Jae hadn’t meant for Teddy to actually answer the call - he’d been staring at the all button for hours trying to decide whether or not it was a good idea to actually press the button. His brain had done it subconsciously and here he was now, stuck trying to create a situation that he didn’t know how to deal with int he first place. He didn’t know what he’d been expecting Teddy to look like or sound like when he answered the call… but the broken hello quickly got to him and Jae’s eyes teared up almost automatically causing him to look down and away from the screen.
He’d thought that maybe. Just maybe. If Teddy was enjoying himself in Australia he could get used to the idea of having someone in the group other than him. Afterall - despite Second Star only having been together for a year and a half, they’d trained together for at least three years prior to their debut. All the boys in the current and former line up were like family to him. But this just felt wrong, Teddy having taking a break and then basically forced out of the band by the company’s replacement. And it wasn’t that they didn’t like the new guy, and that made it ten times worse. Because he didn’t have anyone to fuck at or blame for this. Teddy had taken a leave for his own good, Kyung had joined the band so that they could keep going, the company had put Kyung in the band to save them because Teddy hadn’t said how long he’d be gone.
So who was he supposed to blame for causing all the pain that they were all going through right now?
Teddy’s laugh cut deep. The pure flashood that stood behind it hit Jae in the stomach like a fury of knives being shot up through is gut. And the sob that had been stuck in his through managed to work it’s way out before he managed to shut himself up again. He couldn’t just break down infront of Teddy. He was their leader. He was supposed to be strong. “N-Nah man, I know you’re having a great time.” he managed to get out, a small faked smile on his lips as he glanced up for a moment trying to make the words seem more convincing despite the tears running down his cheeks. “All the Austrialin Starlights probably tryin’ to get that D right?” he tried to joke. But he ended up having to look down again, covering his mouth to muffle the sound of crying that his body wanted to let out.
His body was beginning to shake, He gripped the counter top with one hand trying to keep himself steady but it wasn’t working. “The new guy’s alright…. his name is Lu Kyungin you actually probably saw him around once or twice at the company… plays ‘ight. But it’s not quite our sound, I du’know Hyunwoo and Siwan say he needs more practice. I don’t think so… I think he’s just not… if we want soungs to sound right we gotta right them with him in mind instead of you. These songs were made for our sound for… you’re our sound. So of course they’re not going to sound quite right with him playin’.”
“N-Nah man, I know you’re having a great time.” jae says.
— no, it’s been terrible here.
“my parens says hi.” teddy says
they’re dead, dammit teddy, how long you’re going to keep a secret from them?
“Ha ha” he says, deadpan. “funny, jae, as always – but yeah, just like you said.” proud is evident in his voice when he replies jae’s statement.
the name of kyungin – if heart was made from a glass, his heart would probably be shattered into million pieces because he know kyungin. he met him several times back then; not that they’re close or anything – but they’re acquintance. as much as teddy hate the fact he is, too, knows who kyungin is.
“so you like him, huh?” teddy scoffs. no he is not suppose to scoff like that, he is not suppose to retort something ambiguous. he is not suppose to – to feel angry at jae. but teddy feels like he is being replaced and none of them is really trying to ask teddy anything or defend them or anything. teddy’s heart want to scream traitor to jae and hang up the phone but it will hurt more for both of them and his mind tells him to stay calm and think. because he is not the only one who is hurting.
“siwan and hyunwoo is right. they’re always right. all he need to do is practice and that’s all.”
silent. there’s nothing but silence and teddy’s breath. ( there’s a hint of frustration from it too )
“just be easy on him. he is second star maknae now. you need to take care of him. guide him to the greater good.”
and please don’t forget about me.
“i’m ok with that. with the company’s decision. with your decision. second star is second star with or —”
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