1ajs's sphere

where you are is here and here is not there its here a speare of here within my minds eye blurting out thoughts ideas frustrations plesures within the creative writing world. A realm i never thought i would go down due to issues i have had for years with the written langage. So here i am here not there here

[1ajs]

letting me down

let me doen

within the eye

i had no idea

im a fool

tossing it away

that smile that light my room

to let me down

to crash the fools heart

unaware

deep

spiraling in a disconnect

as the inner chids melt down

ride the high horse lloud

to raise the fires

that burn the bridges to the heart

letting me down

as i colapse with the fires

torn to shreds

letting me down

te great fire

that tore through as the london bridge burns

to my heart

unaware of the heart that was already shreaded

letting me down

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the words that are not words that get traped in the head a sens so lost we become lost

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friend

the words of the wisea friend in need is a friend indeedto lend that hand to make a choicethe minds a painwhen its illto step out to do ittocare so much as to not blind an eyethis is a frienddespite that friends ire to comefor ire ire ire to tare uponetake your damn pillsthe ire will not seea heart break to come will this friend indeed tare deeper then what a tear to feed as shudders shut the goosebumps time is to rip me apart yet the right thing to be done is doneyou mind was so gumbo of rolling eyesto loss of conciousnesto bables that made no sens to moments u came throughbut it wasnt youthe enrgy gonethe real u missingnot even a linkjust a flick from piuzzle peics all over a missfireing highwayslipping sideways from one lighjt to another flipping hard

[1ajs]

to the thought i wonder to a loss

a sens to loose 

a friend

close yet not

a geek pal 

a geek to share

a sens to sound

this world

so far 

yet to short

life

in its ways

you gave your best

and beyound that

did you know

did you?

your mark 

to this city a whole geniration

a group

a community you were a peic of

some u poked some you chatted some you love

so many loved you

on lvls we all knew and didnt know

till that moment 

to ire a loss to the core to rip one apart

only to relize it keeps going

we all have to

we all have to

to do our thing

just do

write

record

practice

publish

its life

we all need to push

from a string to the ink of the pen

or even a smile

yet the core still ache to this

as you become one

one to it all everywhere everything with what was and is and will be 

one

one

yet still hurts 

dont stop 

happy birthday scott

[1ajs]

to not have a word a silence to be thrown of no care

a taring irony to be told

no to talk go away it seems

yet hearts that cling to hold another

this ire that eats a wave at me

to bring a tear to coming edge

the ache

the ache

it eats me so slow to the point to 

tremmor a shake that leaves a wake to crack the core

to crake the core

to crack the core

the longing to more a conversation

to know some sorta closure beyond just to be friends 

a weight that tares to crack me core

a tear

a tare

to break my own selfs a heart 

sad

sad

it eats me slowly 

your a sunshine to the heart that leap across a wake up call 

how i dunno how

but i ache 

to hold u so 

[1ajs]

garble of the mind

lost

lost to what

a sens of not belonging

lost

lost

a tare 

so lost i stoped careing

lost lost lost

[1ajs]

sky

as the day winds down the winds blow as the snows go the skys wide open as star bright star bright the nights glow a moon so bright its darknes shines to the souls a sky so bright to look out to wonder so far and wide the stars go to wonderfull a thought of one not alone in these vast skys in these cold deep night far north to think so loud the minds rin

[1ajs]

tare

the tare

it rings a pressure wave

from in 

so far

to tell

only what the world from in

the tare of what 

explosions ready

a flare to dare

this ire of see

to sens

to fence

one another

this ire so tire

it comes to tire

to close to call the tear to fire

so close to spill 

down a slope so far to fall?

this tare to dare

o flare to fair

the minds a willow 

willowing away

this ire it go

the mind it tares

to pressure far far far it flow

sigh the mind it has its ways

its ways its ways the mind it goes

the tare 

the tare

it closes again

like an egg reversing from tumbling down

the smile comes back but whens this tare to spare

[1ajs]

sein

along the sein to soft padle to pass. the chirping birds like music to ear as a breez pass's a soft hr this way the soft sounds to soften minds the space that is the quiete sien along the padle to wistle breath the squirls dance from tree to tree along the sein the times that pass along the bend a beaver damns pass a portage of golf up ahead through trhough the selince of a swing the eyes ray to sun rays a bright day through the els of the sein along this way a water way

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swiling spinging down down down the rabbit hole along the toll to mole the hole the spiral go to go to go spiraling down the hole so slow to flow

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tonight i stare one last time the space so dark so silent yet the chimes of janets bells along the halls so far from here i sit wondering what at a loss i tear to think  what was what was to art the colection grows from a stir it glows down this hall so dark this way the flash of a light as it skimers on by to the drip of my nose as i write this tickling me i wonder how much i will miss this place a tear to come a tear to shear this place so far so wide to ache its loss so suddenly 

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the morning sun peering over high rock as sharp they forge deep down as darkness goes rays grow beyond eyes to see the worlds begin to crack too dawn be here the days ahead to beauty of song to beauty of day all round the souls awake to share what little they take awake awake as rays grow beyond high rocks to take away the depths that lay from here beyond what it lay darkness fall darkness falls

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propane

from deep down only those that are for are to know a rising day to joy to strength along a way a mind was lost lost to what a joke to end from that o that tis sad tis wat it is but fourth that one still triumphs a smile or two through it all the layers they grow beneith the dark was a shine burried so deep the pain it was o no one beyond know know know what many inflicted upone a layer so thick it wrench its trick to hide to hide till end it came

[1ajs]

in the silence

looking out 

over as the bass drops

the silence out front

so silent it stills

to look out

the windows far

a plantary world

for all to dream

as minds wonder

so wonder they do

to aw

the sens

a tear

to think 

we came 

to this point

the silence is deep

the eyes so wide

to think we did

so many more so many wide

[1ajs]

the world will hear words

the world will hear worlds "o canada we so royaly fucked so many to be"

so now we must wake not sleep must wake NOT SLEEP MUST WAKE

for those to be fall to be lost on corners beatin to pills to drink to suffer from use that turn so blindly

this grows grows from little tina fontane to many other that were

to the many that lost the inocince of child from beatings by church from the dirrty little indian scuads imposed by whom our fathers voted

to bring down to what whore a squa o o shame we installed so so

to wonder why so many be a gehto see from guna to vilone among them selfs to see look at pasts lost so be

shame on all who blindly see stop the hiding start the crying open the arms open and see

for many just want to be alive to be accepted to share their story so many from main st staggers so many so many

from the banks of the red the mighty red that runs red from a nations lines of racist pasts damages done times to health a slow slow path we can do it

as i used to hear many a add say we are all treaty people so lets act like it

open our arms work it for we all have allot to learn allot to share

around that fire down by the red

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boxs

the boxs on the screen

scrolling on through

from one idea to another

artists seeking artists

to garner idead

to garner growth

fourth fourth upon the screen

incredible as time goes

a scrible here a drable there

these boxs scrolling on by

to many more ideas that be

from here to there

no one matter

just to loving the ideas befor

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deception

like the world upside down todays open skys invade the souls so deeplike a lie the warmth draws in to only blast a wicked sens of cold upone reality from within we look out to what a sea of white from this i cry today tomarrow so far away these seas so far frozen in time as winds a gust the suns a blair i bake i freez i bake i freez