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Janne Bull Karlsen | @earlymorningheart

I have restarted my weight loss journey so many times. This time I had had enough. Before the first photo I had been 224 pounds at my heaviest, I had gone through a break up, had a miscarriage, drank and ate my feelings for a whole year. I decided enough was enough. I felt fat and horrible and didn’t love myself anymore. I didn’t take any photos of myself for so long but in January I decided to start. I knew I was going to hate it and not want to look at it and I did, I tried my best to avoid seeing it. And then I took another one in May, and again I tried to avoid seeing it in my camera roll. The other day before my long awaited appointment with the obesity doctor (id been on the wait list for 11 months) I decided to look at the photos. It’s hard for me to see myself smaller than I was before, I still look in the mirror and see who I was before. Every time I emotionally eat I remember the feeling I had in my stomach when my doctor told me I was clinically obese and I hate it. Seeing these photos, is proof to myself that progress is possible, I have come so far and I can lose weight. I need to work on accepting that I’m never going to look like a Victoria secret model and learn how to love myself despite it all but what I do know is that I’m proud of how far I’ve come this year.

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