Sometimes I wonder if I'm even real

European millennial with an unhealthy obsession with DC comics and Tara Markov. She/Her If you don't like the "Anon" thing in the name then you can call me V. AO3: 21Anon12

[21anon12]

Stuff I've written

Photos

Complete - Beast Boy centered - Teen & Mature (for violence and character death)

Part 1 (11k words, BB in his Doom Patrol years)

Part 2 (14k words, BB in his first two years with Teen Titans, set during season two)

Part 0 (19k words, BB pre-Doom Patrol)

Putting together pieces of her puzzle

Complete - Terra centered - Mature (for violence, character death, non-graphic depiction of rape & underage sex)

Thirteen Months (93k words, Judas Contract through Terra's eyes, set during season two)

Am I Awake (39k words, Terra tries to get a normal life after being set free from the statue, set during season five)

Always Running Away (53k words, Terra's life before meeting the Titans)

The past will come back to bite you in the ass

Complete - Terra, Slade, Beast Boy & Jericho centered - Teen & Mature (for violence, implied/referenced rape & underage sex, child abuse)

Princes, kings and bastard princesses (1.5k words, you remember King Tawaba?)

Have we met? (1k words, Tara thinks Jericho has a terribly familiar face)

Silence (1k words, Jericho has a breakdown)

Tell Him (9k words, "Tell him, Terra")

Aftermath (5.8k words, they try to pick up the pieces)

Still running? (4.6k words, long distance relationships are hard)

Kiss Me Goodnight, Lieutenant Colonel (3k words, Slade gets a hospital visit)

Domino Effect (coming soon)

A super-secret project that may or may not consume the rest of my spring 🫠

Stand alone fics

Haircut (7k words, Tara meets a couple men from her past and decides to cut her hair) - Teen & Up

Faults (10k words, Brion loves his family but life sucks, meanwhile Gregor can't swim and Tara uses fake IDs in bars) - Teen & Up

Scars (1.3k words, being a superhero leaves you full of scars, right? Yeah, those are totally from supervillains!) - Teen & Up

All this stuff takes place in the same timeline (a happy world where everybody suffers for angst's sake 💀💖)

NOT in the same continuity!

Three Siblings (12k words, intense Markov sibling love, expressed through constant arguing) - Teen & Up

Let's overanalyze everything! (on Tumblr)

Let’s overanalyze Deathstroke, Terra and statutory gRape!🍇

Crucified Judas

Did the original New Teen Titans Terra canonically hate her brothers?

When did Tara leave Markovia?

What do we know about Terra’s mother?

Markovian religion rant

[21anon12]

Finally found the courage to go back and fix Tara's birthday and birth year (and therefore her age) in all the fics I've posted 🥲

I'm now living in fear that I missed one random mention of her age somewhere.

Fanfiction authors truly live glamorous lives 🤞🏼

[21anon12]

I just couldn't decide...🤦🏼‍♀️

[21anon12]

one thing you want to write about?

Hey there, thanks for the ask! 💖

One? Just one? Oh boy. There’s so much I want to write and so little time…

To stay suuuuper vague and avoid spoiling anything: I want to (and am currently trying to) write a HAPPY ENDING.

Yeah, I know. Shocking, coming from me.

Right now I’m still deep in the usual ingredients (desperation, angst, suffering, emotional damage, all the classics) but I do have an idea… It might suck, but hey, sometimes all we need is a little fluff, right?

So stay tuned. This one might take another month, though 👀

If we’re talking about something I want to write but can’t, then definitely JeriRae (Joey Wilson/Raven). I love them together, but for some reason I’m absolutely incapable of writing them. Tragic. (But if anyone ever writes something about them and want to send it to me...)

Also, I really want to write some psychological overanalyses of a few Teen Titans from the Wolfman/Pérez run, but those are exhausting to put together, and I’d need to bother a couple of experts to double-check things before posting. So… those are sadly getting postponed for now 😭

Thank you again for the ask ✨

[terradni]

The Wilson’s the rasputins and the markovs. I want to draw that but also I don’t want to draw 9 people

1. Oldest brother. Biggest flop, sucks and not many people really GAF abt him.

2. Middle brother. The nicest guy ever so sweet so lovely, the one the family was created around pretty much. Also they are the tallest, I don’t make the rules

3. The youngest sister, light hair and the fandom favourite with a very traumatic childhood.

[21anon12]

[frenchfigs]

Some Joeyrae for the three people who get it

[21anon12]

As one of those three people, I thank you and bow to your generosity 💖

Now feed us more 🫠

[21anon12]

I need some people to understand

These pictures are both portraying rape.

And yes, in case we all needed the collective reminder: sexual abuse does not always wear the same face.

It can look terrified. It can look detached. It can look confused. It can look compliant. It can even look "seductive" when what you’re really looking at is a child performing what she has learned is expected of her.

Different expressions. Different coping mechanisms. Same violence.

I will never thank Other History of the DC Universe enough for saying it loud and clear

[21anon12]

"RULE #3: NO CREDIT AND NO FREEBIES.

YOU AREN'T SPREE KILLERS. YOU'RE SERVICE PROVIDERS.

IF YOU'RE GOOD AT SOMETHING, YOU SHOULD BE PAID FOR IT."

-Slade Wilson, unexpectedly delivering the strongest pro-freelancer union message in DC Comics

[horrorlesbians]

after you read the poem “the woman dies” a lot of media makes you mad

[horrorlesbians]

Excerpts from The Woman Dies by Aoko Matsuda

[21anon12]

And so, the woman dies.

The woman dies so the man can be sad about it.

The woman dies so the man can suffer.

She dies to give him a destiny.

Dies so he can fall to the dark side.

Dies so he can lament her death.

As he stands there, brimming with grief, brimming with life, the woman lies there in silence.

[...]

The woman is raped.

She is raped so that the man can be angry about it.

She is raped to spark his vengeful spirit.

She is raped so the man can look to the sky and howl in agony.

[...] Raped to bring about real action.

Raped so the bad guy can be slowly but surely hunted down.

[...] Even we realize that this is a terrible thing to happen.

We swallow nervously.

[21anon12]

Okay, so…

I found someone who seems to be just as obsessed with the Markov siblings as I am.

Naturally, my first thought was:

HELLO HAVE YOU READ MY FICS DID YOU LIKE THEM PLEASE FILL OUT THIS SURVEY.

But that would be weird and straight up author spam, so instead I’ll just lurk in the bushes and vibrate intensely 😭

[elektrastat]

who’s a worse father ? slade or fire lord ozai ?

[21anon12]

Mmh... super quickly without thinking too much about it. Might think about it more and change my mind.

Ozai is worse because he straight up hated his son. He says he burned Zuko to teach him respect, but the thing is he hated how weak he seemed (I have this memory of him saying how embarassed he was when they thought he was a non bender, but I can't remember the source) and always favoured Azula openly.

Even though Slade ended up abusing and/or hurting every single one of his kids, he really thought he loved his family the entire time.

Which doesn't mean I see him as any less monstrous, just that being openly hateful while abusing someone is maybe 0.00001% worse than beliving you're doing well while abusing someone.

[warrior-of-storms]

sigh.... another day, another fanfic timeline misconception...

PSA: Deathstroke was invented in 1980, when Dick was 18-19. Starfire was also invented in 1980, just barely before Slade. Slade's major beef within the NTT team was with Gar, not Dick, for the first several years of his existence as a character.

Thanks for coming to another Warrior Timeline TED Talk 🫶

[kingsl3y7530]

reasons I should replace the gen ai stuff

i can make a shitty image

i use way less water

i can write

i can make characters in like 20 minutes

i can give you a recipe that wont work

i accept prompts too I guess

my names way cooler. why use chatgpt when you can use Kingsley sounds way awesomer right

[starlitorchids]

hi kingsleygpt can you please generate a image of tara markov killing slade wilson 🙏

[kingsl3y7530]

watch the fuck out picasso

[starlitorchids]

this gave me the strength to carry on in life, thank you i shall carry this in my pocket for the rest of my days

[21anon12]

Very poor choice of words...

A few days ago, @arabfig and I were talking about Raven (and the disasters of lower back tattoo Raven & purple hair Raven)

Then this happened:

I swear I meant this:

[harlzquinnzell]

I saw this on Instagram…since when is Terra ii given a religion?

I do think the royal family was some kind of religious but I feel like this is so specific. Like was this a guess?? Idk. It also said daredevil is catholic and that one’s true but this??? Idk thoughts??

[21anon12]

Okay, this one’s interesting because it’s either a headcanon or just me reading way too much into details that probably weren’t meant to mean anything.

But I refuse to let seventeen years spent in church go to waste.

So: Markovia.

When Brion is crowned king in Outsiders vol. 1 #26, we see what looks very much like a Catholic bishop officiating.

(With incredibly cool sunglasses, I must add)

Then, in Outsiders vol. 2 #24, we have a priest officiating Brion’s wedding to Denise Howard.

Now, this priest is wearing the standard black cassock with white clerical collar, which could suggest either Catholic or Anglican inspiration.

(Even though he really should be fully vested in white for a sacramental Mass. That is the freaking king getting married. Put some respect on the liturgy)

So, up to this point, we have decent hints that Markovian royalty is Christian. Most likely Catholic, or possibly some kind of "Markovian Anglicanism".

Now let’s move to Last Will and Testament.

There are entire pages of Brion literally taking confession in what looks like a Catholic church.

And that matters, because confession (or penance) is a sacrament in Catholicism and a sacred mystery in Orthodoxy. Which means Brion must either be one of the two, or at the very least have been raised in one of those traditions.

Fun Fact: Brion, dear, you can NOT confess a sin before it is committed, there are entire medieval exempla (+people who have been excommunicated) for that.

Bonus point: we also see a Bible belonging to Gar Logan in that same confessional.

EDIT: I totally forgot they literally show Baby Gregor’s Christening! (Gregor II is Gregor and Ilona's son, so Brion and Tara's nephew)

Now, Markovia has often been vaguely coded as Eastern European (even though geographically speaking it is basically Belgian Luxembourg if we go by BatO #1), so Orthodoxy could feel plausible.

Which might explain the whole confessional choice there.

But Tara? Religious?

Honestly, I’ve never seen her do anything that even vaguely suggests religious practice, so I’m leaning toward no.

Unless we count that one time Evil Gar was about to eat Terra II and she went:

“omygodohmygodohmygod”

...

You know what? To be fair, that's still technically a prayer.

[cobalt-knave]

Tara Markov being resurrected by the geo-force (the force, not the guy), and her return being so utterly destructive it leaves sinkholes in its wake...

[harlzquinnzell]

Wait this thought makes me want to write holy shit. someone who can actually write i need a devastating fic that will make me cry and this as the plot

[cobalt-knave]

Completely canon compliant by the way! :D

Here's Brion who has the same powers/power source as Tara:

(Batman and the Outsiders 1-2 by Mike W. Barr with art by Jim Aparo)

[21anon12]

[21anon12]

Umh. Okay, so...

You know how The past will come back to bite you in the ass ended?

The whole Kiss me goodnight, Lieutenant Colonel thing?

I might be working on something.

Tara making one catastrophically stupid decision, Slade refusing to stay dead like the inconsiderate asshole he is, the Titans collectively discovering that "we'll deal with it later" is not, in fact, a legal defense, the Justice League inventing new and exciting human rights violations, Amanda Waller being Amanda Waller, Brion redefining the word diplomacy in ways that concern several international treaties, and everyone's mental health deteriorating at a medically fascinating pace.

You know.

✨️A happy ending✨️

See ya!