of

Comfort and safety

I run from painful lessons

Life is painful enough

Choosing to be with someone who makes you feel pain more often than joy

That’s a path I do not enjoy

No need to perfect what hurts

It just drains me every time

Try to scratch it from the record

But each fight takes a little bit of my spirit away

Why am I doing this

Why can’t I walk away

[13kylark]

4/16

I ride on the winds

But only dream of mountains

[13kylark]

4/15

Four more poems to write

Gotta catch up so my spirit can take flight

[13kylark]

4/14

More poems

Less tears

More hugs

Less fear

More joy

Less sorrow

More buying

Less borrowed

More strength

Less weakness

More love

More forgiveness

[13kylark]

What do you do

When it doesn’t feel good anymore

When what once flowed easily

Now feels like a chore

When the chest pains bump up

And the laughter goes down

Isn’t that when you stop hanging around?

Why do we continue to see what could be when what is is suffocating us beyond recognition

Why don’t we let go

And trust that the time spent was not meant

To be forever

But a lesson

To learn and keep growing

Separate not side by side

I don’t thrive with back and forth

It’s frustrating and draining and quite frankly a bore

So I walk away from the heart that makes my heart beat out of sync

Cause love shouldn’t make me want to fall into quicksand and sink

[13kylark]

April 12th

There’s so much joy

focus on that first

[olearypoetry]

[13kylark]

👆🏽

[13kylark]

April 11th, 2018

No one gives you a formula

To re writing your own DNA

It takes practice

And choosing

Every day

To make things better

For the generation that comes after you

Through you

Into this world

[13kylark]

April 10th, 2018

I pulled myself out of quicksand today

Got back on track

It’s easy

If you don’t flail

If you allow yourself to be still

Calm

And then realize there was something to grab on to in front of you the whole time