Dear D,
It’s been a while... The last couple of months have been horrid to say the least. I’ve been abused and abandoned, mainly by others but at one point even myself. David tries his best to be a good friend and be here for me, but there’s only so much that he can do. Even so, he’s moving away to go live with you again. I’m sure that must be nice for you since you said yes. You two have been together longer than any other relationship any one of us has had.
I’m laying here stuck in my mind, sleepless and lonely when you creeped in. Memories of us rush in and I can’t help but smile remembering the last time I saw you. It was the three of us, you, david, and I, drunkenly telling stories and playing with swords, at one point I think we all started to dance too! It was a good night, but the thing that stood out most was the way you looked at me. It was that look that tugs at my heart, the one that shows me you still care somewhere. I love that look, it’s the only thing that makes my heart flutter with excitement, the only thing that reminds me that I’m alive. Through all the years and all the troubles, every now and again you’ll still text me to make sure I’m okay. Every one of those texts fills me with happiness. I know things have changed, and we’ve grown apart, but you will always have a piece of me. I’ve tried so hard to give that piece away, to numb it, to have someone replace it, but now I can’t imagine being without it. I don’t regret one thing in my life, not even loving you. And if I’m totally honest, it was the best mistake I ever made.
I’m forever yours, and always thinking of you....
Love, J
